last one(hopefully)

had a reallyyyyyyyy great day today. :))))))))) well, thank you sheree and edwin for making my day before... i-dont-want-to-think-about-it. i'm highhhhhhhh on sugarrrrrrrr. hahaha.

ergh, a few more hours. uwahhhhh.
still gives me the chills although i've been through it so many times. well, its just the thought of laying there on the operating table makes me feel all alone. because no one else will feel the pain of the needles, the knife on my skin(although i've been anesthesised) the thread going in and out when its being stitched up, no one else. except me. because i'm going through it.

ah, well, doc you better give me a great smile soon!

and i need to get well, soon, soon, soon!!!so many many things to do. find job, register the french lang course, register the icing and fondant class, mcs bbq, kak siti sushi session bla bla bla. too many.

miss alottt of friends since school's overr.(so ironic since i'm listening to jesse macartney's its over hahahaha)

chiao.

geogeconsmathgpmalay

i seriously should study harder.

get well now! oh my god. i'm panicking now. geogeconsmathgpmalay. isey bedah...

and i have a whole list of food that i wanna eat now.
1. kebab. any type of meat wheather its beef, chicken or whatever.
2. mango puddig with shaved ice.
3. dried mangos. i've loved this since i was a little. and its been such a long long time that i ate this.
4. arnolds chicken. erm, kfc also can la.
5. frolick. oh, i've suppressed my craving for weeks already!
6. i want yum yummy yummy ice cream pleaseeee... like cold rock that time with enjia and eugene-butterscotch and chocolate mint with cookie dough and chocolate slice mix in. oohh lala
7.chicken rice.
8. the list will go on...

funny, while the doc was giving me anesthesia, jason mraz song i'm yours come on the radio in that operating theatre. haha. then during the surgery, jesse mccartney's leavin came on. haha. i almost moved my mouth to sing to it.

sigh, i must study harder.

mum: but doc, she can get well soon in time or not? she has prelims soon you know. and a levels!
doc: can.. she's a very healthy girl! and she can surely do well!
mum: haha, this year important year for her you know!
doc: dont worry.. she will do well! even if she dont, you should be proud that you have such a daughter you know!
me: HAHAHAHA. YEAH-RIGHT-face. (it was aft the op, so i cant talk at all)
doc: she's such a strong and sensible girl! you should be proud of her.
me: isey man, kembang la. *kuncup!kuncup! nyahahaha.
mum: stone face as usual.

looks like i've been missing alot on band these few days. tell me about missing band. i cant even go to school and meet my band friends, play my instrument for the last time and study like other people. ergh, i wished... nvm. i feel so terrible. gah.
back to econs la.
chiao.

the BIG cut.

my blog is in a mess. when i feel like tidy-ing it up, i'll do it. untill then, it shall be like that.

at home, preparing mentally for the BIG CUT. yeah, the doc is gonna cut me up in few hours time.

oh no, my hands are trembling.

somehow, theres this longing and melancholic feeling in me towards band.

i wanna play that silver, shiny thingy and hugg it. with the rest of my dear bandits. like hitomi wo tojite with sheree and edwin. :( and the bach chorales esp when its in tune. wahhhh.

nono! studystudystudy! on sunday, i finished 3 essays and 1 compre, 1 summary and a cloze passage(malay) non-stop. i didnt know how i did it. i just dont want to think about anything else.

mon was crazy. i had no break at all. yeah none at all from morn till 6pm. untill cikgu cancelled 1 period of malay. it was a relief because i am able to do the honours night write-up. which no one told me that it was due that day. but thanks to my dear sl, he helped me finished it up. heh.

oh, thank you my dear section for the sweettt msges! i hope i dont get diabetes eh. haha.
i hope i can get well asap then i can continue my revision by thurs. heshhhhh. i'll miss school for sure, how not to? 2 weeks of mc i think.

chiao.

abhijeet sawant!!!

i loveeee abhijeet sawant! i must go back to my indian roots. hahaha. but hady is equally nice too. oh well, i'll still go for abhijeet!!!! wweee!!! and peter pan performed!!! oh my god ariel!!!

hhmm i'm feeling jazzyy... dont know why i like jazz music now.

band fest is finally over. i felt so tired. but it was a learning experience. being under different conductors these few months has been an eye opener. i still think dr lee is the BEST! haha. bias? i dont care, i have my reasons.
being in fennell was ok. but musically i felt tortured. mr tan aik kee was really nice. my section was nice. but musically, bad... hhmmm.. lets look at the bright side, i enjoyed myself. and i carried my eupho. freak la damn heavy. my arms were screaming for help from esplanade to tampines. but hey, i survived! yess!!

just had another surgery. oh god i dont want anymore surgery can? uwahhh!! it was darn freaking painful uh. and mum is making me stick to porridge again. injection was already enough to freak me out, then there was some bleeding, i dont like seeing blood coming out from my mouth. then come the drilling then the needles and more x-rays. oh gosh. a lil bit of swelling but should be ok by fri for band prac. aahhh another prac...

my hw is not going anywhere. what with geog proj and gp case study. ahhh i'm feeling lazyyy...

abhijeet rocks!!!
chiao.