i am me. therefore i am.

the pain in the heart just wont go away. u coward. why cant u just be a man and say what is in ur heart. asshole.

band camp over, negeri sembilan trip over, muse concert over. now what? terms.

terms
terms
terms

information overload. my head is bursting. i feel ssoo scared for terms. what if i fail again. i seriously dont want to get retained!!!! argh.. hear me cry out.*sobs*sobs. now my nose is like a tap water. it doesnt stop running. breakouts on my face. ergh. great. just hope my migraine wont come anytime soon. choi! touch wood.

so much to do. but i dont care. i want to blog.

band camp was damn tiring. practice all day long. morn till night. before lights out some j1s tried studying. but i bet nothing went into our head. haha. anyways. second day was the same. only intersting thing was that during prac, i was looking at how irna was falling asleep during combines. muahahaha.her head on her saxaphone. then slowly falling off..with her specs going off her face too.. haha. i cant forget that image man. then its night games. syiok la. my group was fun. even though with people i dont really talked too like aaron, jasmine and zhenrong. (PS: mel, i really had fun!!!! u know what i mean... hehe)but oh well, eugene and stuart made me laugh to tears.. hahaha. it was supposed to be scary but didnt turn out that way for me i guess. eugene got dunked into the pool at like 1+am. haha.. i think the excos did a great job. thanks guys for the fun games and all.
after the band camp, i realise i will miss the j2 even more. :((((((((((((((((
tune-in was cool. my grp was comprise of me, satis, wenlong and luqman. man, i'm the only ac girl. but ok la. they are damn fun ppl so had balls of time bullying the sec4s. haha.. evil us. hehe. went home that day and i had fever. great yeah. but i still have to unpack and pack again for my negeri sembilan trip. so took panadols and hoped i didnt oversleep that night. haha.

oh well, had to report at tanjong pagar station damn early. i even fell asleep in the taxi on the way to the tg station. but aft reaching there and meeting the rest.. hehe, i bacame wide awake. but boarding the train was quite sad for me. i just realise how i miss mummy and daddy and sis and bro and cik sham and yeah, basically my family. just realised at that moment that its been a long time since i even talked to them. shit, i think i'm too into my life. i should appreciate the people arnd me more.

negeri sembilan trip rocks like crazy. train trip was fun. haha. sheep,sheep, sheep. how many sheep died? bang, bang, bang. who died? haha, actually cant believe i'm quite smart eh, i actually can solve all the riddles. haha. clever me.*pats her back. me and seha were worried what kind of house we'll be living in. just hope we didnt get a house ssoo kampong; afraid we'll not be able to adapt. but ok la. only the toilet no flush. hahaha.and behind our room was a full of banana trees. scary... whoots.
explorace was fun but damn tiring la. funny part was faris had to eat raw egg and he was the only one who puked. hahaha. oh well, running arnd the village like crazy people was fun la. then at night was learning cak lempong and the dance. oh gosh, i suck. hahaha. its on youtube. will post it here. obviously i cant memorise the whole song, haha, was following shariff all along. hahaa. the traditional dance? my wrist almost sprained. but it was fun, seeing how teruk seha is at dancing.. muahahaha. and farhan keep losing his grip on his plates. hahaa..so funnny.. then it was night walk. kinda scary la. since we walked alone and i mean alone through the jungle. there were even these mat kampong trying to scare us. but i was giggling all the way. because it was ssooo fuuny. didnt realise we were walking near a cemetetry until i came out of the trail. really challenged my mental strength. thank god daddy had trained me. mum was horrified when i told her i walked in the jungle alone. haha.

second day was the best. :) started out the day with river treking. gosh, never in my life i had gone trekking. so i was suuuperrr egg-cited! the water was ssuper cold and clear. damn nice. trekked through it then aft that was the jungle trekking part. shoots. i already got 1 leech stuck onto my feet. thank god shariff pulled it off my feet despite me screaming like crazy. trekked up hill. damn difficult la. mud all over, the jungle all arnd and trekking uphill was torturous. but fun la. hhm.. i like challenging stuff. makes me egg-cited. haha. and at the end of the trek, got up at the top, damn, the scenery was like. WOH! makes me realise the greatness of allah's creation. will post the pics soon here. then its time to go down hill. hahaha. i fell on my butt. best. haha. then waterfall!!! this wasnt that nice. i fell flat on my back. damn painful. couldnt move for a moment. thats scary. my whole left arm went numb. shoot. i'm so prone to falls. haha. that night, faris and seha was supposed to get married. muahahahahahaha...then some drama unfolded, seha bacame a runaway bride and faris had to reluctantly marry a st joseph convent girl. muahaha. faris upon hearing the news-'hah? but i want nasihah!' muahahaha. so funny. ok, then they we were carried on a dais. then the whole performance started. adlin was ogling at the mat kampong. the cak lempong was nice. the kampong girls were damn pretty. i was getting jealous of their smooth skin. tsk. funny thing was the bride. kecoh, so unglam la. too long to say it here. i bet if it was seha, fuh, mesti maintain. mcm perempuan melayu terakhir. by the way, did anyone say u look great in baju kurung seha? haha. hehe. muahahaha. lalalalala...

anyways. the last day was sad but still fun. in the morn we spent time at the playground. then me, seha, shariff and faris went to mak minah's hse. my foster mother's hse. the guys purposely come to have some fun; to make mak minah melatar. i wonder what its called in english. but anyway, they went exploring to the toilet and our rm with banana trees at the back. haha. then four of us walked together to their hse. fun la. haha, ate and talked. became our foster grandparents too. man, kampong people are so nice. i'll miss them. then time for home sweet home. aawww.. i miss pelegong.

back to reality. i still have math, physical geog and econs to do. i'm so dead for terms. concert was bad. scheherazade was atrocious. i felt damn gulity to end the j2s ac band life with such a concert. i'm so sorry guys. and yeah, i found my uniform. haha. dont ask how or where. hahaha. thanks ange for the uniform. thanks a zillion. :)

will start studying again now. now.now.

chiao.