Nyeh.

you.moron. zombie and watever gore creatures created.
I don't know who i'm cursing at...maybe...somebody.....no...I'm sorry...AAARRRGGHHH!!!! WATEVER!!!

I hate myself. fcuk.
I'm falling down....down...Nyeh. bleh.Arh.. fcuk

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i hate myself.nyeh. bleh.

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ok. ok. i suck. My homework still tons of it not done. shit. how to finish? No time!!! Arrgghh.....I got to finish it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Man... its always because of band. band. band. Everyday there's band prac. I'm really getting stressed now. Now that I have second instrument...the percussion that it...ah!!!!!!!!! Its really stressing... I have to teach the basses(my first section) juniors on the new pieces...Then i still have to learn my percussive strokes and my bass drum strokes. Then there's also the percussion juniors who doesn't know how to play the new pieces....Then there's the missing pieces problem that i haven't solve yet..........There's ssooo many problems in band....Ok...nvm.. I'll take it as a challenge. Then there's my playing of the bass drum. It was damn terrible...Mr Wong kept shouting at me....Well, I felt embarrased getting shouted at from the conductor in front the whole band.....haiz...

oohh ya.. I'll be away...hols...in malaysia...back on wed...
bla..bla...humans
I'm out of here.

ehiow..

ehiow..ehiow... A zillion things had happened as it had been a long time since i logged in. Been away for camp and stuff like that.... but today was a rollercoaster ride for me.... And i just found out something and i'm biting my tongue now (H&%)&*% likes a girl...man..I'm crying my hearts out!!! UWAH!!!)...Shit.

wateva. I just donno where to start...too many things going through my mind rite now. damn.
ok...I'll start with the camp...
The camp was terrific man.... I get to know frens...who are totally great..even though they are much younger then me. And I get to lead man...show my leadership skills arh...hahaha..like real...The expression nite was great..indian dance cum love story was my group performance...then aft that..mass dance...hahaha... i dance like shit but i still like dancing! hahahaha...Then got mass dance whenever we were free... hahahaha... in the canteen while cleaning oso dance!! hahaha...(someone's eyes bulged when saw me dance with a guy! like i care... go to hell...!) hahaha...Then there's the camp cook class...hahaha... I burnt my arm while my grp member got a huge cut on her finger... hehehe...fun it was but i had to miss on alot of things as there's band prac for balloon festival...Yarh.. balloon festival was damn great man!! hahahaha...The whole band danced!!! Can u imagine that??? Even see soon...hahahaha...ok...bands frm all over singapore gather in sentosa at siloso beach to play band music together, wear balloon hats, dance and enjoy!!! but real tiring arh.. the whole day at beach marching then come back still got camp...wah...the tiredness...man..My legs feel as if it can go off any moment at that time. but the festival, it rowks!!

Then come back home i did my homework as much as i can...but hahaha.. watch tv arh...eh now kids central shows shows which are very good u noe...ooppss.. alamak...I watch kids central....nvm...I'm still a kid wat. Then today in the morning...yeah.. at last i did it, hiq, ..happy??man..I feel weird...like bald..naked.. and numb....AND GUILTY TO MUM!!! aarrhh i hate myself... i hate u shaheera. Then aft i did it mum said she wanted to look at my legs cos of my lebam. Man...I was freaking out...I said it was okay oredi and i'm in a rush... so i cabut like lightning arh...fehw..wat a close shave...I must not let ppl look at my legs...This hard especially with my school skirt...haiz.. i guess i have to tell her no matter wat rite..That will be my doom day man...She'll pull my hair bald...(since i want it bald ssooo much) Then aft that i got band prac but I plan with farah amanda and mark to watch a movie...then i cabut band arh... hahaha... but mark didn't make it..(which was good, menyibuk jer si cowok nie) Then we watch premonition...scary seh...Then i and farah go BK eat...walk2 in TM then went home... TWO gigantic mistakes i made to mum... mum.. i'm real sorry... :( I really hope u'll forgive me. First i didn't tell her I went to movie and secondly I......(I don't want to disclose here but oredi written indirectly)man.. i donno if i can sleep but I have band prac tomolo...copy the stupid scores larh...wateva. I still hate myself. Shaheera hates shaheera.

ardios folks. Bye.