Sunday, December 25, 2005

freaky

long time since i've bogged. com broke down. freak. alot of things had happened. haha..the latest is that i've got new phone!! haha.. like it alot.

the hols are ending and i'm gonna start a new year as a sec 4. i feel weird. being the oldies in the school. then there will be the o levels to face real soon. oh... my heart is racing. the last few days... i've been jogging every morning with seri at the stadium. now my family calls me an exercise freak. oh, watever.. my schedule gets more hectic everyday after the genting trip. but alot had happened during the genting trip. haiz.. there's rumors that melissa tan likes jen kean since they were put in charge after the horrific camp. but i know mel doesnt. then the teachers got to know the couples in the band. and see soon got suspension from his post as a drum major. pity him. but its his fault aniway that he got into this trouble. jen kean take over. last week i went to ping yi sec...(hehe..sneak in!!) to help their guides for the anti-drugs dance competition. i really scolded the sec 1 for being ssooo...eeww..wat do i call it...eerrmm..girly? weak?? oh...watever.. they could not get their dance steps and dance as stiff as logs!! got them training like the band. scream at them in their faces untill they almost want to cry. haha.. bitches. i tink i should have heled my school instead. nah.. i know they will win. that's why they dont need my help! hahaha!! last band prac the ex-co ppl got scoldings from the alumni ppl for slacking in the preparation for the sec 1 orientation. alif said that we are not going to march. i feel ssoo sad. i knew were slacking. but wat can i do? take charge? that would be taking over. impossible. i simply do not know wat to do. i was picked on by mr wong for playing like shit in band. shi ying went over seas, syadzarwan could not come; parents dont allow, see soon sick. only left wif me, zahidah, solomon and muzakir. mr wong keep saying me this and that... oh, watever. i still have to teach amalina since she's in my sect already. oh yes.. i do feel down cast about the band. but i have to try again and live my life to the best. and i will not let mr wong's stupid critisms be the cause for my down fall. never

that's it. i'm gonna watch the tv. ta.

Friday, December 09, 2005

silver medal!!

hahaha.. lame.. yarh..i've been tag...
Rules of the game:
1. post 5 weird/random stuff abt yourself
2. at the end, list the names of 5 ppl who you want next to this and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED" in their blogs and tell them to read your blog for rules!

1. I thought the senoko red and white incenarator chimneys were ronald mac donalds' legs.
2. i thought i was pink ranger, my sis yellow ranger and my bro white ranger until the series finished. i was devastated i didnt have powers to save the world.
3. my mum wanted to enrol me in indian dance but she didnt. fuh..lucky me.
4. i've always wanted to know how to play all the instruments in the world!! hahaha...but i still havent got the chance rite? oh well..slowly...i will.
5. i still dont understand why some ppl dont like chocolates... why??

haha..ok, now who are the ppl?? i tink..
1. melissa (band)
2. farhana
3. zai
4. seri
5. diyana

this game is totally dumb.. but watever.

haha...i'm ssoo proud of my band! they got silver for the international band competition in genting!! i'm ssoo happy for them. i got this news when i aisyah msg me at 11 plus on last wed. they're coming back today. hehe... i'm ssoo happy for them!!! i miss band. i've been eating chocolates and nothing else...hahaha... making me crazy again. finally i've finished my homework except DnT and maths which i havent loadedup from asknlearn.

chio larh.. bye!!!

Saturday, December 03, 2005

hoho


hoho.. great man.. ms carol isnt calling back. great. totally. and i'm peeling. frm the sentosa class trip. my nose, forehead, arms and neck are all peeling. i look totally horrible.

oh yes, mr saiful msg me a few days ago. soooooo irritating but i'm glad too. he said that we need not do the art hol hw 'cos the school havent approved our request to take art at o levels. i'm quite disappointed as i will not be able to do sumthing that i love but glad too... as i noe i would be freaking busy next year. o levels, band, tuition and my religious classes. but most of all i'll be spared frm getting slaughtered by mum for taking art.

i'm feeling much better now. i tink i just need time to be alone. but still feeling a bit pissed off. i need to immerse myself in my hw and reading books. and i tink i wanna change my template. i tink the change will be great. make me forget all my woes.

duh.chiao.

Friday, December 02, 2005

freakos

darn.. ms carol is not calling back. aniway.. i dont wanna go to genting animore. i'll just be another pathetic eyesore to them. i'll just be an extra. if i go.. then i'll have to share the room and be an extra. celebrate wif themthe opening and closing ceremony of the compatition as an extra. eat and play wif them like an extra. i'm such an extra. wat would they react when they noe if i'll be coming? haiz.. i dont want to spoil thier moods. they need to get at least a silver in this competition. i feel ssoo pathetic. and lonely. when u expact sumone to be there for u.. (anione..haiz..)when u expect she is ur fren, she is not there. pathetic arent i? i feel ssoo used..
nah.. i'm bored. the tv is freaking boring. so is the com. nothing to do. and in a big bad mood

tata.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

the worst.

yah..long time i since update this blog...bleah..no mood.. larh..feeling ssooo awful. sumthing's wrong wif my head ah...

last week was the band camp and it was the worst ever band camp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AARRGGHH@#%@^%#@^$% The first day was prac the competition songs till night. I had to help nadirah wif her bassoon part. it was darn difficult... most of the beats are played in upbeat. so to keep to the fast tempo was hard. then mr wong decided not to play the bassoon part using eupho and trom. it was too difficult. even he said that. that night the teachers listened to our playing and commented that our piece was too messy as in like ppl cuming in not accurate. ok then went to sleep but cant 'cos the stupid malay guys go and walk to and fro the whole night in front of our room wif their slippers flip flopping as they walk. darn them.. so i didnt get enough sleep. the next morning was really stupid. we did our pT until like muzakir was half fainting... we did the stupid buddha clap. darn... then aft breakfast, the band was half dead. we were in the music room and melissa asked us to rest. know why? half the band had diarheoa. man..we were already sssooo tired frm the yesterday's prac then that morn have diarheoa. my section all down except solomon. even i got it. so ms carol bought us ginger tea which taste horrible so that we could drank it to make us feel better. then we open up the hall and the whole band slept aft lunch. then we continue wif the prac. man... how can u concentrate on playing when u feel like shitting. that night we have our farewell party. hahaha... i sabo nadirah!! yeah got disco.. then its our night walk. the sec ones freaked out and cried. bleah.. scared to death... ok.. then our treasure hunt. my grp was...all girls grp. wat do u expect?? half of them were freaking out and crying and i had to do all the dirty jobs. so i went back to alif and said, wat if, all of them freaked out in the middle of now where in the school, except me, then wat shuld i do?? darn.. before i could go to the next stage, ms carol ask us to come back to the canteen. she stopped all games and scolded shi ying in front of the band. stupid. she said she heard screams and ppl using candles. wat duh??? ^(^%*^%*^%) so all of us went to sleep and the leaders went to meeting. more likely kena scolded by ms carol. stupid. the next morn, as usual, the pT was stupid and the breakfast was horrible. went in music room for the meaningless driefing session for the genting mbms. i feel really stupid 'cos i didnt get to go. only god noes how my heart cries when mum didnt allow me to go. we cleaned our barracks and went home.

then i went to cik al's hse for hari raya. i slept instead of eating wif my family mbms. watever. then went home to sleep again. freaking tired larh. the next day went to ms nura's wedding. she was ssooo beautiful!!!!! then on the wed i went sentosa wif my classmates for class outing. i didnt tell mum. i feel ssooo freaking gulty. i could not sleep for the next few nights. oh yes.. i got a sun burn on my nose. its horrible. the skin doesnt want to come off. stupid.

just now went to buy books and then went to geylang wif mum and cik sham. mum at last gave me permisssion to go genting!!! i was already crying by that time ah. wat duh.. this mon they are going to genting and she asked me if i could go!! OH MY GOD!!! she even called ms carol and asked if i could go. ms carol said she will call the organiser but until now, she had not return the call. wheather i can go anot. man.. now i'm listening to the competition songs, i feel like crying man.. no.. not feel.. i am already crying!!!! UWAHH!!!! I wanna go!!!!
;(
oh.. wateve. i noe its IMPOSSIBLE!! its too late. aniway if i did go, i would not be able to go to the competition. the reason i wanna go was because i want to go the competition. but mr wong would never let me play in the competition. here i go again.. crying... shit. if i go, i would be such an extra. 'hidung tak mancung, pipi tersorng-sorong'.
stupid.

i just wanna sleep. at least it will make me feel better. now my head is really sumthing wrong.
bye.