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this blog is still breathing. definitely of course, i do not have any intentions to delete this blog. too precious.. my life's secrets are here. kekekeke.

finally got out of the acne problem. sigh. it was bad. and i mean bad. and painfull. even without touching my face. and school? nah. dont talk abt it. im not sure how im going to survive. oh well, im going to fret abt this when the time comes. and i thought of trying again for ntu or nus.. which i totally do not have confidence in. BUT i believe in trying. SOMEONE CONVINCE ME I CAN AND HAVE THE ABILITY TO ENTER NTU OR NUS. *sighs* (inner conflict here)

work work work. yeah what else? oh! finally got myself into mengaji class again. damn my reading is so bad. gawd! its embarrassing. and Arab class will be put on hold 'cos its too expensive. driving too. (even though cik sham wants to pay for it.. NO! since she mentioned that i didnt pitch in to help and pay for the household expenses (its not like i earn $1000 plus okay and i still have to support my mum, dad, grandma, shamil, and myself too) so.. i figured out if she pay for my driving lessons she'll ungkit it in the future.. which i absolutely do not want to happen) money money money, even families can break up because of it. sad truth.

oh ac class reunion was AWESOME. yeah we bbq-ed in the rain. hahaha. i miss them la. the kecoh-ness. haha.

okays, will blog,

chiao.

college life

i can only say my prayers for you.

on the other hand, i can see how school gonna take over my life. the modules are getting tougher, and not to mention assignments. sigh. plus my overwhelming lazy-ness and inability to concentrate even for 1 hour to sit down and squeeeeeeze those brain juices. sigh. tests are looming fast into my face too.
screw my oh-so-conducive-study environment. pfffttt.

work hard? unf, idk, i'm motivated-less as for now.

stage 2 will definitely be much more challenging than this.

chiao.

sleep

i should really correct my sleeping patterns. geez.

if not...

hahaha. okay so random. whatever.

chiao.

i cant wait for 19th! minho, get well nowww^^

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

i just had to man.. i just have to...

yesterday i felt mnduytgadckjqwitdyghadnsal!!!

today NBVHFRTYGUJHGFCXFSRTDYFGUHJK!!!

yeah.

wanna spam again with moreee~~~~ 

ok, i'll stop here.

its good to be a shawol.

HUK! TMR BTT! ORH MAI GAWD!

chiao.

sigh

have you felt like you're not doing enough? like there's a lack somewhere...?

this week at a glance...

tuesday: proj research for MCS and macro- which isnt going anywhere.. loads and loads of review paper, consultation papers and newspaper reports to read.
and i havent even attempt to draft out my report for MCS grp work.
MCS pair work also not moving. there seems to be always something that i need to edit and change. like theres always something not right. and its always not good enough. sigh.

tutiton- ahh.. havent buy that minah's science assessment book.

wednesday: dieee~~~ proj meeting!

thursday: breakfast date with divi! :) pairwork proj meeting. hopefully we dont digress. sheesh. theres more to life than kpop.

friday: JB? i dont know.. so many things to do but i still bother going to JB? well.. if i dont, mummy will be upset that i didnt accompany her.

sigh.
saturday: madrasah. OH NO. i havent do my homework. meet up with sehaaa :)

sunday: madrasah again. how many of these classes do i have? ehehhh~~ :D only 2.

conclusion: i better manage my time properly. stop youtubing. and work harder la makcik! TT.TT

anything luh

wow. schools in. busy. busy. busy. but projects are not in yet. i wonder who my group members will be. hopefully they arent some bitch or something alike.

anyways, saw a heroic act yesterday. a worm being saved. man.. that dude is totally saves the day. wed.. went to jb at 10pm. hoho.. reached home at 3am. awesome huh. tues, watched chipmunk with taec. heheeeee and embarassed ourselves. aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~ T.T 2 times in a row! oh gosh. seriously.

*looks at the time. OMG. I AM SO LATE FOR SCHOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL..............


chiao.

back

its been ages yeah.

oh well. exams are well over and i'm well enjoying my holidays. Results are out too. what can i say? not up to expectations definitely. ESPECIALLY ACCOUNTING. ergh. *rolls eyes. $1k down the drain. sigh. next sem will be more challenging. considering theres modules like law and macroecons. T.T plus! projects. i wonder who will be my group mates. this sem group mates are awesome. ^^

hiq's back. :))) ft island is coming BUT yeah, i cant go. &TUTFUYTE$%^&*456890$^%&*(!!!!

zhong's birthday party was good. his family was really warm. :D glad that the 3 of us can get along till now.

thats abt it i guess.

heres t the end of my holiday. work tomorrow. SIGH~~~

chiao.

<3 them.
and khun's definitely more then just an eye candy.

chiao.

the flower

to become beautiful, you must endure pain.
to become perfect, you must hold in sadness.
where is the flower which blooms without getting soaked by the pouring rain?

i hate it when someone's words made an impact on me, esp when that person is someone who doesnt know how significant he is. oh well. ok, lets move on in life.

major projects are finally over. only left with the role play project which i have to act. oh my. and exams, which i am supposed to study. haha. whatever. absolutely no mood.

love, sincerity. give me a chance to learn about it.

meltingggggggggggggggggggggggg

LEE MIN HO. ah.

die la. thats it. melt. melt. melt.

chiao.

lunch buddy. where are you?

overdued photos. oreo cheesecake and sheperd's pie.

weekends are making me fatfatfat. i just baked chewy sticky brownies which is super duper uber easy.

hhmm, work tomorrow. i really could do with a lunch buddy man.

chiao.

haute couture not yet

exactly 20 days before my battle begins. come on, i can do this.

baccalaurate day. damn sad. the last. i've never regretted choosing ac. and i miss ac band so badly now. :(

but damn happy because i completed 2 chap of math and 2 lit essays. yay! oh oh, i cant wait for farewell next week! theme-haute couture. haha, i'm gonna wear pyjamas with slippers. hahaha.


Ken Hirai-Hitomi Wo Tojite

eh, i realise all my fav songs mv ends with the heroine dying. and the hero grieving over her death. aiyo.

ah, i wanna play this song. duet with my section mates. and hear the eupho sound. sigh.

chiao.

boreddddd

today, i finally did something fruitful! like cleaning out my room. yes! and did some researching for gp. haha and read. halfway through khaled hosseini's book. ah, it pulled my heart strings. like ouchhh. yup, and tomorrow baking galore! wwwwwweeeeeeee. and movie date. egg-citing!
but i'm still bored stiff i can faint. better sleep early, need to wake up early tomorrow! wweeee.

Blessed is He in Whose hand is the kingdom, and He Who has power over all things,who created death and life that He may try you.

let go of it. slowly. and time will heal. i'm sorry for all the bitterness. i just cant help it.

chiao.

porridge no more.

butterscotch marshmallow blondie. :) heh, looks heavenly.

i am so gonna make this.

coolness. and if it tastes nice, can sell.

haha.

oh, jason mraz prettiest friend is aww oh so so so sweet.

its porridge and medicine and porridge and medicine and porridge and medicine.

it goes on.

random.

nobody is gonna understand this post. so dont bother to try ok.

how you're feeling? f***** up. yes, feeling really bitter now. why? let me keep it to myself.

after being manipulated so many time, yet and again, i shall never trust anybody anymore.

now i understand the saying- 'actions speaks louder than words.' truly understand it.

school again tmr. i am dreading it. weekend was bad, i lost concentration, nothing's done except my hw. my econs is in shambles.

let me just scream.

oh i just remembered my surgery is next week. i dont want to go through all the blood, needles, scapels, scissors and the operating table again. god help me. and sibf. omg.

i think i'm going serious with my cake shop. i want to make something out of my life. even if its through baking.

my only motivation for A's is the promise from aunt that she'll sponsor my trip to mecca to do my pilmirage. and my cooking lessons so that i can start my shop. i am a happy girl on that account.

i shall continue with math. till tmr morning.

DJ Ironik-Stay with me.

the lyrics is kinda touching.

countdown

back to school in like a few hours time. 14 days to concert. exactly 50 days to prelims.
are we ready? am i ready? hell, no. yeah no.

so many things going on in my mind. sometimes its really too overwhelming that i find it hard to articulate my thoughts here. but i'm an arts student, shouldnt i be able to do it relatively well? well, the thing is, i cant. yeah i cant.

watched the movie osama and it made me tear to see how children on the other side of the world are suffering. and nothing can be done to help them. to see so many people dying because of some totalitarian regime claiming that they are operating based on islamic laws. a load of bullshit. how organized syndicates are actually touching our lives without us realising it. how unenforced labour laws are actually helping us to get what we want on our shopping list. like the latest levi jeans. the current global food crisis, the latest typhoon hitting philippines, inflation rates skyrocketing. so much calamities going around. how can i possibly sit around and watch.

well, the world doesnt revolve around us only.

after this holidays or maybe not for me, i've resolved to become a pschyo mugger toad. (i'm mad..) fatigue will not bother me anymore. nothing else will. i just have to conquer this exam. make or break. 50 more days! i'm so angry with myself because i've failed to finish what i was supposed to during this holiday.

i thought back when june first kicked in. i didnt even realise holidays have already started because it was either band or mcs at that time. waking up at 5 and reaching home at only 12+am for 2 weeks non-stop was frightening. i dont know how i survived. resting only when i got a seat in the mrt or during lunch time. drama went on successfully although we went through alot. band was prep talks and more of it. draining me out. well, not only me, the rest of the band members who cared too actually.

i certainly love acband alot. i've tempted to quit recently because i realise that i've lost the flame to keep me going. (oh i just made a big confession!) i'm sorry. i just lost it. but what kept me in and going was the people there. i love them. each and everyone. i realise that my journey in ac is going to end soon. so i just want to make this last concert of ours the best. for everyone in acband, for the audience, for ourselves. and for dr lee especially. considering that i wont be spending time with the band after concert anymore, i just want to make this ending a really really good ending.

i've been trying to ignite the love that i had in band and yeah, slowly, it is coming back. how? heh, let me keep it to myself. well, hint: its the pure sound. hehe.

oh people, 14 days left, we're gonna do this right.
yes, we're gonna do this.


chiao.

red bull day!

a few days more till school reopens. tell me about it man. i keep telling myself to work,work and work. but it doesnt work. still wayyyyyyyyyy behind what i'm supposed to have completed. i should buck up la.


my whole family is back!!! yay. yay. yay. cant say how happy i am to see them. i miss them so. mum bought for me a spongebob soft toy! a HUGEEEE one! yesssssssssa! dont worry, this time, with pants on it, haha. its super hug-able! (i am so childish but whatever.)
wish i can get a holiday. just get away from work. and enjoy family company. rawr.
that day while studying at home, i watched mum cooking in the kitchen and i felt this tug at my heart. i miss her. badly.


today went gyming with irna. she went bonkers. but its ok, i was entertained. haha. had lunch and froollick!!! wweeee. so niceee. studied but not much progress. practice with siwei and yay, luckily some progress there. conquered the last part of symphonic metamorphosis. i know i should have conquered it like ages ago. but i started kinda late, remember? (excuses! hmph!) oh siwei said i sounded nicer on my sm3 mouthpiece than the sm4. oh me gosh! haha, amazing! did the growling thing on the eupho, the phonics thingy. so fun! haha.

ok, econs and gp and math. lesson learnt today: i should have stuck to coffee. red bull is a bad idea. study hard people! :)

chiao.

shopping.

and this dress makes me go gaga.

i am smitten by this shoe. ragh. but abit ex. :(

aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh. i wanna buy buy buy buy. $45 +$37= i'll be dead broke.

thank goodness my throat is wayyy better. only nose is still like a leaking tap.

ah, i better make sure i dont procastinate anymore. since thurs is wasted away because the medicine that i ate made me sleep for hours and hours and hours. time to study. not shopping. raghhhhhhhhhhhhh.

chiao.

cold rock rocks.

wed with sports day was ok i guess. but i was darn bored during the races. and fary kept whining. haha. went to buy cremo, but i didnt la, fary did. and nathan hartono served her. ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

ah choooooooooo. ouchhh. my throat feels like razor blade cutting. coughing. my eyes are dry. my nose is running. ergh. temperature is running too. :(


but dinner with em, enjia and eugene was good! yay. although with such shitty throat. cold rock. ahhh. :))) i had to succumb to temptation. hahaha. i just couldnt resist the white cookie and double choc with cookie dough and tim tam mix in!! wohh. i think it was a good combi. hahaha.

i was feeling relatively happy so i decided to take panadol and sleep at 10pm. which is superrrr early. now, back to mugging.

mug mug mug. econsmatheconsmatheconsmatheconsmatheconsmath.
i'm glad its 1st may. weeeeeeeee.

Ungu-kekasih gelapku. this song has a deeeeepp meaning. simply goood.

its about this guy who loves this girl alot but she doesnt know it. b'cos he knows that they will never be together. but he still loves her alot. and at last she knew it. but it was too late. ahhhwww.

chiao.

Chipmunks and mouthpieces

hahahaha freaking funny. they use mouthpiece only u know. hahahaha