This was taken last year during the 1e2 klass party...With my good frens...the one with scarf is me... 

Haiz..

The weather sucks... My eyes are going juling...watery...Sleepy...but still lots of hw to be done. I donno why i'm typing this in my blog whereas i still have like tones of hw to do...Can u imagine it? Skool hols and u still have do ur hw and go to skool everyday??And the tsunami is making my mood worser...i feel sooo sad for them i just doono wat to do..I guess i could only pray for them...the end of the world is coming!!! Dead. By the way..the story to KL i haven't finish...ok...i give the highlights...That night i slept. But I can't totally..I thought my allergy had attacked me again...my skin were red and itchy trebbliy. Straightaway i wore my calamine lotion...it just helps me to relax but the itchyness dosen't stops and there are more and more mosquito bites...At last i could not sleep..i cried.. It was very bad...The next day i went to a doctor and got a jab...There's still scars on my arms and back..eeee..its making my body look so ugly...haiz..Then change hotel b'cos the itch was caused by bed lice present on the bed. So we changed the hotel and went to ancasa hotel...WOHOO...4 star hotel...high klass seh...Then walk-walk...at masjid india. At night we went to petaling street. Cik sham bought for me a louis vuitton handbag..nice...Then went back to hotel. That night while i was sitting on the bed preparing to sleep...the tv was on and there goes the news..."asia quake hits Asia.This had caused massive waves to hit India, Sumatra, Thailand and parts of Malaysia..."I was shocked!! Wat bout mummy in Sg?? Anything happen?? I was petrified...wat bout my relatives in Malaysia?? My relatives in India? O mi god!! A lot of ppl were dead...wats happening??Anyway..i could sleep soo peacefully that night...The next day..i had to scout for new sandals b'cos my sandals had broken off...the whole morning we searched for my sandals and at last found it..Went back to hotel to pack and at 12...noon..we checked out...Went to Pudu and take the bus and went home...and here i am...back in sg...apparently sulking and pulling a long face b'cos of the tones of hw needed to be done. And on monday its a new skool year...new klass..new frens...new subjects...new teachers...new challengers ahead waiting for me...oohh ya...MY GOD!!! I'M TAKING MY HIGHER MALAY NEXT YEAR!!!ooohh....i totally forgot bout it....shit...and now cik sham is always checking on me to see wat i am going...no chatting she says...ah... wateva...I totally don have any freedom that every teenager needs....She says i have a boy!!!! That's totally ridiculious....I don have time for such things...I'm lazy to think bout such things....wat she says totally breaks my heart..... :'( I'm crying now...stupid....I hate crying...

Home Sweet Home....

Oooohhh yah... I'm back!! I went to Kl for 3 days and 2 nights...This time my stay had been quite an adventurous one...Ok... firstly...Me, my aunt, kak noor, and cik maria were the ones who i heard were coming...suddenly...i heard there were 19 ppl going!! Can u imagime that?? ok, basically its cik maria's family....Haidar was the cutest!! He sang the song I dreams...Eveyone laughed!!hahaha...he's really cute!! Only like 3 years old...And he will like...'I wanna be wif the big bothers!!!' then we'll say 'don wan lah...be wif sisters wan anot?' hahaha...sooo cute...The bus was full of us...soo noisy... But aft that...all went quiet b'cos we slept oredi...[we took the night bus so have to sleep in the bus] then reached yong peng went down and eat sumthing but not nice so i went back to the bus and continue sleeping...Zzzz But i can't sleep...donno why...usually i would be like...snoring in a matter of seconds...the sleeping queen!! hahaha...Then reached kL at like 4.30am. My aunt...Cik sham and cik maria ask the bus driver to send us to the hotel since its dark and we donno the way...But still we had to pay RM70...Anyway the hotel was located in Chow Kit road. Kind of redlight area for KL. Saw some Kids bout my age sitting doing nothing...When they saw us they shouted..welcome to malaysia!...wateva...The hotel was like...'ermm...is this a hotel??' B'cos the surroundings and the building were like not nice to be seen by tourists...Anyway...went in and there was no seat to sit while waiting for the checking in...budget...then when got the keys we went up and wash up and sleep.When i woke up...my nose was running and my feet were itchy..So felt something is not good here..b'cos my skin is real sensitif... alittle bit dirty and it'll be red and itchy... but nvm...we went out and had our breakfast at the hotel restaurant...budget oso...The food was not nice but the price was like...$11.50 for a small glass of orange juice!! Shit rite...I'm begining to hate it oredi... Then went outside to the market...Just walk-walk...Bought some char kuay ang oranges b'cos we were still hungry...Then went up and eat...Cik maria came to our room and we talked.Then she and her family went for breakfast and we just laze around.Then went to KLCC...We went into Dior's shop...and my god!! I can't take my eyes off the handbags!! They're ssooo beautiful!!! But guess how much it costs...I think u noe how much..Then went in Coach...my god!! The shades are so beautiful!!! Then went in British India and i saw this blouse ...I want it!! I'm still dreaming of it!! Soo beautiful!! We walk and walked...Then went in Quiksilver shop and i really like this bag...Costs...$149.90!! But any way...cik sham bought it for me!!! hahaha... Then we went to eat at the food court at the fourth level...Expensive oso but the food was not that bad...Then we go down walk again and then saw New Zealand's ice-cream and we bought 6 scoops!!!hahaha...We felt real tired so..we headed back to hotel. We laze around...solat maghrib jamak isyak and went to Times Square. Walk-walk again..doing nothing..boring seh.. Then went to Starbucks and drank some coffee and eat some ceasar salad...very nice!! Then we talk-talked...and sat for like hours...Thenwe wanted to go back to the hotel but it was quite hard to get a taxi. The first taxi says the pay wil be $30b'cos here rich ppl shop...sick guy..then the next one..says donno the place then the next one don wanna take us ..donno y...sick ppl...at last we got one and went back to hotel...

Settled!! :)

Ok...yah...I'm soo happy... :) Hahaha..firstly its b'cos all my probs wif Shi Ying and Nadirah had settled!! Sooo happy...Now we are good frens...Anyway...it happened on mon when we were having brass sectional. We had diagphram training at the science block and tidied up our playing on the choice piece. Then we combined wif the brasses, eupo was the worst!! Totally i tell u!! We had the melody and we just could not be heard...I donno wats wrong wif our sect...getting bad to worst! Then Shi Ying started saying this and that...blablabla...the usual critics....and straight away i became more and more stressed out... Nad and Shi Ying saw me and they...i donno wat they talk behind my back... Anyway...aft the prac..i wanted to go lunch wif aisyah and suddenly they called me. Ok...then we talked...heart to heart.... and all was solved...then we went lunch together at long john then we went walk-walk.Then we saw Zahidah...(sec1)!! I was ssooo angry!!! She didn't come to band saying she was sick...and there she was...in Tampines mall... my god...i feel like screaming at her man...GGRRRR!!! Then went home and mum started to scream at me...watever!!! I don care... make deaf ears... Then the next day band prac but this time at the hall...and again...eupho can't be heard...but Shi Ying and nad were more supportive of me. Instead of saying crude things to me... they encouraged me....hahaha...i feel ssooo happy and relaxed...not stressed out!! Mr Wong asked zahidah why she didn't come the day before and she said she went to malaysia!!! MY GOD!!! i feel like bursting at her. At that moment when she said she went to malaysia...me,Shi Ying and Nad look at each other and grasped!! Wat is happening!!! Then Syazarwan oso didn't come...sick lah...like real...now i don believe the sec ones anymore!! On the next prac...all of them are going to get a hacking from me!!! haiz.... Then on wed...i did my hw...trying real hard to finish it up but i noe dats not possible...Anyway tonight...i'm going to kL!!! wohooo!!! KL, here i come!!!!

Sick! [To the core!!]

This week has been totally like sick!! My nightmare came back from china!! Well, yah actually that morning before the band prac i had this feeling that something bad would happened at band. But wat can i do? i just went to band that morning as usual ah...Then when i reached there, she and jia hao were already in front of the band; the i.c... That morning was a Wednesday morning... so i was quite cheerful and i immediately welcomed her back; sincerely! ok, the first thing that hit me was the sitting plan in the music room. I was the only one sitting among the sec ones and the other two seniors?? Wat were they doing? Sitting at a corner and giggling! Man, it was like me and the sec ones were so extras b'cos Mr wong oso didn't talk to me and when there's sumthing... He showed only Shi Ying and Nadirah. Wat are we there for? Statues for decoration in the music room is it?? Then when the sec ones didn't noe anything like rythms or fingerings they would ask me and i would teach them... Then the other two... wat were they doing..giggling again... Then the solo oso can ask if i want to take... Then i say u are the Assit Sect Leader...u lah decided why should i decide? Even if i take... u would wanna take it rite? Then i say watever lah...Then i take the next one coming up then aft that, u take the rest... Ah... watever... i don care..as long as i play correctly and can be heard... that's all. I feel soo pissed off. I can't tahan... i say lah to aisyah and muen during lunch then they ask me just to be patient and relax... ok lah at least got some ppl who understand me... Then aft lunch, again the routine pissing me off haven't end... This time, she would say...eh shaheera u play this wrong...eh u play that wrong... eh u play i can not hear, play louder ah... u sit there, four euphos u noe.. but i can't hear any thing from u.. I admit, i play soft, i not good at rythms but that doesn't mean that i would always do all the mistakes that u had heard rite?? Oh, well, even if i play correctly they would say i play wrongly.. then i just keep quiet lah..just shut up better... Then aft band melissa broke down in front of the band b'cos of our attitude towards the SYF. All went quiet. We stood there with our heads bent down. Then aft dismissed, Nadirah talk to me asking me to teach the sec ones! 'I don't care! U have to teach the sec ones!! Just now i sit there i could hear they play like shit!' I was like, wat? Me? Eh, who's the ASL now? Who's responsibilty is that?? I can't take it anymore and i broke down in front aisyah and muen and solomon on the way home... Luckly its them...At least they confronted me...and told me to relax... Went home... i thought that i would have a peace of mind as i was already having bouts of migrane but when i went home mum was screaming at shamil and aft that i had to take over the household chores...hanging the wet clothes, washing the dishes, serving dad his dinner...b'cos mum was very sick... I felt pity towards her and i felt scared too. Scared that i would lose her.. I feel like i could not take the stress any more. But i had to be strong...Then the next day, i did my hw, the whole day. Then on Fri... Brass and percussion sectional with mr wong. I was totally dreading that day actually. But i had to drag myself. That same thing happened again... I felt that watever i had done, they had never appreciated it! So i just sat there...blowing and blowing....Mr wong knew there was something wrong with me but i just said that i had migrane so he dosen't make a fuss bout it. That day i got the chance to scold gavin!! Hahaha!!That was the best thing!! Ah... i think this week has been the worst week!! And i still haven't finish my hw!!! :(

Tired..

I'm sooo tired...My feet were sooo painful from all the banging and my left hand were numb from holding my eupho in the sedia position. Ok, just now we had SYF march...Soooo tiring and angry oso...with gavin lah...march like shit!! I had to shout at him to look at the right-marker...Then he blurr-blurr...walio... I really stressed with the sec ones...The next prac... i don care... i'm going to punish them all. Syazarwan always didn't come...Zahidah...i ask her do this she did that... gavin... the worst! I can't say anything bout him... surely he will tell his mum bout me scolding him...OOOHHH i'm soso scared!!! Wat the shit!! Wat, want to complain bout me?? complain lah...I don give a shit bout it lah... Then aft the march... me, see soon and melissa [chairman] sectional together. Then at 1 pm we went off and have our lunch at mac tampines int. While having lunch, Melissa tell me alot of things bout the band that she's not happy with... attitude prob lah... the heads and leaders all not doing their jobs properly...especially welfare...haiyo..i can't comment mah... later the next prac all the band members will not talk to me...Unfortuately my mum called but i didn't ans..hahaha...That's a signal that i must go home now so i just went off lah..But i went to nenek's house and now.. typing...

I feel like I wanna go out... like somewhere far where i can be me... with no strings attached... But i noe that that would not be possible. But any way... i'm still content with wat i have now. My family, my frens, my school, my band, I think i have everything and there's nothing more that i should ask...

Come Back Oredi!

Juz now i went to jurong Library...It's sooo cool!! The 4th floor which is totally dedicated to teens... There's even a jamming stage and radio booths where u can read and listen to the radio!! I was just getting into the grove with the music and everything when suddenly my little pest bro came... And he said that i had to come down now b'cos mum is leaving oredi. Then i was quite puzzled... We had juz come wat... y are we leaving so fast? Then i was quite irritated ah... I was juz starting to enjoy myself when they wanna leave but i juz went down ah. Then when i reached there... My mum said, 'y r u here? Huh? Who say we are going oredi??' Then at that moment i started to curse my bro!! He is SSSOOO IRRITATING!! Then at that moment my mum wanted to leave! Then i was like, 'this sooo damn 'great''! But anyway, i juz went up and grab a book and borrowed it. He's the worst! I hate him!! I don care....i'm going there again. Anyone wanna go wif me?? I don mum allows it or not! Then we went to Jurong point to eat banquet. Aft that we walk-walk. Then i saw this beads bracelet...So nice... then at last my sis bought it. Then i'm not satisfied ah...Then i saw this sequined blouse...SSOO beautiful!! I wanna buy it but too expensive.... Aft that i was in a bad mood all along... Then walk again i saw this seashell bracelet...very simple but nice and elegant...So i bought it lah! I can't help it anymore!! I need to shop!!! Then went home..In the MRT i was ssoo tired, my head kept drooping. Then hit the ah pek beside me!! So embarrassing! From that moment, i was very awake! Then drop at simei and bought coffee at starbucks and went to nenek's house..

Ok, so now i'm typing.Where did i stop?? Oohh yah the sec one orientation march...March and march untill my butt aching... Still aching... Then the next day, wed, i went to school for band. but i forgot wat we do... that's very typical of me....blurr, forgetfull, slow-dat's me. [listening to my fav station...perfect 10-very nice song,i'm shaking to it!!, I Like That by HOUSTON CHINGY NATE DOGG & I-20] Then on Thurs band prac lah as usual brought by Mr Wong... That day he talk more then ever... But i had to keep my eyes open b'cos i'm sitting infront and the only senior in my instrument so ya ya at him lah. We practised the 2 SYF songs... boring... same old thing again... Then went to lunch. The basses section and trombone section planned to eat together. I was okay with that. Like quite happy lah.. at least we are eating together. A little bit united mah.. Then aisyah say she not comfortable with them and want to eat alone with me and Zahidah. Then i asked her lah.. wat would they think rite...then... i say never mind lah... if you not comfortable then i accompany you lah... Then while eating suddenly see soon called me. I didn't ans b'cos i feel awkward that i did not eat with them.. Then the library dept got some critics from Mr Wong...Lib slacking... Tuner batteries not replaced...ok, that's our fault.. Then one shocking thing happened... Gavin was transferred to my section!! Another sec one??!! God!! Then he's mother came and started complaining bout the band! I was like $@$%@&$*$&!! I really don noe wat to do any more so i just started teaching him the Bb scale....Haiz....Stressed!!!Then the next day sec one march again... luckliy the prac on sat cancelled...fiuh... Wah... dat prac ah... Alif really angry with the percussion section for not remembering their parts... He throw the drumsticks like wat ah.. I oso shocked... Ok, ah then we had to create the moves for fiesta fantasy song. ok, i helped a little bit... Shake a little bit here and there...hahaha... boring oredi liao..Then went for break. We went to the mama shop at the next blk. I was like an extra... No one talk to me... No one smiled... I was all alone...boring... i went back to school and practised my SYF songs alone untill they came back and then we completed the whole march. Even with the dance moves!! huahahaha!! That was great man... Very happy!! At last it had ended!! :) Then while waiting for the bus to come, to go home lah... then Zahidah asked me if i wanna follow them to eat lunch. Then i was like...huh? They didn't even invite me...i want make myself present for wat?? Then she say alah... juz come lah...they sure don mind... ok lah... i called mum and she say ok... Iwas shocked! She let me go?? Usually she was such a queen control... Then orite ah...in the bus all I talked to them... laugh, joke, the bus so noisy with our voices...Hahaha.. a least i feel more accepted by them... That was a great feeling! While walking in the Tam intc, i talk with alif, zahidah and asri... wah... first time i didn't fight with asri... if not..i see him... i fight with him..sure one... then ok la... eat at BK, we talked, and joked and laughed...hahaha...never felt more accepted then this before...Nice frens they are...Then my mum called...i was haiyo....never leave me in peace! Then she called and told me she was in Metro! Next door only!! Die, if she saw me walking with guys!! Aft that we left BK and planning to go where. Then i decided i better go with my mum, SAFER!! Then i said, hey i need to go oredi, BYE!! Then never had i expected it, they screamed bubbye at me!!! WOW!! That's so nice of them... I was smiling when i met up with mum. Then i felt really bored being with mum and sis... Don noe y... They i say i think i go to nenek's house lah... Then i go.... And here I am... quite happy at the moment.... MUAHAHAHA...

I'm here!!

Ok, now i will tell u wat had happen the whole of this week. First, on monday, we had maintanence. That is to clean our instruments. So i, nadirah and Zahidah came but Syazarwan and Shi Ying did not come. I thought that we had to clean all the other 3 Euphoniums but at last we did not have the time so we clean ours only. Then Alif started babling about UNITY in the band... I was like...hey, if you wanna talk about UNITY, then u better check urself first before saying that we are not united... What had happened during the camp huh?? The buying of the pizzas?? Was that unity?? There are still many other instances that happened that showed it all... All that time i was rolling my eyes! Wat the heck! I don give a damn bout it!
Then on Tuesday it was marching for the sec 1 orientation.
[hey had to go out oredi, I'll continue tomorrow!]

March Pracs...

Orite now... Where do I start? I had just logged into my school web and the teachers had oredi post their subjects hw...Waliao... I soo stressed oredi... I'm like asking myself if I would have the time to do all the hw that the teachers had given me. Ok, I think I will have to map out a time-table to manage my time carefully...Hmmm...Dats very hard... b'cos of my daily schedule lah... Always changing... No matter wat... still must plan!
Ok, now i continue my story lah... continue with the dated back dec 5th... ok, then the next day I had marching pracs. Our marching totally sucks man! Then we were broken up into groups and the ex-seniors trained us. Guess who took my group?? Taek Wun lah...[donno if I spell correctly...] lame leh... of all persons there...him?? He keep making us laugh then he would say 'who say u can laugh?' Then we would say back lah then he would say, 'OOrrhhh rude to drum major is it??' Lame rite... Then he give command oso screaming at my ears... I wanted to say stop screaming at my ears!! But surely he would say, 'Oorrhh rude to drum major is it??' So i just kept quiet lah... Then we march and march and march. But this time with the command of the drum major... dat is melissa [not Taek Wun, he retired oredi!] So aft that...went home lah.. Tmr i will update on this week's events... so stay tuned!Huahuahuahua!!

Dated Back Dec 5th...

Dec. 5th, 2004
10:31 am - I'm oso good wat!!!
Ok... Today is Sunday. I'm still at grandma's house. Slept overnight there... Ok, continuation to my story yesterday...Aft the band camp.We still had not choosen the choice piece we are going to play during SYF. We had tried The Seventh Night Of July and it was not that good. The song was quite hard and there's even a solo part for euphonium!! Hate that!! Mr Wong was already aiming at us! We had listened to the song on a cd. And whichever band had played it was terrific!! It was such a nice song but Damai Windz had made it into sum thing totally unrecogniseable! Then Shi Ying didn't come for band. People tried to contact her but can't. Then i said maybe she had gone overseas, somewhere like Shanghai. Then they all went..'ooohhh really???' Then i was like...!@#$#%^#$!!!! At them! Then Nadirah oso didn't come... So left me and the 2 sec one juniors...Syazarwan and Zahidah. With both of them playing...i can only hear them if i put my ears to the bell. Their playing was soo soft! I tell you, if they were under Sandy... they would have been tortured till they can blast!! So i had to take the lead... Play the high notes and even take the solo. [We changed to another song which still had a solo for euphoniums, die, die...] And every second... Mr Wong would say... The euphoniums...blablablabla...play louder[my stomach painful oredi lah]...Shi Ying very good lah....blablabla... Nadirah oso getting better...blablabla...!!! Then he was like scolding me for not doing my best... Then at that time i almost screamed at him...No one noes wat i had gone through at home and in skool b'cos of my band... In my pursuit to improve in my playing and not let people compare my playing with Shi YIng. These things had happened even during Sandy's time. I admit that Shi Ying's playing is totally cool and soo much better then mine but i'm oso trying my best to improve! I noe that i had never been good at any thing except sleep and eat... But i had always tried my best and push myself to the limit to acheieve what i wanna acheieve. Wat i had acheieve today was through my own hard work! So i just ignored Mr Wong's critics and continued to try to do better. I don wanna break down in front of him or any time before SYF! At last the day ended. But it ended in a bad way b'cos the next day i had marching pracs... When is these gonna end? Or it had just started??
Current Mood: Determined to play better!!

Dated Back Dec 4th...

07:42 pm - I'm Back!!
It's been long time since i logged in! I've been wanting to log in but i am totally sooo busy! hahaha.. must be wondering y i am sooo busy since it's the skool hols, rite? B'cos of my band lah!!! Well, firstly..it was hari raya and i had to spring clean the house... then after that i had tag along with my family to visit relatives... The only trip i looked forward to was to my grandma's house (my mum's side lah!) Luckliy... my father was sooo understanding this year... we rushed to my grandma's house (my father's side!) before THEY come! Guess hu the 'THEY' are? The hypocrites, the liars, the grammy award actors and actresses and last of all the shitters!!! Man.. they are my relatives from my father's side lah! But not all of them are like that.1 or 2 families are still sincerely nice to us. And i am very glad that they are there for my pathetic, always in need of help family...You should see their faces when they come to my house! Felt like smacking their faces!ok..I don wanna talk bout them any more..Aft the tagging along..i went for my band camp. 3 days and 2 nights of torture!! The sec ones are like sooo weak!First day the whole day band prac. Aft that we play some grueling and dirty games..Went for my dinner and bathe. Then it's back to band prac!Till late in the night. The next day, everyone was pale and no one spoke b'cos we were sooo tired. For the first time in band..it was quiet. [continue in the next entry, no space to rite]
Current Mood: weird

09:39 pm - The band camp :*
No one spoke...everyone was in a bad mood b'cos in the morning, the p.t was damn torturing. Mr Wong say today we relax b'cos anytime anyone of us can collapse. So that was quite a relieve. Phew! Then that night,i totally flunk my performance in the farewell party. My dance was horrific! But i don really care though... There..I was like an extra! They never talk to me, never smiled to me or anything! And Shi Ying even tried to hide that she had ordered pizza wif the seniors! Eh come on lah!I noe i very the blur and stupid and pathetic and never intersting to talk to! But don underestimate me lah! I oso a human being! It's like she did it to piss me off! Wat was that supposed to be?? Any way.. it's not a big deal that u had ordered a pizza... i can buy dozens of it! But i'm totally puzzled...how come.. the chairman...the wateva heads and leaders in the band allowed them to order pizza in the middle of the night, in the skool and in the middle of a camp???? Where are the wateva crap rules that u had invented huh??? I'm still looking for that ans till now! Then mum keep calling me. Hey...come on lah..i'm only away for a few days.. That night we got sabotaged by the ex-seniors! Muahahaha!! Some got toothpaste in their faces when they got up in the morning! The next day, we cleaned up then we did some marching. Again, 'they' tried to piss me off! Never mind.. I'm so used to it oredi!! Then i went home!! I'm soo home sick! Ahhh...home sweet home...
Current Mood: pissed off

Dated Back Nov 7th...

12:16 pm - Wat the fuck!!!
ok, the last few days has been like hell!! In name only that its the school hols but the stress is equally the same! I don't even know where to start..I have band practices like almost everyday.. wat to do.. SYF coming, so must practice very-very hard...Then there's the farewell party... then, there's my mum!!!!! On the 5th Nov, my class had a farewell party cum bbq and breaking fastat the east coast beach. We had even invited all our subject teachers BUT [here's the big BUT] MY MUM DOESN'T ALLOW ME TO GO!! that sucks rite?! All of my classmates and teachers went but i'm the only one left out...THE ONLY ONE!! But i totally understand why she doesn't let me go... the place is like full of discos and bistros and drunk guys.. somemore.. it's in the month of ramandhan...[ i wish i could do terawih! but no time ah..] it' not appropriate for a muslim gerl to go.. but anyway i my all of my muslim frens were allowed to go!! Pissed off man!!ok lah, she didn't let me go ok lah... then i just help them carry the things to the beach...ok, then i told my mum to would be going to help them carry the things... yah.. she allowed me. Ok lah, then i go..[ still in the day time hor!!] So we went there in a cab... then we got out when we reach there... then suddenly... i lost my phone!! It's in the cab!! I called my phone and a girl picked up. We tried to make arrangements to meet but to no avail untill NOW!!WAT THE FUCK SIA!!!
Current Mood: irritated

04:34 pm - i'll love her...
ok, at last, i got back my phone... i was sooo glad man! but when i went home..my mum started to nag and scold me for going to east coast! Pissed sia! and for losing my phone! i've told her that i would be helping my frens to carry the things [hey, just saw my cousin...so matured seh but not hensom still ugly and fat..hahaha..voice break oredi..]to the bbq pit...but she scolded me for going there? she screamed at my faced for like eternity... i felt like crying... she always doesn't understand me... she says she does but if she did.. then all this would not had happen rite?? tied to talk to her but... arh!!! i don noe wat say... she always misunderstands me... always thinks of the negative things bout me...never the positive...hey.. peeps out there... help me man... but don't tell me to talk to her it's of no use... wat to do.. she's still my beloved mother... no matter wat... i'll love her till i die...
Current Mood: sad

My Previous entries...

Nov. 1st, 2004
04:14 pm - my veri first entry!!
ok, dis is totally kool!! i haf my own blogspot!! ok, i may sounded lyk sooo out of date but dis totally rowks man!! Wohoo!! k, now is the dec skool hols [ in name only lah]y? cos i still haf to go to my skool! sickenning sia! wat to do... i haf to do laong hour of pracs wif my band...SYF cumming up mah...haiz..muz get either siver or gold.. if not,.. i donno wat to sae... and den, still got hw to do! wat seh!!Hols tym to enjoy but still haf to do hw!Argghh!! den on 17 nov... my 'the' day!! my results cummimg up! i relli can't predict which klass i will be posted to. Even though i got the top 40 in the level... but i am still not veri sure if i can get to the first klass... stress seh!! wat to do.. dat's life in Singapore as a student!! dat's all lah for to day...
Current Mood: distressed

I'm BacK!!

Orite!! Wohoo!! hahaha!! This is totally sooo cool!! Ok, it's been a week since i logged in... [i'm listening to perfect 10 on the net...soo nice, hilary duff-fly...fly....fly] I've been sooo busy with my band. SYF drills pracs, sec one orientation march, band pracs, sectionals, meetings, duties and maintenance...Haiz... when will it end? I am oredi feeling the pressure of the SYF. Since Shi Ying haven't been coming to band for like 2 weeks oredi... i'm the one who had to take charge in my section. Grrr!!

Ok, i think i'll publish the posts that i had post in my other blog so that you will know what had happened recently. orite!!

TaaDaaah My section! [Basses rowks!!]

The one with the black scarf is me!! Beside me, Shi Ying

back, Solomon, then the gerl behind is Ee Ling and

beside her is See Soon...

WOW!!!

Wow!! This is totally cool! A new Blog!! Nice man! Any way..i'll post a new one later... My hands are aching... I had been on the com since 8 am in the morning and people are already nagging at me to get off from the com!! I'm sooo excited to use this blog!!! [Jakuni!] Can't wait to use it fully!!