on sun was interesting. i followed my family to a wedding on my mum's side. this family is like super malay jawa la. then theres kuda kepang, a horse dance. a javanese dance which is always associated with black magic or something like that. 'cos the dancers will always get possesed and eat glass la, climb up trees, and get all scary-mary. so my sis got spooked. haha. she ran away when she saw them dancing. like really ran away. hahaha. but i find them quite interesting though. the instruments that they played were those like we played during mcs drama this year. how i missed drama!!
the girls dancing with the "horses"
the guy with the red mask looked really scary. i dont dare to go near him too. oh,oh! the groom is an indian guy. like pure indian but convert muslim.reminds me of grandad. then they had this tradition which i never knew, throwing coins over the couple! but i didnt go and pick it up though. it was near the red mask guy. and the food was delicious la.i feel kinda weird, listening to the recording in swiss. but nevertheless, it was nice. and i started laughing the part before fugue. hahahaha. and i didnt know the tempo was THAT fast. wow. haha. but charming asia was especially nice i think. moved me.haha. like i can see how everyone was playing and how dr lee was conducting and all.
anyway, i've caught up with my sleep, my family and everything else. ate so much, read so much, watch videos so much, now i feel bored. the only thing to do now is to bake. BUT the elecric mixer is at my grandma's house! how to bake the cake! ):
so glad that prelims are over. let me see, how was prelims? haha. screw it.
gp was about celebrity activism. amazingly, it was first time i finished my aq! say wow. physical geog after that was.. as usual, i didnt have time to write finish my essay. and thank god i studied mass movements, erm no, not study, read through and it came out. but i dont expect good marks. next was econs drq and malay lang. i studied about public goods and merit goods and i freaking forgot about it! my mind just went blank on that question. gosh. i really didnt know what happened to me at that moment. malay lang compo was damn freaking killer la. and the paper 2 was equally like, huh, what the hell are they talking about? sigh. it was the first time i think malay is damn difficult. so sad you know. nvm, next was math. rightttt. my worst scoring subject ever. but the most effort i've put in. and during the paper just proved me wrong. i couldnt do half the pure math part and some questions on stats. esp on applications on differentiation and integration. sigh. left that whole freaking damn part blank. during the paper i could hear people sigh-ing and haiz-ing and sigh-ing. haha. guess that paper wasnt easy either. i dont know. weekends was spent studying geog with gerd, eliz, eng loong and kenneth koh. from bishan library, went to sarah's house. yel tried to be teacher but we ended up laughing. hahaha. felt tired from all that laughing. sun tried to study but came down with fever. mon, malay lit paper and yeah, i didnt study for it at all. too tired. anyway, i've started studying that subject since after june holidays. so should be alright. hopefully cikgu can decipher my atrocious handwriting because i was rushing like mad la. imagine 5 three page essays in 3hrs! zomg, my arms felt numb after that. and i was the noisiest with my nose because it wouldnt stop leaking.tsk. tried to study human geog. but fever still persist. mum scolded me because i insisted on fasting. i was fasting the whole exam period but had to stop that day. sigh. so took the exam without studying half the topics tested. which is ALOT. and i reckon, failure. whatever. econs paper 2 next. studied again macro. but i think the paper was freaking damn difficult la. sigh. so much for putting in sosososo much effort. lets see how the results yeah, if it equals to all the stinking effort i've put in. that day, went to times and saw so many new books! aahhh. i gotta have them! sat went to malaysia. sun came back. got myself 2 books! a thousand splendid suns and p.s. i love you. cool la. i still have my john grisham books. bro called me a nerd. he said that i should buy clothes and shoes instead of books. well, i do, just not that often alright.
now i feel damn bored. hhhmmm, i want to go cycling! anybody coming?! hahahha. i want to cycle so fast, i can feel the wind rushing thru my hair! wwweeee!
cant wait for ramadhan! sometimes its kinda hard to explain certain things about islam. you have to study it to understand it. like why we pray 5 times a day. why we fast. why i wear a scarf outside. why we dont drink alcolhol, etc.
righttt, now here's the bigg question. when am i going to start work again!? hahaha. i'm becoming a lazy bum. tsk. this is bad.
you all keep talking about turning back time. oh nono, dont ever turn back time. to the time when you all were at that place. although it was a damn good period for you guys. it was the worst 2 weeks of my life. never, dont ever turn back time. imagine the loneliness, the sense of loss, the sense of being left out of something i've always dreamt about. the hurt, the rejection when i was supposed to join you all back for the next comp, never will i want to experience that ever again, never to remember ever again, never want to talk about. sometimes at night, i still cry myslf to sleep when i thought about this. dont talk about this. i never want to know what happened there. its better for me not to know. so that i know that i never missed anything in my life. thank you.
chiao.
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