ergh

all i want to do now is face is the vast ocean and scream
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

GIVE ME MY FRINGING FREEDOM.

ragh.
chiao.

sigh.

yesterday was a good day. today WAS ok. untill mum had to be in one of her bad mood days. and i am a victim of her wrath.

sad. ): now i cant go for turandot and ice skating. there go my $38++. sigh.

shall say more when i feel better. i need chocolates.
fasting month doesnt mean you cant go about your daily routine as per normal what. ggrrr.

i should stop blog-hopping. heart-stirngs pulled with every photo of those places. i didnt know it will be this hard.

chiao.

rawr

i've been trying hard to suppress these emotions. but suppressing it is draining the life out of me. while letting it out makes my heart ache. and people are good at reading my face. or maybe its just me that is oblivious to my own facial expressions? so i dont know ok.

everything is like hitting me all at once. home, studies, band, relationships.

i want time to stop. then maybe i can take a step back, breathe and solve all these. its quite overwhelming to endure all this alone.

maybe i should just concentrate on my studies. but running away from problems will not solve it.

and, to achieve somethings, sometimes you have to sacrifice something or even people. but then again, are these sacrifices worth it just to achieve your goals? i feel sometimes its ok if we dont achieve it. its not the end thats impt, but the process. well, some people just dont understand and this effects others. whats more, the effects could be detrimental.

i should be more focus on my studies and work harder. at this rate, i think i'm gonna fail a levels.
i wanna quit school uh.

chiao.

economics blues

this iktiraf song never fail to bring me to tears and realise the greatness of God.

econs test in a few hours time.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i'm friging dead for geog test tmr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i fell asleep again! i'm gonna put pins on my bed man. i'll get poked if i sleep. serve me right. damn it. i'm cursing myself. i'm so angry at myself. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhh!!!!!
no time to type. tmr's syf!!!!! aaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i seriously am gonna slap myself for sleeping. ergh.