its been ages since i've updated. 4 weeks of school. i cant say its was bad. but i expected it to be better. nonetheless, i'm glad my project grp members were truly cooperative and responsible despite being such playful guys. :)) found a suju+2pm addict like me. haha. we're good friends now. hehe. oh, found a leeteuk and siwon twin in my course. *faints* but i need to focus. my concentration span is only 5 secs i think. gosh, i gotta buck up, focus and study.
its a week into ramadhan. missing many people. and, and...sigh, hiq is going away.. :(
nickhun!! :)) *melts....
guess that abt it.
chiao.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
projects.
rabak ah i thought my proj is easy peasy. yeah right. easy peasy to comprehend ONLY. but when i ponder and analyse the questions, shit. oh nooooooooooooo. ah my brain's quite fried from accounts and economic analysis eh. tmr accounts again. cash balance, brought forward, marking up. oh new homework and new project! omg. how many projects seh.
thinking back again, some of the stuff that i did when i was working in income was actually very relevant to what i am studying now! hehehe.
and omg, my coursemates are like how frighteningly competitive. damn.
but BRING IT ON BEYBEH!
hahaha.
chiao.
thinking back again, some of the stuff that i did when i was working in income was actually very relevant to what i am studying now! hehehe.
and omg, my coursemates are like how frighteningly competitive. damn.
but BRING IT ON BEYBEH!
hahaha.
chiao.
Thursday, August 06, 2009
paranoia
maybe i'm just being paranoid. i'm panicking. i really need to study. i cant imagine myself failing. oh my, impossible.
ahhh.
chiao.
ahhh.
chiao.
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
SCHOOL
1st day of school and i was late! hehehe. but things turned out well after that.
NOW! geram ah. i cant log in to acess my schedule, print course notes, assingments, etc. ahhh how! no notes for tmr's lesson!
but happy. :D nonetheless.
chiao!
NOW! geram ah. i cant log in to acess my schedule, print course notes, assingments, etc. ahhh how! no notes for tmr's lesson!
but happy. :D nonetheless.
chiao!
Sunday, August 02, 2009
<3 suju!
suju made my day yet again! and made me cry too! reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy love then.
ohkay, school's tmr!! wwwwwwwwwwwweeee. egg-citing!
me-> ELF! wohooo!
chiao!
ohkay, school's tmr!! wwwwwwwwwwwweeee. egg-citing!
me-> ELF! wohooo!
chiao!
Friday, July 31, 2009
merepeks.
this is so merepek. its like politics between menopausal half-a-century aunties who has no life. wtf. AND I AM CAUGHT IN BETWEEN IT. f-la.
aahh.
i is missing someone.
ohoh. i love this song!
chiao.
aahh.
i is missing someone.
ohoh. i love this song!
chiao.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
sigh
teaching isnt an easy thing eh. it doesnt just involve the student and teacher, but also the student's parents. what makes it worst is that the student doesnt co-operate but wants results. the mother, being on the student's side will protect her. the teacher on the other hand wants to teach her so badly but cant get anything to work out. that just suck.
i hate being forced to do things that i do not want. i hhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttttteeeeeeeeeeeeeeee it.
omg. i feel so angry. and you always know how to look so sympathetic that i will eventually give in. and if i dont, you'll say all those hurtful things that i never seem to be able to forget. its painful. and when i do something good, its never acknowledged or appreciated. thats so nice of you. you always want your way but i never got to do anything my way.
somehow, it frustrates me that i cant do anything to change the situation. its frustrates me even more that no one is listening to me. it frustrates me even more that no one else here wants to do anything abt it and keep asking me to do something. i'm not a superwoman ah.
guess all this while i was only in denial. trying to convince my self that i'm alright.
chiao.
i hate being forced to do things that i do not want. i hhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttttteeeeeeeeeeeeeeee it.
omg. i feel so angry. and you always know how to look so sympathetic that i will eventually give in. and if i dont, you'll say all those hurtful things that i never seem to be able to forget. its painful. and when i do something good, its never acknowledged or appreciated. thats so nice of you. you always want your way but i never got to do anything my way.
somehow, it frustrates me that i cant do anything to change the situation. its frustrates me even more that no one is listening to me. it frustrates me even more that no one else here wants to do anything abt it and keep asking me to do something. i'm not a superwoman ah.
guess all this while i was only in denial. trying to convince my self that i'm alright.
chiao.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
run
i dont know whats wrong with blogger or mine IE. the layout is all screwed up!
hhmmm. sigh.
i wanna run away from here.bye.
chiao.
hhmmm. sigh.
i wanna run away from here.bye.
chiao.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
:)))
this is oh so cute.
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH. suju just got themselves a new fan!!!
alright, i'm stopping work like soon. kinda sad but i cant wait for school. :D although i dont know excatly whos in sim. BUT I AM SO GONNA ENJOY MY UNI DAYS. muahahahahaha. and study hard!
orientation next week! wwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. ohoh! mandaki approved my loan. heh.
chiao.
Thursday, July 09, 2009
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Sunday, July 05, 2009
triangled.
yesterday was.. awesome. although the heat was terrifying. i was wearing 4 layers altogether! omg.
but we had great fun! :) and we got good comments. hhmm, i wonder what. haha. oh man, work tmr. sigh. 20th july, come quick!
i love triangles. from toa cah soh, phythogoras thoerem, to finding areas. those were my best topics in math. but being in a relationship triangle is HORRIGIBLE. what am i to do? zomg. but 1 thing for sure, i will never hurt my own friend.
chiao.
but we had great fun! :) and we got good comments. hhmm, i wonder what. haha. oh man, work tmr. sigh. 20th july, come quick!
i love triangles. from toa cah soh, phythogoras thoerem, to finding areas. those were my best topics in math. but being in a relationship triangle is HORRIGIBLE. what am i to do? zomg. but 1 thing for sure, i will never hurt my own friend.
chiao.
Thursday, July 02, 2009
unfathomable
i did an unthinkable. furthermore, i didnt even realise until the cars were horning at me. omg..
whats wrong with you!
chiao.
whats wrong with you!
chiao.
Monday, June 29, 2009
poke poke
like the stupidest person on earth. me.
damn pissed.
its like so horrible to make fun of people's weaknesses and laugh at them, make them into a joke. its not funny. its not like they want to be like that. what if you are fat and your friends calls you fatso or roti pound like that. or if your hair is like damn bushy and curly and they liken you to mak hitam from the jerangkung movie? funny uh. but if its you then how will you feel? especially when the people who made you look so pathetic are your friends? your own damn fucking friends. then maybe they should never have been called friends in the first place right.
i cant help it if i am very blur, clumsy or weird. sometimes i wish i wasnt. maybe abit more smarter like the rest of my friends. then maybe people wont laugh at my stupidity, my clumsiness and maybe i wont get on people's nerves for being such a blur king kong. maybe i wont disappoint my family for not living up to their expectations. maybe i will be able to get better results and get easily into a real uni. maybe, i would have done better in band then maybe i will be able to join the rest in.... maybe then.. maybe-s. ah, shall stop here. dont want to re-account my life story.
but i'm not. so i shall stick to being me. accept it or just fuck off yea.
i've had my fair share of being poked at.
chiao.
damn pissed.
its like so horrible to make fun of people's weaknesses and laugh at them, make them into a joke. its not funny. its not like they want to be like that. what if you are fat and your friends calls you fatso or roti pound like that. or if your hair is like damn bushy and curly and they liken you to mak hitam from the jerangkung movie? funny uh. but if its you then how will you feel? especially when the people who made you look so pathetic are your friends? your own damn fucking friends. then maybe they should never have been called friends in the first place right.
i cant help it if i am very blur, clumsy or weird. sometimes i wish i wasnt. maybe abit more smarter like the rest of my friends. then maybe people wont laugh at my stupidity, my clumsiness and maybe i wont get on people's nerves for being such a blur king kong. maybe i wont disappoint my family for not living up to their expectations. maybe i will be able to get better results and get easily into a real uni. maybe, i would have done better in band then maybe i will be able to join the rest in.... maybe then.. maybe-s. ah, shall stop here. dont want to re-account my life story.
but i'm not. so i shall stick to being me. accept it or just fuck off yea.
i've had my fair share of being poked at.
chiao.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
decisions
green day's 21 guns is awesome.
i like white and sushi+ramen.
how random
i got another offer from rmit.
and i dont know which to choose! omg.
tmr must register already. howhowhow.
chiao.
oh transformers was unbelieveably good.
i like white and sushi+ramen.
how random
i got another offer from rmit.
and i dont know which to choose! omg.
tmr must register already. howhowhow.
chiao.
oh transformers was unbelieveably good.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
FINALLY
this is good!
but this is damn hilarious!
anyway. sim accepted me. yeyey! like finally man. and i cant wait for my contract to end. although that means an exponantial decline in my expenses and....heh. no more shoes. sigh. and sushi binging. but best of all, no more looking at pantat kuali's face! yes!
so last week went to jb, then on wed went to chek jawa :) then fri was sushi feast with the girls. will post pics soon. sat was band prac and concert. best! i should have joined alumni! i especially liked the first song. good job acband. <3! alright, transformers tomorrow! wwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeee. oh and sushi with fellow makciks eh. hah.
its not that i dont want to tell you whats happening in my life. just that i'm not ready to pry open myself and tell what i'm really feeling ang thinking. well, there sure is alot on my mind...
chiao.
but this is damn hilarious!
anyway. sim accepted me. yeyey! like finally man. and i cant wait for my contract to end. although that means an exponantial decline in my expenses and....heh. no more shoes. sigh. and sushi binging. but best of all, no more looking at pantat kuali's face! yes!
so last week went to jb, then on wed went to chek jawa :) then fri was sushi feast with the girls. will post pics soon. sat was band prac and concert. best! i should have joined alumni! i especially liked the first song. good job acband. <3! alright, transformers tomorrow! wwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeee. oh and sushi with fellow makciks eh. hah.
its not that i dont want to tell you whats happening in my life. just that i'm not ready to pry open myself and tell what i'm really feeling ang thinking. well, there sure is alot on my mind...
chiao.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
fight!
how apt.
its like when you've finally have picked yourself back up again, you're thrown back into the bottomless pit of darkness.
now, whats your next plan?
and best thing of all, you're all alone. wow. great huh.
and tmr work. see that pantat kuali's face again. cb.
chiao.
Sunday, June 07, 2009
desperate
i'm getting desperate. i really dont know what to do. these days, i'd rather talk less.
i wished i could have gone for the tune in. miss them.
from the mad rush in the morning to pack, get dressed and rush to school. missed the stooopid bus. late for band. arrive like some star karat. get labelled as the lady in pink. yeah i have started wearing pink. yuck. then on to outdoors. the heat was effingggggggggg intense. then to ecp coffee bean where abg farhan got us girls to ride in his car!!!!!!!!! and had a kecoh time in the car. haha. toured ECP in the car for like.... 2 hours? haha. got to pit 42D and chilled. cycled. bacame superman for awhile. got hurt. HAHAHA. bike spoilt. for a moment wished i had edward cullen. haha. no choice, had to call my heroes and heroins. yay! saved me and cleaned wound. ate. cleaned up and home sweet home. detailed enough? ok, tired. sleep!
i think i reeeeeally like cycling!
oh happy birthday irna and safiqah!
chiao.
i wished i could have gone for the tune in. miss them.
from the mad rush in the morning to pack, get dressed and rush to school. missed the stooopid bus. late for band. arrive like some star karat. get labelled as the lady in pink. yeah i have started wearing pink. yuck. then on to outdoors. the heat was effingggggggggg intense. then to ecp coffee bean where abg farhan got us girls to ride in his car!!!!!!!!! and had a kecoh time in the car. haha. toured ECP in the car for like.... 2 hours? haha. got to pit 42D and chilled. cycled. bacame superman for awhile. got hurt. HAHAHA. bike spoilt. for a moment wished i had edward cullen. haha. no choice, had to call my heroes and heroins. yay! saved me and cleaned wound. ate. cleaned up and home sweet home. detailed enough? ok, tired. sleep!
i think i reeeeeally like cycling!
oh happy birthday irna and safiqah!
chiao.
Thursday, June 04, 2009
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
fight!
i will do whatever it takes and everything so that i wont regret it later for the rest of my life.
ah headache.
chiao.
ah headache.
chiao.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
fight!
ah 3 days! threeeeeeeeeeee days exactly for me to think of something to convince them that i'm worth it.
but WHAT!?
ahhh, i'm going crazy thinking abt this. seriously.
my future. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.
aja!
chiao.
but WHAT!?
ahhh, i'm going crazy thinking abt this. seriously.
my future. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.
aja!
chiao.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
a new single girl swag. :)
i want nobody nobody but you!
hahahaa.
wwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
chiao.
Friday, May 29, 2009
a new single girl swag. :)
ok, ok... so i should not be so woozy and yaya and all. i should stand up again and smile. get mentally prepared for whatever thats coming. and.. plan b!
hhmmm...
6 days straight of not seeing you. thats a record.sigh... anyway, i should learn to say goodbye to you now.
oh yes, i cut my hair like reallllllly short. haha. and its kindaa... straight? haha!
wwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeee!
chiao!
hhmmm...
6 days straight of not seeing you. thats a record.sigh... anyway, i should learn to say goodbye to you now.
oh yes, i cut my hair like reallllllly short. haha. and its kindaa... straight? haha!
wwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeee!
chiao!
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Saturday, May 23, 2009
weeks and weeks and weeks.
i love these girls. no matter how rotten i feel that day, they always manage to make me laugh hard. haha. so if you say in 2 weeks time... does that include this week? then the second week will be next week right? so its next week or the week after? its next week right right?
haaaaaaaaaaaaa. i have to stop this.
ahhhhhhh painful la.
btw, my hand is still swollen la. ouch.
chiao.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Monday, May 18, 2009
i wonder
i really wonder who is the girl. he said 2 weeks time.
fat hope girl. whatever.
i cant wait for wednesday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
chiao.
fat hope girl. whatever.
i cant wait for wednesday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
chiao.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
missing
actually this thing has been going on for quite sometime. i dreamt of my ac friends. yeah a few times. it sounds like.. oh well, its just a dream. but i dreamt of them leaving me. and i cried. yeah i freaked out. thinking abt it again now... i realise that i miss them. yes i really do. these are just words. but my heart is really aching.
been so busy with work, tuition, work tuition. i dont even msg to say helo or anything like that. i'm such a horrible friend. or come back to ac, support them during syf or just say a simple how are you. horrible me. sorry.
anyway, mon was awesome. thanks khai, hiq, aishah r. one of the craziest night i ever had. oh, my hand is still swollen uh. hahaa.
my goal 1) get in a uni and study like madddddddd 'cos i want my degree!
2) get erhmmmm.
but i can say good bye to both. i guess.
feeling horribly melancholic. i hope tmr's band prac will cheer me up.
chiao.
been so busy with work, tuition, work tuition. i dont even msg to say helo or anything like that. i'm such a horrible friend. or come back to ac, support them during syf or just say a simple how are you. horrible me. sorry.
anyway, mon was awesome. thanks khai, hiq, aishah r. one of the craziest night i ever had. oh, my hand is still swollen uh. hahaa.
my goal 1) get in a uni and study like madddddddd 'cos i want my degree!
2) get erhmmmm.
but i can say good bye to both. i guess.
feeling horribly melancholic. i hope tmr's band prac will cheer me up.
chiao.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
FINALLY
finally my laptop has internet connection again. thank goodness. now i can blog regularly again.
suffocation. dreams. solitude.
i wish i could do something.
finally, i am 19. eee so old!
haha. but today just feels like any other. no different. however, thanks for the wishes, presents and cakes and surprises. :)
i need to sleep. tmr will be another tiring suffocating day to deal with pantat kuali. ergh.
chiao.
suffocation. dreams. solitude.
i wish i could do something.
finally, i am 19. eee so old!
haha. but today just feels like any other. no different. however, thanks for the wishes, presents and cakes and surprises. :)
i need to sleep. tmr will be another tiring suffocating day to deal with pantat kuali. ergh.
chiao.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
ergh
all i want to do now is face is the vast ocean and scream
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
GIVE ME MY FRINGING FREEDOM.
ragh.
chiao.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
GIVE ME MY FRINGING FREEDOM.
ragh.
chiao.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
bored
01. Who was your last text from?
aishah razak!
02. Where was your default profile picture taken?
default pic for fb's from KL.
03. Your relationship status?
single, free and INDEPENDENT! hahaa
04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
duh.
05. What is your current mood?
pretty confused.
06. How many siblings do you have?
2.
07. What are the names of your brothers/sisters?
shazwani, shamil
08. Where do you wish you were right now?
with ... ehehehe.
09. Have a crazy side?
crazy psycho or crazy fun? yarh duh. know me well enough and you can answer this yourself.
10. Ever had a near-death experience?
i dont think a teeth surgery is considered a near-death experience right? although its scary enough for me.
11. Something you do a lot?
eat. and sing alot. hahaaaha
12. Angry at someone?
me self actually
13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
i shy laaaaaaaaaaaa. muahahahahahaha.
14. When was the last time you cried?
eerrr, a long time ago. haha.
15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
yarh, many people. the ones i love.
16. What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
HAHAHAHAHA. and the things to do the next day.
17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
i dont remember, i text alot.
18. What is your favourite song?
it changes from time to time.. craig david insomnia. haha.
19. What are you doing right now?
supposed to be researching for scholarships and study loans... but as usual, i digressed. hehe.
20. Who do you trust right now?
god.
21. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
omg. terengganu, in malaysia.
22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
ehhwwww. no.
23. Who is your close friend who lives closest to you?
who lives near and is close to me! alot laa.
24. Describe your life in one word?
beautifully imperfect.
25. Who are you thinking of right now?
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
26. What should you be doing right now?
searching for that stupid study loan so that i can study overseas!!!
27. What are you listening to?
holst jupiter yo!
28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
eheheheeee. shant sayyyy. wwwwwweeeeeeeeeeee.
29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
my mummy who is still asking me to sleep. grr.
30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
i dont react. i froze in front of him. hahahhahaa.
31. What is your natural hair colour?
Black laa.
32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
ooo. aisyah sazali. hahaha.
33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
oh shut up, dont remind me.
34. What do you hear?
now its tchaikovsky's nutcracker! sweett!!
35. Is your hair curly or straight?
curlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
HAHAHA NO.
37. Do you have a best friend?
sadly she left me. sigh.
38. Held hands with someone of the opposite sex in the last three days?
ehehehe. next question!
39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
wahhh alot!
40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
uh, ehw, NOH!
41. Are you happy with life right now?
pretty content (:
42. Are you currently jealous?
maybe.
43. What jewelry are you currently wearing?
stupid gold bangle that i am forced to wear.
44. What were you doing on Friday night?
section outing!!!
45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yeahhhh!
46. Have you ever broken someone else's heart?
i think so. hehehe.
47. Is there anybody you're disappointed in right now?
maybe...
48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
to check my teeth la. what else seh.
50. Have you ever dated someone for longer than a year?
not yet. (:
ok, i am bored and i am digressing. sigh.
friday: section outing! photos will be up soon. haha. yeah realllllll soon.
sat: hiq's wedding. eh no. hahaha, hiq brother's wedding. photos will be up soon too.
sun=boring.
monday= a dread.
so yes, i am applying overseas uni. but malaysia only la! hahahaha. but its still a headache. gosh, so many things to prepare. bank statements, ic, passport, certs, appraisals, photos. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. and my bills to pay. ok, so this is yet another step towards independence.
hhmm, i should be asleep, if i were to wake up early to jog in the morning.
chiao.
aishah razak!
02. Where was your default profile picture taken?
default pic for fb's from KL.
03. Your relationship status?
single, free and INDEPENDENT! hahaa
04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
duh.
05. What is your current mood?
pretty confused.
06. How many siblings do you have?
2.
07. What are the names of your brothers/sisters?
shazwani, shamil
08. Where do you wish you were right now?
with ... ehehehe.
09. Have a crazy side?
crazy psycho or crazy fun? yarh duh. know me well enough and you can answer this yourself.
10. Ever had a near-death experience?
i dont think a teeth surgery is considered a near-death experience right? although its scary enough for me.
11. Something you do a lot?
eat. and sing alot. hahaaaha
12. Angry at someone?
me self actually
13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
i shy laaaaaaaaaaaa. muahahahahahaha.
14. When was the last time you cried?
eerrr, a long time ago. haha.
15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
yarh, many people. the ones i love.
16. What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
HAHAHAHAHA. and the things to do the next day.
17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
i dont remember, i text alot.
18. What is your favourite song?
it changes from time to time.. craig david insomnia. haha.
19. What are you doing right now?
supposed to be researching for scholarships and study loans... but as usual, i digressed. hehe.
20. Who do you trust right now?
god.
21. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
omg. terengganu, in malaysia.
22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
ehhwwww. no.
23. Who is your close friend who lives closest to you?
who lives near and is close to me! alot laa.
24. Describe your life in one word?
beautifully imperfect.
25. Who are you thinking of right now?
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
26. What should you be doing right now?
searching for that stupid study loan so that i can study overseas!!!
27. What are you listening to?
holst jupiter yo!
28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
eheheheeee. shant sayyyy. wwwwwweeeeeeeeeeee.
29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
my mummy who is still asking me to sleep. grr.
30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
i dont react. i froze in front of him. hahahhahaa.
31. What is your natural hair colour?
Black laa.
32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
ooo. aisyah sazali. hahaha.
33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
oh shut up, dont remind me.
34. What do you hear?
now its tchaikovsky's nutcracker! sweett!!
35. Is your hair curly or straight?
curlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
HAHAHA NO.
37. Do you have a best friend?
sadly she left me. sigh.
38. Held hands with someone of the opposite sex in the last three days?
ehehehe. next question!
39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
wahhh alot!
40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
uh, ehw, NOH!
41. Are you happy with life right now?
pretty content (:
42. Are you currently jealous?
maybe.
43. What jewelry are you currently wearing?
stupid gold bangle that i am forced to wear.
44. What were you doing on Friday night?
section outing!!!
45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yeahhhh!
46. Have you ever broken someone else's heart?
i think so. hehehe.
47. Is there anybody you're disappointed in right now?
maybe...
48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
to check my teeth la. what else seh.
50. Have you ever dated someone for longer than a year?
not yet. (:
ok, i am bored and i am digressing. sigh.
friday: section outing! photos will be up soon. haha. yeah realllllll soon.
sat: hiq's wedding. eh no. hahaha, hiq brother's wedding. photos will be up soon too.
sun=boring.
monday= a dread.
so yes, i am applying overseas uni. but malaysia only la! hahahaha. but its still a headache. gosh, so many things to prepare. bank statements, ic, passport, certs, appraisals, photos. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. and my bills to pay. ok, so this is yet another step towards independence.
hhmm, i should be asleep, if i were to wake up early to jog in the morning.
chiao.
Sunday, April 05, 2009
intuition
what do you do when you feel like something bad is going to happen?
i have this strong intuition that tomorrow... i'll be in deep trouble.
call me impractical or paranoid, my intuition is almost always right.
not that i want it to be right this time though..
oh fresh bulggoggi anytime soon girls? heh.
and no, i dont want to screw up again. please. sigh.
i love this song.
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
working afficially sucks
been soooooooooo effing lazy to blog.
moved house. so small, no privacy at all. sigh. work's getting worse. yes, i wanna quit asap. i think i need an anger management course to deal with kids. especially special ones like my brother.
After the 10th question....
Question: factorise 16x-32xy
bro: 16(x-2x)
me: zomgggggggggggggggg. you still dont understand is it?
another question
me: 14 /2=?
bro: 8
me: 89uYT*V^TRE%U^&TRF^%R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so many things on my mind, i dont know how to get it out.
have you ever felt wronged? like you meant well but somehow other people sees it as otherwise? its sad that these kind of things happen yeah. sigh.
i shall get back to work...
chiao.
moved house. so small, no privacy at all. sigh. work's getting worse. yes, i wanna quit asap. i think i need an anger management course to deal with kids. especially special ones like my brother.
After the 10th question....
Question: factorise 16x-32xy
bro: 16(x-2x)
me: zomgggggggggggggggg. you still dont understand is it?
another question
me: 14 /2=?
bro: 8
me: 89uYT*V^TRE%U^&TRF^%R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so many things on my mind, i dont know how to get it out.
have you ever felt wronged? like you meant well but somehow other people sees it as otherwise? its sad that these kind of things happen yeah. sigh.
i shall get back to work...
chiao.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
vivooooooooooooo+swensensssssssssss
breakfast was supposed to be at 10 am. but everyone arrived at 11am. haha. typical of my friends. had swensens plus ice cream at holland v. then went back ac. ahwww i mishmishmish ac! saw mr mash and ms leow and we talked. met shahrul and seha. and its vivocity time! but sadly the shop are friging expensive. sigh. i need to shop. badly. i need clothes. most of them needs stitching up haha.
then its tuition time. (yes aish r. , i am a tuition teacher now :D lets wait for aishj eh haha) this time my student seriously made me quite angry. and she became scared! haha. try to be funny again! ugh. kids, can be so irritating sometimes.
oh, chewy brownies coming soon girls! :))
chiao.
then its tuition time. (yes aish r. , i am a tuition teacher now :D lets wait for aishj eh haha) this time my student seriously made me quite angry. and she became scared! haha. try to be funny again! ugh. kids, can be so irritating sometimes.
oh, chewy brownies coming soon girls! :))
chiao.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
dreams and baking
i wish, i wish...
i'm itching to bake bake bake.i've got a list of things i wanna bake
hhmm, brownies, cupcakes, try some raspberry tarts and chiffon cake.
heeeee.
but sadly, i've got to pack my stuff.
sigh.
packing is sososo troublesome.
chiao.
i have dreamed of dreams that will only be dreams.Sunday, February 15, 2009
wedding
i've got to get this out of my chest.
i cant stinking believe he'll be engaged in 2 weeks time. *rolls around in frustration.
SIGH. and with a VIP from across the causeway furthermore. ouch. oh wells, suits his status as a doc.
anyway, the drama that unfolded today was one of a kind. the day started out quite normally. what with kak's tantrums in the mornings, the normal screaming to get shamil out of the bed and all. we three siblings got lost while trying to get to lagun sari for cousin's wedding. and kak, out of frustration for not being able to find the way there started crying. seriously, what the hell is wrong with her man. its just getting lost.. big deal.anyway, got to lagun sari, met mum and dad who were chauffered by cik nasir. lucky them. its was blistering hot la dey, some more wearing that thick, itchy songket baju kurung. ugh. and then went up and ta dahh! the first face i see is that doctor.gawd. i was precisely trying to avoid that guy. so i tried to be interested in the food. heh, good idea man, food always works. anyway, ate and caught up with other relatives. gee, it was so indian. henna, hindi songs and indian costumes were like everywhere. coolness. and the bride is all time georgeous. i think all brides will look ravishing no matter what. so aft that, yeah, wanted to went up to the third floor to be with my aunts but suddenly my father called out, oi! look theres an accident. so, we kpos, went out to look. so there were alot of, 'what happened? what happened??' haha. kecoh seh. anyway, the doctor (ok la, he is actually one of my cousins but one of a kind hehehe.) came out and asked, eh what happend? so my father say oh got accident. my uncle blurted out, eh doctor, go help! then.. he rushed down and went to the victim's side. like how heroic is that! my cousin is treating an accident victim onsite! heeeeeeeeee. so the ambulance came and took the victim away. caused quite a commotion. anyway, we lingered around and chatted. and my mum asked for a lift home. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i think today i can die of adrenelin overdose. gawd.
in addition i had to battle questions like when am i going to get married. aiyoooooooooooo. somebody save meeeeeeeeeeeee.
tomorrow work again. sigh.
chiao.
i cant stinking believe he'll be engaged in 2 weeks time. *rolls around in frustration.
SIGH. and with a VIP from across the causeway furthermore. ouch. oh wells, suits his status as a doc.
anyway, the drama that unfolded today was one of a kind. the day started out quite normally. what with kak's tantrums in the mornings, the normal screaming to get shamil out of the bed and all. we three siblings got lost while trying to get to lagun sari for cousin's wedding. and kak, out of frustration for not being able to find the way there started crying. seriously, what the hell is wrong with her man. its just getting lost.. big deal.anyway, got to lagun sari, met mum and dad who were chauffered by cik nasir. lucky them. its was blistering hot la dey, some more wearing that thick, itchy songket baju kurung. ugh. and then went up and ta dahh! the first face i see is that doctor.gawd. i was precisely trying to avoid that guy. so i tried to be interested in the food. heh, good idea man, food always works. anyway, ate and caught up with other relatives. gee, it was so indian. henna, hindi songs and indian costumes were like everywhere. coolness. and the bride is all time georgeous. i think all brides will look ravishing no matter what. so aft that, yeah, wanted to went up to the third floor to be with my aunts but suddenly my father called out, oi! look theres an accident. so, we kpos, went out to look. so there were alot of, 'what happened? what happened??' haha. kecoh seh. anyway, the doctor (ok la, he is actually one of my cousins but one of a kind hehehe.) came out and asked, eh what happend? so my father say oh got accident. my uncle blurted out, eh doctor, go help! then.. he rushed down and went to the victim's side. like how heroic is that! my cousin is treating an accident victim onsite! heeeeeeeeee. so the ambulance came and took the victim away. caused quite a commotion. anyway, we lingered around and chatted. and my mum asked for a lift home. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i think today i can die of adrenelin overdose. gawd.
in addition i had to battle questions like when am i going to get married. aiyoooooooooooo. somebody save meeeeeeeeeeeee.
tomorrow work again. sigh.
chiao.
Friday, February 13, 2009
friday the 13th
oh no! i thought i had so much to type here. but when this window open my mind just went . yeah, blank.
oh!oh! i remember!
friday the 13th.
a day that stays true to its name. today sucked. got scolded yet again by my supervisor. (i dont think i was that bad.. seriously...)the interns are giving me headaches. had a meeting first thing in the morning and it went badly. sosososo much work to do. and work to be redone because some other people did it wrongly. sigh. i'm still pissed by my late late pay cheque. grrr. thank god irritating A didnt come today, though H is present. i was under audit today. hmm. my students are a headache too. one is taking psle and the other is too hyper. and managing your own finance isnt that easy afterall huh.
enough whining. i'll manage all that. tomorrow is V day! wwwwwwweeeeeeeeeee. this reminds me of the V days in ac. so much love, i feel so happy and warm. happy V day people!
chiao.
oh!oh! i remember!
friday the 13th.
a day that stays true to its name. today sucked. got scolded yet again by my supervisor. (i dont think i was that bad.. seriously...)the interns are giving me headaches. had a meeting first thing in the morning and it went badly. sosososo much work to do. and work to be redone because some other people did it wrongly. sigh. i'm still pissed by my late late pay cheque. grrr. thank god irritating A didnt come today, though H is present. i was under audit today. hmm. my students are a headache too. one is taking psle and the other is too hyper. and managing your own finance isnt that easy afterall huh.
enough whining. i'll manage all that. tomorrow is V day! wwwwwwweeeeeeeeeee. this reminds me of the V days in ac. so much love, i feel so happy and warm. happy V day people!
chiao.
Monday, February 09, 2009
revival
kah-ching! this blog is revived! ok, crap.
anyways.. i'm tired. work, tuition. work tuition. and work and tuition and it goes on. life's quite mundane recently. the only exciting thing maybe.. tmr is pay day.heh. maybe that'll make me happier. oh and pasta mania is finally halal! attackkkkkk! haha. and gerd's flying tmr. :( and heard that results will be out like real soon. erghhhhhhhhhhhh. i just want to get into a uni. thats all. sigh.
i think i'm getting along better with my collegues. i'm talking the mak cik way to them. heee.
but still no lunch buddy. sigh.
my eyes are drooping...
chiao.
anyways.. i'm tired. work, tuition. work tuition. and work and tuition and it goes on. life's quite mundane recently. the only exciting thing maybe.. tmr is pay day.heh. maybe that'll make me happier. oh and pasta mania is finally halal! attackkkkkk! haha. and gerd's flying tmr. :( and heard that results will be out like real soon. erghhhhhhhhhhhh. i just want to get into a uni. thats all. sigh.
i think i'm getting along better with my collegues. i'm talking the mak cik way to them. heee.
but still no lunch buddy. sigh.
my eyes are drooping...
chiao.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
its time, to move on.
i realise now. why i never want to listen to their rantings abt the 'good times', look at the many many pictures taken, the stories, the jokes made there and anything associated with it. the answer is simple, it still hurt. and alot.
unconciously, i was avoiding all that because i didnt want to feel the pain again. to face it. and now, confronting it was just as painful as during the days, weeks, months that it unfolds. although its been quite sometime.
i thought i was stronger though. well, let go and move on girl. its over.
writitng a book sounds great.
i feel horrigible. CHOCOLATESSSSSSSSS WHERE ARE YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!!
ohoh! happy 19th birthday shereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! haha. :)
chiao.
unconciously, i was avoiding all that because i didnt want to feel the pain again. to face it. and now, confronting it was just as painful as during the days, weeks, months that it unfolds. although its been quite sometime.
i thought i was stronger though. well, let go and move on girl. its over.
writitng a book sounds great.
i feel horrigible. CHOCOLATESSSSSSSSS WHERE ARE YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!!
ohoh! happy 19th birthday shereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! haha. :)
chiao.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
hahahaha-choooo. erhm.
i realise that its been ages since i blogged. haha. 'cos theres nothing interesting happening in my life.
well, with the exception of the emergence of an interesting person to spice up my life, to make me gush and blush occasionally (hahahahaha-chooo!) and the occasional meet ups with friends. like last fri.. hhm, mission accomplished but with much agony. sigh. i learnt one good lesson. guys do not make good shopping buddy. tsk i need someone who can go crazy just looking at a pair of shoes, and dont get tired randomly going in and out of shops for hours. hahaha. no offence guys. :D
anyways, tomorrow is working day again!!! i hope i dont get scolded again. sigh. well, its only human to make mistakes right. some people just dont realise that i guess.
i still need a lunch buddy....
chiao.
well, with the exception of the emergence of an interesting person to spice up my life, to make me gush and blush occasionally (hahahahaha-chooo!) and the occasional meet ups with friends. like last fri.. hhm, mission accomplished but with much agony. sigh. i learnt one good lesson. guys do not make good shopping buddy. tsk i need someone who can go crazy just looking at a pair of shoes, and dont get tired randomly going in and out of shops for hours. hahaha. no offence guys. :D
anyways, tomorrow is working day again!!! i hope i dont get scolded again. sigh. well, its only human to make mistakes right. some people just dont realise that i guess.
i still need a lunch buddy....
chiao.
Sunday, January 04, 2009
lunch buddy. where are you?
overdued photos. oreo cheesecake and sheperd's pie.
weekends are making me fatfatfat. i just baked chewy sticky brownies which is super duper uber easy.
hhmm, work tomorrow. i really could do with a lunch buddy man.
chiao.
Saturday, January 03, 2009
crossroads
its easy to lose true friends but difficult to find one.
i should really try to stay in touch with friends.
and what about all those talk about not caring about what people talk or thinks about you?
easier said than done.
and i think i'm taking on a second job. i need it.
chiao.
i should really try to stay in touch with friends.
and what about all those talk about not caring about what people talk or thinks about you?
easier said than done.
and i think i'm taking on a second job. i need it.
chiao.
Friday, January 02, 2009
a request
hhmm, i have a request.
tell me, how am i? as in, am i an arrogant person?selfish? smart? anything. just anything abt myself. i wanna know. if its bad, i wanna change and improve myself you know. anybody. really, if you know me, just say it. its ok if you wanna label yourself as anonymous or 'shaheera's bestest best friend' or 'shaheera's greatest enemy' or 'shaheera's boyfriend' you know. i dont care. (hehe, i dont mind BB though ooppss!)
just tell me what kind of a person i am. i need it. say on the tag board.
thank you, you'll be doing me a great favour.
but i still think its not fair for people to judge you when they dont actually know you. right?
chiao.
tell me, how am i? as in, am i an arrogant person?selfish? smart? anything. just anything abt myself. i wanna know. if its bad, i wanna change and improve myself you know. anybody. really, if you know me, just say it. its ok if you wanna label yourself as anonymous or 'shaheera's bestest best friend' or 'shaheera's greatest enemy' or 'shaheera's boyfriend' you know. i dont care. (hehe, i dont mind BB though ooppss!)
just tell me what kind of a person i am. i need it. say on the tag board.
thank you, you'll be doing me a great favour.
but i still think its not fair for people to judge you when they dont actually know you. right?
chiao.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
ragh
growing up isnt something so easy after all eh.
i knew that but never actually really embrace it.
i miss school to make my life a hell, friends to nonsense-nonsense with, band to make music, mcs to have fun, running to fall down again (hahahaha), screaming on the rooftop, laughing just to be happy. oooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i miss my friends.
work has been keeping me busy and tired. but busy in the way that i sit in front of the com everyday and stare at it without talking with anyone... then when i'm out of office, i'll be so bored that i'll start pacing arnd at home. wanna go out but i'm under her clutches. no life right. tsk.
how do i break away from them and get my well deserved freedom?how long will this be? they need to realise i'm no more a lilttle girl. but they just wont accept it. i guess i'll have to try the harder way then. too bad.
hate it when people force me to do something. like wiping and scrubbing the floor with my bare hands. :( and this isnt trivial for me. ggrrrr.
i should find something to do that makes me happy.
but what?
chiao.
i knew that but never actually really embrace it.
i miss school to make my life a hell, friends to nonsense-nonsense with, band to make music, mcs to have fun, running to fall down again (hahahaha), screaming on the rooftop, laughing just to be happy. oooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i miss my friends.
work has been keeping me busy and tired. but busy in the way that i sit in front of the com everyday and stare at it without talking with anyone... then when i'm out of office, i'll be so bored that i'll start pacing arnd at home. wanna go out but i'm under her clutches. no life right. tsk.
how do i break away from them and get my well deserved freedom?how long will this be? they need to realise i'm no more a lilttle girl. but they just wont accept it. i guess i'll have to try the harder way then. too bad.
hate it when people force me to do something. like wiping and scrubbing the floor with my bare hands. :( and this isnt trivial for me. ggrrrr.
i should find something to do that makes me happy.
but what?
chiao.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
taggies
finally i managed to put in a tag board! yay! so feel free to flood it uhh. :)
work tomorrow! aaahhhhh! ohnonono. butterflies in my stomach. and i dont know what to wear!
oh steven mead is outrageously fantastic! jaw-droppingly good la. i'm gonna cope his cd from edwin haha. and pizzahut with girls is :)) haha. (khai, pichurrss!!)
right. sleep now i must.
chiao.
work tomorrow! aaahhhhh! ohnonono. butterflies in my stomach. and i dont know what to wear!
oh steven mead is outrageously fantastic! jaw-droppingly good la. i'm gonna cope his cd from edwin haha. and pizzahut with girls is :)) haha. (khai, pichurrss!!)
right. sleep now i must.
chiao.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
FINALLY
haahahaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
FINALLY.
A JOB.
AND GOODDD PAY.
i hope my supervisor isnt some old, pervert, big beer belly ah pek.
wwwwweeeeeeeeeeee.
chiao.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
patience and sincerity
ayat-ayat cinta (verses of love)
yeah, i am abit slow. but this movie is good. i finished 2 whole packets of tissue while watching it. moving, and educational. the best part was when the male lead was jailed and he tried to pray, but couldnt concentrate. He kept crying and stopping.(ouch, that happened to meh.) The fellow inmate laughed at him and said, haha, its a wonder that you are an Al Azhar undergrad but do not know the key to praying.(ouucchhh. ok, i think i know now). Then he received a letter saying that he was taken out from the best university in islamic studies, Al Azhar. the guy cried like a baby and the fellow inmate said to him, get up! remember the story of Yusuf a.s and Zulaikha? Yusuf prayed, if its true that living in a jail is more meaningful then i choose to be here and be near to you, Lord. Rather than being outside with those hypocrites and liars. Then, he continued, Allah is talking to you about patience and sincerity. Islam is about patience and sincerity.b'cos the guy was jailed for raping a girl that he had helped before and Yusuf story is somewhat similar to his situation. by this time i'm like wailing. haha.
now then i know that islam doesnt condone dating, only taaruf, where the couple meet up in the presence of family members. and if they like each other, they get married, if not, take it as making friends. haha. haha, no dating uhhh, you halal people!
cant wait for fridayyy!!!!!!!! and i need a jobbbbbbbbb. rawr. ok, patience.
chiao.
yeah, i am abit slow. but this movie is good. i finished 2 whole packets of tissue while watching it. moving, and educational. the best part was when the male lead was jailed and he tried to pray, but couldnt concentrate. He kept crying and stopping.(ouch, that happened to meh.) The fellow inmate laughed at him and said, haha, its a wonder that you are an Al Azhar undergrad but do not know the key to praying.(ouucchhh. ok, i think i know now). Then he received a letter saying that he was taken out from the best university in islamic studies, Al Azhar. the guy cried like a baby and the fellow inmate said to him, get up! remember the story of Yusuf a.s and Zulaikha? Yusuf prayed, if its true that living in a jail is more meaningful then i choose to be here and be near to you, Lord. Rather than being outside with those hypocrites and liars. Then, he continued, Allah is talking to you about patience and sincerity. Islam is about patience and sincerity.b'cos the guy was jailed for raping a girl that he had helped before and Yusuf story is somewhat similar to his situation. by this time i'm like wailing. haha.
now then i know that islam doesnt condone dating, only taaruf, where the couple meet up in the presence of family members. and if they like each other, they get married, if not, take it as making friends. haha. haha, no dating uhhh, you halal people!
cant wait for fridayyy!!!!!!!! and i need a jobbbbbbbbb. rawr. ok, patience.
chiao.
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
last one(hopefully)
had a reallyyyyyyyy great day today. :))))))))) well, thank you sheree and edwin for making my day before... i-dont-want-to-think-about-it. i'm highhhhhhhh on sugarrrrrrrr. hahaha.
ergh, a few more hours. uwahhhhh.
still gives me the chills although i've been through it so many times. well, its just the thought of laying there on the operating table makes me feel all alone. because no one else will feel the pain of the needles, the knife on my skin(although i've been anesthesised) the thread going in and out when its being stitched up, no one else. except me. because i'm going through it.
ah, well, doc you better give me a great smile soon!
and i need to get well, soon, soon, soon!!!so many many things to do. find job, register the french lang course, register the icing and fondant class, mcs bbq, kak siti sushi session bla bla bla. too many.
miss alottt of friends since school's overr.(so ironic since i'm listening to jesse macartney's its over hahahaha)
chiao.
ergh, a few more hours. uwahhhhh.
still gives me the chills although i've been through it so many times. well, its just the thought of laying there on the operating table makes me feel all alone. because no one else will feel the pain of the needles, the knife on my skin(although i've been anesthesised) the thread going in and out when its being stitched up, no one else. except me. because i'm going through it.
ah, well, doc you better give me a great smile soon!
and i need to get well, soon, soon, soon!!!so many many things to do. find job, register the french lang course, register the icing and fondant class, mcs bbq, kak siti sushi session bla bla bla. too many.
miss alottt of friends since school's overr.(so ironic since i'm listening to jesse macartney's its over hahahaha)
chiao.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
the passing on.
THIS ENTRY IS DEDICATED TO KHAI, OK MY DEAR! :)
since you want me to update. :)
where do i start?
sigh. i'll miss you, my dear. although we never knew each other, looking at your photos and the way cik midah cry makes me sad. i'll always remember you.
funny how your passing actually made all the adults realise their mistakes and finally talk again.
funny how your passing gives me sleepless nights.funny how your passing made me erm.. cry.
i'll pray for you.
well, i'm just glad my family is together back again.
birthdays. so many. it made me really occupied.
received some job offers too. and some cake orders. guess i'm not ready yet to accept any orders.
the more i look at your photos, the more i miss you. the more i feel ssad.. being so distant from you. i'm sorry i can never be where you are.
send ud off at airport today. so many people are going away. well, its just the airport right. yeah. but i could feel a stabbing pain.
well, some things are just difficult to forget.
oh no. interviews!! and 7 more days. sigh.
chiao.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
410th!
including this post, its the 410th post!
power right. i know i know!
ok. been lazy to blog, 'cos life been quite boring. i'm half wishing that i'll get my old routine back like school, band and mcs.. i'm so bored to death.
erhm. so much time at expense, i baked 2 tpes of cakes and 8pieces of pizza at one go! crazy uh. well, i need to do something other than watch tv, surf the net, read my books and sleep. well, its not that i dont have friends to go out with.. i'm broke. haha.
i dreamt of BB. sigh.
hhmm, went out with aisyah s. and syad. sorry i cant stay on till at night aft you had taken half day leave and syad even skipped lessons. darn i still feel guilty abt it. but its was FUN! talking to them and laughing. haha.
then a day with the girls left my cheek muscles numb from laughing too much. and my stomach full of good food. haha.
I LOVE YOU GIRLS!
hmm. well, been shooping too. i must seriously close my eyes whenever i'm near charles and keith. tsk. bad.bad.
but, now broke. and need of job. sigh. but eh, my application for relief teacher has been approved! muahahahahaha. happy me.
i must make myself busy. if not.. i'll start thinking about.... well, unnecessary stuff.
right. must clean up the mess in the kitchen now.
chiao.
power right. i know i know!
ok. been lazy to blog, 'cos life been quite boring. i'm half wishing that i'll get my old routine back like school, band and mcs.. i'm so bored to death.
erhm. so much time at expense, i baked 2 tpes of cakes and 8pieces of pizza at one go! crazy uh. well, i need to do something other than watch tv, surf the net, read my books and sleep. well, its not that i dont have friends to go out with.. i'm broke. haha.
i dreamt of BB. sigh.
hhmm, went out with aisyah s. and syad. sorry i cant stay on till at night aft you had taken half day leave and syad even skipped lessons. darn i still feel guilty abt it. but its was FUN! talking to them and laughing. haha.
then a day with the girls left my cheek muscles numb from laughing too much. and my stomach full of good food. haha.
I LOVE YOU GIRLS!
hmm. well, been shooping too. i must seriously close my eyes whenever i'm near charles and keith. tsk. bad.bad.
but, now broke. and need of job. sigh. but eh, my application for relief teacher has been approved! muahahahahaha. happy me.
i must make myself busy. if not.. i'll start thinking about.... well, unnecessary stuff.
right. must clean up the mess in the kitchen now.
chiao.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Myfanwy and coffins
Why is it anger, O Myfanwy,
That fills your eyes so dark and clear?
Your gentle cheeks, O sweet Myfanwy,
Why blush they not when I draw near?
Where is the smile that once most tender
Kindled my love so fond, so true?
Where is the sound of your sweet words,
That drew my heart to follow you?
2. What have I done, O my Myfanwy,
To earn your frown? What is my blame?
Was it just play, my sweet Myfanwy,
To set your poet's love aflame?
You truly once to me were promised,
Is it too much to keep your part?
I wish no more your hand, Myfanwy,
If I no longer have your heart.
3. Myfanwy, may you spend your lifetime
Beneath the midday sunshine's glow,
And on your cheeks O may the roses
Dance for a hundred years or so.
Forget now all the words of promise
You made to one who loved you well,
Give me your hand, my sweet Myfanwy,
But one last time, to say "farewell".
its amazing how music can be so magical. :)
tune in was.. AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH. i went around estatically saying heloo to everyone like i havent seen them for a million years. it feels homely to be back with familiar people and everything. like watching dr lee's conducting..well, everything!
oh 'coffin' was.. haha. i screameddd!!!!
ok, i need a job.
stop being naive, woman!its not possible.
chiao!
Sunday, November 16, 2008
fruit tarts!
i made these just now! wwwweeeeeeeeeee. 
i want mummy to buy one for me!ok, these are the photos from the zoo trip.
4 yrs old and she is this tall. i feel vertically challenged. :(but she's beautiful!
so its black and white stripes or white and black stripes?hhmmmm...
cephas chan's birthday!
polar bear. he's sssssoooooo cute.
this animal is called BABIRUSA!!me and farhan had a great time repeating its name over and over again.
hahaha.
and we dont know why though.
baboon! nice ass.haha.
orang utan. i pity them. their homes are being destroyed and their young ones are being killed by poachers. lousy poachers!
oh this photo!ahaha.
we had a rendevous. :)))))
hahahaha. what an adventure.
rain, plastic bags and slippers!
luckily no one whom we knew saw us what we did!
luckily no one whom we knew saw us what we did!
hehehehehe.
i like pop eyes. but now, no more.enough is enough!
ate too much of it.
and the guy at the counter even..
erm, nvm. too private to disclose.
right. thats all i guess. still more photos. i still havent cope haute couture photos.
and, i think, i miss...
my acband! like sososo badly. :(
i really do.
and my other friends too.
sigh.
peace be upon you, my dears.
chiao.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
alhamdulillah. :)
alhamdulillah. :)
thats all i can say. i can just hope for the best. although the trauma still haunts me.
i've been out of civilisation for weeks. now, its time for me to assimilate back into society.
and work towards achieving a jessica alba's body. HAHAHAHA.
ooh! aishah sazali! let start dancing again! hip hop? hehe. :)
zoo class outing was outrageously fun. plus cephas' birthday surprise. geee. i laughed to much today my cheeks hurt. oh, i was there when the guy got eaten by the white tiger!!
ah my to do list is exponentially increasing. but first! a good night sleep without any dreams(even if its niceeee. hehe.) or nightmares. (i bet irna truly understands this! ;) )
oh my, i have so many things to say.
but nah, sleep first. :)
peace be upon you,
chiao.
thats all i can say. i can just hope for the best. although the trauma still haunts me.
i've been out of civilisation for weeks. now, its time for me to assimilate back into society.
and work towards achieving a jessica alba's body. HAHAHAHA.
ooh! aishah sazali! let start dancing again! hip hop? hehe. :)
zoo class outing was outrageously fun. plus cephas' birthday surprise. geee. i laughed to much today my cheeks hurt. oh, i was there when the guy got eaten by the white tiger!!
ah my to do list is exponentially increasing. but first! a good night sleep without any dreams(even if its niceeee. hehe.) or nightmares. (i bet irna truly understands this! ;) )
oh my, i have so many things to say.
but nah, sleep first. :)
peace be upon you,
chiao.
Saturday, November 08, 2008
slapppp.
i think i am going through the worst phase of my life.
and i'm on the com. slap me. further more.. i only completed like 5 lectures of geog today. slap me. 5 more to go.
i'm half convinced i will retake a levels again next year.
i need chocolates. and a BIG HUG.
sigh. :(
i wish you will say what you need to say.
chiao.
and i'm on the com. slap me. further more.. i only completed like 5 lectures of geog today. slap me. 5 more to go.
i'm half convinced i will retake a levels again next year.
i need chocolates. and a BIG HUG.
sigh. :(
i wish you will say what you need to say.
chiao.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
the battle
my battle starts tomorrow. i cant describe the intense fear i have. Cikgu was trying encourage us yesterday, saying that we can really do this, we've practiced so many many times. and tears just rolled down. dang. aiyo.
but, i'm amazed how god has made his way into my life.
this phrases from the song hit me, 'and everything i do i do it for You. Cause You made me, i am for You. I work, I work, I work, I strive. To make something out of my life. I seek I seek I seek I find, I find another hill to climb.'
as we move on in our lives, and be engrossed in achieving our ambitions, sometimes we forgot the purpose of doing all this. why am i doing this? why do i study so hard? i feel so much calmer knowing that i do all this for HIM. and that he'll always be with me. :) and this will only one of the hills that i will be climbing in my life. there'll be many many more to come. hhmm, i wonder what are they..
pray for me yeah? and friends, we can like totally do this!
13 november... come to meeee.
peace be upon you!:)
chiao.
but, i'm amazed how god has made his way into my life.
this phrases from the song hit me, 'and everything i do i do it for You. Cause You made me, i am for You. I work, I work, I work, I strive. To make something out of my life. I seek I seek I seek I find, I find another hill to climb.'
as we move on in our lives, and be engrossed in achieving our ambitions, sometimes we forgot the purpose of doing all this. why am i doing this? why do i study so hard? i feel so much calmer knowing that i do all this for HIM. and that he'll always be with me. :) and this will only one of the hills that i will be climbing in my life. there'll be many many more to come. hhmm, i wonder what are they..
pray for me yeah? and friends, we can like totally do this!
13 november... come to meeee.
peace be upon you!:)
chiao.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
till then, goodbye.
i tell you i am gonna conquer you advance level geography! and math. and econs. and malay. not forgetting jeeeee-p.
i feel like crying. i really do.
ok, heres the real hiatus.
no bloggie. no msn. only contactable thru my snow white. my phone la.
i will finish glob and atmo topics by this week.
hopefully i survive.
goodbye.
eh no, chiao.
i feel like crying. i really do.
ok, heres the real hiatus.
no bloggie. no msn. only contactable thru my snow white. my phone la.
i will finish glob and atmo topics by this week.
hopefully i survive.
goodbye.
eh no, chiao.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
not weird just different.
after every studying session i'll feel lousy. why? i dont know. i want a truckload of chocolates.
and i think i'm damn weird. like when i'm studying, i have to like really isolate myself. go to a quiet place. a cave like that. and i'll start talking to myself. and the way i study isnt like other people. people can just read their notes or write out notes. me? nono. that wont work for me. maybe i'm not wired. just different. maybe its the isolation that makes me feel terrible. like i have no friends. but no, i know i do have friends. well, i hope eh.
yesterday's convo with some friends struck me. in a way it made me feel bad. but in a way, made me realise. like why some people study so hard but yet.. nvm.
i should be doing my 'favourite' subject now. dy/dx. but eh, i like stats! here i come. oh i'm begining to love human geog alot! erm.. physical geog? errrr, still learning to loooovvveeee it. ok.
yeah. people are still celebrating hari raya. and i cant do it. :( and just now was so unglam. chilli and mayo sos all over. tsk.
chiao.
and i think i'm damn weird. like when i'm studying, i have to like really isolate myself. go to a quiet place. a cave like that. and i'll start talking to myself. and the way i study isnt like other people. people can just read their notes or write out notes. me? nono. that wont work for me. maybe i'm not wired. just different. maybe its the isolation that makes me feel terrible. like i have no friends. but no, i know i do have friends. well, i hope eh.
yesterday's convo with some friends struck me. in a way it made me feel bad. but in a way, made me realise. like why some people study so hard but yet.. nvm.
i should be doing my 'favourite' subject now. dy/dx. but eh, i like stats! here i come. oh i'm begining to love human geog alot! erm.. physical geog? errrr, still learning to loooovvveeee it. ok.
yeah. people are still celebrating hari raya. and i cant do it. :( and just now was so unglam. chilli and mayo sos all over. tsk.
chiao.
Thursday, October 09, 2008
haute couture not yet
exactly 20 days before my battle begins. come on, i can do this.
baccalaurate day. damn sad. the last. i've never regretted choosing ac. and i miss ac band so badly now. :(
but damn happy because i completed 2 chap of math and 2 lit essays. yay! oh oh, i cant wait for farewell next week! theme-haute couture. haha, i'm gonna wear pyjamas with slippers. hahaha.
Ken Hirai-Hitomi Wo Tojite
eh, i realise all my fav songs mv ends with the heroine dying. and the hero grieving over her death. aiyo.
ah, i wanna play this song. duet with my section mates. and hear the eupho sound. sigh.
chiao.
baccalaurate day. damn sad. the last. i've never regretted choosing ac. and i miss ac band so badly now. :(
but damn happy because i completed 2 chap of math and 2 lit essays. yay! oh oh, i cant wait for farewell next week! theme-haute couture. haha, i'm gonna wear pyjamas with slippers. hahaha.
Ken Hirai-Hitomi Wo Tojite
eh, i realise all my fav songs mv ends with the heroine dying. and the hero grieving over her death. aiyo.
ah, i wanna play this song. duet with my section mates. and hear the eupho sound. sigh.
chiao.
Monday, October 06, 2008
raya 2008
pak haji family. haha. who always force us to go mosque to pray.
kak siti, me and sis! 
my relatives!
look at that! ffooooddd again!!!
fooddddddddd. heh.
:) my brother is taller than me? isey man.. now than i realise.of course there are more pictures. too many. when i have the time and energy to do it, i'll do it soon.
four days of fever and sore throat is killing me.
gah, i need sleep. but 1 more essay to go!
i can do this!
chiao.
Monday, September 29, 2008
i wanna quit school.
i could go on the whole night. i dont mind. study.study. study. but i need to sleep. although i cant feel my body asking me to sleep. dang. cikgu added like 5 more essays on top of the 6 essays for homework. due next week. wait, means today. and when i finished like 6 essays, she msged me that we can email by thurs.... i could have done my geog essays! which ms leow have been chasing me for. and many many many more work that i havent finish yet....................... i wanna scream.
i think this year hari raya, i'll be boiling ketupat while writing essays.
and i havent cleaned out my room yet. dust dust dust and more dust. oh, toilet cleaning, kitchen cleaning, vacuuming and mopping session on mon night.
ah, better get back to work la.
chiao.
i think this year hari raya, i'll be boiling ketupat while writing essays.
and i havent cleaned out my room yet. dust dust dust and more dust. oh, toilet cleaning, kitchen cleaning, vacuuming and mopping session on mon night.
ah, better get back to work la.
chiao.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
sleep. but not sleeping actually.
i cant resist not talking to my blog. well, this thing is the only avenue for my thoughts which sometimes doesnt make sense. but nvm.
you see, fasting isnt just physically restraining yourself from food and drink. well, that is already one big challenge by itself. but theres also the mental and emotional battle. especially when you are having your a level exams. which actually will determine the next phase of your life. plus all your emotional and mental problems, dilemmas that you are facing. which obviously you dont go around telling everyone that right. but fasting shouldnt be a hindrance to your success by making it as an excuse to skip revision. which i did actually coupled with tiredness.
sigh,i'm terrible. suck. i keep falling asleep. and today, overwhelmed by this migraine i skipped school. (mummy said i didnt sleep properly. maybe i did have enough sleep, just that when i sleep, i dont really sleep. like i'm still thinking about all those stuff that i studied earlier. i cant help it you know)how terrilbe am i. yes, very terrible. now, i have a gp essay, 2 human geog essay, 1 physical geog essay, 1 econs essay and 1 math revision paper. eh how cool. thats only homework. i havent listed out all that i missed today. and my own revision.
looks like its gonna be a longgg night.
and i havent been putting in much effort or using my brain much lately. study!
I CAN DO THIS.
err, can i?
oh, oh, hari raya is next week!!!! yessa!
chiao.
you see, fasting isnt just physically restraining yourself from food and drink. well, that is already one big challenge by itself. but theres also the mental and emotional battle. especially when you are having your a level exams. which actually will determine the next phase of your life. plus all your emotional and mental problems, dilemmas that you are facing. which obviously you dont go around telling everyone that right. but fasting shouldnt be a hindrance to your success by making it as an excuse to skip revision. which i did actually coupled with tiredness.
sigh,i'm terrible. suck. i keep falling asleep. and today, overwhelmed by this migraine i skipped school. (mummy said i didnt sleep properly. maybe i did have enough sleep, just that when i sleep, i dont really sleep. like i'm still thinking about all those stuff that i studied earlier. i cant help it you know)how terrilbe am i. yes, very terrible. now, i have a gp essay, 2 human geog essay, 1 physical geog essay, 1 econs essay and 1 math revision paper. eh how cool. thats only homework. i havent listed out all that i missed today. and my own revision.
looks like its gonna be a longgg night.
and i havent been putting in much effort or using my brain much lately. study!
I CAN DO THIS.
err, can i?
oh, oh, hari raya is next week!!!! yessa!
chiao.
Monday, September 22, 2008
i wanna quit school.
i wanna quit school.
ok not that bad la. haha.
ok, not funny.
prelim results made me feel like i wanna jump into a pool and submerge myself in it for 5 hours.
but guess what. five weeks. let me repeat fiveee weeks till my life, my future is secured.
err, that include all my hari raya holidays. sigh.
A levels. my future.
God, are you there for me? i'm scared.
looks like this blog will be on hiatus for sometime.
chiao.
ok not that bad la. haha.
ok, not funny.
prelim results made me feel like i wanna jump into a pool and submerge myself in it for 5 hours.
but guess what. five weeks. let me repeat fiveee weeks till my life, my future is secured.
err, that include all my hari raya holidays. sigh.
A levels. my future.
God, are you there for me? i'm scared.
looks like this blog will be on hiatus for sometime.
chiao.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
slap me.
somebody please slap my face. you'll be doing me a favour this way.
i havent been working hard. omg.
i dont care i'm gonna mug to night. all the way.
*smacks face. i should be ashamed of myself. a weekend over. and i only did 2 drqs, 2 essay outlines, 1 malay full compre paper and 1 essay??
the list of work... is really long. at this rate, i'll be dead for As.
aaaaaaahhhhhhhhh. damn.
sigh.
chiao.
i havent been working hard. omg.
i dont care i'm gonna mug to night. all the way.
*smacks face. i should be ashamed of myself. a weekend over. and i only did 2 drqs, 2 essay outlines, 1 malay full compre paper and 1 essay??
the list of work... is really long. at this rate, i'll be dead for As.
aaaaaaahhhhhhhhh. damn.
sigh.
chiao.
Friday, September 19, 2008
happy goober!
geee, i'm so happy now. thanks for the night khai, hiq, sha, kam. really made my day! gosh, i cant remember when was the last time i laughed so histerically like that. HAHAHAHA. oh man, only you girls can make my loss of teeth sound so funny. and khai! you made me feel so embarassed! oh, and ken+barbie! HAHAHAHA.
ok, tmr i'm gonna work, work, work. no slacking. no more.
i look at how people work, i feel guilty. i'm so slack now. tsk, i really should work really hard and put in the effort.
miracles wont happen if i dont put in the effort.
havent been using my brain much. tsk.
but oh well. weeeeeeeeeeeee. :))))
oh, lagu raya da klua!!
chiao.
ok, tmr i'm gonna work, work, work. no slacking. no more.
i look at how people work, i feel guilty. i'm so slack now. tsk, i really should work really hard and put in the effort.
miracles wont happen if i dont put in the effort.
havent been using my brain much. tsk.
but oh well. weeeeeeeeeeeee. :))))
oh, lagu raya da klua!!
chiao.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
roll it up!!
now, its not the time to fret, but to roll up your sleeves and keep working.
i know its going to be tough. to push up grades for almost every subject. i'm feeling anxious, scared, that i wont be able to do this. will i be able to? i dont know. i even had this weird dream. it was during As and i was taking my gp paper. and i had to go through so many obstacles. i woke up crying because i was scared like shit.
but, i just wont give up and keep working!! especially on my geog. sigh. and math. bigger sigh.
looking through my prelim papers, i was like oh damn it! why didnt i write this! i know this! oh damn it! why did i write this! its total crap! yeah. like pure enlightenment man. kah ching! and boy, i was impress with my econs essays. haha.
but at the rate i'm going.. there wont be much diff. i really should work harder. like how really really behind time i am on my schedule. *smacks face.
so friends out there, keep working yeah? dont give up! :) oh, all of us should take care of our health. like how i am desperately trying to. and if i were to get enough 8hrs of sleep, i have to sleep at 8 pm. wth right.
right.. essay outlines, here i come.
chiao.
i know its going to be tough. to push up grades for almost every subject. i'm feeling anxious, scared, that i wont be able to do this. will i be able to? i dont know. i even had this weird dream. it was during As and i was taking my gp paper. and i had to go through so many obstacles. i woke up crying because i was scared like shit.
but, i just wont give up and keep working!! especially on my geog. sigh. and math. bigger sigh.
looking through my prelim papers, i was like oh damn it! why didnt i write this! i know this! oh damn it! why did i write this! its total crap! yeah. like pure enlightenment man. kah ching! and boy, i was impress with my econs essays. haha.
but at the rate i'm going.. there wont be much diff. i really should work harder. like how really really behind time i am on my schedule. *smacks face.
so friends out there, keep working yeah? dont give up! :) oh, all of us should take care of our health. like how i am desperately trying to. and if i were to get enough 8hrs of sleep, i have to sleep at 8 pm. wth right.
right.. essay outlines, here i come.
chiao.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
drive, drived, driven
i kind of like lost all of my drive to study. gosh.
i know i need to straighten my thoughts real soon. if not..
god help me.
maybe i should talk to someone.
but who??
Duffy-mercy.
i love love love this songggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
chiao.
i know i need to straighten my thoughts real soon. if not..
god help me.
maybe i should talk to someone.
but who??
Duffy-mercy.
i love love love this songggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
chiao.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
SHOCKED.
i'm still trying to recover from the shock of my prelim results. yeah, speechless. so disappointed. and the worst thing is, mummy didnt even scold me when i told her my results. she just told me that this is prelims and that i had worked hard. yeah right, why if i had worked so hard but my results are like those who didnt study? well, accept it, studying hard doesnt gurantee you good grades. thats jc life.
now, i seriously dont know where to begin, how to begin. or how to go about improving myself in time. only 45 days before my first paper.
can some being in this world tell me!!!??
oh my. i'm going insane.
friday- broke fast with mcs peeps. heee, its been long since i laughed till my stomache hurts. guess, i was trying to delude myself that day. food was awesome. i ate octopus! wooh. and and sushi, sashimi, ice-cream, cheesecakes, satay, babequed salmon, dory and err.. cant remember, too many. ah, i feel like a glutton after that. haha.
right, now where do i start my revision again...
chiao.
now, i seriously dont know where to begin, how to begin. or how to go about improving myself in time. only 45 days before my first paper.
can some being in this world tell me!!!??
oh my. i'm going insane.
friday- broke fast with mcs peeps. heee, its been long since i laughed till my stomache hurts. guess, i was trying to delude myself that day. food was awesome. i ate octopus! wooh. and and sushi, sashimi, ice-cream, cheesecakes, satay, babequed salmon, dory and err.. cant remember, too many. ah, i feel like a glutton after that. haha.
right, now where do i start my revision again...
chiao.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
wrong.
whats wrong with me?!
oh, i really cant cope with this!
:(
was not in it and never will. well, never been a part of it. nevermind, i'll just get on with my life.
chiao.
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
BLOOD BATH
how about i finished school? haha. I LOVEEEE MY NEW TIME TABLE. kihkihkih. eye, i have tons of work to do uh. like geog, lit and math. but here i am, digressing. *smacks face.
alright, so far, feedback from teachers abt prelims is that its ... BLOOD BATH, for me, that is. the answers that they went through were not the same as what i think i had written. so yeah.. thats it man.
sigh.
and studying + fasting = extreme tiredness. at least, if i am tired during normal days, i'll be able to drink coffee or something.
alright! no more complaining! perservere!!
chiao.
alright, so far, feedback from teachers abt prelims is that its ... BLOOD BATH, for me, that is. the answers that they went through were not the same as what i think i had written. so yeah.. thats it man.
sigh.
and studying + fasting = extreme tiredness. at least, if i am tired during normal days, i'll be able to drink coffee or something.
alright! no more complaining! perservere!!
chiao.
Sunday, September 07, 2008
nothing is black and white
is my decision the right one? i dont know and i will never know. sometimes, i feel glad that i made this decision, but there were times when i felt it was all a mistake. regretted all this in a way.
but life is a series of decision making. and these decisions are never either/or. decisions are complex, and there are always competing factors. to look for simple explanations is bias of the human brain, but it doesnt correspond to reality. nothing is ever as starightforward as it appears.
so, lets not ponder on our past decisions but make the best of what we have now.
like the looming a levels. -_- (raghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.)
today, daddy said something that made me think. it was one of those rare moments where i actually talked to him about school and friends. so i was telling him about some of my musically-talented friends. how some can play a single note and make the hairs of the people who listened to it stood up. how they can create such beautiful music without much effort. then he said that its because they are sincere in what they do. thats why they can do it well.
so, havent i been playing sincerely?
havent i been doing everything straight from my heart?
i think i have.
sincerity. so many questions. nevermind, lets stop here.
and dont mind the time. i just cant sleep.
chiao.
but life is a series of decision making. and these decisions are never either/or. decisions are complex, and there are always competing factors. to look for simple explanations is bias of the human brain, but it doesnt correspond to reality. nothing is ever as starightforward as it appears.
so, lets not ponder on our past decisions but make the best of what we have now.
like the looming a levels. -_- (raghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.)
today, daddy said something that made me think. it was one of those rare moments where i actually talked to him about school and friends. so i was telling him about some of my musically-talented friends. how some can play a single note and make the hairs of the people who listened to it stood up. how they can create such beautiful music without much effort. then he said that its because they are sincere in what they do. thats why they can do it well.
so, havent i been playing sincerely?
havent i been doing everything straight from my heart?
i think i have.
sincerity. so many questions. nevermind, lets stop here.
and dont mind the time. i just cant sleep.
chiao.
Friday, September 05, 2008
cakes and indian movies.
yesterday was, erm yeah, basically wasted. woke up late, went to school to celebrate ms leow's birthday. ran around the school trying to find a lighter but haha, no body in ac smoke la.. haha. ran around school again trying to make sure she stays put in school. then trying to keep quiet while we make our way to staff rm 3 but, neh, we made so much noise the whole oldham wing could hear us. then tried ducking under the door so that she wouldnt see. haha so funny. heh, she was quite shocked and touched that we gave her this surprise! haha.
one vital rule when you are fasting: keep away from food. seriously.
oh,oh, this pick up line is so funny: 'Are your feet tired? Because you've been performing Tawaaf in my mind all day long?'
Do you work for al qaeda? u hijacked my heart
-credits to irna lestari. hahaha. cracked me up laughing.haha.
i miss watching hindi movies. haha.
bole chudiyan
i used to be able to sing the whole song in hindi ahh. haha. now.. ermm. haha.
their dancing reminds me of the attempt that mum tried on me to enroll me in an indian dance class. but she withdrew because the dancers do some hindu prayers before dancing. so, of course, mum quickly take me out. ah, cant imagine if i were an indian dancer now. hahahaha.
today, another wasted day. somehow, i feel happy. to delude myself that As are not anywhere near.
gosh, i dont want to regret later. ok, i'll do something later.i promise to myself. :) back to hindi movies!!!!! wwweeee
chiao.
one vital rule when you are fasting: keep away from food. seriously.
oh,oh, this pick up line is so funny: 'Are your feet tired? Because you've been performing Tawaaf in my mind all day long?'
Do you work for al qaeda? u hijacked my heart
-credits to irna lestari. hahaha. cracked me up laughing.haha.
i miss watching hindi movies. haha.
bole chudiyan
i used to be able to sing the whole song in hindi ahh. haha. now.. ermm. haha.
their dancing reminds me of the attempt that mum tried on me to enroll me in an indian dance class. but she withdrew because the dancers do some hindu prayers before dancing. so, of course, mum quickly take me out. ah, cant imagine if i were an indian dancer now. hahahaha.
today, another wasted day. somehow, i feel happy. to delude myself that As are not anywhere near.
gosh, i dont want to regret later. ok, i'll do something later.i promise to myself. :) back to hindi movies!!!!! wwweeee
chiao.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
turandot
ooogay, turandot yesterday was awesome. cool man.(its pronounced with the 't') ah, now i can relate to the song and story better than ever. oh, and the ping pong pang part is funny!! hahaha. but the only thing is that its quite long winded la. i was like 'get to the point!!!' during the play. broke my fast at bk with enjia, sheree, eugene and mel. mmmmm, mushroom swiss is niceeeeee. had to endure eugene's singing of nessum dorma. haha. then we ran all the way up to circle 4. haha. saw so many ang mohs and weird speaking people. i guess normal singaporeans cant really appreciate operas. reached home at 12am. nice... and luckily mummy was asleep by then. save me the nagging. oh oh! the orchestra was GOOD. and during one of the intervals we heard rhapsody in blue being played. haha. the clarinetist and flutist was good!! ah, now the tune's stuck in my head.
anyways, i finally got down to some studying. yay! i am so proud of myself! ahahaha. i think i work better under less stressful conditions. halfway thru physical geog;hydro. think can finish by tomorrow. but the library full of jc students. scary leh, looking at them studying so hard. and i've been doing a lot of housework! like cooking! applause please. hahaha. but i burnt my little pinkie. :( now thats painful.
tomorrow ms leow's birthday. AA3 is gonna give her a surprise. hehe. and i'm going to be a good classmate and bake a cake and celebrate with them. say wow. haha. i should try to spend more time with them while we're still a class. yup, i should.
ah, its 10pm, now time to conference call with my geog mates! study time!
chiao.
anyways, i finally got down to some studying. yay! i am so proud of myself! ahahaha. i think i work better under less stressful conditions. halfway thru physical geog;hydro. think can finish by tomorrow. but the library full of jc students. scary leh, looking at them studying so hard. and i've been doing a lot of housework! like cooking! applause please. hahaha. but i burnt my little pinkie. :( now thats painful.
tomorrow ms leow's birthday. AA3 is gonna give her a surprise. hehe. and i'm going to be a good classmate and bake a cake and celebrate with them. say wow. haha. i should try to spend more time with them while we're still a class. yup, i should.
ah, its 10pm, now time to conference call with my geog mates! study time!
chiao.
Monday, September 01, 2008
Good days. (:
the white orchids, i love them!
seri!(: with our ice creams!i think i should change my template. hhmm.
i kinda miss school. like my normal routine. lessons in the day, then band at night. the saturday practices. I FREAKING MISS MY EUPHONIUM LAAAAA. yeah.
somehow, i want to end this holiday. so that i'll be busy and and not slacking.
mummy is the most fickle minded person ever! heh, she let me go turandot!!! yessa. but still a nono to ice skating. alritey, after As, ice skating is on my list.
lets see.. the irritating wireless router has been throwing tantrums on me the last few days. made me sign in and out every few mins.
fri was marvellous. teachers day celeb in school. yup, wouldnt make it to where i am now without these people who never gave up on me. no matter how noob i was, they still bother to teach me patiently. amazing. thank you teachers, sincerely, deep from my heart. and the band performed. funny la, david was dancing on stage. hahahaha. cracked me up. and the ogls made a perf with a vid clip. it sang 'we love cephas chan like we love his mother'. omg. cephas was sitting right behind me and his face was red la. hahaha.
after that lunched with seri. so glad i have such a good friend and confidante. caught up with each other. went home to change for dinner. and yeah, i was late. plus my shoe had to open up at the soles just at that moment. nice eh. cabbed there. cost me a bomb. mandai orchid garden was beautiful. i love the white orchids! and i got the chance to meet mr and mrs khoo and talked to them.. PERSONALLY. ehehehe. wah, they're nice people. took photos, walked around the garden and ate. food was ok i guess, i was already full from the lunch with seri. homed.
sat was shopping at geylang to get our stuff for hari raya. hehe, i'm like ready for hari raya already. hahaha.
oh, fasting month is here!! it means good food and family time! hehe.
alright, really should start on econs maybe tonight. yeah, i should.
chiao.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
sigh.
yesterday was a good day. today WAS ok. untill mum had to be in one of her bad mood days. and i am a victim of her wrath.
sad. ): now i cant go for turandot and ice skating. there go my $38++. sigh.
shall say more when i feel better. i need chocolates.
fasting month doesnt mean you cant go about your daily routine as per normal what. ggrrr.
i should stop blog-hopping. heart-stirngs pulled with every photo of those places. i didnt know it will be this hard.
chiao.
sad. ): now i cant go for turandot and ice skating. there go my $38++. sigh.
shall say more when i feel better. i need chocolates.
fasting month doesnt mean you cant go about your daily routine as per normal what. ggrrr.
i should stop blog-hopping. heart-stirngs pulled with every photo of those places. i didnt know it will be this hard.
chiao.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
boreddddd
today, i finally did something fruitful! like cleaning out my room. yes! and did some researching for gp. haha and read. halfway through khaled hosseini's book. ah, it pulled my heart strings. like ouchhh. yup, and tomorrow baking galore! wwwwwweeeeeeee. and movie date. egg-citing!
but i'm still bored stiff i can faint. better sleep early, need to wake up early tomorrow! wweeee.
Blessed is He in Whose hand is the kingdom, and He Who has power over all things,who created death and life that He may try you.
let go of it. slowly. and time will heal. i'm sorry for all the bitterness. i just cant help it.
chiao.
but i'm still bored stiff i can faint. better sleep early, need to wake up early tomorrow! wweeee.
Blessed is He in Whose hand is the kingdom, and He Who has power over all things,who created death and life that He may try you.
let go of it. slowly. and time will heal. i'm sorry for all the bitterness. i just cant help it.
chiao.
Monday, August 25, 2008
post-prelims.
warning: super uber long entry.
on sun was interesting. i followed my family to a wedding on my mum's side. this family is like super malay jawa la. then theres kuda kepang, a horse dance. a javanese dance which is always associated with black magic or something like that. 'cos the dancers will always get possesed and eat glass la, climb up trees, and get all scary-mary. so my sis got spooked. haha. she ran away when she saw them dancing. like really ran away. hahaha. but i find them quite interesting though. the instruments that they played were those like we played during mcs drama this year. how i missed drama!!
the girls dancing with the "horses"
the guy with the red mask looked really scary. i dont dare to go near him too. oh,oh! the groom is an indian guy. like pure indian but convert muslim.reminds me of grandad. then they had this tradition which i never knew, throwing coins over the couple! but i didnt go and pick it up though. it was near the red mask guy. and the food was delicious la.
on sun was interesting. i followed my family to a wedding on my mum's side. this family is like super malay jawa la. then theres kuda kepang, a horse dance. a javanese dance which is always associated with black magic or something like that. 'cos the dancers will always get possesed and eat glass la, climb up trees, and get all scary-mary. so my sis got spooked. haha. she ran away when she saw them dancing. like really ran away. hahaha. but i find them quite interesting though. the instruments that they played were those like we played during mcs drama this year. how i missed drama!!
the girls dancing with the "horses"
the guy with the red mask looked really scary. i dont dare to go near him too. oh,oh! the groom is an indian guy. like pure indian but convert muslim.reminds me of grandad. then they had this tradition which i never knew, throwing coins over the couple! but i didnt go and pick it up though. it was near the red mask guy. and the food was delicious la.i feel kinda weird, listening to the recording in swiss. but nevertheless, it was nice. and i started laughing the part before fugue. hahahaha. and i didnt know the tempo was THAT fast. wow. haha. but charming asia was especially nice i think. moved me.haha. like i can see how everyone was playing and how dr lee was conducting and all.
anyway, i've caught up with my sleep, my family and everything else. ate so much, read so much, watch videos so much, now i feel bored. the only thing to do now is to bake. BUT the elecric mixer is at my grandma's house! how to bake the cake! ):
so glad that prelims are over. let me see, how was prelims? haha. screw it.
gp was about celebrity activism. amazingly, it was first time i finished my aq! say wow. physical geog after that was.. as usual, i didnt have time to write finish my essay. and thank god i studied mass movements, erm no, not study, read through and it came out. but i dont expect good marks. next was econs drq and malay lang. i studied about public goods and merit goods and i freaking forgot about it! my mind just went blank on that question. gosh. i really didnt know what happened to me at that moment. malay lang compo was damn freaking killer la. and the paper 2 was equally like, huh, what the hell are they talking about? sigh. it was the first time i think malay is damn difficult. so sad you know. nvm, next was math. rightttt. my worst scoring subject ever. but the most effort i've put in. and during the paper just proved me wrong. i couldnt do half the pure math part and some questions on stats. esp on applications on differentiation and integration. sigh. left that whole freaking damn part blank. during the paper i could hear people sigh-ing and haiz-ing and sigh-ing. haha. guess that paper wasnt easy either. i dont know. weekends was spent studying geog with gerd, eliz, eng loong and kenneth koh. from bishan library, went to sarah's house. yel tried to be teacher but we ended up laughing. hahaha. felt tired from all that laughing. sun tried to study but came down with fever. mon, malay lit paper and yeah, i didnt study for it at all. too tired. anyway, i've started studying that subject since after june holidays. so should be alright. hopefully cikgu can decipher my atrocious handwriting because i was rushing like mad la. imagine 5 three page essays in 3hrs! zomg, my arms felt numb after that. and i was the noisiest with my nose because it wouldnt stop leaking.tsk. tried to study human geog. but fever still persist. mum scolded me because i insisted on fasting. i was fasting the whole exam period but had to stop that day. sigh. so took the exam without studying half the topics tested. which is ALOT. and i reckon, failure. whatever. econs paper 2 next. studied again macro. but i think the paper was freaking damn difficult la. sigh. so much for putting in sosososo much effort. lets see how the results yeah, if it equals to all the stinking effort i've put in. that day, went to times and saw so many new books! aahhh. i gotta have them! sat went to malaysia. sun came back. got myself 2 books! a thousand splendid suns and p.s. i love you. cool la. i still have my john grisham books. bro called me a nerd. he said that i should buy clothes and shoes instead of books. well, i do, just not that often alright.
now i feel damn bored. hhhmmm, i want to go cycling! anybody coming?! hahahha. i want to cycle so fast, i can feel the wind rushing thru my hair! wwweeee!
cant wait for ramadhan! sometimes its kinda hard to explain certain things about islam. you have to study it to understand it. like why we pray 5 times a day. why we fast. why i wear a scarf outside. why we dont drink alcolhol, etc.
righttt, now here's the bigg question. when am i going to start work again!? hahaha. i'm becoming a lazy bum. tsk. this is bad.
you all keep talking about turning back time. oh nono, dont ever turn back time. to the time when you all were at that place. although it was a damn good period for you guys. it was the worst 2 weeks of my life. never, dont ever turn back time. imagine the loneliness, the sense of loss, the sense of being left out of something i've always dreamt about. the hurt, the rejection when i was supposed to join you all back for the next comp, never will i want to experience that ever again, never to remember ever again, never want to talk about. sometimes at night, i still cry myslf to sleep when i thought about this. dont talk about this. i never want to know what happened there. its better for me not to know. so that i know that i never missed anything in my life. thank you.
chiao.
Friday, August 22, 2008
PRELIMS ARE STINKING OVER
i'm done with prelims. and what a way to end it. it was the worst econs paper i've ever sat for. i couldnt finish the paper because i was too slow. sigh. so much for studying so hard for it. looks like i'm gonna fail econs. kinda scary,thinking about it. i only have like 2 months before As to train my brain and my hands to work faster. plus other subjects. omg.
but i'm prolly the happiest woman now. movie marathon. haha, while eating chocolates. i'm eating so much now. tmr i'm going malaysia. muahahahahahaha. i deserve this. i worked so hard since june. now, a few days rest. then, back to books again. looking back at the exam, i have ALOT to work on. sigh.
i dont have the mood to blog now. i want to catch up on my life. hehehehehhehe.
chiao.
but i'm prolly the happiest woman now. movie marathon. haha, while eating chocolates. i'm eating so much now. tmr i'm going malaysia. muahahahahahaha. i deserve this. i worked so hard since june. now, a few days rest. then, back to books again. looking back at the exam, i have ALOT to work on. sigh.
i dont have the mood to blog now. i want to catch up on my life. hehehehehhehe.
chiao.
Saturday, August 09, 2008
till then, goodbye.
temples throbbing, eyes painful and dry, hugeeee eyes bags! body clock screwed and mind in distress.
huge pills are still part of my meal. thank god the stitches are gone. but i still cant eat some food. i can feel the side effects. sigh, this is scary.
econs 3/4 done. math 3/4 done. malay lit done. screw geog. gp.. just whack la.
2 more days to first paper.
god help me.
i should complain and whine less.
untill then, this blog will be on a hiatus till prelims are over.
chiao.
its not my fault that things turn out this way. some things just happen. and they happen for a reason. and i guess nobody bother anymore about each other. all they care is just to survive this period of time. its unevitable, thats life.
huge pills are still part of my meal. thank god the stitches are gone. but i still cant eat some food. i can feel the side effects. sigh, this is scary.
econs 3/4 done. math 3/4 done. malay lit done. screw geog. gp.. just whack la.
2 more days to first paper.
god help me.
i should complain and whine less.
untill then, this blog will be on a hiatus till prelims are over.
chiao.
its not my fault that things turn out this way. some things just happen. and they happen for a reason. and i guess nobody bother anymore about each other. all they care is just to survive this period of time. its unevitable, thats life.
Monday, August 04, 2008
work it brain!
I wish i was a punk rocker.- Sandi Thom
oh, i soso love this song!
sigh. my brain just wont work anymore. i did 2 essays, i compre, some math questions which i got it all wrong :( and econs vjc drq which i really understood! :). and i still havent finish my 2 lit essays and math differentiation, integration and graphs. and macro econs!
head throbbing like mad the whole day. udaya said i looked stressed. nah, i'm just tired and this migraine is killing me.
stoned through malay. cikgu was talking like the japanese bullet train. so fast, my jaw just dropped looking at her go through the essay questions. nvm, i have consult with her tmr. 5 periods of gp lesson was super funny. haha, xin min was high! haha. but i slept thru half of it. just cant take it.
i need to learn to focus!!!!!!!! and remember what i had revised. omg, i couldnt remember what i had revised in june for differentiation and integration!!!!!! howhowhow!!
i need sleep la, and maybe wake up at 4am to continue. call me mad or what, i dont care anymore. i just want decent grades.
oh, i soso love this song!
sigh. my brain just wont work anymore. i did 2 essays, i compre, some math questions which i got it all wrong :( and econs vjc drq which i really understood! :). and i still havent finish my 2 lit essays and math differentiation, integration and graphs. and macro econs!
head throbbing like mad the whole day. udaya said i looked stressed. nah, i'm just tired and this migraine is killing me.
stoned through malay. cikgu was talking like the japanese bullet train. so fast, my jaw just dropped looking at her go through the essay questions. nvm, i have consult with her tmr. 5 periods of gp lesson was super funny. haha, xin min was high! haha. but i slept thru half of it. just cant take it.
i need to learn to focus!!!!!!!! and remember what i had revised. omg, i couldnt remember what i had revised in june for differentiation and integration!!!!!! howhowhow!!
i need sleep la, and maybe wake up at 4am to continue. call me mad or what, i dont care anymore. i just want decent grades.
Sunday, August 03, 2008
ragh
dover mrt so empty.as empty as my heart.
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i remembered during one of the practices, we were playing charming asia, when we were so in tune. i was so happy and i smiled so broadly and dr lee made fun of me. haha. and edwin was like.. omg, this is so nice! yeah, i was amazed with myself too, that we could actually play so in tune.
yesterday was a stupid bad day. the seminar in the morn at yjc about malay literature was a waste of my time. gggrrr. woke up at 8 am and the seminar starts at 8.30am. nice one. rushed like a mad woman. reached there and it was just presentations and more presentations on the papers that these people had researched on. my god, if uni is gonna be something like this... errmmm, i dont know if i'll survive. half the time i was staring into space. then made my way to esplanade to study econs. which isnt going anywhere near progress. sigh, my pace is really slow. and i still havent eaten anything since morning.. and my medication too. so i was getting all grumpy. and my temples were throbbing. rushed to acsi. and i was stuck in the human traffic. ergh, there was ndp preview. sooo great. *sarcasm. reached acsi late. missed first 2 songs. met khairul and said i was getting shorter. hhmm, that boy! too bad darren was there. hahaha. then had to go off like soon after that. ggrrr. mum was calling me. kept reminding i need to rest. and that i am still recovering. ok, ok, i will take of myself ok.
sigh, i really should learn to focus.
chiao.
because no one will take care of you other than yourself.
i thought i was ready to face the world again. but the journeys that i took yesterday from tamp to yishun to city hall then to acsi aft that to tamp again made me realise that i am alone in this world. because i got lost on the way and all. tried to find food but all shops were closed or theres nothing that i can eat. so pathetic... so i've decided to be stronger and more independent. but when i was listening to the concert, damn, i really thought i was stronger than that. the dam just broke, and flood, flood, flood. luckily nobody was sitting beside me except peihoon. so no one saw anything.
ok, i just miss everybody ok. yes i miss you all sososo much, i just wanna cry. i miss acband so much. the slightest association can crumble me to pieces. and i feel so left out that night, i wanna run away. thats my fault, for being away for too long. i'm sorry, its all my fault. i just to play my eupho back. i shouldnt have undergo this surgery. then i may be able to go to swiss. then maybe i will be able to go for sibf. and maybe play for the last time during national day. bleh, whatever la.
because no one will take care of you other than yourself.
i thought i was ready to face the world again. but the journeys that i took yesterday from tamp to yishun to city hall then to acsi aft that to tamp again made me realise that i am alone in this world. because i got lost on the way and all. tried to find food but all shops were closed or theres nothing that i can eat. so pathetic... so i've decided to be stronger and more independent. but when i was listening to the concert, damn, i really thought i was stronger than that. the dam just broke, and flood, flood, flood. luckily nobody was sitting beside me except peihoon. so no one saw anything.
ok, i just miss everybody ok. yes i miss you all sososo much, i just wanna cry. i miss acband so much. the slightest association can crumble me to pieces. and i feel so left out that night, i wanna run away. thats my fault, for being away for too long. i'm sorry, its all my fault. i just to play my eupho back. i shouldnt have undergo this surgery. then i may be able to go to swiss. then maybe i will be able to go for sibf. and maybe play for the last time during national day. bleh, whatever la.
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