holidays come to meeee.

sososososo cant wait for holidays. omg. come thursday please.. over and done with geog test. ragh. i wanna go out, watch movie, go to the beach and well, just laugh my head off.

but A's coming. so theres no way i can do all this during june. :(


i've finished all my hw and human geog. :) lect 1-18. but there's still physical geog lect 1 to 10!!!!!!!!!
my head is bursting.

chiao.

Advertorial!!!!!!!!! :)

AC band presents to you,

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Venue: Singapore Conference Hall

Time: 5pm

Date: 6 July 2008

Tickets: $10 for stall, $ 15 for circle seats.

Repertoire: Rhapsody for the Theme of Paganini, Armenian Dances part 1, Charming Asia and many moreeeee.

cheap leh..and its gonna be good, i promose. :)

so do come , :)

In our effort to fund raise for our overseas tour,

we present to you,

A Legacy Of Musical Excellence

a compilation cd of the best songs that ac band has ever played

under dr lee of course.

each cost $20.

buy its nice la, i've listened to it.

like the festive overture.. wah, its like the most difficult piece i've ever played.

but the best too. running notes and all the high notes.

some of the songs are,

The Hunchback of Notre Dame, Fantasy Variations,

October (eupho solo there!!! ahhhhhh!!!), Turnadot(stinking nice uhhh),

Movement for Rosa(so touching.......)

Star Wars Trilogy (crazy triple tonguing, hesh),

The phantom of the opera (oh lala, eupho soli part niceeeee),

Festive Overture :), and Overture 1812 (superb!!)

and of course many moreee.

so, do help us to relieve our dreams to make more and better music.

do support us by attending our concert and buying our cd. :)

hehe.

Ac Perbayu Presents to you,

Awang Batil, the story teller of ancient tales.

a theatre production by the ac malay cultural society.

this drama is about 3 ancient malay tales told by awang batil.

Time : 8pm

Venue: ACJC rooftop garden, Dover Close East, S'pore 139745

Day: Mon 26th may and Tues 27th may.

Tickets: $7

Do support us, as we've put alotttt of effort in this. :)

contact me for tickets. :))))).

breathe

its at these times when i really feel like breaking down and just stop.

mcs is literally breaking up. so much things happening and things that are needed to be done. i'm at a cross road. my next surgery date is set. and i have to make a decision. i'm confused. my studies are in the drain. and everyday i sleep at 2-3 am. stinking tired. ac band tune in is like what, next week and i dont even know. great.

i need to breathe.

but, at the same time, i am happy that i can smile now. AKU DA TAK RONGGAK! wwwwwwwweeeeeee.


chiao.

survival of the fittest

i dont know how to survive the rest of the week. tomorrow i have to run 2.4 km. :( then theres mcs and then study for gp test and geog test. that doesnt include homework. thank god i need not play in band. if not, i dont know if i'll be able to keep breathing.

mcs is getting stressful. and i dont even have time to eat at all in school today untill i reach home at abt 8.30pm. thats because my breaks are filled with consults or just emergency mugging in library. (haha, like meeting deadlines for homework etc)

oh 2 weeks more before school holidays. yeah i need that.

josh was pestering me with this question: how do band people cope man? haha, bandits, answer that, how the hell do we survive?

i dont know, by god's grace, we just do. right? haha.
press on!

oh,oh. i am so happy. i passed my math test. say wow. haha. and i got 30/50 for my gp essay. wwweeeeeeeeee. i'm on cloud nine. lalalalalalalala. but somehow i'm not satisfied. consistency. yeah. consistency.

chiao.

legally 18.

1oth may felt like any other day in my life. aft living and experiencing it for the 18th time, i felt quite numbed yesterday. well, i dont know how to feel or react actually. but thanks all. :) my section, for the 'birthday cake' haha, and perlini's silver necklace, em, enjia, soo and irna for the body shop gift, kak siti's gift which i still havent figure out what it is, kak wani for the dress and the cake! and all the other messages. thank youuuuu. oh yeah, happy birthday to justin too. haha.



reminiscing what happened last year made me realise that i had changed, somewhat. it was the day right before syf. syf came and i guess, the events that happened during and after it, i will remember for a very very long time. how they played roman feste, the announcement. the journey in the mrt. the surprisebirthday bash by my dear girls. i'll never forget that, khai, hiq, az and ais.

with so many things on my mind, i noticed that i'll always get quietand give that serious look when actually i was thinking about stuff. and people will thought i was emo-ing or soemthing like that.

i'd rather be alone.

i wanna quit. maybe i should, since i dont have any purpose anymore.

learn to get over it. that night, she cried herself to sleep.

chiao.

painful yet beautiful.

now i know why i didnt long to go, why i didnt miss doing what i used to and love to do. i was unconciously trying to run away from reality. i just realised that hearing them is so painful, although it is beautiful. ouch. but oh well, life goes on. no matter what.

ECONSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. and gp compre and malay lit.
*SMACKS FACE. its gonna be a longggg night.

press on, life is tough eh?

chiao.

stinky

stinky day. i screwed up math test. and i have dc for waking up late. again. what the hell is wrong with me.

after so long not coming for practices, somehow, i feel.. what do you call it... segregated from the rest?
ergh, big bad mood AND tiredddddddddddddddd.
i'm trying to illusion myself with the fact that i have 2 bands. ac concert band + acperbayu gamelan band.haha.

stinky friday timetable on a tuesday. 4 stinking hrs of break before 4.30pm, where i'm supposed to study econs.

i better not screw up this stinky econs test.

i better eat some ice cream now. and start smiling. maybe i'll feel better. soon, i hope.
chiao.

maybe

today's mcs drama rehersal was kinda egg-citing. 'cos i tried playing the saron!!! wooooo. and we managed to complete two parts of music from the whole production. there's still alot mind you. coolness seriously. i felt like i was in a gamelan troupe or something. hehehehe. but aft that was the serious bit. debrief=omg. schedule is super tight. being a costume manager is a headache. i get confuse which costume is whose although i wrote it down. my brain is naturally slow. alot of stuff to buy. not forgetting the props. haha. i have to get everthing ready by 10th may. then there is the music part where i need to learn my instrument, and come up with some nice malay theme music. oh greattt.


i wish there is no such thing as the internet. then maybe i wouldnt be wasting my time blogging here and go and study.then maybe also i will study more. maybes. yeah. then maybe somebody will not call me stupid. then maybe i wouldnt get stinking results. then maybe i will..

ergh. me stupid?

i dont know why, every econs test i will get really really nervous. and its on thurs.
and i vow i will pass my next math test on tues. i stinking finished the tys.
if i dont pass still, then maybe....
whatever la.

chiao.

shopping.

and this dress makes me go gaga.

i am smitten by this shoe. ragh. but abit ex. :(

aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh. i wanna buy buy buy buy. $45 +$37= i'll be dead broke.

thank goodness my throat is wayyy better. only nose is still like a leaking tap.

ah, i better make sure i dont procastinate anymore. since thurs is wasted away because the medicine that i ate made me sleep for hours and hours and hours. time to study. not shopping. raghhhhhhhhhhhhh.

chiao.

cold rock rocks.

wed with sports day was ok i guess. but i was darn bored during the races. and fary kept whining. haha. went to buy cremo, but i didnt la, fary did. and nathan hartono served her. ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

ah choooooooooo. ouchhh. my throat feels like razor blade cutting. coughing. my eyes are dry. my nose is running. ergh. temperature is running too. :(


but dinner with em, enjia and eugene was good! yay. although with such shitty throat. cold rock. ahhh. :))) i had to succumb to temptation. hahaha. i just couldnt resist the white cookie and double choc with cookie dough and tim tam mix in!! wohh. i think it was a good combi. hahaha.

i was feeling relatively happy so i decided to take panadol and sleep at 10pm. which is superrrr early. now, back to mugging.

mug mug mug. econsmatheconsmatheconsmatheconsmatheconsmath.
i'm glad its 1st may. weeeeeeeee.

Ungu-kekasih gelapku. this song has a deeeeepp meaning. simply goood.

its about this guy who loves this girl alot but she doesnt know it. b'cos he knows that they will never be together. but he still loves her alot. and at last she knew it. but it was too late. ahhhwww.

chiao.

work it!

its 1. 41 am. oh my, panda eyes. migraine. booo. i need my sleep. ragh past failures keep haunting me. i still have econs to do. yay.

and i know i cant let it get in the way. i still have to go on. faster this time.

is this it? ohw......

come on work your brain juices!!! wweeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
ohoh, i watched scheherezede on arts central just now. superb. i like that song, just dont know why some people dont like it.

chiao.

aaahhhhhhhhhhhh

alright. i am worked up. by the upcoming tests and all the stuff that i have to catch up 'cos lessons are going at lightning speed. just to keep up is making me breathless. what more to revise for testSSSSS and start studying J1 work.

math binomial and normal distribution revision.
phy geog hydro-rivers revison. lect 1-5
human geog urban topics. lect1-10
malay lit bahasa essay, restu chap 10-15, drama- 3 of these.
macro econs revision for test, essay draft.
gp essay and compre hw. oh, not forgetting read gp package.

DIE. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
ok, i wanna cry now.
and i will not stay at home to study anymore.
noise, com, bed, food, tv. toooooooo much distraction and my nature of short attention span, easily distracted, i need self-discipline and determination. plus, lots of energy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ragh, great, lots of energy yeah when my body is quite screwed up. i can feel the effects of the strong medication i had to be on the past 1 and half week. and the fact that i cant excercise 'cos i lost alot of blood and my left cheek still feels bloated. i need to detox.

ok,ok, now back to gp.

chiao.

chiao.

the worst case of oversleeping

today was the worst case of oversleeping for me. i'm suppose to have my malay lit lesson at 7.30am. and guess what time i woke up? 8.30am! i screamed when i woke up. haiz. i think cikgu is mad at me. :(((((

that thought me something. sleep is important! and today, i felt so tired, i collapsed on the bed. till 8 plus just now. thanks to pride and prejudice yestd. i reached home at 1.30am.

and happy birthday siwei!!!! :)

ok, who's birthday next!? hehe. hint hint.

mcs is gearing up for drama!!! wweeee. it'll be so fun! but alot of work. :(

people tell me to fight for my rights. but who'll support me? i'm afraid. especially when its with that certain people you know... ragh, i dont know.

i should do my work now.
chiao.

pek potttttttttt

pek pot pek pot pek pot pek pottttttttttt. and it goes on. excuse me, do i need to remind you that i'm 18 years old this year?????? freak. gggrrrrr.


gimme my freedom. FREEDOM. i am going to move out of here asap. when i have the financial ability to support myself. thats means getting a good job with a good salary. which in conclusion means i need to study now.

at such an unearthly hour now, just when i have the motivation to study, mum is forcing me to sleep.

just leave me aloneeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. can?

pride and prejudice was really really good. but i lost my ac sweater in the cab. :(((((((((

i'm so angry now, i need ben and jerry's strawberry cheesecake.

its just a dream.

i fought with mum today so that she'll let me go to school. hahaha. kinda funny, imagine your mum forcing you to stay at home. she said that my face still look pale. where got...


hhmm... i miss acband. that i dreamt of me myself playing with sheree and edwin there and dr lee was there too and he said that i wounldnt make it. for what and about what i dont know b'cos it ends there. but he also said that sheree and edwin will make it.

aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.


nah.. its just a dream eh. just a dream..


geog essay and a lit essay just fried my brain.


who wants fried brain? sounds like pisang goreng. yumyum. niceee.
ehehehehehee

i need my beauty sleep. ooooo.

chiao.

E.E

who wants to go to the click five concert!!!!!

erm.. thats suppose to be a question.haha. tell me!!!!

i wanna goooooooo!!

but then eh, its super duper expensive.

i'll be super broke if i really go.hhmm..

hehehe. i'm coming back to school tomorrow!!!!!!!

i'm just feeling super duper euphoric, estatic and enthusiastic to get bck to sch!!

oooo, its aliteration! is it?- e, e. i'm not sure.

bleah whatever.

haha.

chiao.

oh me gosh.

oh me gosh. i tore about half a cm of my gum to reveal abit of bone.

so scary. what should i do now?

oh my god. relax..

the stitches just made it look worse

aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

oh how,how now!

on a lighter note, hehehe. i finished a 2000 word malay lit essay. i feel so accomplished.

hehehehehehe.

chiao.

oh soggy fries!

when mummy allowed me to eat the soggy fries today, i sat outside macs and listened to the country music being blasted while waiting for the taxi, i felt like i am the happiest girl on earth. well, at that moment. hahaha. for the first time in dayssssss i ate solid food. although its only soggy fries. still! its not porridge! everyday is a day nearer to good food! hehe!


i just hate it when some of the actions of my friends showed that their boyfriends are much more important than their friends. (khai, i'm not targeting you ok, this is quite general.) it had happened too many times to me that i felt that i should let this out. its not like their boyfriend are going to be beside them when they broke up. what about before they get hitched? who's beside them? their girlfriends right? not their boyfriends. when they havent get attached yet, wherever they go, its their girlfriends. and when they get attached already, they abandone their girlfirends. it became so difficult just to meet for a few hours. although i booked you like weeks before, you still made plans to go out with him. i'm just hurt. call me petty or what. boyfriends more important than bestfriends huh? i question our relationship now. but i bet you dont see it dont you?

i cant say for sure if i get hitched in the future (if i ever, its not like i even care.)that i wont be like this, but i can assure you, i will be very careful about this.


i'm becoming an owl, i work at night, i sleep in the day. i hope this doesnt affect me when i get back to school.

and i need to go back to school like immediately!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant stand the thought of me being miles behind everyone else. i cant stand this. i feel like i am such a sloth, a glutton, doing nothing at home. (yeah right, rest, recover. i've recovered and back to my normal self. and i've rested too much.)

i thought of sneaking out of the house to go to school. hhmm maybe i should do that...

chiao.

hhhmmm maybe?

oh oh i received a bouqet of flowers today!!! thank you gerdine! :)))))))

yay, thank goodness i'm feeling way betterrrrrrrr.

i think the goodest friends i have are all in band. thats why it meant so much to me. but i guess now i have to set my priorities right. maybe i should think of doing other stuff then playing music. i wont die right. maybe its time i leave band life.hhmmm maybe? i wont die without band right. yeah, maybe...

i just cant imagine the pile of work that i have to rush when i get back to sch. while people are slogging so hard in sch and here i am.. sleeping and eating and watching tv. (oh oh i watched tarzan on kids central! i miss that movie..)

*covers face. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.
but i did try to do my work.... (i guess thats denial when so far, i only did gp) haiz.

maybe i just talk too much. so much for my enthusiasm to study a few months before.

so nowww, no more slacking AT ALL.

ragh.
chiao.

writhing in pain

the tag that all hospital patients had to wear.


the after effects of the op is just horrible ok. horrible. plus the fact that i miss acband and cant go swiss. i dont want to imagine the pile of work that i have to catch up when i get back to school. thinking abt my grades and a levels makes me feel nauseous.

some complication occurred during the op so i had 2 op instead of 1. hurhurrrr....

my face look like a puffer fish. the powerful antibiotics and painkilers makes me giddy and groggy and nauseous. i cant even stand, or else i just collapse to the floor. i cant eat, i'll just puke evrything out again. and the bleeding just wont stop.

aaaaaaahhhhhhh, save me. i feel like puking now. ergh, disgusting.