economics blues

this iktiraf song never fail to bring me to tears and realise the greatness of God.

econs test in a few hours time.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

haiiiizzzzzzzz

i need food. chocolates and coffee.

NOW.

i think we really gotta buck up people. haiz. that, especially apply to me.
and i seriously feel that the changes in the qm room system is partly because of my blunder that day. i dont like it. and i still feel darn guilty abt it!
and the puncuality issue is... ergh.. whatever.

now, now. went for dentist check up last thurs. and guess what, due to my surgery, i may not be able to perform in swiss. and i wont be playing for VCH concert either. i am so sad and aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh about this. well, the VCH concert is confirm i guess.

i'll just pray to God that i'll recover fast.

oh my god econs test like 2 days more!! i am so nervous! aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh.

haiizzzzzzzzzzzzz

chiao la.

stupid

sometimes, i just be plain freaking stupid and blur block like sotong causing people trouble and all. this is one of those times when i seriously hate myself so much. i cause trouble and other people have to take the blame. scold me. hit me. i feel like saying the f word la. i am so angry with myself. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

i feel like i've done a zillion wrong things. just whats wrong with me? why am i behaving like this?
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

i wanna stab at something to release all these emotions.

chiao.

so how?

ok, my bad.. i've learnt my lesson. when you are sick, stay at home and rest. i thought i could still go on for band prac on sat when i am already feverish on fri. and so.. on sat, i cant even play my tuning note without feeling breatheless. i was shoo-ed from practicing and had to sit at LT 4 and watch them play paganini. although i was half asleep all the way, i could hear them play. and i was awed! it sounded damn nice! i'll say better than the recording that i had. seriously. even dr lee said they played beautifully that day. wahhh.. if we continue on playing like that and improving, the gold in switz will be ours man! haha.

i cant wait to get well soon and start studying properly again. gahhh. each time i take my medicines, i'll fall asleep 'cos its the kind of medicine which makes you sleep.but if i dont take, i'll have to suffer this sickness. so how? both situation disallow me from studying and concentrating properly. so how?how, how, how???? should i go to school? if i dont, i'll miss alot of lessons. but if i go, i may get worse. so how?

Chipmunks and mouthpieces

hahahaha freaking funny. they use mouthpiece only u know. hahahaha

Randomness

i am just plain lazy to blog now or felt too tired. ah.. i need brain boosters and energy supplements. i feel sssoo tiredddddddd. and sick, stupid phlegm.

schools getting more hectic and i'm trying to keep up. with band almost everyday, each time, by the time i reach home i'll be so tired, i'll just fall asleep on my study table and ended up not finishing a single thing. like yesterday night when i am supposed to finish my malay lit homework. arghhhhhhhhh. i'm so angry with myself. ah.. i can play my armenian dances solo parts already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yessaaaaaaaaaa!

i still cant foeget the joke that divinia cracked during econs. hahaha.
divi: sir, is kfc considered an inferior good or a normal good?
mr mash: erm... (sir in his thinking mode) usually it is a normal good..
divi: no, sir, its finger likin good sir!
HAHAHAHAHA freaking funnyyyyyyyyy

awwws and nicole has flew off to australia. good bye friend, i'll miss u. aaahhh so saddddddd.

now i know why..i've got the answer, why some people finds it so difficult to show that they love or care someone or just the deep feelings that u feel. hehe. now i knowww... hhmmm...

made testube thingy with my class. quite fun la. i made one which is rainbow coloured. sounds easy yeah.. u needs lots of patience to mix the right amount of colours. that special tube will be for mr lau. he deserves it. :)
okies, banding time! wwwwwwwweeeeeee!!!!!!

chiao.

hate love love hate

i love u but sometimes.. i hate u.

i know i shouldnt feel this way.

i just cant help it.

i dont want to fight with u anymore.

please, let it go.

aahh.

chiao

The start of homework piling up, up, up and away!!

awww, i'm on cloud nine now.. shant tell anybody about this! HEHEHE. isnt it amazing how a smile can make your day...


and,and, thank u seha for the help. :) i'll give u back what i owe you 'cos i know your life is not any easier than mine.

i dont like tuesdays because my timetable has 1 hour break every few periods. and then there's swim PE next week. how i hate wearing that stupid swimsuit. darn.. after that rush for band prac.. tsk.. wet hair and all. oh well, the only egg-citing thing on tues is band prac. haha.

wed is awesome! only 2 lessons. but but but. with mass pe and i survived! cool seh..

thurs is lectures and lectures and more lectures. by 1.30pm, my brain juices were sucked dry. what with GP mass media and geog mass movement. mass, mass, massively overwhelmed by the workload! aahhhhhhhhhhh. but i end early la. yay! and edwin's birthday celebration. the fed ups delivery, the tau pok-ing and euphonium prestige label made me feel so tickled. oh yes, not forgeting the disney princess balloon! ahahahahaha. 'congratulations, its your birthday today! happy birthday to you.. bla, bla...' hahahaha, oh man. band was quite bad, dr lee was in a bad mood and started scolding everybody.

by fri, i just want my sleep. and i gym-ed! yessa!

now, time to tackle the never-ending pile of homework. way to go!


ta rah!
chiao.

aaahhhhhhhhhhhh

3 consecutive days of school and banding makes me go aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY EDWIN! :))))))))))))))))))))))

a whole load of stuff going on. i feel so tired.

damn..

geog tutorial mass movement

human geog lect 7

econs macro tutorial A

econs test in 2 weeks time

H2 malay compo.

Analysis of chapter 5,6,7

math practice question no 8,9,10.

GP mass media essay.

WOW. AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

ok, chill. only the second week of school.

chiao.

living

live the life u love

love the life u live.

think positive

think positive

think positive.

ah, again,my mouth got the better of me.

think positive.

deep, deepa, toodeep, verydeep, deepy!

ah, its the second day in school and i felt really sleepy in the morning. my timetable is quite satisfying this year, compared to last year. no more NL classrooms! and climbing up the stairs early in the morn after assembly to get to the hall. haha. yay! and i have tons of homework already la. and the teachers keep reminding us of As. ahhhhhhhhhhh a levels? fun o rama fund raising getting started. so is my class! and i still have to sell the coupons!


deep, deepy, deepa. toodeep! HAHAHA.

ah, ok la, back to work la.

chiao.

aloha 2008,byeee 2007!!!

ah, KL is super duper uber freaking fun. hehehehehe.i am so fat now. gawd, i think i wont be able to do PE anymore. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i ate and ate and ate and ate. but mostly i ate the food that i cant eat here in sg like subway, pretzels and gelato and fish and co and erm.. i cant remember what i ate... yummmmmmmmmm....... will post pics here when i feel like it. haha. and sorry people, i didnt get u guys anything because i didnt shop at all except for food.

homework at last done! except that econs online learning where the system always cock up. stupid.

i cant wait for school. whats in store for me in 2008? i feel kinda excited but nervous as well. i know there will be alot of obstacles for me. there will be school to cope with, homework, tests, prelims and a's. then there's band overseas competition where i have to work really hard. this one, i really gotta make sure i really improve because i want to be part of making acband proud, since i've missed the chance this year.. oh well, dont mention this or i'll turn into a waterfall. and concerts too, march muse and june concert. then theres ac fun-o-rama. through this,i really hope i can forge deeper friendship with my classmates, becuase i dont want to waste my 2 years with aa3 just like that. and mcs drama production. plus dikir performances. ouch. i'll be super busy. and i need to conquer a levels. a levels. i hope GOD save me from that.

it felt like it was just yesterday that i first came into ac. i'm feeling nostalgic here.. hahaha. i didnt expect i'll get in ac, seriously. and i didnt think about ac or acband at all before o levels. i even had a bad impression of ac schools. basically i dont like the people because they are arrogant. but on the contary, i'm wrong. untill i came for tune-in. and i was there all along. along the way i have learnt to love acjc and acband. i was darn scared i couldnt get in. furthermore, mum dont like me being in ac. but i got through. first 3 months was so fun. my og were great.

they made me feel at ease.

then its aa5. gawd, i wouldnt trade them for anything. i love them so much. i love my subject combi. hist, art and econs h2 and h1 math. too bad i cant take that combi anymore. especially art. hhmm... when i was in sec 4, my art teacher offered me to take o level art even though its quite late compared to other people, but the principal said no as i already have higher malay and dnt to cope with. wth. i was feeling so sad. tsk. maybe i'm just destined not to learn art. band was quite crazy. i was struggling with festive overture. the running notes and the super high A and Bb note that was in that piece. but i guess i manage to do it. its a struggle,no doubt. i saw other j1s struggle too. i've never practised so hard in my life for band before. but its worth it.

o levels results came and i.. oh well, cut it short i didnt do well as i wanted to. i cried like nobody's business. untill the ex-seniors frm damai band had to console me. haha. mum was puzzled as to why i'm crying since i did ok. i was seriously worried i wouldnt get into ac again. i was so afraid, i cried again. haha. i remember that day there's sectionals. and i have no mood. edwin has no mood too b'cos the mep teacher said something that made him angry and amirah thought of cancelling it too. i felt sad too, i wont be able to meet my friends anymore as some of them had been transfered out. hhmm.. i miss them. then i

meet aa3. i wasnt too happy. i just dont like their bimbotic and girly ways. i tried to adapt to them and at the same time the hectic schedules, band practices, homework, tests and what with family too. yes, i was struggling. mum was constantly nagging at me for sleeping so late. and i keep fighting with her. oh well. march muse came and i was so nervous. i still cant believe i performed on esplanade. not once but thrice this year. wow. then syf auditions. it still gives me the chills and i still remember the moments vividly. for those who stood by my side. thank u. i will remember what u did and everything that u said. especially my section. :) the days after that were quite horrible. i couldnt face the band members. basically i felt devastated. but yeah thats not the end of the world. i try to think positively and i try to help them whenever i can. afterall, its for the band's sake. syf came. 11 may 2007. it was a horrible week. training for nafa was like.. ahh.. i felt soo drained. then it was the common test week. so i had very little sleep. i studied geog the day before and i couldnt answer a single question. i felt so horrible. i cried again. man.. how many times did i broke down? and i got scolded by ms sng during the syf itself. i cant believe acband gwh. its surreal. i felt happy but sad. dunno la. mixed emotions. and my girlfriends planned a surprise birthday bash at seoul garden. i broke down again la. tsk.. i cry alot. its like the worst birthday i had in my whole life but its sweet at the same time.

after that, its scheherazede. things got better as i try to improve myself. wow, all those double and triple tonging..

before i realise it, i'm on the train to negeri sembilan with the mcs peeps. hehe. so much fun and we surely bonded. mcs drama too. hahaha. then terms. well, it was totally failure for me. expected it la. after that i vowed to myself that i will not fail promos.

then the later half of 2007 was a blur. basically i was fighting with my emotions. yeah,coping to let go of...:) let me keep this to myself. i suddenly realise that the j2s had step down and i sure felt the loss. we sounded different, hollow i guess. i dont know. and then life continues on with more banding. i guess we have grown quite close as a batch. promos coming and i was studying like i never studied before. but now i can say i could have work harder. i was determined like crazy to overcome promos. and yeah, i did! but the moments mounting to the results was nerve wrecking. i cried again. tsk. again. promos over christmas concert and band fest. well, great concert, i made new friends. and learnt some things.

2007 sure has thought me some things. about people. about emotions. about life. but it has left me with questions too. alot of them which i know i will discover if i'm patient enough.

now, good bye 2007. heloo 2008!

i pray to god u give me the strength i need to carry on.

i am a j2? wow. HEHEHEHE.

chiao.