ignite the flame. please.

i've lost it all. the inspiration, the flame. i wanna let it all go.

let me bawl my eyes out. oh well, its all dried up anyway.

give me sometime to recuperate my soul back again. i'm tired, really, really tired.

please.

i'm sorry.

chiao.

i dont bother to explain this. its not like anybody care anyway.

the show.

i love this ad that i've found in holland v. muahahahhaha.

haha, all acsians do.

gelatoooooooooooooooooooo. :)

our stinking hugeeee band room.

oh yes, the holidays are here. but it doesnt mean holidays. sadly.

this blog has been on a hiatus due the modness of events that has been happening.

warning: stinking long post. haha, i bet nobody will bother reading this.

ok, so on tuesday, i fought for my life on the track and managed to pass my 2.4km with the whole class running with me. despite feeling that i've over stretched my thigh muscles, dheraj just pushed me all the way. and they started screaming things like, 'give me a S! -'S!' -'give me a H!' -'H!' -'give me an A! -'A!' -'give me a H!' -'H!' -'give me an E!' -'E!' -'give me an E!' -'E!' -'give me a R!' -'R!' -'give an A!' -'A!' and things like come on, after this you can eat chicken rice with ribena! haha, and come and catch me if you can! and yay! i opened my legs bigger and raaannnnnnnnn the last round. my heart felt like bursting.

aft all that hu-ha, met shariff and we discussed costumes stuff till before band starts. i didnt even have time to wash my face. but i did anyway, so i was like running arnd again. band prac was at LT4 despite having moved to the new band room. so had to move alllllll our instruments and percs instruments. 1 thing i DO NOT like about the new cpa was that its not sound proof. how stupid is that? its like CENTRE FOR PERFORMING ARTS. get it? of course performing arts group will be blasting their music. and the band room is so echoy. we sounded so glaring and this makes me feel like pulling my hair out. because its sooooo irritating to hear bad music. and we are supposed to bring pillows to help absorb the sound. erm... all my pillows have world maps on it. hahaha. if you get it. hahaha. and that night, playing paganini makes me realise that i've lost everything. like all my articulation, sense of rhythm, my in-tuneness, aiyah everything la. i feel like i'm back to square one after not practising for abt a month. haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. and i'm being forced to used the sm3 mouth piece!! rawrrrrrr. makes me breathe harder. aft band moved all our stuff back and helped zhan wei fix the ikea chair. haha, he's quite noob in fixing stuff. they should put a requirement to becoming a qm: know how to fix stuff. hahaha. then when all band members get to go home, me and irna went to LT 3 for mcs. went up to store rm to do some costume stuff. then went home.

then that night, mugged for geog. so tired. woke up and couldnt get up. my legs were like paining me like crazy. so stayed home and recuperate my muscles. weak seh. tsk. and mugged for geog test. thurs was equally crazy. only had a few hours of sleep the day before. well, to be accurate only 1 hour. and i heard abt what happened on wed abt mcs. one crisis aft another. my head felt like bursting hearing all this. after school went to holland V and ate gelato with enjia. i was so happy that i get to eat gelato, although i screwed up geog test despite studying so hard for it. came back to school and went to LT3 again before band starts. we had a meeting at the void deck. and i guess we took the right one. well, she should rest. had the first prac in the new band room. depressed by my own sound. yuck. i better practise. then LT3 again. and watched the whole of the rehearsal. and we realised this, since the begining of the production, we faced so many difficulties and obstacles. from getting the script, recruiting cast, musicians, crew. the cast were in experienced, and we dont know each other well. the musicians dont know a thing abt traditional malay music. erm, i mean the people who are supposed to play music dont know how to play their instruments. and the cast movements were all over the place. came shamil and tasha to save the day. then, prac wasnt well. seha was down with chicken pox for a week. then we fought. like really fought. haha. but we're good now. then its our main cast getting sick. like really sick. gosh, sani called up anwar. thank god. really, i felt so relived.

fri was the opening of the CPA. and when i reached the school gate, i saw sylvia, nad and daphne. and they said, eh, why are you here? do you know that the band is cancelled? did you get the msg? i didnt too you know! i was like... whattttt? i came alllll the way here! and nobody msged me!!!!!!!!!!! and then they smiled and say, haha, no la, we're joking. i went up to sylvia and screamed, i will strangle you for making me so worked up!! youuuuuu!!!! yes, that joke made me woke up that morning. ben pooi conducted rhapsody in blue and in the mood. and we got a lecture that almost got me to tears. well, we gotta buck up. then went for mcs. it was full run. i felt damn drained out by then.reached home 12 plus. mum was nagging like mad.

then sat was tune in. report to school by 8 am. i had to force myself out of the bed. and my throat was quite croaky. i guess it was a good tune in. i had fun playing grease. and when i said to edwin that i felt like dancing aft playing the 'tell me more' part, he said he cant believe i'm an introvert. haha, maybe i've changed? gotanother lecture from dr lee. that almost made me tear too. and i'm not alone. aaahhhh, i need to practiseeee!!!!!!!! then rushed to mcs. ate my dinner sooo fast that i had a stomachache after that. and it was the preview show. i was sssooo excited. and a few minutes before the show starts, he stage glass fell. and broke into peices. the whole of backstage was littered with glass. after that we prayed, that despite all this, nothing is gonna stop us, the show will go on. and when the audience started coming in, the other side of the stage glass fell too. i was sitting back stage and could feel the glass flying past me. really. and the canvas i was on also had glass. it was so dangerous.i was really scared that someone will get hurt. but well, the show got on well. and it was good. yayness. but we still have so many stuff to work on. and the stage is like in pieces. literally. cabbed home with sani and got a free ride home. weee.

and sunday, went for religious class, then geylang. came home and slept like a nobody's business. i'm just dead tired. oh well, i still have to prepare for tomorrow's show. plus, i need to clean up my room which is worst then a pig's sty. WWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! SHOW'S TOMORROW!!!! but i still have a geog lecture before that and some inviduals in the morn. and maybe a a fast 2.4 run in the morn. hhmm, i still havent schedule my june hols timetable. ok, gotta do it now.

chiao.

holidays come to meeee.

sososososo cant wait for holidays. omg. come thursday please.. over and done with geog test. ragh. i wanna go out, watch movie, go to the beach and well, just laugh my head off.

but A's coming. so theres no way i can do all this during june. :(


i've finished all my hw and human geog. :) lect 1-18. but there's still physical geog lect 1 to 10!!!!!!!!!
my head is bursting.

chiao.

Advertorial!!!!!!!!! :)

AC band presents to you,

Muse, a night to remember.

Venue: Singapore Conference Hall

Time: 5pm

Date: 6 July 2008

Tickets: $10 for stall, $ 15 for circle seats.

Repertoire: Rhapsody for the Theme of Paganini, Armenian Dances part 1, Charming Asia and many moreeeee.

cheap leh..and its gonna be good, i promose. :)

so do come , :)

In our effort to fund raise for our overseas tour,

we present to you,

A Legacy Of Musical Excellence

a compilation cd of the best songs that ac band has ever played

under dr lee of course.

each cost $20.

buy its nice la, i've listened to it.

like the festive overture.. wah, its like the most difficult piece i've ever played.

but the best too. running notes and all the high notes.

some of the songs are,

The Hunchback of Notre Dame, Fantasy Variations,

October (eupho solo there!!! ahhhhhh!!!), Turnadot(stinking nice uhhh),

Movement for Rosa(so touching.......)

Star Wars Trilogy (crazy triple tonguing, hesh),

The phantom of the opera (oh lala, eupho soli part niceeeee),

Festive Overture :), and Overture 1812 (superb!!)

and of course many moreee.

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do support us by attending our concert and buying our cd. :)

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Ac Perbayu Presents to you,

Awang Batil, the story teller of ancient tales.

a theatre production by the ac malay cultural society.

this drama is about 3 ancient malay tales told by awang batil.

Time : 8pm

Venue: ACJC rooftop garden, Dover Close East, S'pore 139745

Day: Mon 26th may and Tues 27th may.

Tickets: $7

Do support us, as we've put alotttt of effort in this. :)

contact me for tickets. :))))).

breathe

its at these times when i really feel like breaking down and just stop.

mcs is literally breaking up. so much things happening and things that are needed to be done. i'm at a cross road. my next surgery date is set. and i have to make a decision. i'm confused. my studies are in the drain. and everyday i sleep at 2-3 am. stinking tired. ac band tune in is like what, next week and i dont even know. great.

i need to breathe.

but, at the same time, i am happy that i can smile now. AKU DA TAK RONGGAK! wwwwwwwweeeeeee.


chiao.

survival of the fittest

i dont know how to survive the rest of the week. tomorrow i have to run 2.4 km. :( then theres mcs and then study for gp test and geog test. that doesnt include homework. thank god i need not play in band. if not, i dont know if i'll be able to keep breathing.

mcs is getting stressful. and i dont even have time to eat at all in school today untill i reach home at abt 8.30pm. thats because my breaks are filled with consults or just emergency mugging in library. (haha, like meeting deadlines for homework etc)

oh 2 weeks more before school holidays. yeah i need that.

josh was pestering me with this question: how do band people cope man? haha, bandits, answer that, how the hell do we survive?

i dont know, by god's grace, we just do. right? haha.
press on!

oh,oh. i am so happy. i passed my math test. say wow. haha. and i got 30/50 for my gp essay. wwweeeeeeeeee. i'm on cloud nine. lalalalalalalala. but somehow i'm not satisfied. consistency. yeah. consistency.

chiao.

legally 18.

1oth may felt like any other day in my life. aft living and experiencing it for the 18th time, i felt quite numbed yesterday. well, i dont know how to feel or react actually. but thanks all. :) my section, for the 'birthday cake' haha, and perlini's silver necklace, em, enjia, soo and irna for the body shop gift, kak siti's gift which i still havent figure out what it is, kak wani for the dress and the cake! and all the other messages. thank youuuuu. oh yeah, happy birthday to justin too. haha.



reminiscing what happened last year made me realise that i had changed, somewhat. it was the day right before syf. syf came and i guess, the events that happened during and after it, i will remember for a very very long time. how they played roman feste, the announcement. the journey in the mrt. the surprisebirthday bash by my dear girls. i'll never forget that, khai, hiq, az and ais.

with so many things on my mind, i noticed that i'll always get quietand give that serious look when actually i was thinking about stuff. and people will thought i was emo-ing or soemthing like that.

i'd rather be alone.

i wanna quit. maybe i should, since i dont have any purpose anymore.

learn to get over it. that night, she cried herself to sleep.

chiao.

painful yet beautiful.

now i know why i didnt long to go, why i didnt miss doing what i used to and love to do. i was unconciously trying to run away from reality. i just realised that hearing them is so painful, although it is beautiful. ouch. but oh well, life goes on. no matter what.

ECONSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. and gp compre and malay lit.
*SMACKS FACE. its gonna be a longggg night.

press on, life is tough eh?

chiao.

stinky

stinky day. i screwed up math test. and i have dc for waking up late. again. what the hell is wrong with me.

after so long not coming for practices, somehow, i feel.. what do you call it... segregated from the rest?
ergh, big bad mood AND tiredddddddddddddddd.
i'm trying to illusion myself with the fact that i have 2 bands. ac concert band + acperbayu gamelan band.haha.

stinky friday timetable on a tuesday. 4 stinking hrs of break before 4.30pm, where i'm supposed to study econs.

i better not screw up this stinky econs test.

i better eat some ice cream now. and start smiling. maybe i'll feel better. soon, i hope.
chiao.

maybe

today's mcs drama rehersal was kinda egg-citing. 'cos i tried playing the saron!!! wooooo. and we managed to complete two parts of music from the whole production. there's still alot mind you. coolness seriously. i felt like i was in a gamelan troupe or something. hehehehe. but aft that was the serious bit. debrief=omg. schedule is super tight. being a costume manager is a headache. i get confuse which costume is whose although i wrote it down. my brain is naturally slow. alot of stuff to buy. not forgetting the props. haha. i have to get everthing ready by 10th may. then there is the music part where i need to learn my instrument, and come up with some nice malay theme music. oh greattt.


i wish there is no such thing as the internet. then maybe i wouldnt be wasting my time blogging here and go and study.then maybe also i will study more. maybes. yeah. then maybe somebody will not call me stupid. then maybe i wouldnt get stinking results. then maybe i will..

ergh. me stupid?

i dont know why, every econs test i will get really really nervous. and its on thurs.
and i vow i will pass my next math test on tues. i stinking finished the tys.
if i dont pass still, then maybe....
whatever la.

chiao.

shopping.

and this dress makes me go gaga.

i am smitten by this shoe. ragh. but abit ex. :(

aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh. i wanna buy buy buy buy. $45 +$37= i'll be dead broke.

thank goodness my throat is wayyy better. only nose is still like a leaking tap.

ah, i better make sure i dont procastinate anymore. since thurs is wasted away because the medicine that i ate made me sleep for hours and hours and hours. time to study. not shopping. raghhhhhhhhhhhhh.

chiao.

cold rock rocks.

wed with sports day was ok i guess. but i was darn bored during the races. and fary kept whining. haha. went to buy cremo, but i didnt la, fary did. and nathan hartono served her. ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

ah choooooooooo. ouchhh. my throat feels like razor blade cutting. coughing. my eyes are dry. my nose is running. ergh. temperature is running too. :(


but dinner with em, enjia and eugene was good! yay. although with such shitty throat. cold rock. ahhh. :))) i had to succumb to temptation. hahaha. i just couldnt resist the white cookie and double choc with cookie dough and tim tam mix in!! wohh. i think it was a good combi. hahaha.

i was feeling relatively happy so i decided to take panadol and sleep at 10pm. which is superrrr early. now, back to mugging.

mug mug mug. econsmatheconsmatheconsmatheconsmatheconsmath.
i'm glad its 1st may. weeeeeeeee.

Ungu-kekasih gelapku. this song has a deeeeepp meaning. simply goood.

its about this guy who loves this girl alot but she doesnt know it. b'cos he knows that they will never be together. but he still loves her alot. and at last she knew it. but it was too late. ahhhwww.

chiao.