ah, KL is super duper uber freaking fun. hehehehehe.i am so fat now. gawd, i think i wont be able to do PE anymore. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i ate and ate and ate and ate. but mostly i ate the food that i cant eat here in sg like subway, pretzels and gelato and fish and co and erm.. i cant remember what i ate... yummmmmmmmmm....... will post pics here when i feel like it. haha. and sorry people, i didnt get u guys anything because i didnt shop at all except for food.
homework at last done! except that econs online learning where the system always cock up. stupid.
i cant wait for school. whats in store for me in 2008? i feel kinda excited but nervous as well. i know there will be alot of obstacles for me. there will be school to cope with, homework, tests, prelims and a's. then there's band overseas competition where i have to work really hard. this one, i really gotta make sure i really improve because i want to be part of making acband proud, since i've missed the chance this year.. oh well, dont mention this or i'll turn into a waterfall. and concerts too, march muse and june concert. then theres ac fun-o-rama. through this,i really hope i can forge deeper friendship with my classmates, becuase i dont want to waste my 2 years with aa3 just like that. and mcs drama production. plus dikir performances. ouch. i'll be super busy. and i need to conquer a levels. a levels. i hope GOD save me from that.
it felt like it was just yesterday that i first came into ac. i'm feeling nostalgic here.. hahaha. i didnt expect i'll get in ac, seriously. and i didnt think about ac or acband at all before o levels. i even had a bad impression of ac schools. basically i dont like the people because they are arrogant. but on the contary, i'm wrong. untill i came for tune-in. and i was there all along. along the way i have learnt to love acjc and acband. i was darn scared i couldnt get in. furthermore, mum dont like me being in ac. but i got through. first 3 months was so fun. my og were great.
they made me feel at ease.
then its aa5. gawd, i wouldnt trade them for anything. i love them so much. i love my subject combi. hist, art and econs h2 and h1 math. too bad i cant take that combi anymore. especially art. hhmm... when i was in sec 4, my art teacher offered me to take o level art even though its quite late compared to other people, but the principal said no as i already have higher malay and dnt to cope with. wth. i was feeling so sad. tsk. maybe i'm just destined not to learn art. band was quite crazy. i was struggling with festive overture. the running notes and the super high A and Bb note that was in that piece. but i guess i manage to do it. its a struggle,no doubt. i saw other j1s struggle too. i've never practised so hard in my life for band before. but its worth it.
o levels results came and i.. oh well, cut it short i didnt do well as i wanted to. i cried like nobody's business. untill the ex-seniors frm damai band had to console me. haha. mum was puzzled as to why i'm crying since i did ok. i was seriously worried i wouldnt get into ac again. i was so afraid, i cried again. haha. i remember that day there's sectionals. and i have no mood. edwin has no mood too b'cos the mep teacher said something that made him angry and amirah thought of cancelling it too. i felt sad too, i wont be able to meet my friends anymore as some of them had been transfered out. hhmm.. i miss them. then i
meet aa3. i wasnt too happy. i just dont like their bimbotic and girly ways. i tried to adapt to them and at the same time the hectic schedules, band practices, homework, tests and what with family too. yes, i was struggling. mum was constantly nagging at me for sleeping so late. and i keep fighting with her. oh well. march muse came and i was so nervous. i still cant believe i performed on esplanade. not once but thrice this year. wow. then syf auditions. it still gives me the chills and i still remember the moments vividly. for those who stood by my side. thank u. i will remember what u did and everything that u said. especially my section. :) the days after that were quite horrible. i couldnt face the band members. basically i felt devastated. but yeah thats not the end of the world. i try to think positively and i try to help them whenever i can. afterall, its for the band's sake. syf came. 11 may 2007. it was a horrible week. training for nafa was like.. ahh.. i felt soo drained. then it was the common test week. so i had very little sleep. i studied geog the day before and i couldnt answer a single question. i felt so horrible. i cried again. man.. how many times did i broke down? and i got scolded by ms sng during the syf itself. i cant believe acband gwh. its surreal. i felt happy but sad. dunno la. mixed emotions. and my girlfriends planned a surprise birthday bash at seoul garden. i broke down again la. tsk.. i cry alot. its like the worst birthday i had in my whole life but its sweet at the same time.
after that, its scheherazede. things got better as i try to improve myself. wow, all those double and triple tonging..
before i realise it, i'm on the train to negeri sembilan with the mcs peeps. hehe. so much fun and we surely bonded. mcs drama too. hahaha. then terms. well, it was totally failure for me. expected it la. after that i vowed to myself that i will not fail promos.
then the later half of 2007 was a blur. basically i was fighting with my emotions. yeah,coping to let go of...:) let me keep this to myself. i suddenly realise that the j2s had step down and i sure felt the loss. we sounded different, hollow i guess. i dont know. and then life continues on with more banding. i guess we have grown quite close as a batch. promos coming and i was studying like i never studied before. but now i can say i could have work harder. i was determined like crazy to overcome promos. and yeah, i did! but the moments mounting to the results was nerve wrecking. i cried again. tsk. again. promos over christmas concert and band fest. well, great concert, i made new friends. and learnt some things.
2007 sure has thought me some things. about people. about emotions. about life. but it has left me with questions too. alot of them which i know i will discover if i'm patient enough.
now, good bye 2007. heloo 2008!
i pray to god u give me the strength i need to carry on.
i am a j2? wow. HEHEHEHE.
chiao.
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