i am me. therefore i am.

people say that god wont put us through trials and tribulations if we cant handle it. i honestly believed that.

'you wont be able to play your instrument for awhile.. you may also lose your sense of taste and touch at that area' i still remember dr tan's words. 'the bone inside will gradually re-absorb and you will have to go for another surgery'

But.. i dont know.. i dont know how to bear this burden. harsh.. and very cruel. i barely even start on my beautiful dreams and i have to say goodbye to it already?

everyday i pray that i will never face this again. because if i do, i dont know what i will do.
i dont want to ever have to go to the rooftop alone again and cry my eyes out.

chiao.