7 days

its kinda hard not to cry and hard to not do it.

i'll try my best not to though. i'll keep smiling.

damn, my mind is elsewhere, i cant concentrate on studying.

sat was such a bad day.

just grant me this last chance to play in my concert. please. dont cut me out.

chiao.

10 days moreeeeee

oh a week's passed and i survived. cool. its amazing how i can open my eyes during monotonous lectures and tutorials. esp geog. i was like pinching and slapping my cheeks to stop my eyes from closing. math tutorials is always too fast for me. correlation and regression is seriously like- what the hell is that? uhuh. i gotta buck up. mr mash still give me that have-you-revised-kinda-look everytime he sees me. i did!! but need to do more. got back geog test. phy geog i did extremely well. yayness! but human geog=depression. mdm was angry with me. my fault. i think malay lit is kinda slack right now. its making me kinda panicky and all.

lost my red bottle with the exclusive black cover. but i found it againnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!

and i finally can buzz in pitch. :) but my rthym in tempo suck big time still. :(

oh concert's next weekkkkkkkkkkk. how how how how. gotta do concert presents. practice will be on for the whole of week. hopefully i survive through. still need to revise. oh my godddddddddd.

alright, stop complaining.

was doing my sgc and looked into my cert file. saw my class photo and thought. hmmm, i'll miss them after a's. like really. my band. this school. i've had the time of my life. no regrets.

now, 6.07am. time for my morning run! yay. 5 kg man. 5kg! wooohoo.

chiao.

countdown

back to school in like a few hours time. 14 days to concert. exactly 50 days to prelims.
are we ready? am i ready? hell, no. yeah no.

so many things going on in my mind. sometimes its really too overwhelming that i find it hard to articulate my thoughts here. but i'm an arts student, shouldnt i be able to do it relatively well? well, the thing is, i cant. yeah i cant.

watched the movie osama and it made me tear to see how children on the other side of the world are suffering. and nothing can be done to help them. to see so many people dying because of some totalitarian regime claiming that they are operating based on islamic laws. a load of bullshit. how organized syndicates are actually touching our lives without us realising it. how unenforced labour laws are actually helping us to get what we want on our shopping list. like the latest levi jeans. the current global food crisis, the latest typhoon hitting philippines, inflation rates skyrocketing. so much calamities going around. how can i possibly sit around and watch.

well, the world doesnt revolve around us only.

after this holidays or maybe not for me, i've resolved to become a pschyo mugger toad. (i'm mad..) fatigue will not bother me anymore. nothing else will. i just have to conquer this exam. make or break. 50 more days! i'm so angry with myself because i've failed to finish what i was supposed to during this holiday.

i thought back when june first kicked in. i didnt even realise holidays have already started because it was either band or mcs at that time. waking up at 5 and reaching home at only 12+am for 2 weeks non-stop was frightening. i dont know how i survived. resting only when i got a seat in the mrt or during lunch time. drama went on successfully although we went through alot. band was prep talks and more of it. draining me out. well, not only me, the rest of the band members who cared too actually.

i certainly love acband alot. i've tempted to quit recently because i realise that i've lost the flame to keep me going. (oh i just made a big confession!) i'm sorry. i just lost it. but what kept me in and going was the people there. i love them. each and everyone. i realise that my journey in ac is going to end soon. so i just want to make this last concert of ours the best. for everyone in acband, for the audience, for ourselves. and for dr lee especially. considering that i wont be spending time with the band after concert anymore, i just want to make this ending a really really good ending.

i've been trying to ignite the love that i had in band and yeah, slowly, it is coming back. how? heh, let me keep it to myself. well, hint: its the pure sound. hehe.

oh people, 14 days left, we're gonna do this right.
yes, we're gonna do this.


chiao.

so near.

looking at the calendar, concert is so near. that means they'll be flying off soon too. and that means my next surgery is nearing too. then the international band competition. and after that prelims and then As and then everything will be over. a few months more.

wed: i cut my hair! hehehe. ate at hajah maimunah. siput seduttttttttttt! yum,yum,yummmmmmm! met aisyah and waited for 1 stinking hour for syad. yeah, i am still angry about it. 1 hour!!! in the rain at the bus stop! went back damai and mr wong didnt come, wasted.. cant sell my cd to him. but i sold all $10 tickets!! yesssaa! ate dinner at mac with aisyah, syad and ama. bad choice, so unhealthy. went home tried to read econs. but my head was on the table before i knew it.

thurs: supposed to go to school but mum fell sick. so studied at home. but yeah fell asleep again for 2 hrs plus. woke up and continue with econs. and yay. i've finished it! but i still have 1 more section to read up plus 2 essay homework. i am gonna take forever. and not sleep tonight. great. and i still havent finish gp articles. ahw man. oh yeah... i havent write my school gradation cert yettttttttttttttttttttttttttt.

band tmr. i wonder how it'll go.

i should stop thinking too much. drains my soul, aches my heart.

chiao.

red bull day!

a few days more till school reopens. tell me about it man. i keep telling myself to work,work and work. but it doesnt work. still wayyyyyyyyyy behind what i'm supposed to have completed. i should buck up la.


my whole family is back!!! yay. yay. yay. cant say how happy i am to see them. i miss them so. mum bought for me a spongebob soft toy! a HUGEEEE one! yesssssssssa! dont worry, this time, with pants on it, haha. its super hug-able! (i am so childish but whatever.)
wish i can get a holiday. just get away from work. and enjoy family company. rawr.
that day while studying at home, i watched mum cooking in the kitchen and i felt this tug at my heart. i miss her. badly.


today went gyming with irna. she went bonkers. but its ok, i was entertained. haha. had lunch and froollick!!! wweeee. so niceee. studied but not much progress. practice with siwei and yay, luckily some progress there. conquered the last part of symphonic metamorphosis. i know i should have conquered it like ages ago. but i started kinda late, remember? (excuses! hmph!) oh siwei said i sounded nicer on my sm3 mouthpiece than the sm4. oh me gosh! haha, amazing! did the growling thing on the eupho, the phonics thingy. so fun! haha.

ok, econs and gp and math. lesson learnt today: i should have stuck to coffee. red bull is a bad idea. study hard people! :)

chiao.

Inspired

:)

thurs was supposed to be a shopping day with aisyah and syad. but yeah we ended up. eating and just going in and out of shops. but i do hava list of things that i want BADLY.

1. skinnies!!!!

2. the velvet pump shoes. which i also saw with irna. rawr.and its on sale la.

3. the kappa slip ons!!! its on 20% discount!!

4. the bag from the shop called 'BagAge'. but its $49.90. omg.. so expensiveeeee.

5. the victoria secret body splashhhhhh. aaaaahhhhh.

6. cardigan. its on sale tooooooooooo.

7. those 2 black dresses i saw at this fashion. its on sale alsoooooooooooooooooo.

my shopping list should stop here. oh yeah, borders is paradise mannnn. i wanna buy those books and get swollowed by the moving stories.

fri spent studying with aishah j but i only did articles again! and i still havent finish. my efficiency rate is bad. very bad. i'm paniking here. gosh. study,study,study till like 4 am. woke up at 7 today to send my family on holiday. and yeah, i am still in singapore. home alone. cant take it anymore, fell asleep till 11 am. had brunch and accompany my aunts and uncles to a wedding.

the thing about aunties and uncles.. they like to talk. just about any single thing. they commented on the food that they served us. and went on to think about our family's upcoming weddings. like who's gonna get married first. and they included me. -_- i was like.. erm... i'm just 18... i still have a longgggg way to gooo. and they went on like... get married earlier, dont so late then get married.. then the wedding uh, should be.... and it goes on. oh, i realised that my great-great grand father is a rich man who lives in geylang. wow, i come from a rich family. hahaha.

went home to clean the whole house. i think i worked hard doing house work this holidays. was too tired after that so i decided to watch kungfu panda online! (aisyah, i dont mind watching it again with you at princess ok! (: ) its sssooo funny. realised that i am a lazy girl today, started doing math. till now. which hasnt progressed much. omg.

ok,ok, back to work.

"Dont accept that you are the girl who never gets what she wants. Instead, become the girl who makes it happen for herself."

"By valuing our innate strengths of connection, nurturing, intuition and empathy, we can reinvent what our impact and contribution is to our work."

oh, i feel so inspired!!

dont you, dont you?!

haha.

chiao

banding

let me recount my days. these few days has been a blur of events.

sat was band the whole day as usual. came early to think if i should just ask outrightly if i'm going swiss or not. was supposed to gym but somebody pangseh me. haha. combine sectionals in the morn. we still sound bad. when the hell are we gonna sound nice? rained so ordered in pizza. and i gave them the wrong number. haha. accidentally! band ended and i finally decided myself i will not go. went back to grandma's. missed her. overnight there and tried to do my articles. but.... i got defeated by fatigue and laziness. :(

mon band again. with bbq at night. i relieved my childhood days with hopscotch and swings. so fun. FUN. i just went spastic la. ate alot of rubbish and cancerous food. went home a happy girl after a long time not laughing that hard. and met a gentlemanyly ang moh who let me pass. haha.

tues was band again. my eyes felt funny. it just wont open. my throat feels scratchy. i kept coughing. 1st recording in the morn. i felt like a recording artist. hahaha. but on a serious note. i felt quite nervous. went for lunch at ljs. without edwin again but with the tubas. sectionals and dwayne came up with the 'kaan' way. *rolls eyes. corrected some parts and went for second recording. had no more energy but had to go on anyway. tried to play to my best ability. and listened to the recording again. we sounded somewhat better but nowhere near the swiss comp standard. haiz.

today, woke up at 6 to jog but weather was good to me. it rained so i continued to sleep. woken up by irna's msg. lips felt so numbed. like bee stung-ed. went to sch to do costume stuff with seha and study math with irnananana alil bit. but nowhere near progress. integrate my brain please.

sometimes its easier just to cry yourself to sleep rather than let it all out. its no use to be sad. lets face it.

anyway, i shall continue with my work now. this is the third week of holidays? omg. oh yes, i found a spongebob blogskin. should i change? hahahahaha.

chiao.

naive and gullible

i just realised how stupid, naive and gullible i am. to believe words of hope. well, there's no more hope and trust from me to anybody. just the harsh reality. and i'm not going to just sit there, cry my eyes out and be pitiful about it. damn, i'm gonna make this last concert of mine THE BEST CONCERT that i've ever performed, THE BEST that the audience have heard of ac band. yes, we'll make music. although its in singapore. haha.


its amazing how 2 chapters of math plus 10 gp compre questions can squeeze your brain juices. ok, back to econs. i'm not going to be defeated by fatigue.

oh, i went shopping with mak cik irna on thurs after band! wweee. i'm still thinking of that bag. oooooooo.
and....
HAPPY LEGAL 18TH BIRTHDAY MY FELLOW MAKCIK!!
we can go clubbing together now. hahaha.

chiao.

work it!

ok, i'm 'recovering' i guess. whatever.

i am soooooo wayyyyy behind my schedule. danggggg. *slaps myself. mon was supposed to be gp and math. BUT i am ssooo 'hardworking' (digressed), i cleaned my room, the house, vacuumed and arranged all my stuff plus! i washed the mcs costumes. gahhh. pure hardwork. when i grow up, i'll hire a maid or just send it to the laundry. seriously. i'm not going to toss and scrub and wring clothes dry. by then, i was too tired, so, when i reached my study table to read my gp compre, i fell asleep. aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

this cant continue. like seriously. when is your prelims shaheera dear? YOU DONT HAVE TIME OK!!! procastinator, digressor, work!

alright. today's band prac was ok, i guess. considering dr lee wants to move on from intonation but he cant because we are not in tune.and he started scolding us and all. and then, we did intonation and viola! fuh yooo!! we were so intune. i was smiling alll the wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. aaaaahhhhhhhhh. and dr lee's mood suddenly changed. haha. i was thinking, too bad i cant experience this in swiss with the rest. but oh well. whatever. move on!
and my rthym is still so sucky. my basics are like ----. BAD. :( my rthym since sec 1 days are like gone case. haiz. I AM SO GONNA PRACTICE with the metronome. UNTILL I GET IT RIGHT. DAMN. and oh sm 3 mouthpiece please make my life easier! i'm like huffing and puffing all the way. rawr. but its good..in a way.
oh i gymed today.:)))) now, my thighs are like.....ouuuchhh.

ok. gp and math now. by tonight. by tonight. by tonight. by tonight. by tonightttttttttttttttttt.
chiao.

ignite the flame. please.

i've lost it all. the inspiration, the flame. i wanna let it all go.

let me bawl my eyes out. oh well, its all dried up anyway.

give me sometime to recuperate my soul back again. i'm tired, really, really tired.

please.

i'm sorry.

chiao.

i dont bother to explain this. its not like anybody care anyway.

the show.

i love this ad that i've found in holland v. muahahahhaha.

haha, all acsians do.

gelatoooooooooooooooooooo. :)

our stinking hugeeee band room.

oh yes, the holidays are here. but it doesnt mean holidays. sadly.

this blog has been on a hiatus due the modness of events that has been happening.

warning: stinking long post. haha, i bet nobody will bother reading this.

ok, so on tuesday, i fought for my life on the track and managed to pass my 2.4km with the whole class running with me. despite feeling that i've over stretched my thigh muscles, dheraj just pushed me all the way. and they started screaming things like, 'give me a S! -'S!' -'give me a H!' -'H!' -'give me an A! -'A!' -'give me a H!' -'H!' -'give me an E!' -'E!' -'give me an E!' -'E!' -'give me a R!' -'R!' -'give an A!' -'A!' and things like come on, after this you can eat chicken rice with ribena! haha, and come and catch me if you can! and yay! i opened my legs bigger and raaannnnnnnnn the last round. my heart felt like bursting.

aft all that hu-ha, met shariff and we discussed costumes stuff till before band starts. i didnt even have time to wash my face. but i did anyway, so i was like running arnd again. band prac was at LT4 despite having moved to the new band room. so had to move alllllll our instruments and percs instruments. 1 thing i DO NOT like about the new cpa was that its not sound proof. how stupid is that? its like CENTRE FOR PERFORMING ARTS. get it? of course performing arts group will be blasting their music. and the band room is so echoy. we sounded so glaring and this makes me feel like pulling my hair out. because its sooooo irritating to hear bad music. and we are supposed to bring pillows to help absorb the sound. erm... all my pillows have world maps on it. hahaha. if you get it. hahaha. and that night, playing paganini makes me realise that i've lost everything. like all my articulation, sense of rhythm, my in-tuneness, aiyah everything la. i feel like i'm back to square one after not practising for abt a month. haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. and i'm being forced to used the sm3 mouth piece!! rawrrrrrr. makes me breathe harder. aft band moved all our stuff back and helped zhan wei fix the ikea chair. haha, he's quite noob in fixing stuff. they should put a requirement to becoming a qm: know how to fix stuff. hahaha. then when all band members get to go home, me and irna went to LT 3 for mcs. went up to store rm to do some costume stuff. then went home.

then that night, mugged for geog. so tired. woke up and couldnt get up. my legs were like paining me like crazy. so stayed home and recuperate my muscles. weak seh. tsk. and mugged for geog test. thurs was equally crazy. only had a few hours of sleep the day before. well, to be accurate only 1 hour. and i heard abt what happened on wed abt mcs. one crisis aft another. my head felt like bursting hearing all this. after school went to holland V and ate gelato with enjia. i was so happy that i get to eat gelato, although i screwed up geog test despite studying so hard for it. came back to school and went to LT3 again before band starts. we had a meeting at the void deck. and i guess we took the right one. well, she should rest. had the first prac in the new band room. depressed by my own sound. yuck. i better practise. then LT3 again. and watched the whole of the rehearsal. and we realised this, since the begining of the production, we faced so many difficulties and obstacles. from getting the script, recruiting cast, musicians, crew. the cast were in experienced, and we dont know each other well. the musicians dont know a thing abt traditional malay music. erm, i mean the people who are supposed to play music dont know how to play their instruments. and the cast movements were all over the place. came shamil and tasha to save the day. then, prac wasnt well. seha was down with chicken pox for a week. then we fought. like really fought. haha. but we're good now. then its our main cast getting sick. like really sick. gosh, sani called up anwar. thank god. really, i felt so relived.

fri was the opening of the CPA. and when i reached the school gate, i saw sylvia, nad and daphne. and they said, eh, why are you here? do you know that the band is cancelled? did you get the msg? i didnt too you know! i was like... whattttt? i came alllll the way here! and nobody msged me!!!!!!!!!!! and then they smiled and say, haha, no la, we're joking. i went up to sylvia and screamed, i will strangle you for making me so worked up!! youuuuuu!!!! yes, that joke made me woke up that morning. ben pooi conducted rhapsody in blue and in the mood. and we got a lecture that almost got me to tears. well, we gotta buck up. then went for mcs. it was full run. i felt damn drained out by then.reached home 12 plus. mum was nagging like mad.

then sat was tune in. report to school by 8 am. i had to force myself out of the bed. and my throat was quite croaky. i guess it was a good tune in. i had fun playing grease. and when i said to edwin that i felt like dancing aft playing the 'tell me more' part, he said he cant believe i'm an introvert. haha, maybe i've changed? gotanother lecture from dr lee. that almost made me tear too. and i'm not alone. aaahhhh, i need to practiseeee!!!!!!!! then rushed to mcs. ate my dinner sooo fast that i had a stomachache after that. and it was the preview show. i was sssooo excited. and a few minutes before the show starts, he stage glass fell. and broke into peices. the whole of backstage was littered with glass. after that we prayed, that despite all this, nothing is gonna stop us, the show will go on. and when the audience started coming in, the other side of the stage glass fell too. i was sitting back stage and could feel the glass flying past me. really. and the canvas i was on also had glass. it was so dangerous.i was really scared that someone will get hurt. but well, the show got on well. and it was good. yayness. but we still have so many stuff to work on. and the stage is like in pieces. literally. cabbed home with sani and got a free ride home. weee.

and sunday, went for religious class, then geylang. came home and slept like a nobody's business. i'm just dead tired. oh well, i still have to prepare for tomorrow's show. plus, i need to clean up my room which is worst then a pig's sty. WWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! SHOW'S TOMORROW!!!! but i still have a geog lecture before that and some inviduals in the morn. and maybe a a fast 2.4 run in the morn. hhmm, i still havent schedule my june hols timetable. ok, gotta do it now.

chiao.

holidays come to meeee.

sososososo cant wait for holidays. omg. come thursday please.. over and done with geog test. ragh. i wanna go out, watch movie, go to the beach and well, just laugh my head off.

but A's coming. so theres no way i can do all this during june. :(


i've finished all my hw and human geog. :) lect 1-18. but there's still physical geog lect 1 to 10!!!!!!!!!
my head is bursting.

chiao.

Advertorial!!!!!!!!! :)

AC band presents to you,

Muse, a night to remember.

Venue: Singapore Conference Hall

Time: 5pm

Date: 6 July 2008

Tickets: $10 for stall, $ 15 for circle seats.

Repertoire: Rhapsody for the Theme of Paganini, Armenian Dances part 1, Charming Asia and many moreeeee.

cheap leh..and its gonna be good, i promose. :)

so do come , :)

In our effort to fund raise for our overseas tour,

we present to you,

A Legacy Of Musical Excellence

a compilation cd of the best songs that ac band has ever played

under dr lee of course.

each cost $20.

buy its nice la, i've listened to it.

like the festive overture.. wah, its like the most difficult piece i've ever played.

but the best too. running notes and all the high notes.

some of the songs are,

The Hunchback of Notre Dame, Fantasy Variations,

October (eupho solo there!!! ahhhhhh!!!), Turnadot(stinking nice uhhh),

Movement for Rosa(so touching.......)

Star Wars Trilogy (crazy triple tonguing, hesh),

The phantom of the opera (oh lala, eupho soli part niceeeee),

Festive Overture :), and Overture 1812 (superb!!)

and of course many moreee.

so, do help us to relieve our dreams to make more and better music.

do support us by attending our concert and buying our cd. :)

hehe.

Ac Perbayu Presents to you,

Awang Batil, the story teller of ancient tales.

a theatre production by the ac malay cultural society.

this drama is about 3 ancient malay tales told by awang batil.

Time : 8pm

Venue: ACJC rooftop garden, Dover Close East, S'pore 139745

Day: Mon 26th may and Tues 27th may.

Tickets: $7

Do support us, as we've put alotttt of effort in this. :)

contact me for tickets. :))))).

breathe

its at these times when i really feel like breaking down and just stop.

mcs is literally breaking up. so much things happening and things that are needed to be done. i'm at a cross road. my next surgery date is set. and i have to make a decision. i'm confused. my studies are in the drain. and everyday i sleep at 2-3 am. stinking tired. ac band tune in is like what, next week and i dont even know. great.

i need to breathe.

but, at the same time, i am happy that i can smile now. AKU DA TAK RONGGAK! wwwwwwwweeeeeee.


chiao.

survival of the fittest

i dont know how to survive the rest of the week. tomorrow i have to run 2.4 km. :( then theres mcs and then study for gp test and geog test. that doesnt include homework. thank god i need not play in band. if not, i dont know if i'll be able to keep breathing.

mcs is getting stressful. and i dont even have time to eat at all in school today untill i reach home at abt 8.30pm. thats because my breaks are filled with consults or just emergency mugging in library. (haha, like meeting deadlines for homework etc)

oh 2 weeks more before school holidays. yeah i need that.

josh was pestering me with this question: how do band people cope man? haha, bandits, answer that, how the hell do we survive?

i dont know, by god's grace, we just do. right? haha.
press on!

oh,oh. i am so happy. i passed my math test. say wow. haha. and i got 30/50 for my gp essay. wwweeeeeeeeee. i'm on cloud nine. lalalalalalalala. but somehow i'm not satisfied. consistency. yeah. consistency.

chiao.

legally 18.

1oth may felt like any other day in my life. aft living and experiencing it for the 18th time, i felt quite numbed yesterday. well, i dont know how to feel or react actually. but thanks all. :) my section, for the 'birthday cake' haha, and perlini's silver necklace, em, enjia, soo and irna for the body shop gift, kak siti's gift which i still havent figure out what it is, kak wani for the dress and the cake! and all the other messages. thank youuuuu. oh yeah, happy birthday to justin too. haha.



reminiscing what happened last year made me realise that i had changed, somewhat. it was the day right before syf. syf came and i guess, the events that happened during and after it, i will remember for a very very long time. how they played roman feste, the announcement. the journey in the mrt. the surprisebirthday bash by my dear girls. i'll never forget that, khai, hiq, az and ais.

with so many things on my mind, i noticed that i'll always get quietand give that serious look when actually i was thinking about stuff. and people will thought i was emo-ing or soemthing like that.

i'd rather be alone.

i wanna quit. maybe i should, since i dont have any purpose anymore.

learn to get over it. that night, she cried herself to sleep.

chiao.

painful yet beautiful.

now i know why i didnt long to go, why i didnt miss doing what i used to and love to do. i was unconciously trying to run away from reality. i just realised that hearing them is so painful, although it is beautiful. ouch. but oh well, life goes on. no matter what.

ECONSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. and gp compre and malay lit.
*SMACKS FACE. its gonna be a longggg night.

press on, life is tough eh?

chiao.

stinky

stinky day. i screwed up math test. and i have dc for waking up late. again. what the hell is wrong with me.

after so long not coming for practices, somehow, i feel.. what do you call it... segregated from the rest?
ergh, big bad mood AND tiredddddddddddddddd.
i'm trying to illusion myself with the fact that i have 2 bands. ac concert band + acperbayu gamelan band.haha.

stinky friday timetable on a tuesday. 4 stinking hrs of break before 4.30pm, where i'm supposed to study econs.

i better not screw up this stinky econs test.

i better eat some ice cream now. and start smiling. maybe i'll feel better. soon, i hope.
chiao.

maybe

today's mcs drama rehersal was kinda egg-citing. 'cos i tried playing the saron!!! wooooo. and we managed to complete two parts of music from the whole production. there's still alot mind you. coolness seriously. i felt like i was in a gamelan troupe or something. hehehehe. but aft that was the serious bit. debrief=omg. schedule is super tight. being a costume manager is a headache. i get confuse which costume is whose although i wrote it down. my brain is naturally slow. alot of stuff to buy. not forgetting the props. haha. i have to get everthing ready by 10th may. then there is the music part where i need to learn my instrument, and come up with some nice malay theme music. oh greattt.


i wish there is no such thing as the internet. then maybe i wouldnt be wasting my time blogging here and go and study.then maybe also i will study more. maybes. yeah. then maybe somebody will not call me stupid. then maybe i wouldnt get stinking results. then maybe i will..

ergh. me stupid?

i dont know why, every econs test i will get really really nervous. and its on thurs.
and i vow i will pass my next math test on tues. i stinking finished the tys.
if i dont pass still, then maybe....
whatever la.

chiao.

shopping.

and this dress makes me go gaga.

i am smitten by this shoe. ragh. but abit ex. :(

aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh. i wanna buy buy buy buy. $45 +$37= i'll be dead broke.

thank goodness my throat is wayyy better. only nose is still like a leaking tap.

ah, i better make sure i dont procastinate anymore. since thurs is wasted away because the medicine that i ate made me sleep for hours and hours and hours. time to study. not shopping. raghhhhhhhhhhhhh.

chiao.