i am me. therefore i am.

zzzzooooo my goooddd... i am sssooo deprived of band practice!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when is band practice gonna start???? whenwhenwhen!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh. toots. thanks to irna, now i am crazy over lifehouse. thanks to seha, i cant get over the harry potter tune in my head. i still remember when i first played the harry potter song in band. it sounds like a lullaby. damn nice. thanks to enjia now i can download my own choice of songs online for FREE!! hear that!! for free!!! wwweee!!!!!!!!! i miss damaiwindz like ssssoooo much............. i remembered us playing all those songs and then laughing when we made a stupid mistake. overture jubiloso, concerto d'amor, ammerland, seventh night of july, eagle bend, silver gazebo, ross roy, rock and roll hall of fame, sponge bob squarepants haha.. cute stupid songs. band songs. thats what i want to play right now. and i want to play music!!!! aaaahhhh!!!!!!! i was looking back to all our photos. haha, balloon hat festival was the bestest performance i had ever had with damaiwindz. tsk. i wanna see my juniors. but ultimately, i want to be able to play songs like fantasy for euphonium and carnival of venice. hehe. big dreams. insyallah, i can. :) have to work extra x5 hard.

ok.. terms are finally over. such a relief. thanks gerdine, for lending your shoulder before geog paper. if not, i will just sit in the toilet for the whole exam. hehe. no hope. i will just prepare myself mentally for disappoinments again. SSP is for sure. gah. promos, i will dddoooo muuuuccchhhh beeettttteeerrrr!!!!!!! ok.. mugging will start soon for promos. for a levels sake, i will anything. argh. no life.

thurs was supposedly to be my last paper but but but.. a level mt oral came smacking into my face the next day. argh. screw it. i didnt elaborate my points, i spoke too fast and i didnt gave examples. damn. pressure is on me to get at least an a for malay. if not, i shall not be called a malay lit student. argh. then went emo-ing alone at bleachers while waiting for seha. erm.. no i went relaxing at the bleachers alone. yup, yup, relaxing. here's what i wrote while at the bleachers.

Angin petang menggesel pipiku
Sinar mentari petang manggigit kulit
Aku melihat mereka berlari-lari anak
Hatiku berdetik dan mindaku
teringatkannya
Ah, betapa aku merinduinya
Tka itu hatiku berdetak dengan pantas

Angin petang menggesel pipiku
Alunan musik mengusik melodi hati (this is damn jiwang karat.. i know)
Kelihatan dirinya sendang berlari juga
Hatiku menggarah mataku menatapnya
Mindaku menghalangnya
Aku tersenyum simpul
Aku tertunduk, hati berdentum kuat
Mataku mengerling ke arahnya.
Firasatku memberitahu bahawa dia merasa apa yang ku rasa

Angin petang menggesel pipiku
Bibirku mengukir senyuman
Dia mendonggak ke langit
Raut mukanya menahan perit mentari
Aku tahu dia tahu kehadiranku di sini
Aku tahu dia tahu perasaanku ini

the second part of it.. i shall post another day. yuck. cant believe that i can actually compose a poem as mushy as this. yup, this sums up what i see and feel at that point of time. do not ask anything abt this.

section dinner at breeks made me broke. hesh. but ok la, since its once in while that i eat with the j3s.hhmm.. sat, went to jb. i felt scared. damn scared. it was soo hot. steaming maut beb, then people are all pushing and not caring abt a hell, they just pushed to get to the bas, the front of the immigration couter and whatso ever. scary seh. i ended up shouting.. eh chill ah.. the bas is not gonna run away what! and people stopped for a sec and looked at me. but of course, it doesnt have any effect on them.

now... loads of unfinished hw, PW and housework.why girls are stereotyped to do housework? seriously, why cant guys be the ones doing it?? ergh. i want to go swimming, cycling and shopping! anyone wanna join??? ahaha.i will try to do my work now.

chiao.