dreams and baking

i wish, i wish...

i'm itching to bake bake bake.

i've got a list of things i wanna bake

hhmm, brownies, cupcakes, try some raspberry tarts and chiffon cake.

heeeee.

but sadly, i've got to pack my stuff.

sigh.

packing is sososo troublesome.

chiao.

i have dreamed of dreams that will only be dreams.

BLOOD BATH

how about i finished school? haha. I LOVEEEE MY NEW TIME TABLE. kihkihkih. eye, i have tons of work to do uh. like geog, lit and math. but here i am, digressing. *smacks face.

alright, so far, feedback from teachers abt prelims is that its ... BLOOD BATH, for me, that is. the answers that they went through were not the same as what i think i had written. so yeah.. thats it man.

sigh.

and studying + fasting = extreme tiredness. at least, if i am tired during normal days, i'll be able to drink coffee or something.

alright! no more complaining! perservere!!

chiao.

its over. i guess.

alright, band life is officially over for me. hhmm, when i say it was the last concert and the best, indeed it was. and also the last time i'll be wearing that ac blazer with the school crest embroidered on my heart. i'll miss my eupho, hugging it during long rests, oiling it, cleaning it. i'll miss my section, the lunches we had, the crap we talked and the runs we had to make when we see the bus. haha. i'll miss dr lee, his conducting, his crazy tempos and his deathly glares when you are out of tune. haha. i'll miss my j2 batch, all the nonsensical things they did. i'll miss my juniors. considering how crappy we were made me happy. although most of my other non-band friends thinks band members are weird, i think it made us all the more special. hhmm, i guess i'll be watching you guys perform on national day. :)

i'll cherish the times we had especially concerts. well, thats like the only event i have to keep as memory anyway.

every beginging has an end to it right? well, it was a great ending. i never regretted choosing acband.

my revision doesnt seem to progress. this is so freaking depressing. i feel like giving up on geog. the 3 huge ring files looks sososo daunting. and econs too. adui. and math? i hope i pass at least.

mon, please dont come so soon. its means another day closer to prelims. and a day before surgery. aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. the s word makes me weak all over.

so many things on my mind. hesh. press on shaheera!
dont give up on geog! well, lets see how much i can finish studying it.

chiao.

just tell me that nightmares dont come true.
sleepless nights. i know i need to sleep. but i cant and i dont want to. too much stuff to do and i'm scared these nightmares will haunt me again.

yeah, i am ssoo paranoid. its doing me no good. i dont know.

argh.