i am so angry but i cant get angry.
looks like i have to sleep at 4 am again today.
chiao.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
mug or you die
i dont care any more. i'll just concentrate on studying.
i dont want to have any regrets later.
mugmugmugmugmugmug.
not much time left. but so much more to study. will i be able to do this?
i think i'll go crazy.
chiao.
i dont want to have any regrets later.
mugmugmugmugmugmug.
not much time left. but so much more to study. will i be able to do this?
i think i'll go crazy.
chiao.
Friday, April 09, 2010
for my sayangs.
happy happy happy. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. hahaha.
thanks dears for today.
irna: for a fruitful day of studying together. it makes me sane to have a slightly less than sane friend beside me studying too. heh.
hiq, khai, aj for the company and stories today. i miss you girls like mad. and i'm so sorry for not trying to like call you girls once in awhile and ask whats happening in your lives and everything. but i'm happy you girls are moving on in life so well! ((:
hiq, congrats for that ntu offer! all the best okay! welcome to uni life hahaha. and insyallah with the scholarship application. dont worry. my instincts tell me... you'll do good!
next step, get a boyfriend quick!!! hahaha.
khai, yay! poly over, hello uni! haha. although i am abit sad that i wont be seeing you for 3 months. but i am happy you got what you wanted! congrats yeah babe! work hard, and try to catch up with AJ can? ahahahaha. oh yes, take care of yourself while you're there okay. negeri orang la kata kan.. (although you'll be going only in sept! ahahaha i da start to get worried da..)
next step, get your degree! and i'm waiting for an invitation card like a few years down the road!:D
AJ, woah i have to say. ahahaha. the biggest progress. the best drama. hahahaha. i still remember when you were complaining how we'll grow up as spinsters. ahahaha. and how we will not ever get a bf. lol. but now... hahaha, funny how love can change a person. anyway, my dear friend, i hope you'll be happy with him. and yes, dont neglect your studies plus take care of yourself. about your fam.. well, sabar je la. i only too well how mothers can be. heh.
next progress! get yourself to australia and a degree since thats what you want right! and erhmm.. yeah kad jemputan maybe..? ahahahaha.
and me? still hanging there.
oh well...sigh. hanging on...
chiao.
thanks dears for today.
irna: for a fruitful day of studying together. it makes me sane to have a slightly less than sane friend beside me studying too. heh.
hiq, khai, aj for the company and stories today. i miss you girls like mad. and i'm so sorry for not trying to like call you girls once in awhile and ask whats happening in your lives and everything. but i'm happy you girls are moving on in life so well! ((:
hiq, congrats for that ntu offer! all the best okay! welcome to uni life hahaha. and insyallah with the scholarship application. dont worry. my instincts tell me... you'll do good!
next step, get a boyfriend quick!!! hahaha.
khai, yay! poly over, hello uni! haha. although i am abit sad that i wont be seeing you for 3 months. but i am happy you got what you wanted! congrats yeah babe! work hard, and try to catch up with AJ can? ahahahaha. oh yes, take care of yourself while you're there okay. negeri orang la kata kan.. (although you'll be going only in sept! ahahaha i da start to get worried da..)
next step, get your degree! and i'm waiting for an invitation card like a few years down the road!:D
AJ, woah i have to say. ahahaha. the biggest progress. the best drama. hahahaha. i still remember when you were complaining how we'll grow up as spinsters. ahahaha. and how we will not ever get a bf. lol. but now... hahaha, funny how love can change a person. anyway, my dear friend, i hope you'll be happy with him. and yes, dont neglect your studies plus take care of yourself. about your fam.. well, sabar je la. i only too well how mothers can be. heh.
next progress! get yourself to australia and a degree since thats what you want right! and erhmm.. yeah kad jemputan maybe..? ahahahaha.
and me? still hanging there.
oh well...sigh. hanging on...
chiao.
Monday, March 29, 2010
speak malay lah.
this is seriously bugging me.
the aunties. well, aunties were gossiping (as usual) and guess what they were saying. they were talking about how so many of my cousins these days are going to AC schools.. like bla bla bla.. how smart they were.. and the comparing session starts. urgh, i seriously hate this. like how smart they were and how they dont need to o levels.. how they speak english so well.. and i pointed out that they are not good in malay though. and thats bad. AND GUESS WHAT THEY REPLIED! ahhhhh. its ok what. whats important is that you are good in english. you need english to survive you know. bleah. so what if you're good in it if you dont even know your mother tongue. isnt it a shame? not knowing your roots, the language that your grandparents speak in, your great grandparents spoke in. S o what if you're good in what you're doing but you cant communicate with your society and community in your mother tongue well? arent you ashamed?
they dont know how bad this problem is do they? i'm so pissed by their remarks. i cant believe even such aunties actually find not being able to speak malay well alright. atrocious.
guess how many students in my higher malay class were native malay students and how many were non-malay? there were more non-malays in my higher malay class! how shameful is that! and guess how 'big' my malay literature class back in AC is? yeah, 5 measly, sad people. 5! and the numbers for the past cohorts are dwindling too.
isnt it sad?
chiao.
the aunties. well, aunties were gossiping (as usual) and guess what they were saying. they were talking about how so many of my cousins these days are going to AC schools.. like bla bla bla.. how smart they were.. and the comparing session starts. urgh, i seriously hate this. like how smart they were and how they dont need to o levels.. how they speak english so well.. and i pointed out that they are not good in malay though. and thats bad. AND GUESS WHAT THEY REPLIED! ahhhhh. its ok what. whats important is that you are good in english. you need english to survive you know. bleah. so what if you're good in it if you dont even know your mother tongue. isnt it a shame? not knowing your roots, the language that your grandparents speak in, your great grandparents spoke in. S o what if you're good in what you're doing but you cant communicate with your society and community in your mother tongue well? arent you ashamed?
they dont know how bad this problem is do they? i'm so pissed by their remarks. i cant believe even such aunties actually find not being able to speak malay well alright. atrocious.
guess how many students in my higher malay class were native malay students and how many were non-malay? there were more non-malays in my higher malay class! how shameful is that! and guess how 'big' my malay literature class back in AC is? yeah, 5 measly, sad people. 5! and the numbers for the past cohorts are dwindling too.
isnt it sad?
chiao.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
exams. again.
ChanKhunJunhoJun.kJayTaecWoo official hiatus. :]
from all things associated with k-pop *pouts and everything else that can get me distracted.
the problem is... 2pm's come back is in april. and i'm having exams. sigh. no khun=major sadness.
no, think about EXAMS!
chiao.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
mo jo jo headache.
i saw mummies today! ahahaha. yes, real ones. wrapped in cloth. they're huge. and weird. i wonder how they really look like. how they live, what they eat, nice or not? ahahahaha. how was the weather, hot? how do they go about their daily lives? ehy so many questions.
anyway, borong shawl! :))) seha, next time we borong again okay?
irna, next time we study together again okay? i am inspired by your democracy essay! and i think it was a fruitful study session since i got to concentrate better then i normally do.
anyway, editing is a MOJO JO JO HEADACHE.
isey bedah.
went to get kak yani's wedding card. gosh, its nice! haha. and they told me i gained weight. paranoid me freaked out. mummy scolded me for being fat tooo! T_________T but being my mummy, she told me some pointers that she did when she was my age to lose weight. kekekekeke. number 1! sleep early. 2! wake up early and run+dont sleep after subuh! ooppppsss! heh. 3! count your calories! oh my gawdddddddddddd. seriously? she said yes, if you wanna lose like 5-6kg. thanks mummy. i'll think abt that calorie thingy. 4! no rice or carbo, no junk food+ no eating aft 7. okay, this one can. (:
for the betterment of oneself! here i come! sleep early? i havent finish editing uh. T_T how?
chiao.
anyway, borong shawl! :))) seha, next time we borong again okay?
irna, next time we study together again okay? i am inspired by your democracy essay! and i think it was a fruitful study session since i got to concentrate better then i normally do.
anyway, editing is a MOJO JO JO HEADACHE.
isey bedah.
went to get kak yani's wedding card. gosh, its nice! haha. and they told me i gained weight. paranoid me freaked out. mummy scolded me for being fat tooo! T_________T but being my mummy, she told me some pointers that she did when she was my age to lose weight. kekekekeke. number 1! sleep early. 2! wake up early and run+dont sleep after subuh! ooppppsss! heh. 3! count your calories! oh my gawdddddddddddd. seriously? she said yes, if you wanna lose like 5-6kg. thanks mummy. i'll think abt that calorie thingy. 4! no rice or carbo, no junk food+ no eating aft 7. okay, this one can. (:
for the betterment of oneself! here i come! sleep early? i havent finish editing uh. T_T how?
chiao.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
crabby patty day
i miss them. eh wait, wheres khai and az? tsk, incomplete.amazing crabby patty day yesterday. and enthu pissed me off so badly. grrrr.
i dont want to be a weeeeeakling. but. sighs.
weird dreams. cryptic-like dreams. or its just my mind playing games?
ehhhh i cant wait for thurs ^^
now. for the dreading part.. PROJECTS+STUDY. T____T
chiao.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
suju!
omg omg omg. i so miss the old suju. where all 13 are just happy smiling. miracle always made me smile! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
anyways. today was egg-citing! ud birthday! happy birthday ud! damn. i miss those days we mugged and studied sastera together. haha. all those essays.. and those times in the lib toiling hard, squeezing our brains. then its theathre time! wow. its been a long..... time since i get into such intense discussions about the prevalent social issues. intersting. and i'm looking forward to theathre!!! weheeeee.
been eating tooo much this week. gosh. wed was ayam penyet with oppa, thurs was sushi buffet with seri, fri was lau pa sat seafood dinner, sun sushi again with ud+star bucks with seniors. i should start working out again. but.. i'm sick. :(
when am i going to get well. i can concentrate on my work. horrible pysically, mentally and emotionally.
reports and more reports.
chiao.
anyways. today was egg-citing! ud birthday! happy birthday ud! damn. i miss those days we mugged and studied sastera together. haha. all those essays.. and those times in the lib toiling hard, squeezing our brains. then its theathre time! wow. its been a long..... time since i get into such intense discussions about the prevalent social issues. intersting. and i'm looking forward to theathre!!! weheeeee.
been eating tooo much this week. gosh. wed was ayam penyet with oppa, thurs was sushi buffet with seri, fri was lau pa sat seafood dinner, sun sushi again with ud+star bucks with seniors. i should start working out again. but.. i'm sick. :(
when am i going to get well. i can concentrate on my work. horrible pysically, mentally and emotionally.
reports and more reports.
chiao.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
budgetreportthingysbleah
budget report highlights: 52 page. 26 pages read.24 more to go. yay! *yawns.................................
screammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. ah, khun brushed her teeth!!!!
i guess a string of HDs dont really matter now. I just need those kind of marks for the final results. ALL HDS :D how about that? big dreams, small abilities.
i think i really need to study. T____T
i was wondering where did all my passion, energy and drive have gone to? i used to be more hardworking, more focused and smarter(in some ways)... these days... i just float by going thru the motion of going to school and listening to lectures and project meetings. i wonder what goes into my head these days. i know rambling here is of no use. i guess i need a tight slap to wake me up.
and yeah that stupid migraine is here again.
chiao.
screammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. ah, khun brushed her teeth!!!!
i guess a string of HDs dont really matter now. I just need those kind of marks for the final results. ALL HDS :D how about that? big dreams, small abilities.
i think i really need to study. T____T
i was wondering where did all my passion, energy and drive have gone to? i used to be more hardworking, more focused and smarter(in some ways)... these days... i just float by going thru the motion of going to school and listening to lectures and project meetings. i wonder what goes into my head these days. i know rambling here is of no use. i guess i need a tight slap to wake me up.
and yeah that stupid migraine is here again.
chiao.
Monday, March 08, 2010
projects.
badoque was awesome as always. :)) lost my first kiss to aishah r. ok, kidding. ahahaha. and got my pinky bitten by khai. ahahahaha. food was great. loveee my si tongkol.
projects is driving me crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. and i cant believe singaporean's english was this bad. i thought my english was bad enough. my essay was crap enough. i mean.. heloooo we're in university! and we're sending these reports to australia dudes! gosh. and i cant stand last minute work. f***. then give me to edit the day before submission.
oh, what about madrasah's report? yeah, i'll be the one hurrying and ushering people to do thier work. sometimes i wonder if i'm being used or i'm just plain naive.
ok, i need anger management+ i am hungry. apam balik sounds nice right now.
where is my polaroidsss~~~!!! khun!
ok, i'm not a traitor. still a true hottest. just that i love beastttttttttttttttt! yoseob vocals are just.. dang awesome!
quit it girl. -_-
FINE, I'LL STOP SPAZZING. FOR NOW. HEH.
chiao.
projects is driving me crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. and i cant believe singaporean's english was this bad. i thought my english was bad enough. my essay was crap enough. i mean.. heloooo we're in university! and we're sending these reports to australia dudes! gosh. and i cant stand last minute work. f***. then give me to edit the day before submission.
oh, what about madrasah's report? yeah, i'll be the one hurrying and ushering people to do thier work. sometimes i wonder if i'm being used or i'm just plain naive.
ok, i need anger management+ i am hungry. apam balik sounds nice right now.
where is my polaroidsss~~~!!! khun!
ok, i'm not a traitor. still a true hottest. just that i love beastttttttttttttttt! yoseob vocals are just.. dang awesome!
quit it girl. -_-
FINE, I'LL STOP SPAZZING. FOR NOW. HEH.
chiao.
Thursday, March 04, 2010
i fell asleep while teaching.
credits to Heartfelt@2od
yes, these were the happy times. when 7=1
yes, these were the happy times. when 7=1now, i dont know who or what to believe in.
but 1 thing's for sure,
i'll still believe in j
and not forgetting my khun^^
ppsssttt! mummy approves of jong hyun
and kak agrees with me that khun is just... JJANG! :))
muahahaha.
Y Si Fuera Ella blew me away ^^
the black swan. impact of the highly improbable. hhmmm, got me into a really deep thinking. which made me quite awake for very much the whole of the train rides to and back from school.
oushhhh. meeting minutes+getting bullied by my all-guys team. thanks uh guys.
i was so tired that i fell asleep while teaching just now. WOW. and i thought.. what if i just fell asleep while walking? quite probable eh when you only had like 2-3 hrs of sleep the past 4-5 days.
i can totally do this! if i can go through ac life, why cant i endure this? positivity is the best during times of emotional peril and anarchy. lol.
i cant stand people who lack the motivation to work hard. they are just.. how should you describe these people? i mean.. i just cant stand sub-quality work which was put together in a few hours time before i bug you for it. there is just no reason why you should work any less harder than i am since we're in this together. so lets put our heads together and make sure we get a distiction at the very least please. urgh. effort, i just need to see that.
anyways, i cant wait to meet my wmts! sayang korang!
chiao.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
mug or you die
yeah, this guy here, broke alot of people's heart. but we still love him no matter what. oh gosh. critical. critical. critical period.
hhmm. i should not get carried away with the issue regarding jay. ahas, shows how dedicated i am to 2oneday. bleahs. i just sayang them too much lahs.
plus. its the tests+projects dateline period.
ahhhhhh~~~ i think i really am going crazy this time round.
i'm getting the random cold shivers and stomach butterfly effects again and again today. feels like my head is gonna explode anytime soon too.
fine. no more youtube-ing, family-outing-ing or 2oneday-ing, blogging or anything that can distract me for the time being. or else you'll go crazy beyond repair!
hhmm. i should not get carried away with the issue regarding jay. ahas, shows how dedicated i am to 2oneday. bleahs. i just sayang them too much lahs.
plus. its the tests+projects dateline period.
ahhhhhh~~~ i think i really am going crazy this time round.
i'm getting the random cold shivers and stomach butterfly effects again and again today. feels like my head is gonna explode anytime soon too.
fine. no more youtube-ing, family-outing-ing or 2oneday-ing, blogging or anything that can distract me for the time being. or else you'll go crazy beyond repair!
MUG OR YOU DIE!
GOODBYEEEE!~~~
chiao.
Friday, February 26, 2010
happy+angry
credits to hearfelt@2od
*puffed cheeks O.O
*puffed cheeks O.Oi can seriously strangle someone now. raghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i really should work harder for my tests. AND projects especially.
But body tells heart, 'you are going to fall sick soon, so better sleep early!' but heart says, 'I cant! i have financial planing test and reports to write!' Body says, 'SCREW IT!' Heart replied, ' I'm sorry body, i just cant...' and so body+heart stayed up late to study and write reports. sigh. So now, body has a banging headache and a swollen heart from keeping in anger.
on a happier note, alhamdullilah for commercial law test. i almost did sujud syukur. god knows how i felt.
:)
God, grant me more patience to deal with this. T__________________T
chiao.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
its a mess.
credits to hearfelt@2od.gif)
its a wonder why i always have to clean up after people's mess.
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its a wonder why i always have to clean up after people's mess.yeah, jun, it sure does, i know...
but guess i'm used to it.
chiao.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
ok i still suck at econs drq.
get ready for chiminology. mind boggling jargons. and complicated graphs.
ok fine, its not that bad. but i realllllyyyyyyyyyy gotta do well. sighs. econseconseconseconsecons. somehow i remember mr mash's face. hahahaha.
projects? i'm on panic mode. its back to those staring-at-the-laptop-cluelessly nights for hours. it isnt progressing. my group sucks at communicating. its like theres this big wall we're talking thorough each other. i wonder why. maybe its just me thats too thick-skinned to care about being shy.
how come i cant post gif pictures here. T.T maybe i should change to lj or wordpress or tumblr. hhmmm.
anyways, i miss alot of people. my acband mates. my juniors, seniors. its been dinosaur years that we met. i saw some pictures of us back then. hhmm. something that i will never forget. those tears, sweat and what not we went through. hah. alumni anyone? should i go?? hhmmm...
chiao.
ok fine, its not that bad. but i realllllyyyyyyyyyy gotta do well. sighs. econseconseconseconsecons. somehow i remember mr mash's face. hahahaha.
projects? i'm on panic mode. its back to those staring-at-the-laptop-cluelessly nights for hours. it isnt progressing. my group sucks at communicating. its like theres this big wall we're talking thorough each other. i wonder why. maybe its just me thats too thick-skinned to care about being shy.
how come i cant post gif pictures here. T.T maybe i should change to lj or wordpress or tumblr. hhmmm.
anyways, i miss alot of people. my acband mates. my juniors, seniors. its been dinosaur years that we met. i saw some pictures of us back then. hhmm. something that i will never forget. those tears, sweat and what not we went through. hah. alumni anyone? should i go?? hhmmm...
chiao.
Monday, February 15, 2010
bored+no mood
wooyoung^^
bored.bored.bored. although i have reports to write, research papers and review papers to scruntinise plus plus more research to do. oh, and macro test next monday. just NO MOOD. period.
and singapore is totally like ghost town now. no shops are opened. well, maybe for macs and KFC.. TT i thought of shopping but thats out of the question right.
so whats the most embarassing thing that possibly can happen to you first thing in the morning? ahahahah.
how about... when you just woke up.. still half asleep, with pyjamas, dishrivelled hair, maybe or maybe not eye snot in your half opened eyes.. you went out of the house to take your towel and there you go.. the hot guy next door is looking at you while tying his shoelaces. OMGGGGGGGGGG~~~
sigh. i'll live with that.
sunday.. hhmm, 3 movies straight. entertaining. but i think my butt just got much much flatter. plus plus, the 1 hr train ride home, loads of shadows and tom yum smell lingering throughout the journey home. haha. ah~ an experince worth not to remember. heh.
oh, my fat+short finger is such a ^%$&^*&^%$!!! when playing the guitar. gggrrr.
PS: i miss my WMTs.
chiao.
Friday, February 05, 2010
home not so homely
there are reasons why i hate be to be home.
just dont ask me why.
because i really hate being here right now.
interview for syog was really... an eye-opener. how competitive the world out there really is. how sheltered we really are.
all the more i wanna go out there.
i really want this internship. but but but. MOL.LA.
chiao.
just dont ask me why.
because i really hate being here right now.
interview for syog was really... an eye-opener. how competitive the world out there really is. how sheltered we really are.
all the more i wanna go out there.
i really want this internship. but but but. MOL.LA.
chiao.
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
sigh
have you felt like you're not doing enough? like there's a lack somewhere...?
this week at a glance...
tuesday: proj research for MCS and macro- which isnt going anywhere.. loads and loads of review paper, consultation papers and newspaper reports to read.
and i havent even attempt to draft out my report for MCS grp work.
MCS pair work also not moving. there seems to be always something that i need to edit and change. like theres always something not right. and its always not good enough. sigh.
tutiton- ahh.. havent buy that minah's science assessment book.
wednesday: dieee~~~ proj meeting!
thursday: breakfast date with divi! :) pairwork proj meeting. hopefully we dont digress. sheesh. theres more to life than kpop.
friday: JB? i dont know.. so many things to do but i still bother going to JB? well.. if i dont, mummy will be upset that i didnt accompany her.
sigh.
saturday: madrasah. OH NO. i havent do my homework. meet up with sehaaa :)
sunday: madrasah again. how many of these classes do i have? ehehhh~~ :D only 2.
conclusion: i better manage my time properly. stop youtubing. and work harder la makcik! TT.TT
this week at a glance...
tuesday: proj research for MCS and macro- which isnt going anywhere.. loads and loads of review paper, consultation papers and newspaper reports to read.
and i havent even attempt to draft out my report for MCS grp work.
MCS pair work also not moving. there seems to be always something that i need to edit and change. like theres always something not right. and its always not good enough. sigh.
tutiton- ahh.. havent buy that minah's science assessment book.
wednesday: dieee~~~ proj meeting!
thursday: breakfast date with divi! :) pairwork proj meeting. hopefully we dont digress. sheesh. theres more to life than kpop.
friday: JB? i dont know.. so many things to do but i still bother going to JB? well.. if i dont, mummy will be upset that i didnt accompany her.
sigh.
saturday: madrasah. OH NO. i havent do my homework. meet up with sehaaa :)
sunday: madrasah again. how many of these classes do i have? ehehhh~~ :D only 2.
conclusion: i better manage my time properly. stop youtubing. and work harder la makcik! TT.TT
Thursday, January 21, 2010
maybe.maybe.maybe.
credits to heartfelt@2OD
have you ever stood in the middle of a crowd and still feel lonely?
why do some people keep poping up in your life when you thought that they were gone for good?
maybe.maybe. maybe.
its a sign.
anyways. the big migraine is here. ok, dont complain. and my thighs are screaming~~~~ help!!!
i'm hungry. KFC sounds good right now.
back to squeeeeezing more brain juices.
chiao.
Monday, January 18, 2010
i forgot!
get get getting jiggy jiggyyyyy~~~
bing bing bing bang bang! woo!
ENOUGH.
oh i forgot that i have this businesss proposal that i have to draft up. great,with much sarcasm. its a real business deal by the way.
projects with all due respect is piling up. way to go!
tutorials? yay!
revising? pure awesomeness.
oh, aiesec registration. i forgot about that too. -_-
and many other countless etc stuffs.
maybe chicken essence will be good for my aging brain.
chiao.
bing bing bing bang bang! woo!
ENOUGH.
oh i forgot that i have this businesss proposal that i have to draft up. great,with much sarcasm. its a real business deal by the way.
projects with all due respect is piling up. way to go!
tutorials? yay!
revising? pure awesomeness.
oh, aiesec registration. i forgot about that too. -_-
and many other countless etc stuffs.
maybe chicken essence will be good for my aging brain.
chiao.
Friday, January 08, 2010
anything luh
wow. schools in. busy. busy. busy. but projects are not in yet. i wonder who my group members will be. hopefully they arent some bitch or something alike.
anyways, saw a heroic act yesterday. a worm being saved. man.. that dude is totally saves the day. wed.. went to jb at 10pm. hoho.. reached home at 3am. awesome huh. tues, watched chipmunk with taec. heheeeee and embarassed ourselves. aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~ T.T 2 times in a row! oh gosh. seriously.
*looks at the time. OMG. I AM SO LATE FOR SCHOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL..............
chiao.
anyways, saw a heroic act yesterday. a worm being saved. man.. that dude is totally saves the day. wed.. went to jb at 10pm. hoho.. reached home at 3am. awesome huh. tues, watched chipmunk with taec. heheeeee and embarassed ourselves. aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~ T.T 2 times in a row! oh gosh. seriously.
*looks at the time. OMG. I AM SO LATE FOR SCHOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL..............
chiao.
Sunday, December 06, 2009
back
its been ages yeah.
oh well. exams are well over and i'm well enjoying my holidays. Results are out too. what can i say? not up to expectations definitely. ESPECIALLY ACCOUNTING. ergh. *rolls eyes. $1k down the drain. sigh. next sem will be more challenging. considering theres modules like law and macroecons. T.T plus! projects. i wonder who will be my group mates. this sem group mates are awesome. ^^
hiq's back. :))) ft island is coming BUT yeah, i cant go. &TUTFUYTE$%^&*456890$^%&*(!!!!
zhong's birthday party was good. his family was really warm. :D glad that the 3 of us can get along till now.
thats abt it i guess.
heres t the end of my holiday. work tomorrow. SIGH~~~
chiao.
oh well. exams are well over and i'm well enjoying my holidays. Results are out too. what can i say? not up to expectations definitely. ESPECIALLY ACCOUNTING. ergh. *rolls eyes. $1k down the drain. sigh. next sem will be more challenging. considering theres modules like law and macroecons. T.T plus! projects. i wonder who will be my group mates. this sem group mates are awesome. ^^
hiq's back. :))) ft island is coming BUT yeah, i cant go. &TUTFUYTE$%^&*456890$^%&*(!!!!
zhong's birthday party was good. his family was really warm. :D glad that the 3 of us can get along till now.
thats abt it i guess.
heres t the end of my holiday. work tomorrow. SIGH~~~
chiao.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
a battle within
sometimes i feel like just crying it all out and let it all go.
sometimes i feel that i should hold back the tears, be brave and fight.
seems like i'm the only one fighting this battle.
ah, i dont know.
but i've vowed to never shed a tear again.
so sick and tired. emotionally, physically.
seems like if i dont do well enough for this exam, i may not be able to continue with studies eh. and the only thing i want now is a place called home. thats all.
chiao.
sometimes i feel that i should hold back the tears, be brave and fight.
seems like i'm the only one fighting this battle.
ah, i dont know.
but i've vowed to never shed a tear again.
so sick and tired. emotionally, physically.
seems like if i dont do well enough for this exam, i may not be able to continue with studies eh. and the only thing i want now is a place called home. thats all.
chiao.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
mug time! wwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
officially on hiatus.
do not disturb.
MUG OR YOU DIE!
uuhhh i wanna play with jay. sighs.
damn! after exams man!! you just wait!
haha.
alright, time to mugggg~~~~
chiao.
do not disturb.
MUG OR YOU DIE!
uuhhh i wanna play with jay. sighs.
damn! after exams man!! you just wait!
haha.
alright, time to mugggg~~~~
chiao.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
the flower
to become beautiful, you must endure pain.
to become perfect, you must hold in sadness.
where is the flower which blooms without getting soaked by the pouring rain?
i hate it when someone's words made an impact on me, esp when that person is someone who doesnt know how significant he is. oh well. ok, lets move on in life.
major projects are finally over. only left with the role play project which i have to act. oh my. and exams, which i am supposed to study. haha. whatever. absolutely no mood.
love, sincerity. give me a chance to learn about it.
to become perfect, you must hold in sadness.
where is the flower which blooms without getting soaked by the pouring rain?
i hate it when someone's words made an impact on me, esp when that person is someone who doesnt know how significant he is. oh well. ok, lets move on in life.
major projects are finally over. only left with the role play project which i have to act. oh my. and exams, which i am supposed to study. haha. whatever. absolutely no mood.
love, sincerity. give me a chance to learn about it.
Friday, October 02, 2009
really.
really, how could you think of me like that? say things of me like that.
ouch. i feel a great stabbing pain there.
congrats, for making me feel like the worst person ever to walked on earth.
no kidding. you really made me feel that way today.
chiao.
ouch. i feel a great stabbing pain there.
congrats, for making me feel like the worst person ever to walked on earth.
no kidding. you really made me feel that way today.
chiao.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
eyeballs
so.. can eyeballs really roll out? i have the feeling that its going to happen to me soon.
welcome, dark circles and panda eyes. yay.
i'm getting really worked up with all these tests and project deadlines approaching.
3 days to raya and i still havent got my baju kurung this year.
anyway, eid mubarak peopleeeeeeeeeeee!
wwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
chiao. :))))
welcome, dark circles and panda eyes. yay.
i'm getting really worked up with all these tests and project deadlines approaching.
3 days to raya and i still havent got my baju kurung this year.
anyway, eid mubarak peopleeeeeeeeeeee!
wwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
chiao. :))))
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
PARK JAEBOM
oh man, jay... 2pm wouldnt be hottest anymore without jay! right. i am so effing sad now. cant believe i am affected until like this. i bet the rest of the boys are under so much stress now. sigh. rumours say that junho's the next leader. sigh. and the boys were seen crying at the airport when jay left. and wooyoung fainted, in hospital now.
damn who can sing, rap and break like jay!? TELL MEEEE! ah. watching wild bunny, hot blood, idol army again. ahw, i want jaebom leadja back!
i'm missing hiq already. i hate airports. really i do.
chiao.
damn who can sing, rap and break like jay!? TELL MEEEE! ah. watching wild bunny, hot blood, idol army again. ahw, i want jaebom leadja back!
i'm missing hiq already. i hate airports. really i do.
chiao.
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
Saturday, September 05, 2009
Sunday, August 30, 2009
school
its been ages since i've updated. 4 weeks of school. i cant say its was bad. but i expected it to be better. nonetheless, i'm glad my project grp members were truly cooperative and responsible despite being such playful guys. :)) found a suju+2pm addict like me. haha. we're good friends now. hehe. oh, found a leeteuk and siwon twin in my course. *faints* but i need to focus. my concentration span is only 5 secs i think. gosh, i gotta buck up, focus and study.
its a week into ramadhan. missing many people. and, and...sigh, hiq is going away.. :(
nickhun!! :)) *melts....
guess that abt it.
chiao.
its a week into ramadhan. missing many people. and, and...sigh, hiq is going away.. :(
nickhun!! :)) *melts....
guess that abt it.
chiao.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
projects.
rabak ah i thought my proj is easy peasy. yeah right. easy peasy to comprehend ONLY. but when i ponder and analyse the questions, shit. oh nooooooooooooo. ah my brain's quite fried from accounts and economic analysis eh. tmr accounts again. cash balance, brought forward, marking up. oh new homework and new project! omg. how many projects seh.
thinking back again, some of the stuff that i did when i was working in income was actually very relevant to what i am studying now! hehehe.
and omg, my coursemates are like how frighteningly competitive. damn.
but BRING IT ON BEYBEH!
hahaha.
chiao.
thinking back again, some of the stuff that i did when i was working in income was actually very relevant to what i am studying now! hehehe.
and omg, my coursemates are like how frighteningly competitive. damn.
but BRING IT ON BEYBEH!
hahaha.
chiao.
Thursday, August 06, 2009
paranoia
maybe i'm just being paranoid. i'm panicking. i really need to study. i cant imagine myself failing. oh my, impossible.
ahhh.
chiao.
ahhh.
chiao.
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
SCHOOL
1st day of school and i was late! hehehe. but things turned out well after that.
NOW! geram ah. i cant log in to acess my schedule, print course notes, assingments, etc. ahhh how! no notes for tmr's lesson!
but happy. :D nonetheless.
chiao!
NOW! geram ah. i cant log in to acess my schedule, print course notes, assingments, etc. ahhh how! no notes for tmr's lesson!
but happy. :D nonetheless.
chiao!
Sunday, August 02, 2009
<3 suju!
suju made my day yet again! and made me cry too! reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy love then.
ohkay, school's tmr!! wwwwwwwwwwwweeee. egg-citing!
me-> ELF! wohooo!
chiao!
ohkay, school's tmr!! wwwwwwwwwwwweeee. egg-citing!
me-> ELF! wohooo!
chiao!
Friday, July 31, 2009
merepeks.
this is so merepek. its like politics between menopausal half-a-century aunties who has no life. wtf. AND I AM CAUGHT IN BETWEEN IT. f-la.
aahh.
i is missing someone.
ohoh. i love this song!
chiao.
aahh.
i is missing someone.
ohoh. i love this song!
chiao.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
sigh
teaching isnt an easy thing eh. it doesnt just involve the student and teacher, but also the student's parents. what makes it worst is that the student doesnt co-operate but wants results. the mother, being on the student's side will protect her. the teacher on the other hand wants to teach her so badly but cant get anything to work out. that just suck.
i hate being forced to do things that i do not want. i hhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttttteeeeeeeeeeeeeeee it.
omg. i feel so angry. and you always know how to look so sympathetic that i will eventually give in. and if i dont, you'll say all those hurtful things that i never seem to be able to forget. its painful. and when i do something good, its never acknowledged or appreciated. thats so nice of you. you always want your way but i never got to do anything my way.
somehow, it frustrates me that i cant do anything to change the situation. its frustrates me even more that no one is listening to me. it frustrates me even more that no one else here wants to do anything abt it and keep asking me to do something. i'm not a superwoman ah.
guess all this while i was only in denial. trying to convince my self that i'm alright.
chiao.
i hate being forced to do things that i do not want. i hhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttttteeeeeeeeeeeeeeee it.
omg. i feel so angry. and you always know how to look so sympathetic that i will eventually give in. and if i dont, you'll say all those hurtful things that i never seem to be able to forget. its painful. and when i do something good, its never acknowledged or appreciated. thats so nice of you. you always want your way but i never got to do anything my way.
somehow, it frustrates me that i cant do anything to change the situation. its frustrates me even more that no one is listening to me. it frustrates me even more that no one else here wants to do anything abt it and keep asking me to do something. i'm not a superwoman ah.
guess all this while i was only in denial. trying to convince my self that i'm alright.
chiao.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
run
i dont know whats wrong with blogger or mine IE. the layout is all screwed up!
hhmmm. sigh.
i wanna run away from here.bye.
chiao.
hhmmm. sigh.
i wanna run away from here.bye.
chiao.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
:)))
this is oh so cute.
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH. suju just got themselves a new fan!!!
alright, i'm stopping work like soon. kinda sad but i cant wait for school. :D although i dont know excatly whos in sim. BUT I AM SO GONNA ENJOY MY UNI DAYS. muahahahahaha. and study hard!
orientation next week! wwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. ohoh! mandaki approved my loan. heh.
chiao.
Thursday, July 09, 2009
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Sunday, July 05, 2009
triangled.
yesterday was.. awesome. although the heat was terrifying. i was wearing 4 layers altogether! omg.
but we had great fun! :) and we got good comments. hhmm, i wonder what. haha. oh man, work tmr. sigh. 20th july, come quick!
i love triangles. from toa cah soh, phythogoras thoerem, to finding areas. those were my best topics in math. but being in a relationship triangle is HORRIGIBLE. what am i to do? zomg. but 1 thing for sure, i will never hurt my own friend.
chiao.
but we had great fun! :) and we got good comments. hhmm, i wonder what. haha. oh man, work tmr. sigh. 20th july, come quick!
i love triangles. from toa cah soh, phythogoras thoerem, to finding areas. those were my best topics in math. but being in a relationship triangle is HORRIGIBLE. what am i to do? zomg. but 1 thing for sure, i will never hurt my own friend.
chiao.
Thursday, July 02, 2009
unfathomable
i did an unthinkable. furthermore, i didnt even realise until the cars were horning at me. omg..
whats wrong with you!
chiao.
whats wrong with you!
chiao.
Monday, June 29, 2009
poke poke
like the stupidest person on earth. me.
damn pissed.
its like so horrible to make fun of people's weaknesses and laugh at them, make them into a joke. its not funny. its not like they want to be like that. what if you are fat and your friends calls you fatso or roti pound like that. or if your hair is like damn bushy and curly and they liken you to mak hitam from the jerangkung movie? funny uh. but if its you then how will you feel? especially when the people who made you look so pathetic are your friends? your own damn fucking friends. then maybe they should never have been called friends in the first place right.
i cant help it if i am very blur, clumsy or weird. sometimes i wish i wasnt. maybe abit more smarter like the rest of my friends. then maybe people wont laugh at my stupidity, my clumsiness and maybe i wont get on people's nerves for being such a blur king kong. maybe i wont disappoint my family for not living up to their expectations. maybe i will be able to get better results and get easily into a real uni. maybe, i would have done better in band then maybe i will be able to join the rest in.... maybe then.. maybe-s. ah, shall stop here. dont want to re-account my life story.
but i'm not. so i shall stick to being me. accept it or just fuck off yea.
i've had my fair share of being poked at.
chiao.
damn pissed.
its like so horrible to make fun of people's weaknesses and laugh at them, make them into a joke. its not funny. its not like they want to be like that. what if you are fat and your friends calls you fatso or roti pound like that. or if your hair is like damn bushy and curly and they liken you to mak hitam from the jerangkung movie? funny uh. but if its you then how will you feel? especially when the people who made you look so pathetic are your friends? your own damn fucking friends. then maybe they should never have been called friends in the first place right.
i cant help it if i am very blur, clumsy or weird. sometimes i wish i wasnt. maybe abit more smarter like the rest of my friends. then maybe people wont laugh at my stupidity, my clumsiness and maybe i wont get on people's nerves for being such a blur king kong. maybe i wont disappoint my family for not living up to their expectations. maybe i will be able to get better results and get easily into a real uni. maybe, i would have done better in band then maybe i will be able to join the rest in.... maybe then.. maybe-s. ah, shall stop here. dont want to re-account my life story.
but i'm not. so i shall stick to being me. accept it or just fuck off yea.
i've had my fair share of being poked at.
chiao.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
decisions
green day's 21 guns is awesome.
i like white and sushi+ramen.
how random
i got another offer from rmit.
and i dont know which to choose! omg.
tmr must register already. howhowhow.
chiao.
oh transformers was unbelieveably good.
i like white and sushi+ramen.
how random
i got another offer from rmit.
and i dont know which to choose! omg.
tmr must register already. howhowhow.
chiao.
oh transformers was unbelieveably good.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
FINALLY
this is good!
but this is damn hilarious!
anyway. sim accepted me. yeyey! like finally man. and i cant wait for my contract to end. although that means an exponantial decline in my expenses and....heh. no more shoes. sigh. and sushi binging. but best of all, no more looking at pantat kuali's face! yes!
so last week went to jb, then on wed went to chek jawa :) then fri was sushi feast with the girls. will post pics soon. sat was band prac and concert. best! i should have joined alumni! i especially liked the first song. good job acband. <3! alright, transformers tomorrow! wwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeee. oh and sushi with fellow makciks eh. hah.
its not that i dont want to tell you whats happening in my life. just that i'm not ready to pry open myself and tell what i'm really feeling ang thinking. well, there sure is alot on my mind...
chiao.
but this is damn hilarious!
anyway. sim accepted me. yeyey! like finally man. and i cant wait for my contract to end. although that means an exponantial decline in my expenses and....heh. no more shoes. sigh. and sushi binging. but best of all, no more looking at pantat kuali's face! yes!
so last week went to jb, then on wed went to chek jawa :) then fri was sushi feast with the girls. will post pics soon. sat was band prac and concert. best! i should have joined alumni! i especially liked the first song. good job acband. <3! alright, transformers tomorrow! wwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeee. oh and sushi with fellow makciks eh. hah.
its not that i dont want to tell you whats happening in my life. just that i'm not ready to pry open myself and tell what i'm really feeling ang thinking. well, there sure is alot on my mind...
chiao.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
fight!
how apt.
its like when you've finally have picked yourself back up again, you're thrown back into the bottomless pit of darkness.
now, whats your next plan?
and best thing of all, you're all alone. wow. great huh.
and tmr work. see that pantat kuali's face again. cb.
chiao.
Sunday, June 07, 2009
desperate
i'm getting desperate. i really dont know what to do. these days, i'd rather talk less.
i wished i could have gone for the tune in. miss them.
from the mad rush in the morning to pack, get dressed and rush to school. missed the stooopid bus. late for band. arrive like some star karat. get labelled as the lady in pink. yeah i have started wearing pink. yuck. then on to outdoors. the heat was effingggggggggg intense. then to ecp coffee bean where abg farhan got us girls to ride in his car!!!!!!!!! and had a kecoh time in the car. haha. toured ECP in the car for like.... 2 hours? haha. got to pit 42D and chilled. cycled. bacame superman for awhile. got hurt. HAHAHA. bike spoilt. for a moment wished i had edward cullen. haha. no choice, had to call my heroes and heroins. yay! saved me and cleaned wound. ate. cleaned up and home sweet home. detailed enough? ok, tired. sleep!
i think i reeeeeally like cycling!
oh happy birthday irna and safiqah!
chiao.
i wished i could have gone for the tune in. miss them.
from the mad rush in the morning to pack, get dressed and rush to school. missed the stooopid bus. late for band. arrive like some star karat. get labelled as the lady in pink. yeah i have started wearing pink. yuck. then on to outdoors. the heat was effingggggggggg intense. then to ecp coffee bean where abg farhan got us girls to ride in his car!!!!!!!!! and had a kecoh time in the car. haha. toured ECP in the car for like.... 2 hours? haha. got to pit 42D and chilled. cycled. bacame superman for awhile. got hurt. HAHAHA. bike spoilt. for a moment wished i had edward cullen. haha. no choice, had to call my heroes and heroins. yay! saved me and cleaned wound. ate. cleaned up and home sweet home. detailed enough? ok, tired. sleep!
i think i reeeeeally like cycling!
oh happy birthday irna and safiqah!
chiao.
Thursday, June 04, 2009
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
fight!
i will do whatever it takes and everything so that i wont regret it later for the rest of my life.
ah headache.
chiao.
ah headache.
chiao.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
fight!
ah 3 days! threeeeeeeeeeee days exactly for me to think of something to convince them that i'm worth it.
but WHAT!?
ahhh, i'm going crazy thinking abt this. seriously.
my future. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.
aja!
chiao.
but WHAT!?
ahhh, i'm going crazy thinking abt this. seriously.
my future. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.
aja!
chiao.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
a new single girl swag. :)
i want nobody nobody but you!
hahahaa.
wwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
chiao.
Friday, May 29, 2009
a new single girl swag. :)
ok, ok... so i should not be so woozy and yaya and all. i should stand up again and smile. get mentally prepared for whatever thats coming. and.. plan b!
hhmmm...
6 days straight of not seeing you. thats a record.sigh... anyway, i should learn to say goodbye to you now.
oh yes, i cut my hair like reallllllly short. haha. and its kindaa... straight? haha!
wwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeee!
chiao!
hhmmm...
6 days straight of not seeing you. thats a record.sigh... anyway, i should learn to say goodbye to you now.
oh yes, i cut my hair like reallllllly short. haha. and its kindaa... straight? haha!
wwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeee!
chiao!
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Saturday, May 23, 2009
weeks and weeks and weeks.
i love these girls. no matter how rotten i feel that day, they always manage to make me laugh hard. haha. so if you say in 2 weeks time... does that include this week? then the second week will be next week right? so its next week or the week after? its next week right right?
haaaaaaaaaaaaa. i have to stop this.
ahhhhhhh painful la.
btw, my hand is still swollen la. ouch.
chiao.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Monday, May 18, 2009
i wonder
i really wonder who is the girl. he said 2 weeks time.
fat hope girl. whatever.
i cant wait for wednesday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
chiao.
fat hope girl. whatever.
i cant wait for wednesday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
chiao.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
missing
actually this thing has been going on for quite sometime. i dreamt of my ac friends. yeah a few times. it sounds like.. oh well, its just a dream. but i dreamt of them leaving me. and i cried. yeah i freaked out. thinking abt it again now... i realise that i miss them. yes i really do. these are just words. but my heart is really aching.
been so busy with work, tuition, work tuition. i dont even msg to say helo or anything like that. i'm such a horrible friend. or come back to ac, support them during syf or just say a simple how are you. horrible me. sorry.
anyway, mon was awesome. thanks khai, hiq, aishah r. one of the craziest night i ever had. oh, my hand is still swollen uh. hahaa.
my goal 1) get in a uni and study like madddddddd 'cos i want my degree!
2) get erhmmmm.
but i can say good bye to both. i guess.
feeling horribly melancholic. i hope tmr's band prac will cheer me up.
chiao.
been so busy with work, tuition, work tuition. i dont even msg to say helo or anything like that. i'm such a horrible friend. or come back to ac, support them during syf or just say a simple how are you. horrible me. sorry.
anyway, mon was awesome. thanks khai, hiq, aishah r. one of the craziest night i ever had. oh, my hand is still swollen uh. hahaa.
my goal 1) get in a uni and study like madddddddd 'cos i want my degree!
2) get erhmmmm.
but i can say good bye to both. i guess.
feeling horribly melancholic. i hope tmr's band prac will cheer me up.
chiao.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
FINALLY
finally my laptop has internet connection again. thank goodness. now i can blog regularly again.
suffocation. dreams. solitude.
i wish i could do something.
finally, i am 19. eee so old!
haha. but today just feels like any other. no different. however, thanks for the wishes, presents and cakes and surprises. :)
i need to sleep. tmr will be another tiring suffocating day to deal with pantat kuali. ergh.
chiao.
suffocation. dreams. solitude.
i wish i could do something.
finally, i am 19. eee so old!
haha. but today just feels like any other. no different. however, thanks for the wishes, presents and cakes and surprises. :)
i need to sleep. tmr will be another tiring suffocating day to deal with pantat kuali. ergh.
chiao.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
ergh
all i want to do now is face is the vast ocean and scream
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
GIVE ME MY FRINGING FREEDOM.
ragh.
chiao.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
GIVE ME MY FRINGING FREEDOM.
ragh.
chiao.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
bored
01. Who was your last text from?
aishah razak!
02. Where was your default profile picture taken?
default pic for fb's from KL.
03. Your relationship status?
single, free and INDEPENDENT! hahaa
04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
duh.
05. What is your current mood?
pretty confused.
06. How many siblings do you have?
2.
07. What are the names of your brothers/sisters?
shazwani, shamil
08. Where do you wish you were right now?
with ... ehehehe.
09. Have a crazy side?
crazy psycho or crazy fun? yarh duh. know me well enough and you can answer this yourself.
10. Ever had a near-death experience?
i dont think a teeth surgery is considered a near-death experience right? although its scary enough for me.
11. Something you do a lot?
eat. and sing alot. hahaaaha
12. Angry at someone?
me self actually
13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
i shy laaaaaaaaaaaa. muahahahahahaha.
14. When was the last time you cried?
eerrr, a long time ago. haha.
15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
yarh, many people. the ones i love.
16. What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
HAHAHAHAHA. and the things to do the next day.
17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
i dont remember, i text alot.
18. What is your favourite song?
it changes from time to time.. craig david insomnia. haha.
19. What are you doing right now?
supposed to be researching for scholarships and study loans... but as usual, i digressed. hehe.
20. Who do you trust right now?
god.
21. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
omg. terengganu, in malaysia.
22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
ehhwwww. no.
23. Who is your close friend who lives closest to you?
who lives near and is close to me! alot laa.
24. Describe your life in one word?
beautifully imperfect.
25. Who are you thinking of right now?
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
26. What should you be doing right now?
searching for that stupid study loan so that i can study overseas!!!
27. What are you listening to?
holst jupiter yo!
28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
eheheheeee. shant sayyyy. wwwwwweeeeeeeeeeee.
29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
my mummy who is still asking me to sleep. grr.
30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
i dont react. i froze in front of him. hahahhahaa.
31. What is your natural hair colour?
Black laa.
32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
ooo. aisyah sazali. hahaha.
33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
oh shut up, dont remind me.
34. What do you hear?
now its tchaikovsky's nutcracker! sweett!!
35. Is your hair curly or straight?
curlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
HAHAHA NO.
37. Do you have a best friend?
sadly she left me. sigh.
38. Held hands with someone of the opposite sex in the last three days?
ehehehe. next question!
39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
wahhh alot!
40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
uh, ehw, NOH!
41. Are you happy with life right now?
pretty content (:
42. Are you currently jealous?
maybe.
43. What jewelry are you currently wearing?
stupid gold bangle that i am forced to wear.
44. What were you doing on Friday night?
section outing!!!
45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yeahhhh!
46. Have you ever broken someone else's heart?
i think so. hehehe.
47. Is there anybody you're disappointed in right now?
maybe...
48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
to check my teeth la. what else seh.
50. Have you ever dated someone for longer than a year?
not yet. (:
ok, i am bored and i am digressing. sigh.
friday: section outing! photos will be up soon. haha. yeah realllllll soon.
sat: hiq's wedding. eh no. hahaha, hiq brother's wedding. photos will be up soon too.
sun=boring.
monday= a dread.
so yes, i am applying overseas uni. but malaysia only la! hahahaha. but its still a headache. gosh, so many things to prepare. bank statements, ic, passport, certs, appraisals, photos. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. and my bills to pay. ok, so this is yet another step towards independence.
hhmm, i should be asleep, if i were to wake up early to jog in the morning.
chiao.
aishah razak!
02. Where was your default profile picture taken?
default pic for fb's from KL.
03. Your relationship status?
single, free and INDEPENDENT! hahaa
04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
duh.
05. What is your current mood?
pretty confused.
06. How many siblings do you have?
2.
07. What are the names of your brothers/sisters?
shazwani, shamil
08. Where do you wish you were right now?
with ... ehehehe.
09. Have a crazy side?
crazy psycho or crazy fun? yarh duh. know me well enough and you can answer this yourself.
10. Ever had a near-death experience?
i dont think a teeth surgery is considered a near-death experience right? although its scary enough for me.
11. Something you do a lot?
eat. and sing alot. hahaaaha
12. Angry at someone?
me self actually
13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
i shy laaaaaaaaaaaa. muahahahahahaha.
14. When was the last time you cried?
eerrr, a long time ago. haha.
15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
yarh, many people. the ones i love.
16. What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
HAHAHAHAHA. and the things to do the next day.
17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
i dont remember, i text alot.
18. What is your favourite song?
it changes from time to time.. craig david insomnia. haha.
19. What are you doing right now?
supposed to be researching for scholarships and study loans... but as usual, i digressed. hehe.
20. Who do you trust right now?
god.
21. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
omg. terengganu, in malaysia.
22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
ehhwwww. no.
23. Who is your close friend who lives closest to you?
who lives near and is close to me! alot laa.
24. Describe your life in one word?
beautifully imperfect.
25. Who are you thinking of right now?
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
26. What should you be doing right now?
searching for that stupid study loan so that i can study overseas!!!
27. What are you listening to?
holst jupiter yo!
28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
eheheheeee. shant sayyyy. wwwwwweeeeeeeeeeee.
29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
my mummy who is still asking me to sleep. grr.
30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
i dont react. i froze in front of him. hahahhahaa.
31. What is your natural hair colour?
Black laa.
32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
ooo. aisyah sazali. hahaha.
33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
oh shut up, dont remind me.
34. What do you hear?
now its tchaikovsky's nutcracker! sweett!!
35. Is your hair curly or straight?
curlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
HAHAHA NO.
37. Do you have a best friend?
sadly she left me. sigh.
38. Held hands with someone of the opposite sex in the last three days?
ehehehe. next question!
39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
wahhh alot!
40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
uh, ehw, NOH!
41. Are you happy with life right now?
pretty content (:
42. Are you currently jealous?
maybe.
43. What jewelry are you currently wearing?
stupid gold bangle that i am forced to wear.
44. What were you doing on Friday night?
section outing!!!
45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yeahhhh!
46. Have you ever broken someone else's heart?
i think so. hehehe.
47. Is there anybody you're disappointed in right now?
maybe...
48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
to check my teeth la. what else seh.
50. Have you ever dated someone for longer than a year?
not yet. (:
ok, i am bored and i am digressing. sigh.
friday: section outing! photos will be up soon. haha. yeah realllllll soon.
sat: hiq's wedding. eh no. hahaha, hiq brother's wedding. photos will be up soon too.
sun=boring.
monday= a dread.
so yes, i am applying overseas uni. but malaysia only la! hahahaha. but its still a headache. gosh, so many things to prepare. bank statements, ic, passport, certs, appraisals, photos. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. and my bills to pay. ok, so this is yet another step towards independence.
hhmm, i should be asleep, if i were to wake up early to jog in the morning.
chiao.
Sunday, April 05, 2009
intuition
what do you do when you feel like something bad is going to happen?
i have this strong intuition that tomorrow... i'll be in deep trouble.
call me impractical or paranoid, my intuition is almost always right.
not that i want it to be right this time though..
oh fresh bulggoggi anytime soon girls? heh.
and no, i dont want to screw up again. please. sigh.
i love this song.
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
working afficially sucks
been soooooooooo effing lazy to blog.
moved house. so small, no privacy at all. sigh. work's getting worse. yes, i wanna quit asap. i think i need an anger management course to deal with kids. especially special ones like my brother.
After the 10th question....
Question: factorise 16x-32xy
bro: 16(x-2x)
me: zomgggggggggggggggg. you still dont understand is it?
another question
me: 14 /2=?
bro: 8
me: 89uYT*V^TRE%U^&TRF^%R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so many things on my mind, i dont know how to get it out.
have you ever felt wronged? like you meant well but somehow other people sees it as otherwise? its sad that these kind of things happen yeah. sigh.
i shall get back to work...
chiao.
moved house. so small, no privacy at all. sigh. work's getting worse. yes, i wanna quit asap. i think i need an anger management course to deal with kids. especially special ones like my brother.
After the 10th question....
Question: factorise 16x-32xy
bro: 16(x-2x)
me: zomgggggggggggggggg. you still dont understand is it?
another question
me: 14 /2=?
bro: 8
me: 89uYT*V^TRE%U^&TRF^%R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so many things on my mind, i dont know how to get it out.
have you ever felt wronged? like you meant well but somehow other people sees it as otherwise? its sad that these kind of things happen yeah. sigh.
i shall get back to work...
chiao.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
vivooooooooooooo+swensensssssssssss
breakfast was supposed to be at 10 am. but everyone arrived at 11am. haha. typical of my friends. had swensens plus ice cream at holland v. then went back ac. ahwww i mishmishmish ac! saw mr mash and ms leow and we talked. met shahrul and seha. and its vivocity time! but sadly the shop are friging expensive. sigh. i need to shop. badly. i need clothes. most of them needs stitching up haha.
then its tuition time. (yes aish r. , i am a tuition teacher now :D lets wait for aishj eh haha) this time my student seriously made me quite angry. and she became scared! haha. try to be funny again! ugh. kids, can be so irritating sometimes.
oh, chewy brownies coming soon girls! :))
chiao.
then its tuition time. (yes aish r. , i am a tuition teacher now :D lets wait for aishj eh haha) this time my student seriously made me quite angry. and she became scared! haha. try to be funny again! ugh. kids, can be so irritating sometimes.
oh, chewy brownies coming soon girls! :))
chiao.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
dreams and baking
i wish, i wish...
i'm itching to bake bake bake.i've got a list of things i wanna bake
hhmm, brownies, cupcakes, try some raspberry tarts and chiffon cake.
heeeee.
but sadly, i've got to pack my stuff.
sigh.
packing is sososo troublesome.
chiao.
i have dreamed of dreams that will only be dreams.Sunday, February 15, 2009
wedding
i've got to get this out of my chest.
i cant stinking believe he'll be engaged in 2 weeks time. *rolls around in frustration.
SIGH. and with a VIP from across the causeway furthermore. ouch. oh wells, suits his status as a doc.
anyway, the drama that unfolded today was one of a kind. the day started out quite normally. what with kak's tantrums in the mornings, the normal screaming to get shamil out of the bed and all. we three siblings got lost while trying to get to lagun sari for cousin's wedding. and kak, out of frustration for not being able to find the way there started crying. seriously, what the hell is wrong with her man. its just getting lost.. big deal.anyway, got to lagun sari, met mum and dad who were chauffered by cik nasir. lucky them. its was blistering hot la dey, some more wearing that thick, itchy songket baju kurung. ugh. and then went up and ta dahh! the first face i see is that doctor.gawd. i was precisely trying to avoid that guy. so i tried to be interested in the food. heh, good idea man, food always works. anyway, ate and caught up with other relatives. gee, it was so indian. henna, hindi songs and indian costumes were like everywhere. coolness. and the bride is all time georgeous. i think all brides will look ravishing no matter what. so aft that, yeah, wanted to went up to the third floor to be with my aunts but suddenly my father called out, oi! look theres an accident. so, we kpos, went out to look. so there were alot of, 'what happened? what happened??' haha. kecoh seh. anyway, the doctor (ok la, he is actually one of my cousins but one of a kind hehehe.) came out and asked, eh what happend? so my father say oh got accident. my uncle blurted out, eh doctor, go help! then.. he rushed down and went to the victim's side. like how heroic is that! my cousin is treating an accident victim onsite! heeeeeeeeee. so the ambulance came and took the victim away. caused quite a commotion. anyway, we lingered around and chatted. and my mum asked for a lift home. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i think today i can die of adrenelin overdose. gawd.
in addition i had to battle questions like when am i going to get married. aiyoooooooooooo. somebody save meeeeeeeeeeeee.
tomorrow work again. sigh.
chiao.
i cant stinking believe he'll be engaged in 2 weeks time. *rolls around in frustration.
SIGH. and with a VIP from across the causeway furthermore. ouch. oh wells, suits his status as a doc.
anyway, the drama that unfolded today was one of a kind. the day started out quite normally. what with kak's tantrums in the mornings, the normal screaming to get shamil out of the bed and all. we three siblings got lost while trying to get to lagun sari for cousin's wedding. and kak, out of frustration for not being able to find the way there started crying. seriously, what the hell is wrong with her man. its just getting lost.. big deal.anyway, got to lagun sari, met mum and dad who were chauffered by cik nasir. lucky them. its was blistering hot la dey, some more wearing that thick, itchy songket baju kurung. ugh. and then went up and ta dahh! the first face i see is that doctor.gawd. i was precisely trying to avoid that guy. so i tried to be interested in the food. heh, good idea man, food always works. anyway, ate and caught up with other relatives. gee, it was so indian. henna, hindi songs and indian costumes were like everywhere. coolness. and the bride is all time georgeous. i think all brides will look ravishing no matter what. so aft that, yeah, wanted to went up to the third floor to be with my aunts but suddenly my father called out, oi! look theres an accident. so, we kpos, went out to look. so there were alot of, 'what happened? what happened??' haha. kecoh seh. anyway, the doctor (ok la, he is actually one of my cousins but one of a kind hehehe.) came out and asked, eh what happend? so my father say oh got accident. my uncle blurted out, eh doctor, go help! then.. he rushed down and went to the victim's side. like how heroic is that! my cousin is treating an accident victim onsite! heeeeeeeeee. so the ambulance came and took the victim away. caused quite a commotion. anyway, we lingered around and chatted. and my mum asked for a lift home. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i think today i can die of adrenelin overdose. gawd.
in addition i had to battle questions like when am i going to get married. aiyoooooooooooo. somebody save meeeeeeeeeeeee.
tomorrow work again. sigh.
chiao.
Friday, February 13, 2009
friday the 13th
oh no! i thought i had so much to type here. but when this window open my mind just went . yeah, blank.
oh!oh! i remember!
friday the 13th.
a day that stays true to its name. today sucked. got scolded yet again by my supervisor. (i dont think i was that bad.. seriously...)the interns are giving me headaches. had a meeting first thing in the morning and it went badly. sosososo much work to do. and work to be redone because some other people did it wrongly. sigh. i'm still pissed by my late late pay cheque. grrr. thank god irritating A didnt come today, though H is present. i was under audit today. hmm. my students are a headache too. one is taking psle and the other is too hyper. and managing your own finance isnt that easy afterall huh.
enough whining. i'll manage all that. tomorrow is V day! wwwwwwweeeeeeeeeee. this reminds me of the V days in ac. so much love, i feel so happy and warm. happy V day people!
chiao.
oh!oh! i remember!
friday the 13th.
a day that stays true to its name. today sucked. got scolded yet again by my supervisor. (i dont think i was that bad.. seriously...)the interns are giving me headaches. had a meeting first thing in the morning and it went badly. sosososo much work to do. and work to be redone because some other people did it wrongly. sigh. i'm still pissed by my late late pay cheque. grrr. thank god irritating A didnt come today, though H is present. i was under audit today. hmm. my students are a headache too. one is taking psle and the other is too hyper. and managing your own finance isnt that easy afterall huh.
enough whining. i'll manage all that. tomorrow is V day! wwwwwwweeeeeeeeeee. this reminds me of the V days in ac. so much love, i feel so happy and warm. happy V day people!
chiao.
Monday, February 09, 2009
revival
kah-ching! this blog is revived! ok, crap.
anyways.. i'm tired. work, tuition. work tuition. and work and tuition and it goes on. life's quite mundane recently. the only exciting thing maybe.. tmr is pay day.heh. maybe that'll make me happier. oh and pasta mania is finally halal! attackkkkkk! haha. and gerd's flying tmr. :( and heard that results will be out like real soon. erghhhhhhhhhhhh. i just want to get into a uni. thats all. sigh.
i think i'm getting along better with my collegues. i'm talking the mak cik way to them. heee.
but still no lunch buddy. sigh.
my eyes are drooping...
chiao.
anyways.. i'm tired. work, tuition. work tuition. and work and tuition and it goes on. life's quite mundane recently. the only exciting thing maybe.. tmr is pay day.heh. maybe that'll make me happier. oh and pasta mania is finally halal! attackkkkkk! haha. and gerd's flying tmr. :( and heard that results will be out like real soon. erghhhhhhhhhhhh. i just want to get into a uni. thats all. sigh.
i think i'm getting along better with my collegues. i'm talking the mak cik way to them. heee.
but still no lunch buddy. sigh.
my eyes are drooping...
chiao.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
its time, to move on.
i realise now. why i never want to listen to their rantings abt the 'good times', look at the many many pictures taken, the stories, the jokes made there and anything associated with it. the answer is simple, it still hurt. and alot.
unconciously, i was avoiding all that because i didnt want to feel the pain again. to face it. and now, confronting it was just as painful as during the days, weeks, months that it unfolds. although its been quite sometime.
i thought i was stronger though. well, let go and move on girl. its over.
writitng a book sounds great.
i feel horrigible. CHOCOLATESSSSSSSSS WHERE ARE YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!!
ohoh! happy 19th birthday shereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! haha. :)
chiao.
unconciously, i was avoiding all that because i didnt want to feel the pain again. to face it. and now, confronting it was just as painful as during the days, weeks, months that it unfolds. although its been quite sometime.
i thought i was stronger though. well, let go and move on girl. its over.
writitng a book sounds great.
i feel horrigible. CHOCOLATESSSSSSSSS WHERE ARE YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!!
ohoh! happy 19th birthday shereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! haha. :)
chiao.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
hahahaha-choooo. erhm.
i realise that its been ages since i blogged. haha. 'cos theres nothing interesting happening in my life.
well, with the exception of the emergence of an interesting person to spice up my life, to make me gush and blush occasionally (hahahahaha-chooo!) and the occasional meet ups with friends. like last fri.. hhm, mission accomplished but with much agony. sigh. i learnt one good lesson. guys do not make good shopping buddy. tsk i need someone who can go crazy just looking at a pair of shoes, and dont get tired randomly going in and out of shops for hours. hahaha. no offence guys. :D
anyways, tomorrow is working day again!!! i hope i dont get scolded again. sigh. well, its only human to make mistakes right. some people just dont realise that i guess.
i still need a lunch buddy....
chiao.
well, with the exception of the emergence of an interesting person to spice up my life, to make me gush and blush occasionally (hahahahaha-chooo!) and the occasional meet ups with friends. like last fri.. hhm, mission accomplished but with much agony. sigh. i learnt one good lesson. guys do not make good shopping buddy. tsk i need someone who can go crazy just looking at a pair of shoes, and dont get tired randomly going in and out of shops for hours. hahaha. no offence guys. :D
anyways, tomorrow is working day again!!! i hope i dont get scolded again. sigh. well, its only human to make mistakes right. some people just dont realise that i guess.
i still need a lunch buddy....
chiao.
Sunday, January 04, 2009
lunch buddy. where are you?
overdued photos. oreo cheesecake and sheperd's pie.
weekends are making me fatfatfat. i just baked chewy sticky brownies which is super duper uber easy.
hhmm, work tomorrow. i really could do with a lunch buddy man.
chiao.
Saturday, January 03, 2009
crossroads
its easy to lose true friends but difficult to find one.
i should really try to stay in touch with friends.
and what about all those talk about not caring about what people talk or thinks about you?
easier said than done.
and i think i'm taking on a second job. i need it.
chiao.
i should really try to stay in touch with friends.
and what about all those talk about not caring about what people talk or thinks about you?
easier said than done.
and i think i'm taking on a second job. i need it.
chiao.
Friday, January 02, 2009
a request
hhmm, i have a request.
tell me, how am i? as in, am i an arrogant person?selfish? smart? anything. just anything abt myself. i wanna know. if its bad, i wanna change and improve myself you know. anybody. really, if you know me, just say it. its ok if you wanna label yourself as anonymous or 'shaheera's bestest best friend' or 'shaheera's greatest enemy' or 'shaheera's boyfriend' you know. i dont care. (hehe, i dont mind BB though ooppss!)
just tell me what kind of a person i am. i need it. say on the tag board.
thank you, you'll be doing me a great favour.
but i still think its not fair for people to judge you when they dont actually know you. right?
chiao.
tell me, how am i? as in, am i an arrogant person?selfish? smart? anything. just anything abt myself. i wanna know. if its bad, i wanna change and improve myself you know. anybody. really, if you know me, just say it. its ok if you wanna label yourself as anonymous or 'shaheera's bestest best friend' or 'shaheera's greatest enemy' or 'shaheera's boyfriend' you know. i dont care. (hehe, i dont mind BB though ooppss!)
just tell me what kind of a person i am. i need it. say on the tag board.
thank you, you'll be doing me a great favour.
but i still think its not fair for people to judge you when they dont actually know you. right?
chiao.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
ragh
growing up isnt something so easy after all eh.
i knew that but never actually really embrace it.
i miss school to make my life a hell, friends to nonsense-nonsense with, band to make music, mcs to have fun, running to fall down again (hahahaha), screaming on the rooftop, laughing just to be happy. oooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i miss my friends.
work has been keeping me busy and tired. but busy in the way that i sit in front of the com everyday and stare at it without talking with anyone... then when i'm out of office, i'll be so bored that i'll start pacing arnd at home. wanna go out but i'm under her clutches. no life right. tsk.
how do i break away from them and get my well deserved freedom?how long will this be? they need to realise i'm no more a lilttle girl. but they just wont accept it. i guess i'll have to try the harder way then. too bad.
hate it when people force me to do something. like wiping and scrubbing the floor with my bare hands. :( and this isnt trivial for me. ggrrrr.
i should find something to do that makes me happy.
but what?
chiao.
i knew that but never actually really embrace it.
i miss school to make my life a hell, friends to nonsense-nonsense with, band to make music, mcs to have fun, running to fall down again (hahahaha), screaming on the rooftop, laughing just to be happy. oooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i miss my friends.
work has been keeping me busy and tired. but busy in the way that i sit in front of the com everyday and stare at it without talking with anyone... then when i'm out of office, i'll be so bored that i'll start pacing arnd at home. wanna go out but i'm under her clutches. no life right. tsk.
how do i break away from them and get my well deserved freedom?how long will this be? they need to realise i'm no more a lilttle girl. but they just wont accept it. i guess i'll have to try the harder way then. too bad.
hate it when people force me to do something. like wiping and scrubbing the floor with my bare hands. :( and this isnt trivial for me. ggrrrr.
i should find something to do that makes me happy.
but what?
chiao.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
taggies
finally i managed to put in a tag board! yay! so feel free to flood it uhh. :)
work tomorrow! aaahhhhh! ohnonono. butterflies in my stomach. and i dont know what to wear!
oh steven mead is outrageously fantastic! jaw-droppingly good la. i'm gonna cope his cd from edwin haha. and pizzahut with girls is :)) haha. (khai, pichurrss!!)
right. sleep now i must.
chiao.
work tomorrow! aaahhhhh! ohnonono. butterflies in my stomach. and i dont know what to wear!
oh steven mead is outrageously fantastic! jaw-droppingly good la. i'm gonna cope his cd from edwin haha. and pizzahut with girls is :)) haha. (khai, pichurrss!!)
right. sleep now i must.
chiao.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
FINALLY
haahahaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
FINALLY.
A JOB.
AND GOODDD PAY.
i hope my supervisor isnt some old, pervert, big beer belly ah pek.
wwwwweeeeeeeeeeee.
chiao.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
patience and sincerity
ayat-ayat cinta (verses of love)
yeah, i am abit slow. but this movie is good. i finished 2 whole packets of tissue while watching it. moving, and educational. the best part was when the male lead was jailed and he tried to pray, but couldnt concentrate. He kept crying and stopping.(ouch, that happened to meh.) The fellow inmate laughed at him and said, haha, its a wonder that you are an Al Azhar undergrad but do not know the key to praying.(ouucchhh. ok, i think i know now). Then he received a letter saying that he was taken out from the best university in islamic studies, Al Azhar. the guy cried like a baby and the fellow inmate said to him, get up! remember the story of Yusuf a.s and Zulaikha? Yusuf prayed, if its true that living in a jail is more meaningful then i choose to be here and be near to you, Lord. Rather than being outside with those hypocrites and liars. Then, he continued, Allah is talking to you about patience and sincerity. Islam is about patience and sincerity.b'cos the guy was jailed for raping a girl that he had helped before and Yusuf story is somewhat similar to his situation. by this time i'm like wailing. haha.
now then i know that islam doesnt condone dating, only taaruf, where the couple meet up in the presence of family members. and if they like each other, they get married, if not, take it as making friends. haha. haha, no dating uhhh, you halal people!
cant wait for fridayyy!!!!!!!! and i need a jobbbbbbbbb. rawr. ok, patience.
chiao.
yeah, i am abit slow. but this movie is good. i finished 2 whole packets of tissue while watching it. moving, and educational. the best part was when the male lead was jailed and he tried to pray, but couldnt concentrate. He kept crying and stopping.(ouch, that happened to meh.) The fellow inmate laughed at him and said, haha, its a wonder that you are an Al Azhar undergrad but do not know the key to praying.(ouucchhh. ok, i think i know now). Then he received a letter saying that he was taken out from the best university in islamic studies, Al Azhar. the guy cried like a baby and the fellow inmate said to him, get up! remember the story of Yusuf a.s and Zulaikha? Yusuf prayed, if its true that living in a jail is more meaningful then i choose to be here and be near to you, Lord. Rather than being outside with those hypocrites and liars. Then, he continued, Allah is talking to you about patience and sincerity. Islam is about patience and sincerity.b'cos the guy was jailed for raping a girl that he had helped before and Yusuf story is somewhat similar to his situation. by this time i'm like wailing. haha.
now then i know that islam doesnt condone dating, only taaruf, where the couple meet up in the presence of family members. and if they like each other, they get married, if not, take it as making friends. haha. haha, no dating uhhh, you halal people!
cant wait for fridayyy!!!!!!!! and i need a jobbbbbbbbb. rawr. ok, patience.
chiao.
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
last one(hopefully)
had a reallyyyyyyyy great day today. :))))))))) well, thank you sheree and edwin for making my day before... i-dont-want-to-think-about-it. i'm highhhhhhhh on sugarrrrrrrr. hahaha.
ergh, a few more hours. uwahhhhh.
still gives me the chills although i've been through it so many times. well, its just the thought of laying there on the operating table makes me feel all alone. because no one else will feel the pain of the needles, the knife on my skin(although i've been anesthesised) the thread going in and out when its being stitched up, no one else. except me. because i'm going through it.
ah, well, doc you better give me a great smile soon!
and i need to get well, soon, soon, soon!!!so many many things to do. find job, register the french lang course, register the icing and fondant class, mcs bbq, kak siti sushi session bla bla bla. too many.
miss alottt of friends since school's overr.(so ironic since i'm listening to jesse macartney's its over hahahaha)
chiao.
ergh, a few more hours. uwahhhhh.
still gives me the chills although i've been through it so many times. well, its just the thought of laying there on the operating table makes me feel all alone. because no one else will feel the pain of the needles, the knife on my skin(although i've been anesthesised) the thread going in and out when its being stitched up, no one else. except me. because i'm going through it.
ah, well, doc you better give me a great smile soon!
and i need to get well, soon, soon, soon!!!so many many things to do. find job, register the french lang course, register the icing and fondant class, mcs bbq, kak siti sushi session bla bla bla. too many.
miss alottt of friends since school's overr.(so ironic since i'm listening to jesse macartney's its over hahahaha)
chiao.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
the passing on.
THIS ENTRY IS DEDICATED TO KHAI, OK MY DEAR! :)
since you want me to update. :)
where do i start?
sigh. i'll miss you, my dear. although we never knew each other, looking at your photos and the way cik midah cry makes me sad. i'll always remember you.
funny how your passing actually made all the adults realise their mistakes and finally talk again.
funny how your passing gives me sleepless nights.funny how your passing made me erm.. cry.
i'll pray for you.
well, i'm just glad my family is together back again.
birthdays. so many. it made me really occupied.
received some job offers too. and some cake orders. guess i'm not ready yet to accept any orders.
the more i look at your photos, the more i miss you. the more i feel ssad.. being so distant from you. i'm sorry i can never be where you are.
send ud off at airport today. so many people are going away. well, its just the airport right. yeah. but i could feel a stabbing pain.
well, some things are just difficult to forget.
oh no. interviews!! and 7 more days. sigh.
chiao.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
410th!
including this post, its the 410th post!
power right. i know i know!
ok. been lazy to blog, 'cos life been quite boring. i'm half wishing that i'll get my old routine back like school, band and mcs.. i'm so bored to death.
erhm. so much time at expense, i baked 2 tpes of cakes and 8pieces of pizza at one go! crazy uh. well, i need to do something other than watch tv, surf the net, read my books and sleep. well, its not that i dont have friends to go out with.. i'm broke. haha.
i dreamt of BB. sigh.
hhmm, went out with aisyah s. and syad. sorry i cant stay on till at night aft you had taken half day leave and syad even skipped lessons. darn i still feel guilty abt it. but its was FUN! talking to them and laughing. haha.
then a day with the girls left my cheek muscles numb from laughing too much. and my stomach full of good food. haha.
I LOVE YOU GIRLS!
hmm. well, been shooping too. i must seriously close my eyes whenever i'm near charles and keith. tsk. bad.bad.
but, now broke. and need of job. sigh. but eh, my application for relief teacher has been approved! muahahahahaha. happy me.
i must make myself busy. if not.. i'll start thinking about.... well, unnecessary stuff.
right. must clean up the mess in the kitchen now.
chiao.
power right. i know i know!
ok. been lazy to blog, 'cos life been quite boring. i'm half wishing that i'll get my old routine back like school, band and mcs.. i'm so bored to death.
erhm. so much time at expense, i baked 2 tpes of cakes and 8pieces of pizza at one go! crazy uh. well, i need to do something other than watch tv, surf the net, read my books and sleep. well, its not that i dont have friends to go out with.. i'm broke. haha.
i dreamt of BB. sigh.
hhmm, went out with aisyah s. and syad. sorry i cant stay on till at night aft you had taken half day leave and syad even skipped lessons. darn i still feel guilty abt it. but its was FUN! talking to them and laughing. haha.
then a day with the girls left my cheek muscles numb from laughing too much. and my stomach full of good food. haha.
I LOVE YOU GIRLS!
hmm. well, been shooping too. i must seriously close my eyes whenever i'm near charles and keith. tsk. bad.bad.
but, now broke. and need of job. sigh. but eh, my application for relief teacher has been approved! muahahahahaha. happy me.
i must make myself busy. if not.. i'll start thinking about.... well, unnecessary stuff.
right. must clean up the mess in the kitchen now.
chiao.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Myfanwy and coffins
Why is it anger, O Myfanwy,
That fills your eyes so dark and clear?
Your gentle cheeks, O sweet Myfanwy,
Why blush they not when I draw near?
Where is the smile that once most tender
Kindled my love so fond, so true?
Where is the sound of your sweet words,
That drew my heart to follow you?
2. What have I done, O my Myfanwy,
To earn your frown? What is my blame?
Was it just play, my sweet Myfanwy,
To set your poet's love aflame?
You truly once to me were promised,
Is it too much to keep your part?
I wish no more your hand, Myfanwy,
If I no longer have your heart.
3. Myfanwy, may you spend your lifetime
Beneath the midday sunshine's glow,
And on your cheeks O may the roses
Dance for a hundred years or so.
Forget now all the words of promise
You made to one who loved you well,
Give me your hand, my sweet Myfanwy,
But one last time, to say "farewell".
its amazing how music can be so magical. :)
tune in was.. AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH. i went around estatically saying heloo to everyone like i havent seen them for a million years. it feels homely to be back with familiar people and everything. like watching dr lee's conducting..well, everything!
oh 'coffin' was.. haha. i screameddd!!!!
ok, i need a job.
stop being naive, woman!its not possible.
chiao!
Sunday, November 16, 2008
fruit tarts!
i made these just now! wwwweeeeeeeeeee. 
i want mummy to buy one for me!ok, these are the photos from the zoo trip.
4 yrs old and she is this tall. i feel vertically challenged. :(but she's beautiful!
so its black and white stripes or white and black stripes?hhmmmm...
cephas chan's birthday!
polar bear. he's sssssoooooo cute.
this animal is called BABIRUSA!!me and farhan had a great time repeating its name over and over again.
hahaha.
and we dont know why though.
baboon! nice ass.haha.
orang utan. i pity them. their homes are being destroyed and their young ones are being killed by poachers. lousy poachers!
oh this photo!ahaha.
we had a rendevous. :)))))
hahahaha. what an adventure.
rain, plastic bags and slippers!
luckily no one whom we knew saw us what we did!
luckily no one whom we knew saw us what we did!
hehehehehe.
i like pop eyes. but now, no more.enough is enough!
ate too much of it.
and the guy at the counter even..
erm, nvm. too private to disclose.
right. thats all i guess. still more photos. i still havent cope haute couture photos.
and, i think, i miss...
my acband! like sososo badly. :(
i really do.
and my other friends too.
sigh.
peace be upon you, my dears.
chiao.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
alhamdulillah. :)
alhamdulillah. :)
thats all i can say. i can just hope for the best. although the trauma still haunts me.
i've been out of civilisation for weeks. now, its time for me to assimilate back into society.
and work towards achieving a jessica alba's body. HAHAHAHA.
ooh! aishah sazali! let start dancing again! hip hop? hehe. :)
zoo class outing was outrageously fun. plus cephas' birthday surprise. geee. i laughed to much today my cheeks hurt. oh, i was there when the guy got eaten by the white tiger!!
ah my to do list is exponentially increasing. but first! a good night sleep without any dreams(even if its niceeee. hehe.) or nightmares. (i bet irna truly understands this! ;) )
oh my, i have so many things to say.
but nah, sleep first. :)
peace be upon you,
chiao.
thats all i can say. i can just hope for the best. although the trauma still haunts me.
i've been out of civilisation for weeks. now, its time for me to assimilate back into society.
and work towards achieving a jessica alba's body. HAHAHAHA.
ooh! aishah sazali! let start dancing again! hip hop? hehe. :)
zoo class outing was outrageously fun. plus cephas' birthday surprise. geee. i laughed to much today my cheeks hurt. oh, i was there when the guy got eaten by the white tiger!!
ah my to do list is exponentially increasing. but first! a good night sleep without any dreams(even if its niceeee. hehe.) or nightmares. (i bet irna truly understands this! ;) )
oh my, i have so many things to say.
but nah, sleep first. :)
peace be upon you,
chiao.
Saturday, November 08, 2008
slapppp.
i think i am going through the worst phase of my life.
and i'm on the com. slap me. further more.. i only completed like 5 lectures of geog today. slap me. 5 more to go.
i'm half convinced i will retake a levels again next year.
i need chocolates. and a BIG HUG.
sigh. :(
i wish you will say what you need to say.
chiao.
and i'm on the com. slap me. further more.. i only completed like 5 lectures of geog today. slap me. 5 more to go.
i'm half convinced i will retake a levels again next year.
i need chocolates. and a BIG HUG.
sigh. :(
i wish you will say what you need to say.
chiao.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
the battle
my battle starts tomorrow. i cant describe the intense fear i have. Cikgu was trying encourage us yesterday, saying that we can really do this, we've practiced so many many times. and tears just rolled down. dang. aiyo.
but, i'm amazed how god has made his way into my life.
this phrases from the song hit me, 'and everything i do i do it for You. Cause You made me, i am for You. I work, I work, I work, I strive. To make something out of my life. I seek I seek I seek I find, I find another hill to climb.'
as we move on in our lives, and be engrossed in achieving our ambitions, sometimes we forgot the purpose of doing all this. why am i doing this? why do i study so hard? i feel so much calmer knowing that i do all this for HIM. and that he'll always be with me. :) and this will only one of the hills that i will be climbing in my life. there'll be many many more to come. hhmm, i wonder what are they..
pray for me yeah? and friends, we can like totally do this!
13 november... come to meeee.
peace be upon you!:)
chiao.
but, i'm amazed how god has made his way into my life.
this phrases from the song hit me, 'and everything i do i do it for You. Cause You made me, i am for You. I work, I work, I work, I strive. To make something out of my life. I seek I seek I seek I find, I find another hill to climb.'
as we move on in our lives, and be engrossed in achieving our ambitions, sometimes we forgot the purpose of doing all this. why am i doing this? why do i study so hard? i feel so much calmer knowing that i do all this for HIM. and that he'll always be with me. :) and this will only one of the hills that i will be climbing in my life. there'll be many many more to come. hhmm, i wonder what are they..
pray for me yeah? and friends, we can like totally do this!
13 november... come to meeee.
peace be upon you!:)
chiao.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
till then, goodbye.
i tell you i am gonna conquer you advance level geography! and math. and econs. and malay. not forgetting jeeeee-p.
i feel like crying. i really do.
ok, heres the real hiatus.
no bloggie. no msn. only contactable thru my snow white. my phone la.
i will finish glob and atmo topics by this week.
hopefully i survive.
goodbye.
eh no, chiao.
i feel like crying. i really do.
ok, heres the real hiatus.
no bloggie. no msn. only contactable thru my snow white. my phone la.
i will finish glob and atmo topics by this week.
hopefully i survive.
goodbye.
eh no, chiao.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
not weird just different.
after every studying session i'll feel lousy. why? i dont know. i want a truckload of chocolates.
and i think i'm damn weird. like when i'm studying, i have to like really isolate myself. go to a quiet place. a cave like that. and i'll start talking to myself. and the way i study isnt like other people. people can just read their notes or write out notes. me? nono. that wont work for me. maybe i'm not wired. just different. maybe its the isolation that makes me feel terrible. like i have no friends. but no, i know i do have friends. well, i hope eh.
yesterday's convo with some friends struck me. in a way it made me feel bad. but in a way, made me realise. like why some people study so hard but yet.. nvm.
i should be doing my 'favourite' subject now. dy/dx. but eh, i like stats! here i come. oh i'm begining to love human geog alot! erm.. physical geog? errrr, still learning to loooovvveeee it. ok.
yeah. people are still celebrating hari raya. and i cant do it. :( and just now was so unglam. chilli and mayo sos all over. tsk.
chiao.
and i think i'm damn weird. like when i'm studying, i have to like really isolate myself. go to a quiet place. a cave like that. and i'll start talking to myself. and the way i study isnt like other people. people can just read their notes or write out notes. me? nono. that wont work for me. maybe i'm not wired. just different. maybe its the isolation that makes me feel terrible. like i have no friends. but no, i know i do have friends. well, i hope eh.
yesterday's convo with some friends struck me. in a way it made me feel bad. but in a way, made me realise. like why some people study so hard but yet.. nvm.
i should be doing my 'favourite' subject now. dy/dx. but eh, i like stats! here i come. oh i'm begining to love human geog alot! erm.. physical geog? errrr, still learning to loooovvveeee it. ok.
yeah. people are still celebrating hari raya. and i cant do it. :( and just now was so unglam. chilli and mayo sos all over. tsk.
chiao.
Thursday, October 09, 2008
haute couture not yet
exactly 20 days before my battle begins. come on, i can do this.
baccalaurate day. damn sad. the last. i've never regretted choosing ac. and i miss ac band so badly now. :(
but damn happy because i completed 2 chap of math and 2 lit essays. yay! oh oh, i cant wait for farewell next week! theme-haute couture. haha, i'm gonna wear pyjamas with slippers. hahaha.
Ken Hirai-Hitomi Wo Tojite
eh, i realise all my fav songs mv ends with the heroine dying. and the hero grieving over her death. aiyo.
ah, i wanna play this song. duet with my section mates. and hear the eupho sound. sigh.
chiao.
baccalaurate day. damn sad. the last. i've never regretted choosing ac. and i miss ac band so badly now. :(
but damn happy because i completed 2 chap of math and 2 lit essays. yay! oh oh, i cant wait for farewell next week! theme-haute couture. haha, i'm gonna wear pyjamas with slippers. hahaha.
Ken Hirai-Hitomi Wo Tojite
eh, i realise all my fav songs mv ends with the heroine dying. and the hero grieving over her death. aiyo.
ah, i wanna play this song. duet with my section mates. and hear the eupho sound. sigh.
chiao.
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