PMS

i cant help but grin whenever i think of our silly antenna and thumb games. oh and how silly we look when we do that chomp chilly chomp chomp games.

dang. i hate PMS. really. one moment your mood can be sky high and you just wanna jump and laugh at everything. but the next, you feel like the worst being on earth, so lonely, so inferior, so angry too at yourself, at everyone. you just want someone to listen to everything, pour everything out, for someone to just pat your back and say everything is okay. [but that never happened sadly] and you're left all alone to deal with it. [but eventually you stood up again after the fall because you just have to; have to continue living] and physically, your appetite flucuates. you go on silly binges in the middle of the night and the next day you starve yourself. your face became oily and pimples appear [ggrrrr, dang you pimples] and then comes the cramps. the numbs on the legs. cold feet, sometimes shivers too.

but i'd rather take it all in. rather than eating painkillers.

hhmmm. epiphany on several issues. i keep it to myself for now

chiao.

:)))

this is oh so cute.


AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH. suju just got themselves a new fan!!!

alright, i'm stopping work like soon. kinda sad but i cant wait for school. :D although i dont know excatly whos in sim. BUT I AM SO GONNA ENJOY MY UNI DAYS. muahahahahaha. and study hard!

orientation next week! wwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. ohoh! mandaki approved my loan. heh.

chiao.

painful yet beautiful.

now i know why i didnt long to go, why i didnt miss doing what i used to and love to do. i was unconciously trying to run away from reality. i just realised that hearing them is so painful, although it is beautiful. ouch. but oh well, life goes on. no matter what.

ECONSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. and gp compre and malay lit.
*SMACKS FACE. its gonna be a longggg night.

press on, life is tough eh?

chiao.

smiling away.

ok, now,now, lets look at my bleak life with positivity here. i shall smile for the rest of the days while i can. :))))))))) and laugh and eat. plus enjoy the company of my section, my band and the rest of the world. for now.

i came to this conclusion aft listening to turnadot and metamorphosis for like 1001 times. such beautiful songs. ah. beautiful, beautiful... just impossible to describe in words.

alritey, enough of slacking.

i guess only chocolates, music and coffee can make me happyyyyyyyyyyyy. wohooooooo. i'm high due to an overdose of caffeine.


chiao.

ahhhh, i'm sick of taking so many medicine. i'm sick of eating porrige everyday. i'm sick of having to watch people eat delicious healthy food while i am deprived of such pleasures. gah. and this gums is paining me! it swollen again and i can taste blood. uwahhhhhhh..... whats happening to my gums!!!!!!!!!!

i actually got scolded on sunday because i ate yong tau fu which only has tofu and more tofu. thats considered soft foods right? but yeah, cik sham actually insisted that i stick to porridge. gah. i'm dying of healthy wholesome meal here. so i didnt eat the whole day except that few pieces of tofu. then i got wind in my stomach and i vomitted. haiz. thats the result of not eating. and my gastric is here again.

the only nice thing that happened on sun at kak siti's hse was that we prayed together. fuh yo, can u imagine the whole hse was transformed into a mass prayer hall. the whole Pak Aziz family la pray together. thats like 4 families praying together. that means, all my aunts, uncles, cousins and my grandma. fuh yo... untill prayer mats and telekung was not enough. hahaha. oh, its a blessing. i just wish we could do it more often. barulah keluarga bahagia dunia, akhirat.
and i ate chocolate truffles! damn, damn niceeee!!! hush, even though i'm not supposed to. haha, i only took one la. to taste it only...umm hush,hush.

and amazingly, crazily, i studied today. oh my god.

i'm going for band practice tmr because i miss my band peeeps!!!!! :)
practice hard tmr and dont let dr lee be angry again ok acbandies.

chiao :))))))))))))))))