Sunday, December 31, 2006

yay!! hari raya is here again!! haha..good food, spend time with family and watch tv!!! syiok ah!

school's starting in a few days time. kinda nervous for the orientation though. just hope i wont feel left out. saw the leaked mass dance. and it was nice!! :) on thurs will be the first band prac at night. i dunno how to tell mum. sure she will blow her top. nah, i wont think abt it now. it'll make me depress only. i'm gonna enjoy wat's let of the hols. and i still havent finish studying dr lee's 22 musical concepts!! die larh.. tonight must study..haha..

i still havent finish the k-drama, a love to kill, shamil keep using the com larh.. till i cant use it. damn.. rain so hot. hahahahaha..

tata..

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

hhmm.. quite happy but quite sad.

mum doesnt speak to me.. she barks at me. she nvr look at me, she glares at me. i'll just try to bear with it as long as i can take it.. keep trying to demoralise me.. say me what.. erm.. big butt, fat, blur queen la, cant be trusted la.. what the hell. i dont give a shit la!!!

then at tamp mall, saw ppl that i dont wanna see. ever again! b'cos i feel guilty towards him. i broke his heart and he left me just like that. i didnt get the chance to apolagise. damn.. untill now. luckily i didnt get in tpjc. he's in there. whatever.. but i dont think he saw me just now. i'm pretty positive.

but then.. today buy new shoes! and stationary.. and new socks.. wah.. so long since i buy anything.. somemore the shoes is very expensive..$103!!! hehehe.. use ang pow money frm hari raya la.. atlast! i get to shop!!!!!!! ahahahahahaa.. i'm so happy get to shop..

a few more days and i'll be starting school in ac.. woah.. i cant believe it man..i'm in jc? i'm so old. whatever. o levels results is giving me sleepless nights. and i have weird dreams. darn weird. and embarssing. hhmm.. i'll think first if i wanna say it here.. anyway.. i wanna watch the k-drama at youtube.. a love to kill.. woah.. syiok man.. rain bi.. so cute. hehehe.

till here. tata.

Saturday, December 23, 2006

hhmm.. i'm just passing by.. so i stopped to say hello.
but sadly.. my hellos were replied with ...hateful looks and unwelcomed voices.
so.. dont worry, i'll leave soon after i've said my hellos and good byes.

numbed by all the looks.. i dont give a shit. i'll just forget abt it.

forget abt it.

Thursday, December 21, 2006



gorgeous rite?
haha.. oh.. i'll miss these ppl badly

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

i feel so angry.

ssooo very angry. now, some more, listening to ammerland.. i feel like crying.ergh.

aaaaarrrrrgggggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, December 18, 2006

i suck. i'm the worst eupho player. acj or mj? i cant made up my mind. i'm confuse and angry.

let the earth open up and swallow me.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (starts pulling hair)

tata.

Friday, December 15, 2006

i got into meridian JC then i changed to acjc. Should i be happy? i dont know.. i'm confuse btw which to choose. mummy really wants me to go mj but i'm oredi tied dwn wif acj.. how..? what's more is the dist of the jc frm home. mj isfreakng near and acj is freaking far la.. haiz.. i dont know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but ultimately its the o levels that is important. haiz.. now i'm having paranoia frm the o level results.. skali.. i get like 25 points for my L1R4.. DIE!!! aahh!!!

oh man.. and i'm so tired. frm band pracs.. but it was kinda fun..lols

i'll stop here. tata.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

today's band prac is so tiring..hhmm.. i'll need to buck up alot, improve. die la.hesh.. my playing superbly rusty aft so long since the last time i had intensive sectionals. its ages ago man.
and i'm so nervous abt the PAE results. hmm.. if i dont get in ac.. wat should i do? Accept the job offers and start working my ass off? hah..
i've decided to start running again.. since like.. hhmm.. how long has it been? 2 months i guess.. i stopped running. anyway, it'll pass the time. since i have lots of time in my hands. cant believe i'm wasting my life away like this. so i guess i'll start reading lots of books, start doddling and writing sajak (poems in malay)again. hesh.. i'm so bored..

i'll end it here.toddles. oh ya.. i've got the band farewell party pics that we took at the bus stop.. haha.. i'll post it here.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

ladadida

ok.. what did i talked abt..? oh ya.. its love.. love has ceased to exist in this world. duh.. look arnd ya.

oh well.. i read this book, tells abt ppl living in haiti. they are freaking SUFFERING man!!! seriously i wanna do something. but i dunno what i should do to help them. actually its not only this book that makes me feel this way. there were other instances since like... last 2 years. Seriously i feel bad abt this. i feel so guilty. like, here we are enjoying lives while they have to suffer.( if thats the case, then what right have we got to be enjoying ourselves?) and look at how some ppl treat them. show them some love la ppl! haiz. gosh i feel so guilty, sympathy for them and disgusted at myself. how i wish i could help them. in any way.

we are so blessed.we've got enough food, clean water, a well furnished hse, family and frens who really care alot and a country so peaceful. we should really reflect ourselves if we are complaining for more.

haiz. i'll stop here.tata.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

it has cease to exist. dont ask me waht i'm refering it to. i'm just too disappointed.

Sunday, December 03, 2006

too bored to post anything. i'll say something when there's anything happening..
ta.