Sunday, December 06, 2009

back

its been ages yeah.

oh well. exams are well over and i'm well enjoying my holidays. Results are out too. what can i say? not up to expectations definitely. ESPECIALLY ACCOUNTING. ergh. *rolls eyes. $1k down the drain. sigh. next sem will be more challenging. considering theres modules like law and macroecons. T.T plus! projects. i wonder who will be my group mates. this sem group mates are awesome. ^^

hiq's back. :))) ft island is coming BUT yeah, i cant go. &TUTFUYTE$%^&*456890$^%&*(!!!!

zhong's birthday party was good. his family was really warm. :D glad that the 3 of us can get along till now.

thats abt it i guess.

heres t the end of my holiday. work tomorrow. SIGH~~~

chiao.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

a battle within

sometimes i feel like just crying it all out and let it all go.
sometimes i feel that i should hold back the tears, be brave and fight.

seems like i'm the only one fighting this battle.

ah, i dont know.

but i've vowed to never shed a tear again.

so sick and tired. emotionally, physically.

seems like if i dont do well enough for this exam, i may not be able to continue with studies eh. and the only thing i want now is a place called home. thats all.

chiao.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

mug time! wwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

officially on hiatus.
do not disturb.

MUG OR YOU DIE!

uuhhh i wanna play with jay. sighs.
damn! after exams man!! you just wait!
haha.
alright, time to mugggg~~~~
chiao.

Monday, October 12, 2009



<3 them.
and khun's definitely more then just an eye candy.

chiao.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

the flower

to become beautiful, you must endure pain.
to become perfect, you must hold in sadness.
where is the flower which blooms without getting soaked by the pouring rain?

i hate it when someone's words made an impact on me, esp when that person is someone who doesnt know how significant he is. oh well. ok, lets move on in life.

major projects are finally over. only left with the role play project which i have to act. oh my. and exams, which i am supposed to study. haha. whatever. absolutely no mood.

love, sincerity. give me a chance to learn about it.

Friday, October 02, 2009

really.

really, how could you think of me like that? say things of me like that.

ouch. i feel a great stabbing pain there.

congrats, for making me feel like the worst person ever to walked on earth.
no kidding. you really made me feel that way today.

chiao.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

paboimnida

seriously... why cant i just do something well? like be good in something?

pabo.

chiao.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

eyeballs

so.. can eyeballs really roll out? i have the feeling that its going to happen to me soon.
welcome, dark circles and panda eyes. yay.

i'm getting really worked up with all these tests and project deadlines approaching.

3 days to raya and i still havent got my baju kurung this year.

anyway, eid mubarak peopleeeeeeeeeeee!
wwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
chiao. :))))

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

PARK JAEBOM

oh man, jay... 2pm wouldnt be hottest anymore without jay! right. i am so effing sad now. cant believe i am affected until like this. i bet the rest of the boys are under so much stress now. sigh. rumours say that junho's the next leader. sigh. and the boys were seen crying at the airport when jay left. and wooyoung fainted, in hospital now.





damn who can sing, rap and break like jay!? TELL MEEEE! ah. watching wild bunny, hot blood, idol army again. ahw, i want jaebom leadja back!

i'm missing hiq already. i hate airports. really i do.

chiao.

Tuesday, September 08, 2009



kekeke. <3
2pm! wwwwwwweeeeeeeeee

giant dreams, midget abilities.

sigh

right, time to study.

chiao.

Saturday, September 05, 2009

fight, fight, FIGHT!

and i will succeed.

hear that, i will.

chiao.

when you think it's the end, or there's no way out, or i'm going to die, it'll never going to happen~you can overcome no matter how hard life is.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

school

its been ages since i've updated. 4 weeks of school. i cant say its was bad. but i expected it to be better. nonetheless, i'm glad my project grp members were truly cooperative and responsible despite being such playful guys. :)) found a suju+2pm addict like me. haha. we're good friends now. hehe. oh, found a leeteuk and siwon twin in my course. *faints* but i need to focus. my concentration span is only 5 secs i think. gosh, i gotta buck up, focus and study.

its a week into ramadhan. missing many people. and, and...sigh, hiq is going away.. :(




nickhun!! :)) *melts....

guess that abt it.

chiao.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

seriously. i can burst out in anger.
so tired. so angry.

complaining again. i should shut up. and study.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. geram.

chiao.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

projects.

rabak ah i thought my proj is easy peasy. yeah right. easy peasy to comprehend ONLY. but when i ponder and analyse the questions, shit. oh nooooooooooooo. ah my brain's quite fried from accounts and economic analysis eh. tmr accounts again. cash balance, brought forward, marking up. oh new homework and new project! omg. how many projects seh.

thinking back again, some of the stuff that i did when i was working in income was actually very relevant to what i am studying now! hehehe.

and omg, my coursemates are like how frighteningly competitive. damn.

but BRING IT ON BEYBEH!

hahaha.

chiao.

Thursday, August 06, 2009

paranoia

maybe i'm just being paranoid. i'm panicking. i really need to study. i cant imagine myself failing. oh my, impossible.

ahhh.

chiao.

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

SCHOOL

1st day of school and i was late! hehehe. but things turned out well after that.
NOW! geram ah. i cant log in to acess my schedule, print course notes, assingments, etc. ahhh how! no notes for tmr's lesson!

but happy. :D nonetheless.

chiao!

Sunday, August 02, 2009

<3 suju!

suju made my day yet again! and made me cry too! reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy love then.

ohkay, school's tmr!! wwwwwwwwwwwweeee. egg-citing!

me-> ELF! wohooo!

chiao!

Friday, July 31, 2009

merepeks.

this is so merepek. its like politics between menopausal half-a-century aunties who has no life. wtf. AND I AM CAUGHT IN BETWEEN IT. f-la.


aahh.

i is missing someone.



ohoh. i love this song!

chiao.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

sigh

teaching isnt an easy thing eh. it doesnt just involve the student and teacher, but also the student's parents. what makes it worst is that the student doesnt co-operate but wants results. the mother, being on the student's side will protect her. the teacher on the other hand wants to teach her so badly but cant get anything to work out. that just suck.

i hate being forced to do things that i do not want. i hhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttttteeeeeeeeeeeeeeee it.
omg. i feel so angry. and you always know how to look so sympathetic that i will eventually give in. and if i dont, you'll say all those hurtful things that i never seem to be able to forget. its painful. and when i do something good, its never acknowledged or appreciated. thats so nice of you. you always want your way but i never got to do anything my way.

somehow, it frustrates me that i cant do anything to change the situation. its frustrates me even more that no one is listening to me. it frustrates me even more that no one else here wants to do anything abt it and keep asking me to do something. i'm not a superwoman ah.

guess all this while i was only in denial. trying to convince my self that i'm alright.

chiao.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

run

i dont know whats wrong with blogger or mine IE. the layout is all screwed up!

hhmmm. sigh.

i wanna run away from here.bye.

chiao.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

:)))






this is oh so cute.


AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH. suju just got themselves a new fan!!!

alright, i'm stopping work like soon. kinda sad but i cant wait for school. :D although i dont know excatly whos in sim. BUT I AM SO GONNA ENJOY MY UNI DAYS. muahahahahaha. and study hard!

orientation next week! wwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. ohoh! mandaki approved my loan. heh.

chiao.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

somehow, my heart is aching...

Thursday, July 09, 2009

a story i cant tell



a story i cant tell. sigh.
what a horrible day.

chiao.

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

photos

some photos frm last performance. i'll miss this.






insomnia (korean version)



haha. i almost screamed when i heard this. aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.




i like the dance moves. reminds me of the days when i use to jump and slide like that. hah. anyway they look good. wwwwwwwwwooooooooooo.

chiao.

Sunday, July 05, 2009

triangled.

yesterday was.. awesome. although the heat was terrifying. i was wearing 4 layers altogether! omg.
but we had great fun! :) and we got good comments. hhmm, i wonder what. haha. oh man, work tmr. sigh. 20th july, come quick!

i love triangles. from toa cah soh, phythogoras thoerem, to finding areas. those were my best topics in math. but being in a relationship triangle is HORRIGIBLE. what am i to do? zomg. but 1 thing for sure, i will never hurt my own friend.

chiao.

Thursday, July 02, 2009

unfathomable

i did an unthinkable. furthermore, i didnt even realise until the cars were horning at me. omg..
whats wrong with you!


chiao.

Monday, June 29, 2009

poke poke

like the stupidest person on earth. me.

damn pissed.

its like so horrible to make fun of people's weaknesses and laugh at them, make them into a joke. its not funny. its not like they want to be like that. what if you are fat and your friends calls you fatso or roti pound like that. or if your hair is like damn bushy and curly and they liken you to mak hitam from the jerangkung movie? funny uh. but if its you then how will you feel? especially when the people who made you look so pathetic are your friends? your own damn fucking friends. then maybe they should never have been called friends in the first place right.

i cant help it if i am very blur, clumsy or weird. sometimes i wish i wasnt. maybe abit more smarter like the rest of my friends. then maybe people wont laugh at my stupidity, my clumsiness and maybe i wont get on people's nerves for being such a blur king kong. maybe i wont disappoint my family for not living up to their expectations. maybe i will be able to get better results and get easily into a real uni. maybe, i would have done better in band then maybe i will be able to join the rest in.... maybe then.. maybe-s. ah, shall stop here. dont want to re-account my life story.

but i'm not. so i shall stick to being me. accept it or just fuck off yea.

i've had my fair share of being poked at.

chiao.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

decisions

green day's 21 guns is awesome.
i like white and sushi+ramen.
how random

i got another offer from rmit.
and i dont know which to choose! omg.
tmr must register already. howhowhow.

chiao.
oh transformers was unbelieveably good.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

FINALLY

this is good!




but this is damn hilarious!


anyway. sim accepted me. yeyey! like finally man. and i cant wait for my contract to end. although that means an exponantial decline in my expenses and....heh. no more shoes. sigh. and sushi binging. but best of all, no more looking at pantat kuali's face! yes!

so last week went to jb, then on wed went to chek jawa :) then fri was sushi feast with the girls. will post pics soon. sat was band prac and concert. best! i should have joined alumni! i especially liked the first song. good job acband. <3! alright, transformers tomorrow! wwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeee. oh and sushi with fellow makciks eh. hah.

its not that i dont want to tell you whats happening in my life. just that i'm not ready to pry open myself and tell what i'm really feeling ang thinking. well, there sure is alot on my mind...

chiao.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

fight!




how apt.
its like when you've finally have picked yourself back up again, you're thrown back into the bottomless pit of darkness.

now, whats your next plan?

and best thing of all, you're all alone. wow. great huh.

and tmr work. see that pantat kuali's face again. cb.



chiao.

Sunday, June 07, 2009

desperate

i'm getting desperate. i really dont know what to do. these days, i'd rather talk less.

i wished i could have gone for the tune in. miss them.



from the mad rush in the morning to pack, get dressed and rush to school. missed the stooopid bus. late for band. arrive like some star karat. get labelled as the lady in pink. yeah i have started wearing pink. yuck. then on to outdoors. the heat was effingggggggggg intense. then to ecp coffee bean where abg farhan got us girls to ride in his car!!!!!!!!! and had a kecoh time in the car. haha. toured ECP in the car for like.... 2 hours? haha. got to pit 42D and chilled. cycled. bacame superman for awhile. got hurt. HAHAHA. bike spoilt. for a moment wished i had edward cullen. haha. no choice, had to call my heroes and heroins. yay! saved me and cleaned wound. ate. cleaned up and home sweet home. detailed enough? ok, tired. sleep!

i think i reeeeeally like cycling!
oh happy birthday irna and safiqah!

chiao.

Thursday, June 04, 2009

meltingggggggggggggggggggggggg




LEE MIN HO. ah.

die la. thats it. melt. melt. melt.

chiao.

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

fight!

i will do whatever it takes and everything so that i wont regret it later for the rest of my life.


ah headache.

chiao.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

fight!

ah 3 days! threeeeeeeeeeee days exactly for me to think of something to convince them that i'm worth it.

but WHAT!?

ahhh, i'm going crazy thinking abt this. seriously.

my future. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.

aja!

chiao.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

a new single girl swag. :)



i want nobody nobody but you!
hahahaa.

wwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

chiao.

Friday, May 29, 2009

a new single girl swag. :)

ok, ok... so i should not be so woozy and yaya and all. i should stand up again and smile. get mentally prepared for whatever thats coming. and.. plan b!

hhmmm...

6 days straight of not seeing you. thats a record.sigh... anyway, i should learn to say goodbye to you now.




oh yes, i cut my hair like reallllllly short. haha. and its kindaa... straight? haha!
wwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeee!

chiao!

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

ragh

my heart.. its so painful.
but why arent i even crying??

what am i gonna do?

chiao.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

weeks and weeks and weeks.

i love these girls. no matter how rotten i feel that day, they always manage to make me laugh hard. haha.

so if you say in 2 weeks time... does that include this week? then the second week will be next week right? so its next week or the week after? its next week right right?

haaaaaaaaaaaaa. i have to stop this.
ahhhhhhh painful la.



btw, my hand is still swollen la. ouch.

chiao.




Wednesday, May 20, 2009

&TYF&^TG^E%^YFT^^%$^&%$£W%^&!!!

at this moment i could do with a hug.
waiting is a torture.
chiao.

Monday, May 18, 2009

i wonder

i really wonder who is the girl. he said 2 weeks time.

fat hope girl. whatever.

i cant wait for wednesday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

chiao.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

missing

actually this thing has been going on for quite sometime. i dreamt of my ac friends. yeah a few times. it sounds like.. oh well, its just a dream. but i dreamt of them leaving me. and i cried. yeah i freaked out. thinking abt it again now... i realise that i miss them. yes i really do. these are just words. but my heart is really aching.

been so busy with work, tuition, work tuition. i dont even msg to say helo or anything like that. i'm such a horrible friend. or come back to ac, support them during syf or just say a simple how are you. horrible me. sorry.

anyway, mon was awesome. thanks khai, hiq, aishah r. one of the craziest night i ever had. oh, my hand is still swollen uh. hahaa.

my goal 1) get in a uni and study like madddddddd 'cos i want my degree!
2) get erhmmmm.
but i can say good bye to both. i guess.

feeling horribly melancholic. i hope tmr's band prac will cheer me up.

chiao.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

FINALLY

finally my laptop has internet connection again. thank goodness. now i can blog regularly again.

suffocation. dreams. solitude.

i wish i could do something.

finally, i am 19. eee so old!
haha. but today just feels like any other. no different. however, thanks for the wishes, presents and cakes and surprises. :)

i need to sleep. tmr will be another tiring suffocating day to deal with pantat kuali. ergh.

chiao.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

ergh

all i want to do now is face is the vast ocean and scream
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

GIVE ME MY FRINGING FREEDOM.

ragh.
chiao.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

bored

01. Who was your last text from?
aishah razak!

02. Where was your default profile picture taken?
default pic for fb's from KL.

03. Your relationship status?
single, free and INDEPENDENT! hahaa

04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
duh.

05. What is your current mood?
pretty confused.

06. How many siblings do you have?
2.

07. What are the names of your brothers/sisters?
shazwani, shamil

08. Where do you wish you were right now?
with ... ehehehe.

09. Have a crazy side?
crazy psycho or crazy fun? yarh duh. know me well enough and you can answer this yourself.

10. Ever had a near-death experience?
i dont think a teeth surgery is considered a near-death experience right? although its scary enough for me.

11. Something you do a lot?
eat. and sing alot. hahaaaha

12. Angry at someone?
me self actually

13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
i shy laaaaaaaaaaaa. muahahahahahaha.

14. When was the last time you cried?
eerrr, a long time ago. haha.

15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
yarh, many people. the ones i love.

16. What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
HAHAHAHAHA. and the things to do the next day.

17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
i dont remember, i text alot.

18. What is your favourite song?
it changes from time to time.. craig david insomnia. haha.

19. What are you doing right now?
supposed to be researching for scholarships and study loans... but as usual, i digressed. hehe.

20. Who do you trust right now?
god.

21. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
omg. terengganu, in malaysia.

22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
ehhwwww. no.

23. Who is your close friend who lives closest to you?
who lives near and is close to me! alot laa.

24. Describe your life in one word?
beautifully imperfect.

25. Who are you thinking of right now?
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

26. What should you be doing right now?
searching for that stupid study loan so that i can study overseas!!!

27. What are you listening to?
holst jupiter yo!

28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
eheheheeee. shant sayyyy. wwwwwweeeeeeeeeeee.

29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
my mummy who is still asking me to sleep. grr.

30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
i dont react. i froze in front of him. hahahhahaa.

31. What is your natural hair colour?
Black laa.

32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
ooo. aisyah sazali. hahaha.

33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
oh shut up, dont remind me.

34. What do you hear?
now its tchaikovsky's nutcracker! sweett!!

35. Is your hair curly or straight?
curlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
HAHAHA NO.

37. Do you have a best friend?
sadly she left me. sigh.

38. Held hands with someone of the opposite sex in the last three days?
ehehehe. next question!

39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
wahhh alot!

40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
uh, ehw, NOH!

41. Are you happy with life right now?
pretty content (:

42. Are you currently jealous?
maybe.

43. What jewelry are you currently wearing?
stupid gold bangle that i am forced to wear.

44. What were you doing on Friday night?
section outing!!!

45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yeahhhh!

46. Have you ever broken someone else's heart?
i think so. hehehe.

47. Is there anybody you're disappointed in right now?
maybe...

48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
to check my teeth la. what else seh.

50. Have you ever dated someone for longer than a year?
not yet. (:

ok, i am bored and i am digressing. sigh.

friday: section outing! photos will be up soon. haha. yeah realllllll soon.
sat: hiq's wedding. eh no. hahaha, hiq brother's wedding. photos will be up soon too.
sun=boring.
monday= a dread.

so yes, i am applying overseas uni. but malaysia only la! hahahaha. but its still a headache. gosh, so many things to prepare. bank statements, ic, passport, certs, appraisals, photos. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. and my bills to pay. ok, so this is yet another step towards independence.

hhmm, i should be asleep, if i were to wake up early to jog in the morning.

chiao.

Sunday, April 05, 2009

intuition

what do you do when you feel like something bad is going to happen?
i have this strong intuition that tomorrow... i'll be in deep trouble.
call me impractical or paranoid, my intuition is almost always right.
not that i want it to be right this time though..
oh fresh bulggoggi anytime soon girls? heh.


and no, i dont want to screw up again. please. sigh.

i love this song.

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

working afficially sucks

been soooooooooo effing lazy to blog.

moved house. so small, no privacy at all. sigh. work's getting worse. yes, i wanna quit asap. i think i need an anger management course to deal with kids. especially special ones like my brother.
After the 10th question....
Question: factorise 16x-32xy
bro: 16(x-2x)
me: zomgggggggggggggggg. you still dont understand is it?
another question
me: 14 /2=?
bro: 8
me: 89uYT*V^TRE%U^&TRF^%R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


so many things on my mind, i dont know how to get it out.

have you ever felt wronged? like you meant well but somehow other people sees it as otherwise? its sad that these kind of things happen yeah. sigh.

i shall get back to work...

chiao.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

vivooooooooooooo+swensensssssssssss

breakfast was supposed to be at 10 am. but everyone arrived at 11am. haha. typical of my friends. had swensens plus ice cream at holland v. then went back ac. ahwww i mishmishmish ac! saw mr mash and ms leow and we talked. met shahrul and seha. and its vivocity time! but sadly the shop are friging expensive. sigh. i need to shop. badly. i need clothes. most of them needs stitching up haha.
then its tuition time. (yes aish r. , i am a tuition teacher now :D lets wait for aishj eh haha) this time my student seriously made me quite angry. and she became scared! haha. try to be funny again! ugh. kids, can be so irritating sometimes.

oh, chewy brownies coming soon girls! :))

chiao.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

dreams and baking

i wish, i wish...

i'm itching to bake bake bake.
i've got a list of things i wanna bake
hhmm, brownies, cupcakes, try some raspberry tarts and chiffon cake.
heeeee.
but sadly, i've got to pack my stuff.

sigh.

packing is sososo troublesome.


chiao.

i have dreamed of dreams that will only be dreams.



Sunday, February 15, 2009

wedding

i've got to get this out of my chest.



i cant stinking believe he'll be engaged in 2 weeks time. *rolls around in frustration.

SIGH. and with a VIP from across the causeway furthermore. ouch. oh wells, suits his status as a doc.



anyway, the drama that unfolded today was one of a kind. the day started out quite normally. what with kak's tantrums in the mornings, the normal screaming to get shamil out of the bed and all. we three siblings got lost while trying to get to lagun sari for cousin's wedding. and kak, out of frustration for not being able to find the way there started crying. seriously, what the hell is wrong with her man. its just getting lost.. big deal.anyway, got to lagun sari, met mum and dad who were chauffered by cik nasir. lucky them. its was blistering hot la dey, some more wearing that thick, itchy songket baju kurung. ugh. and then went up and ta dahh! the first face i see is that doctor.gawd. i was precisely trying to avoid that guy. so i tried to be interested in the food. heh, good idea man, food always works. anyway, ate and caught up with other relatives. gee, it was so indian. henna, hindi songs and indian costumes were like everywhere. coolness. and the bride is all time georgeous. i think all brides will look ravishing no matter what. so aft that, yeah, wanted to went up to the third floor to be with my aunts but suddenly my father called out, oi! look theres an accident. so, we kpos, went out to look. so there were alot of, 'what happened? what happened??' haha. kecoh seh. anyway, the doctor (ok la, he is actually one of my cousins but one of a kind hehehe.) came out and asked, eh what happend? so my father say oh got accident. my uncle blurted out, eh doctor, go help! then.. he rushed down and went to the victim's side. like how heroic is that! my cousin is treating an accident victim onsite! heeeeeeeeee. so the ambulance came and took the victim away. caused quite a commotion. anyway, we lingered around and chatted. and my mum asked for a lift home. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

i think today i can die of adrenelin overdose. gawd.
in addition i had to battle questions like when am i going to get married. aiyoooooooooooo. somebody save meeeeeeeeeeeee.

tomorrow work again. sigh.

chiao.

Friday, February 13, 2009

friday the 13th

oh no! i thought i had so much to type here. but when this window open my mind just went . yeah, blank.

oh!oh! i remember!
friday the 13th.
a day that stays true to its name. today sucked. got scolded yet again by my supervisor. (i dont think i was that bad.. seriously...)the interns are giving me headaches. had a meeting first thing in the morning and it went badly. sosososo much work to do. and work to be redone because some other people did it wrongly. sigh. i'm still pissed by my late late pay cheque. grrr. thank god irritating A didnt come today, though H is present. i was under audit today. hmm. my students are a headache too. one is taking psle and the other is too hyper. and managing your own finance isnt that easy afterall huh.

enough whining. i'll manage all that. tomorrow is V day! wwwwwwweeeeeeeeeee. this reminds me of the V days in ac. so much love, i feel so happy and warm. happy V day people!

chiao.

Monday, February 09, 2009

revival

kah-ching! this blog is revived! ok, crap.

anyways.. i'm tired. work, tuition. work tuition. and work and tuition and it goes on. life's quite mundane recently. the only exciting thing maybe.. tmr is pay day.heh. maybe that'll make me happier. oh and pasta mania is finally halal! attackkkkkk! haha. and gerd's flying tmr. :( and heard that results will be out like real soon. erghhhhhhhhhhhh. i just want to get into a uni. thats all. sigh.

i think i'm getting along better with my collegues. i'm talking the mak cik way to them. heee.
but still no lunch buddy. sigh.

my eyes are drooping...

chiao.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

its time, to move on.

i realise now. why i never want to listen to their rantings abt the 'good times', look at the many many pictures taken, the stories, the jokes made there and anything associated with it. the answer is simple, it still hurt. and alot.

unconciously, i was avoiding all that because i didnt want to feel the pain again. to face it. and now, confronting it was just as painful as during the days, weeks, months that it unfolds. although its been quite sometime.

i thought i was stronger though. well, let go and move on girl. its over.



writitng a book sounds great.



i feel horrigible. CHOCOLATESSSSSSSSS WHERE ARE YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!!



ohoh! happy 19th birthday shereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! haha. :)



chiao.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

hahahaha-choooo. erhm.

i realise that its been ages since i blogged. haha. 'cos theres nothing interesting happening in my life.

well, with the exception of the emergence of an interesting person to spice up my life, to make me gush and blush occasionally (hahahahaha-chooo!) and the occasional meet ups with friends. like last fri.. hhm, mission accomplished but with much agony. sigh. i learnt one good lesson. guys do not make good shopping buddy. tsk i need someone who can go crazy just looking at a pair of shoes, and dont get tired randomly going in and out of shops for hours. hahaha. no offence guys. :D

anyways, tomorrow is working day again!!! i hope i dont get scolded again. sigh. well, its only human to make mistakes right. some people just dont realise that i guess.

i still need a lunch buddy....

chiao.

Sunday, January 04, 2009

lunch buddy. where are you?



overdued photos. oreo cheesecake and sheperd's pie.
weekends are making me fatfatfat. i just baked chewy sticky brownies which is super duper uber easy.
hhmm, work tomorrow. i really could do with a lunch buddy man.
chiao.

Saturday, January 03, 2009

crossroads

its easy to lose true friends but difficult to find one.
i should really try to stay in touch with friends.

and what about all those talk about not caring about what people talk or thinks about you?
easier said than done.

and i think i'm taking on a second job. i need it.

chiao.

Friday, January 02, 2009

a request

hhmm, i have a request.

tell me, how am i? as in, am i an arrogant person?selfish? smart? anything. just anything abt myself. i wanna know. if its bad, i wanna change and improve myself you know. anybody. really, if you know me, just say it. its ok if you wanna label yourself as anonymous or 'shaheera's bestest best friend' or 'shaheera's greatest enemy' or 'shaheera's boyfriend' you know. i dont care. (hehe, i dont mind BB though ooppss!)

just tell me what kind of a person i am. i need it. say on the tag board.

thank you, you'll be doing me a great favour.

but i still think its not fair for people to judge you when they dont actually know you. right?

chiao.