speak malay lah.

this is seriously bugging me.

the aunties. well, aunties were gossiping (as usual) and guess what they were saying. they were talking about how so many of my cousins these days are going to AC schools.. like bla bla bla.. how smart they were.. and the comparing session starts. urgh, i seriously hate this. like how smart they were and how they dont need to o levels.. how they speak english so well.. and i pointed out that they are not good in malay though. and thats bad. AND GUESS WHAT THEY REPLIED! ahhhhh. its ok what. whats important is that you are good in english. you need english to survive you know. bleah. so what if you're good in it if you dont even know your mother tongue. isnt it a shame? not knowing your roots, the language that your grandparents speak in, your great grandparents spoke in. S o what if you're good in what you're doing but you cant communicate with your society and community in your mother tongue well? arent you ashamed?

they dont know how bad this problem is do they? i'm so pissed by their remarks. i cant believe even such aunties actually find not being able to speak malay well alright. atrocious.

guess how many students in my higher malay class were native malay students and how many were non-malay? there were more non-malays in my higher malay class! how shameful is that! and guess how 'big' my malay literature class back in AC is? yeah, 5 measly, sad people. 5! and the numbers for the past cohorts are dwindling too.

isnt it sad?

chiao.

its 3 am. the rings around my eyes are showing. EoM have yet to be done, Written report due this fri. Geog essay. Gp package test. and loads more hw. argh.

i need a truckload of chocolates now to unpress this depressed mood. actually not because i'm tired or the workload. it my malay grades. gosh i suck at malay now. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hopes so high for malay lit. but guess what! i'm bottom of the class. yay! great! fantastic! wwwwwwwwweeeeeee!!!!
gggggggggggggggggaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok, i want to announce that i think malay literature is damn super cool!!! its like music, u can express what u feel through it and the way u deliver the poems is like u playing ur instrument... woww........... i really think its cool. and cikgu said that at last i understand how to interpret and apply the poems that we have learnt. so in short i have improve. yay, even though its a very minimal improvement. at last, i found back my passion for malay lang.

i keep thinking abt my studies. which i am really bad at. i think my time management suck big time. and yeah, i fell asleep yesterday without finishing my hw or even study anything. i should really do something aboout this. even it is extreme. but seriously i dont know what to do to stop myself from falling asleep. in sch i dont fall asleep but once i reach home, my eyes will water and go heavier and heavier till i fall asleep without me realising it. ouh man.. what should i do???? i am really desperate to pass my terms and promos especially!! if i get retained, mum will take me out of ac and send me to poly instead. no way will that happen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no, never. i will pass my promos, pass a levels with flying colours and get into nus with my choice course. oh well, easier said then done.

i should drink lots of coffee then. i think that will work for now. lets see huh..

chiao. :)