the worst.

yah..long time i since update this blog...bleah..no mood.. larh..feeling ssooo awful. sumthing's wrong wif my head ah...

last week was the band camp and it was the worst ever band camp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AARRGGHH@#%@^%#@^$% The first day was prac the competition songs till night. I had to help nadirah wif her bassoon part. it was darn difficult... most of the beats are played in upbeat. so to keep to the fast tempo was hard. then mr wong decided not to play the bassoon part using eupho and trom. it was too difficult. even he said that. that night the teachers listened to our playing and commented that our piece was too messy as in like ppl cuming in not accurate. ok then went to sleep but cant 'cos the stupid malay guys go and walk to and fro the whole night in front of our room wif their slippers flip flopping as they walk. darn them.. so i didnt get enough sleep. the next morning was really stupid. we did our pT until like muzakir was half fainting... we did the stupid buddha clap. darn... then aft breakfast, the band was half dead. we were in the music room and melissa asked us to rest. know why? half the band had diarheoa. man..we were already sssooo tired frm the yesterday's prac then that morn have diarheoa. my section all down except solomon. even i got it. so ms carol bought us ginger tea which taste horrible so that we could drank it to make us feel better. then we open up the hall and the whole band slept aft lunch. then we continue wif the prac. man... how can u concentrate on playing when u feel like shitting. that night we have our farewell party. hahaha... i sabo nadirah!! yeah got disco.. then its our night walk. the sec ones freaked out and cried. bleah.. scared to death... ok.. then our treasure hunt. my grp was...all girls grp. wat do u expect?? half of them were freaking out and crying and i had to do all the dirty jobs. so i went back to alif and said, wat if, all of them freaked out in the middle of now where in the school, except me, then wat shuld i do?? darn.. before i could go to the next stage, ms carol ask us to come back to the canteen. she stopped all games and scolded shi ying in front of the band. stupid. she said she heard screams and ppl using candles. wat duh??? ^(^%*^%*^%) so all of us went to sleep and the leaders went to meeting. more likely kena scolded by ms carol. stupid. the next morn, as usual, the pT was stupid and the breakfast was horrible. went in music room for the meaningless driefing session for the genting mbms. i feel really stupid 'cos i didnt get to go. only god noes how my heart cries when mum didnt allow me to go. we cleaned our barracks and went home.

then i went to cik al's hse for hari raya. i slept instead of eating wif my family mbms. watever. then went home to sleep again. freaking tired larh. the next day went to ms nura's wedding. she was ssooo beautiful!!!!! then on the wed i went sentosa wif my classmates for class outing. i didnt tell mum. i feel ssooo freaking gulty. i could not sleep for the next few nights. oh yes.. i got a sun burn on my nose. its horrible. the skin doesnt want to come off. stupid.

just now went to buy books and then went to geylang wif mum and cik sham. mum at last gave me permisssion to go genting!!! i was already crying by that time ah. wat duh.. this mon they are going to genting and she asked me if i could go!! OH MY GOD!!! she even called ms carol and asked if i could go. ms carol said she will call the organiser but until now, she had not return the call. wheather i can go anot. man.. now i'm listening to the competition songs, i feel like crying man.. no.. not feel.. i am already crying!!!! UWAHH!!!! I wanna go!!!!
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oh.. wateve. i noe its IMPOSSIBLE!! its too late. aniway if i did go, i would not be able to go to the competition. the reason i wanna go was because i want to go the competition. but mr wong would never let me play in the competition. here i go again.. crying... shit. if i go, i would be such an extra. 'hidung tak mancung, pipi tersorng-sorong'.
stupid.

i just wanna sleep. at least it will make me feel better. now my head is really sumthing wrong.
bye.