Exams...exams..

Exams are nearing and i still haven't start my revision...man....I must get 75% of my subjects A1...AArrrgghhh!!!!!!I really have to concentrate on my studies.... But kind of hard actually...hehehe...Well, on last fri..went to airportand study physics wif hiq and khai...hahhahaah...real havoc...I just truly wish the other 2 were wf us..like old times...
Ahhh...watever...

Buzzing off...Today got maulid rasul...

Buzz....

This was taken last year...in the music room..hehehe...posing like wat ah..basses sect...hahahaha..

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My basses section...Crazy...hahahaa.....frm right...Solomon,front, Nadirah, back Shi Ying, See Soon and on your furtherest left is me!!! hehehe...Ok...the back are my juniors...Frm left, Gavin, Syazarwan and Muzaki. hehehe...I posed not minding my skirt...ooppsss! Luckily...you see all black...hehehehe..:)

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I'm high...

I'M GOING CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously....I realised that 'it' lives i the same block as me!!! Can u belive it??? OOhhh MMyyy GGGooddd!!!! I can't believe it! Seriously... no wonder he's sssooo fucking familiar!!! ooppsss soree...for that crude remark... Then in school keep seeing him...During recess...Aft school...and he looked at me!!!! hehehehe....Then aft band too....and he looked at me again!!! Uuggghhh!!!! I'm being gross now....stop it shaheera ...u're a disgusting, pathetic fatty big butt old auntie....You don't deserve such pleasures in life.... :( Then went to tuition and i asked farah if she knows any damai guy frm our block and she said him...So farah asked what's up with him...but i didn't tell her untill we were about to go home. That day i became crazy me again. Donno why...hahahahaha....there i go again....hhehehehe...Farah laughed like shit when i told her the truth...aaarrghhh!!!! Then went tm....Was about to go home....then...suddenly...I SAW H#*%^#%^#%^#*%^!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I and Farah screamed and sceamed in the mall when we saw him....hahahahahaha.........My hands practically went all shivery, cold and clamy......Farah insisted we followed him but i was reluctant but folloed anyway ';cos i still want to see him.We followed untill he went in to eat in mac's. But we didn't follow 'cos 9.35 pm oredi... Need to go home. So sadly...two long lost kindered souls went apart their own ways...haiz...That night me and farah couldn't sleep. I lay in my bed....awake for a long time... OK!!!BACK TO REALITY!!!!

This week has been ssooo high for me...Like as if I had taken drugs....Never will i take drugs...They disgust me to the core...Any way...My emaths test, chem, bio was a big total mess...Donno wats got into me. I vowed to go to mjc. My hml 'o's are round the corner...I guess the band pracs were pulling my energy level down. And on Wed, 13 april, we went to Singapore Conference hall For our SYF......It was a lifetime experience.....I, the freak king didn't freak out on the stage!!!! I've succeded!!!Ok, that's the best part...but i did some big, gigantic, enormous mistake....I don't wanna say...its a mess...Then...when the moment of truth was about to come...I really felt a feeling that i had never expected to be present...I felt that the band was really united....we hold hands together and i mean the whole band....as we waited for the moment of truth...Sincerely I thought that we would get bronze or COP. But we managed to attain a silver... Nah...my target were gold..But it didn't happen...nvrm..i'm still happy with the results...I screamed and screamed when we heard the results...Good gracious...the feeling was heart throbbing...In the bus we took pictures....Reached school and still taking pictures....hahaha...I posed like a mad girl...Donno wat's got into me...hehehehe... Then fri...photo taking...I'll show u our band u and my section...

Buzzzing offf....
bbuuzzzz eera..

LoL

Lol....I'm back...again.. In school hours even...hahaha...with 4t1 i the midst... Lol... so noisy... but i'm in pieces...physics test in a moment... but i don even care to study... shit ... must study... but my head in a mess... later el oral..band...higher malay... how am i going to go to three places at the same time???? Divide myself in 3??? great... real great... physics test in jiffy... I'm coing!!!!!!!!!!

buzzing off... buzzzz...

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I'm high this week totally...saw 'it' a few times this week and i become crazy me again...but still can't forget h......Grrrr.....i hate myself...But i'm still happy....hahahaha.....Got lots of tests...new lamo teacher for bio....hiaz...how to pass...sure to fail...had speech day....hehehehe.....saw 'it' again....Then had band...This is the best part....Band had improved a lot...Sr and Eb was really nice when we played together. Then Mr Tan and Miss Lee went in to givesome motivation and support for us. But I still haven't even started my homework!!!!

SYF is 2 days more to go...and i need to focus!!! Buzzz offf....need to do my work..

Long time since i've drawn...but lurrvv abstract!!

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Back from camp!!!

Camp was sssosooooo great!!! I will never be able to forget my memories there!! The instructor, friends and what we did together as a group....I'll miss them....ooohhhh.... hahaha...I went in mud and got cuts and bruises..went for night walk and sang songs while walking...Went to the seaside and watch the night sky....sooo beautiful....Had delicious maels together, did our duties. The next day, did inisiatif and team-building games. Had to squeezeinto a small canvas together....hahaha...like tunas. Practised our cheers and item for that night then went for river challenge! Had to get into the pond filled with TADPOLES!!!! GROSSSS!!!!! Then we played the game....Then we did mass bathing...hhehehee...Then campfire night!!!! Best of all. Can't describe it....Then we had disco!!! No strings attched...I became the wildest me i've had ever done....danced and danced....with girls, boys...whoever... Then supper and sleeping time... Next morning....pack the tents and did duities...lucklyily no washing toilets!! Then the group had some private time with Jeremy...Take group photos, cheers and some bidding goodbyes...and we're off while singing the sarimbun song....

haiz...I'll cheerish this part of my life.....

Now...back to reality!!! The bahas yesterday was a flop!! Hhahaha....watever...it was an experienced for me though...

life's like that!
hahahahaha!!!!!

Lar...lar...lar....

Ages since I wrote in ...I'm fucking busy all day long even no time to pamper myself with food but ah...this is my life...Any way...my camp is on wednesday!!! Yeah!! Then I still have to prepare for the Debate Berita Harian competiton....This is soooo....nerve racking!! Its on Saturday, the next day after my camp. Then i still have tests and exams and SYF to prepare with!!!!! And my 'o's are just round the corner....Die....How to cope??? SYF is just the next week after my competition!! 2 competitons in a row!!!! ...Die...

I'll buzz off...Need to focus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YEAH!!!

YEAH!!! It's the march holidays!!!....but still have to come to school....boring!!! On mon got maintainance, tues got NE learning journey then band outing, on wed D n T exhibition..., thurs and fri, band whole day..and most of all...tons of homework!!!! haiz...But this week, many things had happened...On mon...I went to my new tuition centre...very fun but the work the teacher gave was hard...on wednesday...I went to our school netball match instead of gong to higher malay!! Kah...kah..kah..!!!Then after that I went back to school in a taxi and have sectional with mr wong...hahahahha...mum was sooo annoyed when she got to know i went to band...but she still doesn't know i skipped higher malay!!! hahahaa!!! but if she were to know bout it...she'll blow her top off ah....hahahaha...Then rushed to tuition then went home at like about 10pm...hahaha...went gallavanting at TM! kah..kah..kah...!!! On thurs...came for sectional late; had to finish the 8 page essay about AIDS....boring! Then went for sectional and i got right for most of the parts....hhhhmmmm....that's a miracle...i didn't know i could do it...Then after that... I sectional in the band store with rizal, Qijun, y-y, Jean Kaen and see soon. I played a lot wrong notes...hhahaha...need more practice with the tempo. We played a lot old songs... it was fun... playing music...release stress...LOVE MUSIC!!! Then Friday got PE...hahaha...played basketball with the girls...and get to know bout them more...Then went to band. Sectional the whole day...boring seh...We managed to do most of the parts ah...Then i cabut band..I rushed back home and went for tuition but this time farah wasn't with me...boring seh...she went to Indonesia...Anyway... I still went gallavanting again and arrived home at 10pm. hahaha... mum even called saying she was worried that i did not arrived home early...watever!! I don care!! See how rebellious i am now...I'm scared i will hurt her feelings ...but anyway...I also have a say in my life not only her... I felt sick and took panadol and went to sleep straight away. Then today I woke up feeling giddy but had to force myself to go to school at 6.30am. Even when its school days i did not wake up this early....Anyway.. iwent to school and had sectional again...Mr Wong take only the trombones, horns and trumpets...BORING!!! from 7.30 to 2pm! Only sectional an nothing else!!! Siaw ah!!By the fourth hour...nothing was heard...all had been knocked out...We also felt very hungry and went for food treasure hunting....hahaha...We only managed to find an unopened bottled peach tea. And we drank it!!! Then the welfare went to give out some biscuits...and we, the piranahs made a dash for it but Melissa, the piranah tamer stopped us for our crave of food. So we were left to sectional again.. We felt tired and all of us went in hibernation state....hahahha....All of us practically slept!! We were sooo bored, tired and hungry that all of us slept together on the tables. But then our necks become stiff. Then the clarinets came in and joined us in the boredom quest... We played the SYF song and then it was time for combined band!!! Hhehehehe...soo..happy!!! At least there's something to do! Then magically we played well!! It was ssooo nice that i did not wanna go home!! but had to...then went gallvanting with aishah to Singapore expo. There's a popular sale and we went there...Then went to rumah nenek and sleep to my content...ahhh... sooo relaxing!!!kih..kih..kih...

and one more thing before i sign off....THANX!!! to iylia for your effort to help me.. It really touched me when u wanted to help me till like that. Now, i'm more confident of my myself....Thanx ssooo much! Only god can repay your noble kindness to me. May god bless u!!

long time no write...i'm sucklingly so tired...Just had cross country today in bedok reservoir..but i didn't run...the band performing. Even if i had run..there won't be any difference in the band's playing!! Even if i'm no more...no one would even notice....They tried to piss me off time and again...U all go and kiss my foot, butt and shit first ah before u want to piss me off!!!! suckers... Is my plaing that bad till i can't even play in syf??? ohh...i forgot!!! I'm just a walking statue who unfortunately could play the euphonium but sadly no music can come out...So..it doesn't qualify to go to syf!! Too bad....

There's common test every week...making me a walking zombie. And cik sham asking me why i had failed 2 tests...Only want me to get first in class but never appreciated or value my hard work. Never think how much slogging and sacrifice i had done...Shit!!! I had tried my best right?? Wat u want me to do?? Cheat in the tests is it?? Then mum didn't let me go to bintan for a social studies trip...it's only $125!!! And i'll be using my own money!! For goodness sake i don wanna use your money!!! The money in my bank account are all from the scholarships that i had won!! My own hard work!! Wat's wrong with that?? I'm not going there to enjoy, to study history!! For God's sake, I'm 15!!!!!!!!! Not 5 years old!!!!!!!!

Those suckers...I tried to think positive.... I tried to convince myself that u are doing this for the band's sake...but your actions totally contradicts with wat i thought... Wat is this?? When u play...u purposely play loudly so that all of them could hear how well u play..But when u all played wrong notes want to piss me off...u will not play so people hear SHAHEERA playing so ugly!! And i'll be accused of play badly... And mr wong..doesn't even noe my name... even when they need a librarian and i'm in front of me..they will not approach me....OOhhh...i forgot again.. I'm just a statue...

Unfortunately...this statue's ears are not yet deaf...and i'm not dumb...i'm just stupid... watch out suckers...

you noe wat...life sux!!

Fuh yo!! At last!! I managed to get a new template!! I experimented with it for the past 2 hrs!! hahaha..but still i haven't finished wif it yet soo...stay tuned....wwooohhooo!!!!

Its been quite sumtime since i write in this blog. My life had turned upside down. I donno why...Being a teenager sucks! So many probs! haizz...Studies..band...mum...family...shit... I hate crying! My grades are going down the drain, i just donno why. I just don't have the interest to study anymore...Wif khai sitting beside me babbling bout her stead...[make me feel pissed off cos i am thinking of him. I hate thinking of him!!!] Then at band..I hate those suckers...[u noe hu u r...suckers!], new sec ones are in...the sec two are still nuts at their music theory...me, just being an extra in the band...Then there's mum...For goodness sake i'm FIFTEEN!! not five years old! And i had never even been to bugis wif my frens!! Never in my life before!! She wants me to wat?? Rot in the house wif a book?? Shit!! I just don't get the freedom i deserved and need it...Or do i deserve it since i'll be failing my tests?? I think rot in house wif a book is better...Lately i've been cring alot...till my head and eyes ached....I hate crying...

This blog is making me crazy!! The image doesn't want to come out!! Its sssooooo UGLY!! I wanna change the template but i donno haw to...haizz...

All this were taken when we were celebrating kak wani and Imran's birthday. Soo...fun...the are ssoooo tantalisingly delicous!!! uummwahh!!

Aaww....sssoooo romantic....hehehehe.... 

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