watever

oh.. i am practically a walking zombie. i keep falling sick. i dunno why. i have alot af things to do but i cant do it b'cos i'm sick. alah.. the common illness kind... fever, cough, sore throat and migraine. but it drags on for days. makes me feel so blue. u wouldnt want to hear my voice now. its awful!! i need to carry on wif my hw and my dnt and revision but i havent even finished one. but start oredi ah.. stupid. the teachers gave us so many hw. and i'm stuck wif my dnt. i feel sooo pathetic.
pathetic
pathetic
pathetic me.
and having not enuf money is so freaking pathetic. and then ur family becomes ssooo shitty just b'cos of that! ah.. watever. i'll just keep it myself.

i just feel so melancholic!!! aaarrgghhh!!!

hehe

hoho.. its been sssooo long since i've blogged. i've been ssooo busy. sec4 life is making me crazy. but on the other hand.. i feel good to be a sec 4. ahaha.
the school opened and i was shocked by the fact that ms shawa didnt take us as form teacher anymore..sad.. sad.. she ssoo can understand me. but now she's not my teacher anymore.. mr jake tan taks us.
haiz.. and mr tan is so mean. our hml lessons clash wif our study hour and he told us to solve it ouselves. i mean he didnt say like that ah, but indirectly he said that. man.. so irresponsible...ggrrr!!! the class comm change.. the management stay but welfare shek ngai take over and chair, v.chair peiyan and roy take... darn.. not nice at all.. why roy and shek ngai?? eeiiiww!! eerrhh.. so frustrated!! then the hwk load is terrible!!!! tests... everyday... almost!!! then aft school, hml lessons, getting worser!!!! the ministry of education is crazy man!! they changed the syllabus!!! AARRGGHH!!! the compre and summary is ssoo hard enuf and they changed it to make it harder??? crazy ppl.. then band is as usual. haiz... going to have a concert. but i donno if i can cope wif o level coming..haiz.. the worst is... my hml calsses clash wif my study hours... stupid ah! arse hole!! then i missed alot of the lessons... haiz.. donno how i will catch up ah.. stupid..
mr tan dont want to help... even ask cikgu for letter saying we go hml. stupid. me, khai, bai and iylia tot of asking cikgu nor to teach us hml so that we can miss one of the two days to go to our study hour. but c first ah.. that is if cikgu nor is willing to teach us..
i've been sleeping late. tuition almost everyday...haiz.. need to revise the sec 3 work. i donno if my body is able to tahan. but my strength will keep me. i do all this for mum. i dont want to go to jc. but i have to. i understand.

tuition was better without marc. but something's happened. and i'm feeling real bad bout it. darn. and i donno wat to do. shit. wateva larh.

my bio, phy, chem, dnt, ss tests... all next week and i havent even start studying, my hw is not even done... haiz.. how?? i will do it larh..
chio. i'm really beat. need to do hw...

ahora!! haha, actualy i'm making myself happy... my head is hurting real lot and i'm not sure if i can go to school tomoro.

i tink the cause for this whole migraine thingy is b'cos of band larh.. man.. the preparation for the sec 1 orientation had been real hectic for me... i'v got to do loads of things in band... and the probs in band is making me go crazy... haiz... last week had maintainence and it was a wreck!! only me and ama were present to clean all the 7 euphos! and only solomon was present oto clean all 8 tubas!! how to finish the whole thing?? we still had to clean our cupboards and the committee cupboards... the basses sect didnt go for lunch... we continued wif our cleaning. then aft luch the trombs came to helps us and see soon come at last... luckily they are there to help us even though they mess things up a little bit as they didnt know how to handle the eupho. and it was kind of irritating... the valves keep being stuck and terrence checked my eupho inside out!! he didnt leave anything behind that he didnt check. the slides, springs, valves, bell, practically everything... dran.. but i passed!! haha!!
then the next day was com meeting. i was late. haiz... bad impresion... but it was good.. i told the com bout all the probs in band... felt so great to let it all out. but jen keep emphasizing that the com membs are also leaders in the band. and i was like... hahaha.. yarh.. but didnt act like leaders at all.. duh.. then played some songs wif the ex seniors... till quite late ah..lols.. untill kena kick out by ms lee... hehehe..
the next day.. in the middle of the band prac, we had to run in the parade square, training...bleh.. i tink that's not training.. that's threatening... real training, would be like really torture us.i wasnt really ticked off by the 'training'. aft band... the band i mean almost the whole band; except the basses and trumpet sect, had to do alot af punishments. the leaders could not be there so luqman lead. but they were not scared at all. they were laughing when they were doing there punishments!! i had to scream at them then they shut up. man.. these ppl doesnt understand the word punishment!!

i'm ssooo sick.. been puking the whole nite.. migraine.. stupid.. wanna go for a jog oso cant, i scared i'll puke while jogging.. dran.. ok bye..

migraine!!

oh my god.. i'm feeling ssoo sick now.. this migraine is killing me!! school is starting real soon and here i am, feeling sick... gosh..

but i'm feeling better.. haha.. thanks to this ammerland band song.. really soothing...the next band prac, for sure i will test my tone quality with that song.. lalala.. but band is becoming crazier..seriously..

gosh.. i dont know where to start.. and i cant tahan my migraine..
i tink i need to rest..
chiao. i'll update later..