i am me. therefore i am.

i know i should pick myself aft yesterday's downfall. but i guess i am a weak person. yesterday's audition affected me so badly. i cry myself to sleep. i still feel so upset. i guess i am just not a good player. never will be.

i want to gorge myself with food. then take sheets of paper tear it into small little balls and throw them around my room. then cry myself to sleep, not caring abt my econs essay, malay karangan, geog tutorial and PW all due tmr.

i wish the earth can open up and swollow me up.like at this very moment. NOW.