poke poke

like the stupidest person on earth. me.

damn pissed.

its like so horrible to make fun of people's weaknesses and laugh at them, make them into a joke. its not funny. its not like they want to be like that. what if you are fat and your friends calls you fatso or roti pound like that. or if your hair is like damn bushy and curly and they liken you to mak hitam from the jerangkung movie? funny uh. but if its you then how will you feel? especially when the people who made you look so pathetic are your friends? your own damn fucking friends. then maybe they should never have been called friends in the first place right.

i cant help it if i am very blur, clumsy or weird. sometimes i wish i wasnt. maybe abit more smarter like the rest of my friends. then maybe people wont laugh at my stupidity, my clumsiness and maybe i wont get on people's nerves for being such a blur king kong. maybe i wont disappoint my family for not living up to their expectations. maybe i will be able to get better results and get easily into a real uni. maybe, i would have done better in band then maybe i will be able to join the rest in.... maybe then.. maybe-s. ah, shall stop here. dont want to re-account my life story.

but i'm not. so i shall stick to being me. accept it or just fuck off yea.

i've had my fair share of being poked at.

chiao.

decisions

green day's 21 guns is awesome.
i like white and sushi+ramen.
how random

i got another offer from rmit.
and i dont know which to choose! omg.
tmr must register already. howhowhow.

chiao.
oh transformers was unbelieveably good.

FINALLY

this is good!




but this is damn hilarious!


anyway. sim accepted me. yeyey! like finally man. and i cant wait for my contract to end. although that means an exponantial decline in my expenses and....heh. no more shoes. sigh. and sushi binging. but best of all, no more looking at pantat kuali's face! yes!

so last week went to jb, then on wed went to chek jawa :) then fri was sushi feast with the girls. will post pics soon. sat was band prac and concert. best! i should have joined alumni! i especially liked the first song. good job acband. <3! alright, transformers tomorrow! wwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeee. oh and sushi with fellow makciks eh. hah.

its not that i dont want to tell you whats happening in my life. just that i'm not ready to pry open myself and tell what i'm really feeling ang thinking. well, there sure is alot on my mind...

chiao.

fight!

how apt.
its like when you've finally have picked yourself back up again, you're thrown back into the bottomless pit of darkness.

now, whats your next plan?

and best thing of all, you're all alone. wow. great huh.

and tmr work. see that pantat kuali's face again. cb.



chiao.

desperate

i'm getting desperate. i really dont know what to do. these days, i'd rather talk less.

i wished i could have gone for the tune in. miss them.



from the mad rush in the morning to pack, get dressed and rush to school. missed the stooopid bus. late for band. arrive like some star karat. get labelled as the lady in pink. yeah i have started wearing pink. yuck. then on to outdoors. the heat was effingggggggggg intense. then to ecp coffee bean where abg farhan got us girls to ride in his car!!!!!!!!! and had a kecoh time in the car. haha. toured ECP in the car for like.... 2 hours? haha. got to pit 42D and chilled. cycled. bacame superman for awhile. got hurt. HAHAHA. bike spoilt. for a moment wished i had edward cullen. haha. no choice, had to call my heroes and heroins. yay! saved me and cleaned wound. ate. cleaned up and home sweet home. detailed enough? ok, tired. sleep!

i think i reeeeeally like cycling!
oh happy birthday irna and safiqah!

chiao.

meltingggggggggggggggggggggggg

LEE MIN HO. ah.

die la. thats it. melt. melt. melt.

chiao.

fight!

i will do whatever it takes and everything so that i wont regret it later for the rest of my life.


ah headache.

chiao.