oh my.. how i miss damai windz. gosh.. and aisyah sazali too! i wonder how she's doing. and my juniors. oh.. and i wonder how's the alumni band.

the school holidays are here. great this means that it is 1 week nearer to promos. and i'll have lesser time to study. together with band practices and the coming open house to prepare.. ok, i shouldnt complain.

thurs was a blast. the teacher's day performance was not too bad for me. i guess alot of people were quite impressed with what we put up for them. oh well, playing music just give me happiness. then its mcs farewell party!! wwweee! ok, went to eat at food culture at lot1. Yong tau foos unite!! hahaha. i wasted 3hrs of my life sitting there waiting for the food at shariff's house to be ready. sat there with syahida, irna and shariff either talking or reading our books. which is ssoo freaking boring. so we ended up walking to shariff's house. and his siblings is sssoo oh my goodness cute!!!!!! i love them. but naughty. cab to sch to prepare for the rest of the party. while the rest entertained the j2s, me and some others had to prepare the food. and camwhored for awhile. haha.. changed and we eat in a big dulang. so nice! so long since i did that. the food was like ssoo syiok. nice. but i couldnt finish so we gave the rest of the food to the guys to finish it up. then it was musical chairs. hahaaha. the j2s are sssoo funny. and then the happy segment and awards ceremony was sssoo funny too. i coludnt stop laughing loudly. and my stomah hurts from laughing too hard. then it was the sad segment. yeah, of course sad. luckily i didnt cry. i didnt want to cry. yeah, all the memories together..i will remember forever. all the days and nights we spent together in LT3 practising for merdeka. and peleggong trip was GREAT! the kampong life that i will never have here. royals cake to top the whole event off. to celebrate adlin, shariff's and teachers day. and i had to rush home.

so now. back to work. homework and start studying. oh my god tomorrow there's band practise. 10am to 6 pm then theres tuition at 7.30pm. hhmm.. i feel like going for a run tmr morning before band. ok, i better do my homework. like NOW!

chiao.

it pierces the heart. at that moment it feels like as if a knife is being slashed my wrists. but i cant show it. i just stare ahead as she continue to cry. at this crucial moment when i have to concentrate on my studies, such things are happening.

i can only pray to God. help me through this. keep my family together. give us strength. God, please.

i tell myself not to cry.

no, i wont. i shall be strong.

as time flies, i try hard to forget somethings and some people too. but sometimes i cant.

4 weeks to promos. i am so dead.
rrrraaaaaaagggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my sat is filled with band practices again. rehersal was.. hhmmm report at 7.45am and play only 1 song. damn. so i decided to do individuals on pirates. cool song. i love it man. then lunch at bk with irna, pat, elizabeth and nicole. oh and we talked.. and talked and talked. but i couldnt take it anymore. just sitting there and chatting. so had to signal to them to like... can we go now..? ahhahaha. oh well. then went to buki batok lib with irna to study phy geog. which i still ssuck. ergh. weathering.. aiyo.

and h1 malay is taking alot of my time. damn.

promos is making me crazy. i have to pass this exam. seriously have, have, have to. i dont want to be an old J1. :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

3.26pm, pw lesson,mac lab, acjc.

now i really feel like taking a knife and start stabbing at something. yeah, i really want to.

i am planning for the future, maybe start thinking of a suitable course for myself in SP. hhmm.. maybe design course would be nice... i have always want to design stuff. eh, then i'll be in the same school as khai again!!! yay!!

better dont let me see anything sharp.

chiao.

i kinda of like..'i dont want to touch any econs notes any more, forever'

i feel like taking a knife and start stabbing at something over and over again.

its just ssoo tiring to keep picking yourself up again and again after failures and more failures and more failures. but i guess thats life. even if we fail in the final one. well, we havent failed in life yet for when u fail in life is when u give up in life, right. so just pick yourself up and carry on with your life and learn frm your mistakes. no doubt, saying this is easier then doing it. no doubt life sometimes just suck big time.

so i shant give up. no matter how tiring it is. or sucky i am in econs.

damn i still think econs just suck la.

promos is in 5 weeks. i think i am going crazy over this. i keep reminding myself to study, if not i'll get the long service award which i dont think i need one though.

ok, back to econs- price disrimination. i'm glad theres such stuff, then students like me can get concession bas passes and we can ride all we want!! haha with the same price. The rationale behind it.. well, due to the diff elasticies of demand between the diff groups of consumers, prices have to be differntly charged. students like us wouldnt have enough money to pay for our transportation. So, the price have to be discriminated. Adults were charged diff from students because they can pay for their own therefore theres not a need for them to have subsidised fares like students. tah-dah.. i know i know my facts well. aiyah but i still cant score at all for econs. oh well.

due to the time, which is 2222hours..(eh nice 4d numbers!) and the fact that i have only completed my cerpen which is 2243 words only. i better get back to work. hhmm.. theres still like econs drq, econs essay, malay news articles, gp a.q. question. looks like i cant sleep at all tonight. nice.

chiao.

fuh yo.. i feel ssoo happy now. :) i bought 2 new pump shoes and a new bag!!! yay! now i'm broke. haha.

farah, if u are reading this, dont let hafiyan ruin your day. stay happy!! haha. talk to him la. seriously, i think its not worth it to susah kan diri just because of a guy. they dont deserve our kind attention. ok, keep smiling!!! :)
oh well, if u need to talk to someone, just beep me. remember, friends are like bras, they are close to your heart and gives u support! wakakakaaka.. i shall buy u the shirt!! ahahaha.

ah, i can wait for 30th, yay!!!!!!

ok great, back to work, gp package test!!! ahahaha. bleh.

chiao.

just tell me that nightmares dont come true.
sleepless nights. i know i need to sleep. but i cant and i dont want to. too much stuff to do and i'm scared these nightmares will haunt me again.

yeah, i am ssoo paranoid. its doing me no good. i dont know.

argh.

i feel sooo lazy to go to school tmr...............................................................

i wanna pon school. ergh. i wanna wake up late. laze arnd the house while eating breakfast and watch tv.
ergh.. seriously i really dont like pw. gah.

so far, a good week. with a few surprises. hehe. fri was swim pe; water polo. IN THE BIG POOL. ok, its a big deal to me since i dont know how to swim and had never swam in my whole entire life. yeah. thanks to dheraj, for being my guardian. if not, i would have drown. haha. thank you dheraj, if you are reading this. :))) and it was fun, wading aimlessly in the big pool. hahaha. and sat's reharsal at qeenstown stadium didnt went well. dr lee was quite pissed off with us. and i had to wake at 4am just to get there at 6 am. :( but thanks to edwin who bought for me coffee. :) and i got a pleasant surprise there too. well, should i consider it pleasant when it all comes back to what it used to be? (sometimes i just wish you will disappear from my sight forever.)

but i dread the actual event because i have to be in school by 5.30am. crazy. this means that i have to take a cab and fetch gerdine and jefri by 4.45am. great.

had a fruitful weekend. i've finished geog phy hw. :) i've finished malay hw. :) i've finished revising phy geog and i'm on par with lectures now. hehe. i feel so accomplished. thanks to the study session on sat with seha, irna and faris. fruitful meeting, we should study together more often.

but,but i still have gp articles and pw. argh..............................

chiao,gotta do my written report which i have no idea how to.