i am me. therefore i am.

theres nothing or no one else that i should blame on except myself that i didnt get into the syf team. i dont know how to face the rest of the band member. esp.. ---------. dr lee, the sLs, esp amirah. like i've let her down. let the sect down. ms sng, b'cos i've failed her expectations. ying da and ming xuan. i dont know how i will survive this next 5 weeks. i keep thinking what a lousy player i am. trying hard to accept the reality that i only participated in 1 syf in my whole life and never taken any solo in my whole band life. never. ever. how great. yesterday practice was boring. i had to battle my feelings and concentrate on that new piece. sian. samuel can come up to me and sheree and say.. eh u are suppose to practise right? wat are u two doing jumping and fooling arnd? u think we like even to be there. hhmmpphh. it was already past 7pm. practice is over for us. so we can jump and scream as we like.

damaiwindz is in bad shape now. tmr i'm gonna see them. i just hope everthing is alright.

for now, i will try to forget abt him. abt band esp... i will mug and mug. and concentrate on the new piece. i will improve so greatly it will amaze them. i will play the two concert pieces so beautifully, i will fill the air with music. serenade the air with the sound of my eupho.

lets see what i have to do this holiday.
1) econs hw
-complete tutorial, essay quest, and essay on scenario analysis
-revise elasticity of markets
2) malay lit hw
- essay on sajak 'kebanjiran' , latihan bahasa
3) malay lang
-4 newspaper article review, another essay
4) pw
- the stupid PI essay
5)math
-tutorial 5 and revision. i need to concentrate on this subject.
6) GP
-another GP essay.
7) geog
-physical:read lecture notes and revise
-human: tutorial 6 complete and revise
8) next week starts the test week. die.

ok, i have to start now.
chiao.