boring week..I have nothing to say except that my work load is piling up and up...tests..homework...and the pressure to keep up with the school work..I'm totally slacking.. haiya..dunno wat to do...I always feel very tired, moody...I never make jokes in class..Like serious like that...hahaha...The class t-shirt will be ready soon..The biggest prob now is to make them pay for it...I mean it's $16...Then it'll be ready in like a few days...On thurs can take oredi...I donno if it'll be nice...I think some of them won't like it...Watever..I've done my responsibility to the best..
man..i feel like going to the toilet..
buh bye
nyeh...
Sunday, July 24, 2005
Sunday, July 17, 2005
beat!
I'm totally beat!! AArrgghh!! To day is a sunday but i have performance for the handicap welfare association...well...that was a charity...soo...it's ok..but then aft that.. miss carol ask us to do maintainence...shit sia.. soo tired oredi then still need to clean instrument..Then we run 6 rounds the parade square...as punishment...and plus some push-ups...watever..now in nenek house to do finish up the stats project...haiz..still haven't finish...Then Aft this i still have hw and tests to study...I wonder wat time i sleep arh??
This week had been a totally boring week..But i notice something...I slacked..I didn't do my bio, el and hml hw. I cabut band...then I...arh..can't remember wat i do..Slack seh..I MUST BUCK UP!!!GGRRRR!!! I think i just don't have the energy and will power to continue my life...bleh..watever..
I've been ssoo sensitive over very little things...especially on fri night..man...It was ssoo embarrassing...Andy scolded me for not getting the lesson into my head..geomatrical properties of circle...damn..even that shit can get. Wat larh...Then on the home..oh man..that was the worst...hahaha...I breakdown in front of the guys...And all went like...Eh..r u ok anot?? again and again..bleh...actually i was damn angry with that shit larh..Mr M!! YGFPOR ^*R ^*$O^*$%^E!! Hahaha!! ma and amanda vent our anger on him...but he is still thick skined as ever...!!! But only aaron knows why we were in such bad moods...Mr M tot that we girls were having our periods..PMS...hahaha..dumbo!
ah..i going home now..
buhbye and nyeh ppl.
The pic was taken b4 syf..hehehe..
This week had been a totally boring week..But i notice something...I slacked..I didn't do my bio, el and hml hw. I cabut band...then I...arh..can't remember wat i do..Slack seh..I MUST BUCK UP!!!GGRRRR!!! I think i just don't have the energy and will power to continue my life...bleh..watever..
I've been ssoo sensitive over very little things...especially on fri night..man...It was ssoo embarrassing...Andy scolded me for not getting the lesson into my head..geomatrical properties of circle...damn..even that shit can get. Wat larh...Then on the home..oh man..that was the worst...hahaha...I breakdown in front of the guys...And all went like...Eh..r u ok anot?? again and again..bleh...actually i was damn angry with that shit larh..Mr M!! YGFPOR ^*R ^*$O^*$%^E!! Hahaha!! ma and amanda vent our anger on him...but he is still thick skined as ever...!!! But only aaron knows why we were in such bad moods...Mr M tot that we girls were having our periods..PMS...hahaha..dumbo!
ah..i going home now..
buhbye and nyeh ppl.
The pic was taken b4 syf..hehehe..
Sunday, July 10, 2005
oh man..
:)...hehehe...I'm sorry guys...watever that i had 'tried' to do... Oh...yarh... I was darn...stupid. Stupid me.
Everything is just getting on my nerves. On friday was my o levels oral and i flopped it. Totally. My one and only chance in my whole life for me to take my o levels and i flopped it. Then aft that I went into the girls toilet and cry my hearts out. Shit. I'm such a cry baby!
oohh yarh..I almost took that first puff... It was aft tuition and Cing An had brought a pack of ciggarettes for mark cos he oso wanted to try. But then...that shitty mark didn't come. So...he just lighted one and play with it around...He asked anyone wanted a puff....Luckily no one tried. Luckily Farah was there to make me move away frm them....If she was not there i would be in deep shit right now....
I'm such in bad moods these days...PMS i guess...hahaha... watever...
sorry guys...but i can't gurantee that i won't try it....I just feel so disappointed in everyone.
nyeh ppl.
Everything is just getting on my nerves. On friday was my o levels oral and i flopped it. Totally. My one and only chance in my whole life for me to take my o levels and i flopped it. Then aft that I went into the girls toilet and cry my hearts out. Shit. I'm such a cry baby!
oohh yarh..I almost took that first puff... It was aft tuition and Cing An had brought a pack of ciggarettes for mark cos he oso wanted to try. But then...that shitty mark didn't come. So...he just lighted one and play with it around...He asked anyone wanted a puff....Luckily no one tried. Luckily Farah was there to make me move away frm them....If she was not there i would be in deep shit right now....
I'm such in bad moods these days...PMS i guess...hahaha... watever...
sorry guys...but i can't gurantee that i won't try it....I just feel so disappointed in everyone.
nyeh ppl.
Monday, July 04, 2005
Nyeh and bleh again.
hey ppl...I'm in a dilemma now... I don't know why i feel like this...But i'm feeling all rebellious now..I even tot of smoking...and get two ear piercings...I feel....hatred all round me...
mum is being so...queen control..she control every aspect of my life...I mean everything...
clothes...frens..my freedom especially...I can't even go down to the mama shop without being interrogated....shit chiby...tolol...babi..
she says always..says she doesn't understand me... yarh wat.. u don't understand me.. U are always comparing me with sis...I'm not sis...I'm shaheera!! for goodness sake...!! She's a pig who only wants to stay home and sleep...freak!! I'm an eagle who wants 2 explore the world...I don't wanna be suck in my niche and have a big butt like her...ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAARRRHHHGHGGGG!!!!
I just want u to trust me.
just that. and be a real family.
family. that's just what want.
how can we be a family when daddy is always out...sis always at work..shamil...always out with his frens and nvr studying...and u...I don't know doing wat all day long..
U say weekends are for family day... and i can't go out with my frens..? but what do we always do during saturdays and sundays..?? Do we spent time like a family?NNOOO WE DON'T!!!
shit i hate myself... I'm silently crying now in my heart..
well.. I guess i should be happy with wat i have now..
bleh
nyeh.
I think i should ask mark to buy for me a box of it...hmmm..
mum is being so...queen control..she control every aspect of my life...I mean everything...
clothes...frens..my freedom especially...I can't even go down to the mama shop without being interrogated....shit chiby...tolol...babi..
she says always..says she doesn't understand me... yarh wat.. u don't understand me.. U are always comparing me with sis...I'm not sis...I'm shaheera!! for goodness sake...!! She's a pig who only wants to stay home and sleep...freak!! I'm an eagle who wants 2 explore the world...I don't wanna be suck in my niche and have a big butt like her...ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAARRRHHHGHGGGG!!!!
I just want u to trust me.
just that. and be a real family.
family. that's just what want.
how can we be a family when daddy is always out...sis always at work..shamil...always out with his frens and nvr studying...and u...I don't know doing wat all day long..
U say weekends are for family day... and i can't go out with my frens..? but what do we always do during saturdays and sundays..?? Do we spent time like a family?NNOOO WE DON'T!!!
shit i hate myself... I'm silently crying now in my heart..
well.. I guess i should be happy with wat i have now..
bleh
nyeh.
I think i should ask mark to buy for me a box of it...hmmm..
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