i am me. therefore i am.

its the third day of syawal. i just hope the begining of such a holy month will bring much blessings to all of us. ramadhan come and go just like that. i cant say i made much use of it. and i cant say its been an easy ramadhan compared to other ramadhan. preparing for promos amidst facing other issues is not easy either.

last mon break fast with farah and hafiyan. i am glad u two are happy like that. dont fight so often yeah miss farah ashlina bte aminnurahim. heh, i remember your full name! :) and i went to geylang!!!!!!wwweee!!! yesyesyesyesyesyes!!!!!!!!!

then, spent the rest of the remaining ramadhan cleaning the house and making cookies. i made chocolate chip cookies, almond cheese cookies and cupcakes!!! but the almond cookies are not so nice.:(

raya just come and go like any other years. it was tiring facing it all over again. i was hoping for a good change but, fat hope la. no one can change overnight do they?

i dont understand alot of things going on really. cant help it though when nobody wants to tell me the real situation and in addition my blurness just makes it worst. sometimes i think teenagers are much more muture then adults. how stupid can adults be.

hari raya is a time where u spend time with your family members and seek forgiveness from each other, no matter if u are young or old. like the cliche goes, forgive and forget. how many thousands or millions of muslims do u hear during hari raya saying maaf zahir batin. i find all that bull shit. u should not say it for the sake of saying it. but because u really realise your mistakes and want to be forgiven. if u are not sincere about it, then why do u still say it?
and even if the person who did wrong to u is younger and didnt seek forgiveness to u, shouldnt u just forgive that person? on account that he is a family member of yours or that u have known that person. for forgiving others is a noble act. i know its difficult to just forgive someone who has inflicted pain on u for years but cant u do it for future sake? for your children's sake? so that the family ties that we have will stay strong untill generations to come? and they even fought on such a beautiful night when everyone is supposed to be happy. how to stupid can the be. how inmature can they be.

that night u made me very sad. very sad.
that night u made me see a bad side of your character.
i just hope i wont be like u in the future.


over with hari raya blues, getting back promos results soon. lets pray yeah.
for the light to shine brighter, the darkness have to be darker. how true. most will make it but some will not. i hope i do not fall in the 'some' category. will my life in ac end here?

i hope not.
chiao.