Sunday, December 31, 2006

yay!! hari raya is here again!! haha..good food, spend time with family and watch tv!!! syiok ah!

school's starting in a few days time. kinda nervous for the orientation though. just hope i wont feel left out. saw the leaked mass dance. and it was nice!! :) on thurs will be the first band prac at night. i dunno how to tell mum. sure she will blow her top. nah, i wont think abt it now. it'll make me depress only. i'm gonna enjoy wat's let of the hols. and i still havent finish studying dr lee's 22 musical concepts!! die larh.. tonight must study..haha..

i still havent finish the k-drama, a love to kill, shamil keep using the com larh.. till i cant use it. damn.. rain so hot. hahahahaha..

tata..

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

hhmm.. quite happy but quite sad.

mum doesnt speak to me.. she barks at me. she nvr look at me, she glares at me. i'll just try to bear with it as long as i can take it.. keep trying to demoralise me.. say me what.. erm.. big butt, fat, blur queen la, cant be trusted la.. what the hell. i dont give a shit la!!!

then at tamp mall, saw ppl that i dont wanna see. ever again! b'cos i feel guilty towards him. i broke his heart and he left me just like that. i didnt get the chance to apolagise. damn.. untill now. luckily i didnt get in tpjc. he's in there. whatever.. but i dont think he saw me just now. i'm pretty positive.

but then.. today buy new shoes! and stationary.. and new socks.. wah.. so long since i buy anything.. somemore the shoes is very expensive..$103!!! hehehe.. use ang pow money frm hari raya la.. atlast! i get to shop!!!!!!! ahahahahahaa.. i'm so happy get to shop..

a few more days and i'll be starting school in ac.. woah.. i cant believe it man..i'm in jc? i'm so old. whatever. o levels results is giving me sleepless nights. and i have weird dreams. darn weird. and embarssing. hhmm.. i'll think first if i wanna say it here.. anyway.. i wanna watch the k-drama at youtube.. a love to kill.. woah.. syiok man.. rain bi.. so cute. hehehe.

till here. tata.

Saturday, December 23, 2006

hhmm.. i'm just passing by.. so i stopped to say hello.
but sadly.. my hellos were replied with ...hateful looks and unwelcomed voices.
so.. dont worry, i'll leave soon after i've said my hellos and good byes.

numbed by all the looks.. i dont give a shit. i'll just forget abt it.

forget abt it.

Thursday, December 21, 2006



gorgeous rite?
haha.. oh.. i'll miss these ppl badly

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

i feel so angry.

ssooo very angry. now, some more, listening to ammerland.. i feel like crying.ergh.

aaaaarrrrrgggggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, December 18, 2006

i suck. i'm the worst eupho player. acj or mj? i cant made up my mind. i'm confuse and angry.

let the earth open up and swallow me.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (starts pulling hair)

tata.

Friday, December 15, 2006

i got into meridian JC then i changed to acjc. Should i be happy? i dont know.. i'm confuse btw which to choose. mummy really wants me to go mj but i'm oredi tied dwn wif acj.. how..? what's more is the dist of the jc frm home. mj isfreakng near and acj is freaking far la.. haiz.. i dont know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but ultimately its the o levels that is important. haiz.. now i'm having paranoia frm the o level results.. skali.. i get like 25 points for my L1R4.. DIE!!! aahh!!!

oh man.. and i'm so tired. frm band pracs.. but it was kinda fun..lols

i'll stop here. tata.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

today's band prac is so tiring..hhmm.. i'll need to buck up alot, improve. die la.hesh.. my playing superbly rusty aft so long since the last time i had intensive sectionals. its ages ago man.
and i'm so nervous abt the PAE results. hmm.. if i dont get in ac.. wat should i do? Accept the job offers and start working my ass off? hah..
i've decided to start running again.. since like.. hhmm.. how long has it been? 2 months i guess.. i stopped running. anyway, it'll pass the time. since i have lots of time in my hands. cant believe i'm wasting my life away like this. so i guess i'll start reading lots of books, start doddling and writing sajak (poems in malay)again. hesh.. i'm so bored..

i'll end it here.toddles. oh ya.. i've got the band farewell party pics that we took at the bus stop.. haha.. i'll post it here.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

ladadida

ok.. what did i talked abt..? oh ya.. its love.. love has ceased to exist in this world. duh.. look arnd ya.

oh well.. i read this book, tells abt ppl living in haiti. they are freaking SUFFERING man!!! seriously i wanna do something. but i dunno what i should do to help them. actually its not only this book that makes me feel this way. there were other instances since like... last 2 years. Seriously i feel bad abt this. i feel so guilty. like, here we are enjoying lives while they have to suffer.( if thats the case, then what right have we got to be enjoying ourselves?) and look at how some ppl treat them. show them some love la ppl! haiz. gosh i feel so guilty, sympathy for them and disgusted at myself. how i wish i could help them. in any way.

we are so blessed.we've got enough food, clean water, a well furnished hse, family and frens who really care alot and a country so peaceful. we should really reflect ourselves if we are complaining for more.

haiz. i'll stop here.tata.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

it has cease to exist. dont ask me waht i'm refering it to. i'm just too disappointed.

Sunday, December 03, 2006

too bored to post anything. i'll say something when there's anything happening..
ta.

Sunday, November 26, 2006

tired..

wah.. so long since i've blogged.. so much been happening.. even aft o's i'm still feeling super tired.. hesh.. feeling emo..

anyway.. the o levels was super..stressful for me.. i think i have white hairs already.. haha.. i totally flunk my higher malay paper. which is super disappointing. i was going to give up on the next paper but.. yeah, i know i cant. really tested my perserverence man.. i was crying like a baby.. kinda embarassing.. but i survived though..that's an acheivement to me u know.. my biggest worry is maths.. dunno if i can even pass.. haha even at this rate.. i'm still thinking of getting into a jc.. wat a joke! but i'll follow my heart.. i still believe i can make it in to ac.. mon is the interview.. i'm so nervous.. i keep thinking of all the possible questions that the teacher can possibly ask. like... why do you wana go to this jc? do u think u can make it? erm..u're results seems to be quite bad.. why is this so.? aaarrrgggghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the past few days.. since going to ac band.. i've learnt alot of things.. meet alot of friends.. something i will never forget and cherish all my life. this is a lifetime experience.. meeting new ppl gives me a greater insight into life.. hahaha.. i talk so chim seh.. my section played so beautifully.. my mouth was gapping when i first heard them playing star wars man.. that triple tonguing!! i still cant do it!!! darn.. im gonna play that song beautifully!! soon!!!!! eerrrgghh.... but amirah and justin was a great help la.. haha..and valerie, sheree and edwin was ssoo funny.. haha.. wish all of us can still be together next year..

i'm so busy now with band, i dunno if i can still have time to work..need money u know..hesh.. badly... somemore with my family's situation like this..hesh.. we willl survive for sure... god is with us..

anyway, i still havent finish watching goong..untill now. yeah i know.. i'm super outdated but wth..i still need to finish it..

tata..chiao...

Saturday, October 07, 2006

dunno if i can still go 3 month jc wif my results... its bad.. not up to my expectations.. u dont know how desperate i am to go jc.. :((

prelims results are out.. need to mug. wont be touching the com untill aft O's over

ta tas..

Sunday, October 01, 2006

la da

la la la.. haha, i so happy now. the prelims are over.. so is my migraine. funny how it will come at those certain times.. ergh.. and i cant eat panadol.. because i'll shiver aft eating it. so i'll just have to bear with the pain. now, bracing myself for the prelims results. mel lim msg me and told me that if i get like 20 points or below i can go acj for the 3 month trial. yay!! i hope i didnt screw too many subjs.. haha.. i think i flunked most the subjs wif bio and dnt on top of my list. wth larh.. but i still wanna go ac!!!! ergh.. i think that's like the best jc ever! o level must work even harder!!!

fri, aft the last paper i slept like a log. catching my sleep back frm all the sleepless nights during prelims. then surf the net and helped mum prepare the food for breaking fast. was supposed to go terawih wif bai, siti, aishah j and aishah r, but all cant make it. haiz.. i've been waiting to go to terawih since like.. i dunno when...

yesterday was so shiok! one of the best days of my life!! went to study tajwid with ustaz amiri. nice.. i was enlightened!! haha.. then went shopping wif sis and cousin, kak siti, at arab street haaha.. alot of food!!! make my saliva drool seh.. i was thinking of praying at masjid sultan for asar but scared later late reach home. then went nenek hse and break fast wif my uncles, anties, cousins and grandma. eat nasi briyani together on a big plate. like 5 ppl eat on the same platter.. so nice.. then pray and watch sI again.. wah.. hady was sssooo... BRILLIANT!!!! today going to study wif ustaz fahrurrazi then go tuition.. hhmm..

amazing that despite fasting.. i did not feel tired or lethargic. even with my migraine on. that's the blessing of ramadan. i feel fulfilled even! even during the prelims, i was calm... i feel like i dont want to end ramadan, nvm i dont get to eat nice stuff.. but its really worth it.

neway.. need to get dressed for classes today. ta!

Saturday, September 09, 2006

8-o

my head's gonna burst frm mugging higher malay. AARRGGHH!!!!! ON MON IS THE START OF PRELIMS!!! argh.. i mean for me.. hml starts on mon.

actually alot had been going on.. i dunno where to start. i have alot to say but no time. bleh.. wth. hhmm migraine hitting me.. i hate this.

i'll make it short and sweet. i dunno wat's hit me. but i juz wanna say THANK YOU!! to farah, for being there when i needed u all this years u stand by my crap. Aisyah sazali for being my confidante in my pursue for my passion. bai and marsela for being so sweet and always beside me when i have no one. hiq, azilah, aishah j., khai, for all the wonderful memories u gave me to fill during my lower sec years- no doubt we've matured to young confident ladies, but i still hope that we'll be like last time. to everyone (gosh.. why am i saying this?? mad..) all, everybody that has step into my life.. good or bad.. whatever it is.. u still had made a big diff in my life today.

the thingis.. i've been thinking bout life.( b'cos i visited the cemetry today) what if tmr i'm no more?? hhmm.. i have so much dreams i want to accomplish.. so many things to say.. so many.. stuff.. wth.. so this is like my ggodbye speech.. in advance.

haha.. my eyes closing and my head going gong-gong
gong
gong
gong
bye lah

Tuesday, September 05, 2006



this one by ungu-demi waktu



this one by samson-kenangan terindah



this one by dealove-once

lentok banget sih!!muahahaha.. i love this songs!! so nice!

confusing

i dont understand why. why? why? why is it always the good intentions of a person always misunderstood? why? why cant ppl see the goodness of others instead of finding faults with them? why is she treating me like that? like as if i'm wrong? what the hell.. i dont care larh..b'cos i'm not in the wrong!!! and i guess he doesnt and will nvr understand. cant believe that he will want to quit school and work part-time modelling.. gosh.. haiz..

aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam dirimu.
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu-dealova
tetapi aku telah berhenti berharap..

anyways. the hols are here. and i dont intend to enjoy. have to mug. bleh, mug, mug, mug.
-_- mugging all day long..
i want to buy a concert bass drum. then can hit my head on it whenever i feel like it. BANG!!
oh yeah... i have to comment on our class performance on teacher's day!! it was the best among ALL of the classes!!! muahaha.. the others were like..hhmm.. no thoughts put into their performance. haha.. great job ppl (ppl who put in alot of effort)!! really enjoyed the perf!
hhmm.. i wanna mug now..
bleh.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

i know its kinda little late to be blogging now. but CAN SOMEONE HELP ME?????!!!!! oh well, i just finished my hml compo. 2 more to go. 4 more chaps of bio, organic chem and phy to go. PLUS my beautiful folio waiting for me to touch it. ergh. gosh i'll study bio now. hope can finish it by today. all this due nxt week. lalala.. i'll study now larh..

bock to books..
chiao ppl

Saturday, August 19, 2006

difficult times

this week has been the worst week of my life. and i tell u the WORST!! ergh. i cry at the slightest provoke. at anything. when those ppl had public caning, i was on the verge of crying, of course lah i hid it. i cant show ppl that i'm crying especially when its at parade square. then ms nura made me cry. of course i was trying damn hard lah to hide it. she told us of the rumours that the student frm our class had told the teacher. i told u!! there are hypocrites in our class.. damn..haiyo.. dunno lah.. then watch movie during hist. terrible movie. i cried too.but no one see larh, again. all those sufferings that ppl had to go through because of wars. i hate it. hitler is sso damn freaking cruel larh. then its the oral. i was determined not to let my nerves get the better of me. but i think i wasnt thinking properly and i said illogical stuff. gosh.. the examiner was like giving that kind of i-dont-understand-what-you-are talking-about face. i was kinda pissed off actually by her. ergh. and bai is confident she can get a distinc for oral. oklah.. wth..

its just one of those periods in life that u get pissed off by damn every little thing. and home was not a comfort for me either. i wish i can just run away frm all my probs. but i know i cant. i have to face it. mum only knows how to scold me when there is housework to be done. cant she ask other ppl in the house? and i'm taking my o levels this year for goodness sake. she's always scolding me for the slightest stuff. even when she's angry, she'll scream at me. coming home aft a really stupid shitty day at school and u just wanna talk to someone like your mum but she is not there. in sch, i feel so lonely. i dont have frens. come home, its empty. i feel so empty. ergh. i cant cry. i'm tried of crying. no more tears left to shed. them dad? in his own freaking world. why must he be the garantor for his bro?? who wants to led a better life but make us suffer? what if our hse is seized? where do we stay? ergh. get a life man. i mean a brain. more likely. shit larh.. i shouldnt be ranting bout my family probs so publicly larh.. but where else can i vent my anger? i dont have frens where i can say all of this to. anyway, if i dont vent it, maybe i'll go crazy like shek ngai. bro is the worst ever person i can think of. i wish he would disappear. yes, i'm cruel but he's heartless. i want to get out of that hse. go somewhere i can smile and be me. (that's in band)

as the days go by, o levels is getting nearer. its getting me edgy. tests makes me go mad. i have 3 higher malay compos to fiish up plus the five year series. my dnt... god, i pray to u, help me complete it. amin. tests, bio, chem, phy.. darn.. half my brain is in the drain. i cant think anymore.

i dont understand why i get frens that are so shitty. argh. khai said that i look like i dont appreciate my frens. but not saying it doesnt mean i dont ok.. i love my frens.. even though some hate me.. but i still LOVE my frens. ok.. its just that i dont know how to express my feelings ok. i grew up in a place where u dont go arnd and hug ppl and kiss them when u want to say u love them. its just hard for me. see frens together while i walk alone. it hurts ok. when walking frm parade square to class early in the morning... haiz.. shudnt frens help each other when they are in need? share everything together? not leave them in a ditch when they really need u most.. not taking advantage of them.. ish.. not backstabbing them.. shit larh..wth..

get back to reality man.. i shud be doing my hw..NOW! instead of blogging. actually i still have alot to say.. but wth.. longs posts are boring.. so no need to read again..
chiao ppl.

Saturday, August 12, 2006

i miss band!! terribly!! i wish the sec4s can come back and play together like last time.. i think the band sound really bad.. haiz.. how to maintain the silver we got last syf? gosh.. i dont wanna think about it. know wat.. i wanna sign up for the saf military band. :) aft o's lah. ahaah.. big ambitions but i'm gonna go for it.. dont care lah.. can get salary some more! and alot of guys..:)) hehehe.. doing wat i love most and get $$ plus the experience to perform internationally.. which musician doesnt want!!
and i'm hating the stupid sg idol lah.. so crappy!!!!! i mean come on lah open ur ears can?? ppl like joakim and paul shud be out lah.. but then good singers like jay and rahimah are instead the ones who got voted out! are these ppl deaf? come on lah this is a singing competition, so u shud be chosing them base on their singing abilities!! not their looks!! errgghh!! singaporeans nowadays are so stupid!
and dnt is supposed to be handed in at the end of this month!!! and i havent finish my folio!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! god help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this week have ss and hist common test with bio all the sec 4 topics this mon. hml prelims coming. five-year series with 2 compos to be completed at the end of the ndp hols which i have not finish yet..
the ndp hols i spent my time relaxing (hehe.. cant blame me.. i miss my bed) and doing dnt.. haiz.. i still have the tecnical drawing to do.. orthographic and explosion drwing!! the worst of all!!! plus i studied my bio. now left the sec4 topics which need lots of TLC frm me since the last test i did badly. and i mean really bad. eventhough i pass. but i still have my hml hw and hist to study. which is alot. plus mr leong want us to hand in the artefact by this wed. how to? when i havent finish my tecnical drawings??
this wed is 'the' day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! o level el oral... man.. i have to do well in this.. since my compre and compo is hopeless....
and seriously i cant stand the ppl in the class, irritating assholes. making fun of ppl at their own expense. they think they so big is it. they have the right to make fun of ppl? pls lah.. other ppl oso have feelings wat. cant u spare a thought for them?? and some.. wah.. talk big seh... but wat they do all is contradicting. hypocrites.
eerrgh.. enough of this.. have to cont's wif my compo..haiz.. when will this end.. i guess aft o level i think..
chiao ppl.

Saturday, August 05, 2006

this is one boring entry. warning beforehand. ohk.. ohk.. this wk totally rowks.. and i keep smiling ahahaha.. ( to ***** and he smile back at me!!hehe!!!)

hmm on mon went to watch pirates. and i'm totally addicted to the soundtrack!! omg!! anyone have the song?? i want it!!! gosh.. then emath lesson was the best this wk. of course the trail lah.. so fun even though i had to team up wif roy.. eeiihhww. but luckily it not wif shek ngai. ahaha.. my grp was the last to come back to class.. hehe.. but some of the ques kinda hard for me. then there's the sec2s ppl selling their stuff for pw. gosh.. i remembered when it was my time.. me, hiq, khai, aishah and azilah.. haiz.. all those are left with just memories.. then they sell brownies.. oh my.. its ages since i ate a brownie!! wah.. it was heaven man tasting the chocs!! i LOVE CHOCOLATES!!! hehehe.. pe was equally fun.. we did aces day workout!! ahahaha.. i was laughing my hearts out when i saw shek ngai doing it... wahahahaha....!!!!

now..i need to start studying again.. i mean continue wif my work.. chiao ppl!!

Saturday, July 29, 2006

ohh.. yeah... the week could not have been better! i've finished my artefact!! wohoo!!! of course, that, wif much scrutiny under the watchful eyes of mr leong. even soldered my circuits for me! i mean, soldering is easy wat.. but he wants to do it for me.. then ok lorh.. the next stage is to take lots of pics and finishing up the folio. man.. that's still alot of work to do..i have to re-do my exploration of ideas part again and my detailed development and finish up my production planing and evaluation. man.. that's a huge workload man.. most tests are done.. phew.. in capital letters.
but i pity bai.. u know wat.. her artefact broke!! into two!!! it happened actually on fri when mt period. me and bai when to dnt workshop and khai went to see mr poon for amath. me and bai want to take pic so bai put her artefact outside 'cos outside good lighting. then bai go and take the softball bat frm ms tan. mr pek and mr lee see me outside taking care of the things ask me to put them inside. ask me only ah? dunno how to help ah? i cant possibly leave one and take in the other one right? then bai came wif khai and the bat. go outside lah.. test and take pic. then bai ask khai to hit the artefact wif the bat while she take the pic. then khai, she dunno, she go and hit the artefact like u hit a ball. the rod broke and the switch fly off to dunno where. wah.. mr pek scream at her like what seh.. and khai felt so guilty. bai went home straight. and i went home to bring back my artefact and had lunch wif khai. khai was on the verge of crying. she felt so guilty until today oso still ask me about bai. then went back to sch for band phototaking. saw netballers. went up to bai and ask her lah.. then she say all ok oreadi. but she still look sad. b'cos sure if mr leong knows bout this.. haiz.. mr leong gonna kill her man.. hish..
then phototaking was superb. got formal band, informal, and sections.. ahaha.. fun,fun..

and.. amazingly.. on fri, i played netball wif sch uni during pe!! i forgot my pe shirt. ahaha.. sweating like hell.. eiihhww.. i went home and shower b4 coming for phototaking. hmm.. and alas! i didnt screw up my chem prac!! of course.. wif the brilliant help of mr hao pei... but only little bit here and there.. ahaha..

ok.. my migraine is getting more and more frequent.. gosh.. it'll be hard for me to concentrate on studying now. it will just come anytime like that time during higher malay lessons.. even cikgu notice that i was in pain. haiz.. but,oh.. wat do i care.. i'll go and continue study now..

"Yes, I love Allah. Allah is my fountain of Life and My Savior. Allah keeps me going day & night. Without Allah, I am no one. But with Allah, I can do everything. Allah is my strength.

chiao ppl! :)

Saturday, July 22, 2006

do i sound too saddist? hahaha.. the only good thing is.. i'm gonna finish my dnt!!!!!! wohooo!!! join the last wire and i can take pics for my folio. then can cont'd wif my folio and othe subjs. hiaz.. today i slack. didnt do a single thing. only go dnt then watch dvd and on the com. hah.. i'm gonna study aft this. even though tmr i have religious class then tuition aft that. i think i'll be scolded by andy. (why do keep getting ppl scolding me?) b'cos i didnt come to tuition the whole week. heh.. i have tests.. i couldnt cope.. so had to sacrifice tuition..

i think my time management is very bad. how.. wat to do... hah.. okay lah.. study time now..
adios suckers.
p.s. i still remember it!

-_-

this week i so moody for me.. nothing has been right. lots and lots of tests.. i think the teachers are going crazy. for bio, we keep doing the same kind of experiments. eL o level oral is coming. and i hell better buck up on my eL. physics.. hiaz.. i dont understand wat the hell mrs chan is talking about.. fleming's law, lenz law. then chem was alright, as long as its not prac. 'cos i will be in a blur but luckily hao pei and yan xiu help me. emaths.. i dont care.. since that day.. i dont give a shit to her.. watever..i'm still angry. S.s. and hist was okay.. hml is getting harder and harder. and i mean freaking hard!!

i guess not enough rest made me all edgy but the day we wore our racial harmony day clothes was the worst. firstly, its not even racial harmony day. secondly, ppl wear stupid clothes!! and i say dumb, stupid clothes!! i mean this is the racial harmony day of SINGAPORE!!! eerrghgh!! teens these days are only full of wayang. thirdly, the activity to commemorate the day was equally stupid, ask us to make tang yuan.. watever... pathetic. and ppl can go arnd.. taking pics.. hipocrites..

if u're angry by this remark, then piss off.. i dont want to be a nice gerl anymore and then aft that get bullied. its pathetic.

those i thought who were my frens were nvr there for me. but when they need my help.. wah.. keep asking me if we're frens or not. ass-hole. then when i'm in such a state, all run away. i'm a what? ***-off lah hipocites ppl!!

hell, i'm not gonna let these ppl take control of my life. no way. i'm gonna focus on my O's and hell i'm gonna go in jc. no matter wat. i dont care. watch out ppl. here i come.
adios suckers

Sunday, July 16, 2006

this week had been a very bad week. i got scolded by ms nura for not handing in my hw. ass-hole!! unreasonable, ego-eccentric! i was waiting for her to go over the ques wif me personally b'cos i had made an appointment wif her. but yet.. she sclod us until like that. ass-hole...
then i fight wif mum.. watever.. i'm not toking bout this..
then.. dnt.. mr leong say i have to re-do my base!!! i am going to finish oredi only left wif assembling the whole thing. its not that there's anything wrong wif it! then say i have to re-do again!!!! EEERRRGGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 i am ssoo angry wif thse teachers!!! damn it man!
oh i am ssooo angry!
chiao!

Sunday, July 09, 2006

polka dots.

the fifa is soon gonna be over!! no!! ok, i watched the match btw italy and germany. how they scored the goals was kinda funny. its like.. whoa confirm penalty ah.. then suddenly italy scored. then like a few secs later, they scored again. germany was dumbfounded. khai was super sad they didnt win. i and bai keep saying 'nazism!' wif the hand sign. ahahaha.. i am ssoo gonna watch the finals man!
surprisingly cikgu didnt ask for the hml hw. ahaha, i think she guessed it. we didnt finish it. untill now. ahaha.. hey, its hard ok.. i dont understand the ques. watever. there's more and more hw everyday. its getting more and more stressful. hiaz..
yesterday, went for dnt.. i am ssoo gonna finsh this as fast as i can. seriously its taking lots of my time! then, went to lunch wif aisyah at bdk mac. then on the way saw wanshi, idy, stacey, xinyi, jyngle and some other band mbmrs (gerls) playing basketball. went to mac saw jk. aisyah saw him first then we slowly came up to him and sit beside him. he didnt noticed for like 30 secs.. then he looked up and saw us. his expression was ssoo funny. eh.. dont scare me leh.. did we scare u jk? ahahaha.. u were so engrossed in ur work. then we eat wif them.. rizal came, alif, ling mei and yong liang. all study together lah.. so good rite.. ahaha.. i know, i know...
alif told me that an alumni band is in the planning.. yay!! when i saw the mbmbrs list.. i was like who the hell are these ppl?? like duh.. my ex-seniors.. whom i didnt know existed. ahahaha.. i really hope it can be formed.. yay!!
ok lah.. need to go..
chiao.

Saturday, July 01, 2006

boring

tell u this.. my life is ssoo freaking boring!!everyday.. go to sch..aft sch.. in dnt workshop or its higher ml classes.. haiz..
the starting of sch week was really pathetic b'cos i was really sleepy in class... ahaha..not used to it yet.. but the time table changed and change classes too.. which is great b'cos its kinda near the canteen and no need to climb the stairs.. ahaha lazy me.
tuition was getting more hectic as i had to come almost everyday to revise sec 3 topics. watever lah i dont mind being tired. hml classes was really funny..b'cos i asked a really stupid ques and the whole class laughed at me..untill bai and khai was still at it the next day. but nvm lah.. sumtimes i can be soo dumb and blur.
on tues was aisyah's b'day and i tried to give her a surprise but she already know.. i went to buy the cake straight aft sch wif jen kean, jia hao and solomon. but then, when we came back frm sch, she saw us and the cake. man! haiya.. but i just act cool and keep it in one of the canteen vendor's refrigerator. then i went for my dnt and aft band make her wet again. i splash lots of water! ahaha.. sang her a b'day song and cut the cake. she is ssoo lucky. at least she knows, the ppl ard her appreciate her alot. haiz..
ok lah.. that's about my boring routine..i wanna sleep. chiao.

Saturday, June 24, 2006

-_-

at last i finished my hw!!! muahahaha!!! so happy!! but i'm trying to do some revision. hah, forcing myself!! but staying at home is soo boring. but need to study..study..study..
haiz, o levels.. i dont seem to be able to finish my dnt.. which is getting on my nerves..!!
do 1 single thing wrong and u have to do it again. mr leong p.m.s the whole workshop week. and shek ngai went sick i mean as in lost control. pity him though.. i think all of us going bonkers inside without ppl knowing it really..
heh seriously.. i must get things in my head straight. if not, my conscience will be hurting me and i wont be able to face them.. i hate this feeling. but cant control it..i mean.. it comes naturally. but i feel like i'm backstabbing her. how could i do this to my own fren? how evil of me? i must get rid of this feelings and repent. seriously..i must.
oh.. and i'm soo outdated. i'm finally getting into the fifa mood. and i watched a match! i mean the whole match. frm begining till the end!! wow. amazing. and it was quite syiok ah! ahaha.. gol!! when that word becomes reality.. wow.. amazing man..
lols.. i'll blog again if i have time. sch opening soon doubt i'll have time to surf the net..
chiao.. bye.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

i wish i was a punk rocker

love this song! sandi thoms's vocals is great! notice how she can sing without music at all? but listen ti the lyrics. kinda like a social/cultural commentary. but its nice any way! ahahaha..

ok.. the photos for the bhf are up.. but there still lots lots lots more so i cant possibly upload all of them here rite..

the first pic, of the whole band, the BIG family, aft bhf, in front of the sea. the scene infront of us was totally beautifully. can c me? aiyah my face very small. on the left side, beside the coast guard yellow box. ahaha..
next, me wif percussion sect and the tubas. can c my drumstick? i doubt so.
next, the BIG BOOM BOOM band!! ahaha..
next,damai windz in action! ahahaha...
next, jen, twisting balloons.
next, jia hao pumping balloons.
next, zahidah twisting balloons.
next, me wif the percussions gerls! ahahaha
next, me wif mel, resting. notice the bruise on my leg? ahaha..
next, the sec 4 gals, alif, mr wong and ex-seniors. still in sch canteen, b4 bhf
ok, back to my current pathetic state..
the last few weeks had been a blur as i rushed through my hw, trying to finish it and making my artefact in the workshop. ok, daylight was spent sloughing off my butt at the workshop and the nites was spent by cracking my head doing hw and folio. ergh! i think i'm gonna be sick soon. 'cos many ppl had gone off overseas holidaying while i'm stuck here. :((
stuck
stuck
stuck
and i still havent finish my hw!! not to mention revision!! gosh! the first week of june hols is gone wif extended prog and band pracs everyday... haiz.. then second week i went out wif band mbms, shopping and do folio. and not forgetting band tune-in. then third and fourth week is for dnt workshop. next week having sect outing wif nad. cant wait. miss the times we were together!

i will not call this a holiday!! sombody help me get out of this mess!!! eerrgghh!! :(:(:(

Friday, June 16, 2006

the bhf pics. but still have lots of them. i'll blog tmr. shamil want to use com. my freaking bro! irritatating!!!








Sunday, June 11, 2006

lazy to blog
the tune-in wif acjc was totally great.
but they play very chim pieces so i want to side read their pieces
oso very hard. feel like my eyes want to pop out
looking at the scores. my head is spining frm all
the notes conversion..
hhmm.. muz prac more on minor scales and impose notes
and improve on my freaking rythms!!!
then got this kids central guy. wen long.
at first tot he looked freaking familiar
then i juz ok, watever loh..
then it struck me eh, he's the kids central guy hor!
lol, i'm so slow. but i salute all of them.
they are great musicians.
the ppl there are very friendly.
so ok lah. went wif jen kean, shi ying and luqman.
they say, their playing was terrible!
the songs we played,
gelato con caffe,
turnadot,
mission impossible,
huntchback of Notre dame
and 1 japanese song.
lols, i need to go tuition now.
I'll blog later..
chiao.

Sunday, June 04, 2006

arms disattached

AAARRGGGHH!!!!! ahahaha... still so high since yesterday.. balloon hat was so fun! playing precussion was so funny! esp asri.. he's so nuts... but i got all bruises frm my tom- toms! and my arms hurt alot! i think i not enough warm up.. eerrgh! ugly blue blacks all over my shin! :( and i made my hair into a big pile of mess... man.. corn rose!! can u imagine me having a hairstyle like that?? took 1 hr to tie it! thanks to farah! she tied it for me! then they spray pink colour hair spray and lots of glitters on my head!! ang mo kio sec came late.. super late and the whole lot of us had to wait for them! *angry!*angry!!! i made butterflies for the balloon hat for percussion but it was super hot. i was sweating to my skin man! the shirt was quite nice. thumbs up to jygle, amanda and wanshi! even though didnt win anything, we had ssoo much fun. the last perf for sec 4s.. i actually broke down! how could i? i practically need tissues to blow my nose and wipe my tears. but my sect were really sweet. aft the perf we played the songs again and 'its my life' sang by bon jovi. ahaha, i borrow the sec1 eupho and play the song. it was so nice, playing by the beach. the ex-seniors came and took alot of pics of us. aft that went to eat at long john wif my sect and tumpet sect. but wat seh.. wasted lah. la la la didnt follow his sect! if not aisyah can confess to him. but at last she confess to wanshi.. ahaha.

i just found out our band is sssooo full of love! i found out that there are more ppl keeping crushes in band..:)) love is in the air!! wohoo!! but i wont say anything lah..if not i'm sure they will be embarassed rite so dont u ppl worry, i will keep my mouth shut.

later got pic of the bhf, i will post it here.

life sucks. i've promised myself i will nvr betray my frens. so i will nvr. esp when they are so close to u. but when u like the person and she oso like that person. its a stupid love triangle. thats freaking stupid lah. more stupid when the guy actually like u and not ur fren! but i will not say anything bout that. i'll support her till the end no matter wat. eerrgh.. first its H***** then its Z**** then now.. eerrgghh.. life suck. i hate myself. it really hurts alot. but i'll heal it myself.

i will miss my eupho. but now is o levels time.
chiao.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

no future

i'm so busy..even aft the exams! doing my dnt lah.. haiz.. my new idea is ssoo crapy!!! oh god, pls help me!! the electronics used is freaking basic.. I HATE MY NEW IDEA!!!! damn it man!! i've given up on the old idea b'cos of the electronics being too complicated. haiz...

now is the only time i get to update my blog.. aft ages.. ok, i'm gonna write a long one!! just now went to bugis wif nadine, pei yun and wei jie, buy electronic stuff.. i c their projects like so cool like that.. then mine is ssoo crappy.. haiz.. bleah.. dnt occupies alot of my time this june hols.. obviously no slacking for me now. receiving my midyear results was so despressing, helo, girl!! reality check here!!! haiz.. welcum to the reality..slacking this half of the year when you are taking your o levels this year!!! gosh.. i really need to buck up man..

mum and cik sham is forcing me again! i must go to jc, jc, jc!!!! that's all that they are thinking about! 'u better work hard and stop wif ur band stuff! if u cant even go to poly and ended up in ite.. u better watch out! ur sis oredi get to grad frm poly... that's good u know..bla.. bla..bla..!!!!' why must they compare me wif sis?? if its so good, why hasnt she got a uni admission?? huh, why huh? i wonder..and why do you always blame my band?? why? this is wat i like to do! play music!! i love music! why cant you be like any other parents and encourage them? u dont even go to any of my performances before and even disallowed me to go! and if u like to compare sis wif me so much, by the way, her cca was horticulture club!! it gardening!! it is so different frm band so dont u compare it!! now u are disallowing me frm performing the last performance wif damai windz! it is so important to me!! the balloon hat festival is once in a year event in singapore, u know! in singapore! our band was even featured in tv mobile ok! EEERRGGHH!! its not that i didnt study wat! i did study to my best effort!! dont they know wat i'm feeling know? why cant they just understand me?? is it ssoo hard?

i do know they have a reason why they want me to go jc. not their fault. i just wish my family has more money so that i can go to my choice course. poor ppl like me will always stuck in this poverty cycle. i wish dad will get a job and realise that he's making my life miserable! sumtimes.. i tot of just quiting skool and just work. :( (and move out of the house!)

when i go to band, i get to forget all my probs...just play music. so syiok! sum more now step down oredi.. but i think my sec ones dont like me. i think its b'cos i scold them alot. hhmmpphh! they do mistakes i correct them! this is called training!! next year oredi syf! must get gold! haiz.. i guess, they dont understand it now. when they have bcome a senior then they will know wat i feel.

that's it lah.. later if write sum more ppl will get bored of me. chiao.

Sunday, April 30, 2006

not in the best of moods

not in the best of moods today. went to johor and i really dont know wat to say about these malaysians. i mean when they see me, they'll be like oh...u'r singaporean right? like i have a poster pasted on my back saying that i'm singaporean. its not that i'm not proud to be a singaporean, but they will have this look on me and start babbling in english like i dont understand a single word of malay!! eerrgghh.. they think the malays in singapore are so stupid in malay language! and the guys are so tappered!! eerrgghh!!! the girls like dont know how to wear their scrafs and the toilets are the worst. do not speak of that disgusting, feaces infested place!! eerrgghh!!

the exams are coming and i'm not studying... i wonder how i will survive this exam.. i want to study oso cant, getting sick during this period!!! aaarrggh!!! this nose wont stop sneezing and my throat feels like burning! darn.. i keep eating and eating especially chocolates. and i dont understand why some ppl are so full of themselves and keep critizing ppl! like they are so good like that! oi! go and buy a big mirror and look urself in the mirror lah before u say other ppl! and its my freaking business lah i want to write wat in my blog or anywhere i want! does it concern u? no right? then shut the freaking up lah!! stupid!! this is my blog wat, my business lah i want to post wat wheather it boring, lame, or irritating, IT IS MY FREAKING BUSINESS!!!

just shut up. i miss band terribly. just, just shut up. i need to study social studies now.

Saturday, April 15, 2006

yo!!! i've changed the skin at last!!! yay!! and i've tagged bathi and kelvin.. waliao.. u ppl very the lame one hor, wat u wrote in ur blogs.. nevertheless.. entertained me hehehe..ok.. i tink better start mugging.. got higher malay exams on mon !!!!! aarrgghhh!!!! help me.. i' barely hanging on...oh... ahahaaha...
guys... flood my taggie board.. entertain me pls..
ta.. chocolates.. i need it.. chiao..

Thursday, April 13, 2006

gosh..

i'm totally in a confusion...total confusion. so many emotions going through me right now. saddness, happy, angry, gulit.. haiz.. dunno lah.. but mostly sadness..

it happened on tues... the last band prac for the sec fours... Uwah!!! i wanna cry!!! it was the saddest band prac. we could not start our prac as usual cos of the oral in the hall. so we do breathing execises and listen to band songs trying to decide wat song to play for syf. then we do drills. hahaha.. sec fours no need to march. we train them. but seriously, their marching neeed ALOT of improvements. then when going back to music room, all the sec fours from behind the science block we march all the way to the area near parade square... ahahaha... then we all play all the old songs in the band store while the rest prac in the music room. but alot of the sec fours didnt attend this prac. waliao.. wat seh.. should spend the last days together lah.. then when assmbling time.. my sect juniors cried.. many ppl cried... :) i was ssoo touched.. but i only cried little bit only... but i tell myself dont cry..must not cry.. then we played a little trick on the juniors... hahaha.. made them do 70 push ups together... ahhaha.. then band dismissed and we took photos.. oh.. it was ssoo sad... aft all these yrs together.. now we will be seperated... uwah!!! i will miss u guys!!! but still got balloon hat festival to perform.. the last performance in june. must take lots of pics!
then aft that went to tuition without going home.. wah.. i ssoo tired... i didnt even studied for bio prac exam for the next day... haiz..
then aisyah called me and tell me those two things ah bout trumpet sect.. i was ssooo freaking shocked... super shocked!! i didnt know wat to say. but i know aisyah felt really sad. i understand how she feels. but u have to carry on wif your life right?
i realise that i'm losing many things. i'll lose my hse; my parents wanna sell it. but i dun want and they should know why. i will not see some of my frens aft o's cos they migrating.. so sad.. then i'll be leaving the band.. gosh.. i must be strong..
##*%&$($)*(@ ^& then school is so depressing.. o's coming. so much to do so little time. exams coming... haiz.. i must be strong!!

Sunday, April 02, 2006

dots

oh my.. so much been happening.. so, so much. dunno where to start man..
ok.. studies first...my dnt at last i have got an idea. but its very hard to make the artefact b'cos of the technology. so, i'm still struggling wif it man.. damn.. my hml exams is coming and cikgu says it will be very hard. oh gosh.. i need to start studying for midyr man.. tests coming in almost everyday. so sick of it, but wat can i do.. must work harder for o levels sake.

this week the whole week had been only band.. band.. band.. mon, tues, thurs and fri all band prac.. haiz, preparing for speech day, then have to wear ethnic costume..haha, i wear ghangara. indian dress, my traditional clothes.. ahaha. first time seh.. then alif say i'm kajol sesat..?? the speech day was funnny b'cos it falls on 1 april and the leaders played a prank on us. a lame one that is.. ahahaha.. the committee for next year had been finalised.. i'll be waiting for the promotion day.. i tink the day will be a happy day.. hehehe. cant wait to step down aft all these yrs in band.. at last i'll be an ex-senior. i just hope i wont cry.. i'll be so sad to leave them. so many memories together, sad and happy ones..haiz..

hahaha.. ok, i tink rite, there will be another couple in our band.. ahahaha... so funny. wont say anything..ahahaha...but it was super shock and glee for me.. i was laughing all the way man.. (at them)

oh gosh..everynight i'm sleeping late..dark eye circles are forming under my eyes. AARRGGHH!!! ahahaha.. ok lah.. got to do my dnt..
ta.

Saturday, March 25, 2006

a'huh

ok.. at last i managed to finish up my hol hw. lucky me. got back my results for term 1 and i was quite disappointed ah.. man.. my marks are ssoo average.. and my higher malay marks is ssoo frightening.. gosh.. i must buck up!!! on mon went to st pat's concert at esplanade and it was ssoo cool man!!! we sat right in front of the stage and i c alot of (CUTE) guys!!!!!!!! oh my god!!!! my gerlfrens we're all screaming their heads off!!!! and the primary school band were ssooo cute too!!! as in chubby!!! aaarrrgghh!!! i feel like pinching their cheeks!!!! the st pat's band played ssooo well.. i feel ssooo ashamed of our schooll band. and sometimes.. being a senior in the band is ssooo sucky.. and favourtism still thrives.. stupid isnt is?? stupid. :( :(
haiz.. dat's all i guess.. i still need to study hist. test on mon. aaarrrgghhh!!!!! bye! :)

Saturday, March 11, 2006

tet..


this is sssooo stupid! this blog website is in chinese!!!! ???? fortunately i can go in. clicking by memory... stupid. AARRRGGHHH!!!! seriously i'm in a big bad mood. aaarrgghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! i dunno where to start... haiz...

its been ages since i've blogged. my saturdays are now spent mugging. no rests at all. mug. mug mug. practically i have no rest. its making me crazy. crazy.crazy. edhaiz...nvm... i'll look at it on the bright side.. i wont give up, for o levels sake. o levels. o levels.

i found out that many ppl want to go to acj. i tot i'm the few ppl who wanted to go there but in fact..., many ppl are competing to go there. the competition is stiff. i dont know if i even can qualify for jc anot. if i dont go.. cik sham will b ssoo disappointed wif me...darn..watever..

the last week of sch for this term was ssoo sucky.. i didnt complete my hw at all. all anyhow done. every lessons is such a bore for me.. my eyes keep dropping. i feel soo tired. i just wanna sleep... sleep... haiz... my tests marks was ssoo average..while i saw my classmates tests results was ssoo much more better than mine. most of them got like 20 something/25 !!! this suck. totally. hu ha!! "i'm ssoo over the clouds!!!" great totally!! then the teachers gave us ssoo much hw...i'm crying over this... pls some one help mee!!!!! how am i supposed to finish it? how? how? how? dont they c that we have abt 7 subjts to revise and we have to complete the hw in 7 days in which these includes our time for remedial classes, cca, tuition, time for ourselves, family and frens??? dont they ever tot of this?? (and this stupid radio i'm listening to is making my ears bleed by playing techno songs!!! eehhww...) i know i'm not the only one experiencing this, other student are also having this.. haiz..student life....

oh yes.. did i mention abt frens just now?? ohk.. watevr...these days.. in sch i feel ssoo alone... alone, all by myself...those whom i tot were my frens are actually.. haiz..they treat me like... haiz..i feel ssoo slenger ah...terhegeh-hegeh kat org yg tak nak diri nie.. pathetic me... that time i was going wif them..(i wont say who) they actually left first and didnt tell me..!! they just went off!! for eg, u and ur grp of frens going to eat together but then u go toilet then suddenly u come back u found out that they had left u when u all had promised to go out together!! how'd u feel?? then they just say oh sorry eh.. i forgot all abt u..how could u forget bout me.. am i that unimportant???? i feel so unappreciated man!! then aft that, one of them said, eh shaheera, u are not invited ah...u go away can?? i was like cursing i my heart. and crying. i cant tahan them, i tot they are my frens but oh...i'm again wrong.. they are not...there are other incidents which is too long for me to type. haiz... the frens that i have cherished since lower sec life is crumpling.. hiq, aishah, khai, azilah...all, gone.. hiq is going away wif nat and jannah. aishah j. always wif kamilah.azilah and khai used to hate each other so much but they are now like best frens. and me?? stuck in the middle. middle of where? i donno, middle of nowhere, i guess. how i really wish we could be together again like last time. i can still remember our trip to wild wild wet..it was wild!! haha..but i guess that would only be dream.. at least i still have my band frens. aishah s. , mu en, my juniors, all of the band members, my band. my refuge. and not forgetting my longest bestest best fren, farah. always there for me..haiz...

i have nowhere to vent my anger on. at least here, none of my family members knows bout my blog so they dont report anything to my mum. if mum knows bout any of the things i write i my blog, she sure go crazy. on wed i'm going field trip to bintan and they are ssoo worried. do u have toothpaste? insect repellent? at night u dont go out alone ohk.. bla bla bla.... i'm just going for 3 days and 2 nites. this is ssoo sufocating..eerrgghh!! liking english songs also is a crime..stupid. she says i dont know old evergreen songs, so nice yet i dont know. but like stupid, vulgar songs like eminem songs... hey come on lah.. the olds songs are ssoo dragy and the lyrics unrelevent on today's issues. look at eminem's songs... ssoo much diff... it potrays wat we are feeling.. she simply do not understand me. these few days i keep fighting wif her. she still treat me like her little gerl...i'm 16 for heaven's sake!!!

i dunno when she will realise that this little gerl of hers had grown up...! this is really stupid. i guess i need to eat lots of chocolates to make me happy.. hu ha! haiz..ta.

Sunday, February 26, 2006

:)

hoho, i'm feeling... urm... light headed...? in a daze? ok watever... so long nvr blogged. oh well i have no time to go nenek hse to use the com. luckily got miss farah ashlina bte aku tak tau name bapak die..... who let me cum her hse and use the com. if not my work will not b finished... haiz.. and she's looking at me now.. :-)
stupid teachers is giiving us more and more of their stupid hw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! plus dnt folio, andy's tuition, to revise other subjects, band and religious classes. tis is making me mad. going mad. i can feel the competition frm my classmates. most of them are ssooo clever... they want to go jc obviously. so i must step up to it. and mum says i'm ssoo happy go lucky! stupid rite?? i'm just trying to relaks ah!! i'm not like kak that like to stress herself up. comparing me again. it nvr ends!!!
oh yes, i have announcement to make.!!!! i'm out of tuft club!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! heeppii i can eat and eat!!!!!!!!!!! ahahaha....the balloon hat festival damai is participating!! yay, ssoo excited!!! then, my mt o level results came out and me and baizura got an A1!!!!!!! ahahaha!!!!! i was going crazy that day ah. ok that's all..

just trying to make myself hppi!! yay!!! hu ha!! ta!

Sunday, February 05, 2006

dnt

this week was soo relaxing. i only came to school for 2days, thurs and fri. wed i didnt come to school. to weak. i was coughing all the way in higher malay classes. thurs was the same. and i didnt go tuition. fri performance. lunch time concert and chinese new year dinner. which i tink is ssoo crappy. the gimmick was stupid. and embarassing. like the ah peks and nyonyas know about band music. i doubt so. the whole thing was stupid enuf and when i come home, mum start her siren on me.%(*%*)*^$YFRO^%#%#EO^*$!!!!!!! stupid. i feel ssoo lazy to do anything. and i keep falling asleep. the stupid medicines made me ssoo sleepy. and i'm still stuck wif dnt. i havent study for my hist and chem tests neither have i done any hw. i dont know wats happening to me. i just broke down. i cant carry on. i'm too tired. real freaking tired. need a really long rest but i cant. my o level mt results coming out next week fri. that's wat i heard. not sure if it true. watever. i need to research on dnt. duh. bye.

Monday, January 30, 2006

watever

oh.. i am practically a walking zombie. i keep falling sick. i dunno why. i have alot af things to do but i cant do it b'cos i'm sick. alah.. the common illness kind... fever, cough, sore throat and migraine. but it drags on for days. makes me feel so blue. u wouldnt want to hear my voice now. its awful!! i need to carry on wif my hw and my dnt and revision but i havent even finished one. but start oredi ah.. stupid. the teachers gave us so many hw. and i'm stuck wif my dnt. i feel sooo pathetic.
pathetic
pathetic
pathetic me.
and having not enuf money is so freaking pathetic. and then ur family becomes ssooo shitty just b'cos of that! ah.. watever. i'll just keep it myself.

i just feel so melancholic!!! aaarrgghhh!!!

Saturday, January 21, 2006

hehe

hoho.. its been sssooo long since i've blogged. i've been ssooo busy. sec4 life is making me crazy. but on the other hand.. i feel good to be a sec 4. ahaha.
the school opened and i was shocked by the fact that ms shawa didnt take us as form teacher anymore..sad.. sad.. she ssoo can understand me. but now she's not my teacher anymore.. mr jake tan taks us.
haiz.. and mr tan is so mean. our hml lessons clash wif our study hour and he told us to solve it ouselves. i mean he didnt say like that ah, but indirectly he said that. man.. so irresponsible...ggrrr!!! the class comm change.. the management stay but welfare shek ngai take over and chair, v.chair peiyan and roy take... darn.. not nice at all.. why roy and shek ngai?? eeiiiww!! eerrhh.. so frustrated!! then the hwk load is terrible!!!! tests... everyday... almost!!! then aft school, hml lessons, getting worser!!!! the ministry of education is crazy man!! they changed the syllabus!!! AARRGGHH!!! the compre and summary is ssoo hard enuf and they changed it to make it harder??? crazy ppl.. then band is as usual. haiz... going to have a concert. but i donno if i can cope wif o level coming..haiz.. the worst is... my hml calsses clash wif my study hours... stupid ah! arse hole!! then i missed alot of the lessons... haiz.. donno how i will catch up ah.. stupid..
mr tan dont want to help... even ask cikgu for letter saying we go hml. stupid. me, khai, bai and iylia tot of asking cikgu nor to teach us hml so that we can miss one of the two days to go to our study hour. but c first ah.. that is if cikgu nor is willing to teach us..
i've been sleeping late. tuition almost everyday...haiz.. need to revise the sec 3 work. i donno if my body is able to tahan. but my strength will keep me. i do all this for mum. i dont want to go to jc. but i have to. i understand.

tuition was better without marc. but something's happened. and i'm feeling real bad bout it. darn. and i donno wat to do. shit. wateva larh.

my bio, phy, chem, dnt, ss tests... all next week and i havent even start studying, my hw is not even done... haiz.. how?? i will do it larh..
chio. i'm really beat. need to do hw...

Monday, January 02, 2006

ahora!! haha, actualy i'm making myself happy... my head is hurting real lot and i'm not sure if i can go to school tomoro.

i tink the cause for this whole migraine thingy is b'cos of band larh.. man.. the preparation for the sec 1 orientation had been real hectic for me... i'v got to do loads of things in band... and the probs in band is making me go crazy... haiz... last week had maintainence and it was a wreck!! only me and ama were present to clean all the 7 euphos! and only solomon was present oto clean all 8 tubas!! how to finish the whole thing?? we still had to clean our cupboards and the committee cupboards... the basses sect didnt go for lunch... we continued wif our cleaning. then aft luch the trombs came to helps us and see soon come at last... luckily they are there to help us even though they mess things up a little bit as they didnt know how to handle the eupho. and it was kind of irritating... the valves keep being stuck and terrence checked my eupho inside out!! he didnt leave anything behind that he didnt check. the slides, springs, valves, bell, practically everything... dran.. but i passed!! haha!!
then the next day was com meeting. i was late. haiz... bad impresion... but it was good.. i told the com bout all the probs in band... felt so great to let it all out. but jen keep emphasizing that the com membs are also leaders in the band. and i was like... hahaha.. yarh.. but didnt act like leaders at all.. duh.. then played some songs wif the ex seniors... till quite late ah..lols.. untill kena kick out by ms lee... hehehe..
the next day.. in the middle of the band prac, we had to run in the parade square, training...bleh.. i tink that's not training.. that's threatening... real training, would be like really torture us.i wasnt really ticked off by the 'training'. aft band... the band i mean almost the whole band; except the basses and trumpet sect, had to do alot af punishments. the leaders could not be there so luqman lead. but they were not scared at all. they were laughing when they were doing there punishments!! i had to scream at them then they shut up. man.. these ppl doesnt understand the word punishment!!

i'm ssooo sick.. been puking the whole nite.. migraine.. stupid.. wanna go for a jog oso cant, i scared i'll puke while jogging.. dran.. ok bye..

Sunday, January 01, 2006

migraine!!

oh my god.. i'm feeling ssoo sick now.. this migraine is killing me!! school is starting real soon and here i am, feeling sick... gosh..

but i'm feeling better.. haha.. thanks to this ammerland band song.. really soothing...the next band prac, for sure i will test my tone quality with that song.. lalala.. but band is becoming crazier..seriously..

gosh.. i dont know where to start.. and i cant tahan my migraine..
i tink i need to rest..
chiao. i'll update later..